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abt me: im a black, intersex, nonbinary lesbian adoptee from alabama; i work a full time blue collar job in the PNW US that pays almost enough to get me thru each month but it can be tough. i have way more medical bills than i'd like to!! i'm very lucky & well situated with my housing but i do struggle with being paycheck to paycheck and with having enough energy to work the extra hours needed to get by.

i spend a lot of time on this site talking to my friends & mutuals, learning and sharing transfeminist theory, uplifting marginalized folks' voices especially (racialized) trans women, and id enjoy talking to and learning from you too! id like to start writing and sharing more poetry soon, as well.

even just sharing this link will warm my heart a ton. 🧡 🧡 🧡 thank youuuu!!

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hyzenthrae

its july 1 & ive paid all my bills (!! A win) but am not left w/ much to make it thru the month on groceries and health needs. in the next four-five weeks i will be away from work way more than usual as i will be visiting girlfriend's family and then supporting my partner and her family across the country for her brain surgery. it would mean a lot for anyone with the means to send a few $$ my way; if those without could share this story and my info i'd be grateful as well. 🧡🧡🧡

wcvconsensus

what ralsei thinks will happen

stuckinapril

Literally cannot believe I was ever scared of getting older like this is awesome. Learning so many new things about myself & reacting to things that used to get under my skin so differently. This is so sexy.

snuffedsuccubus

be nicer to sex workers

snuffedsuccubus

u need to engage with sex workers as actual workers of the same class as u and not victims who need saving. u need to show respect for us publicly further than just reblogging our promos and posts abt giving us money. u need to publicly support full service workers. u need to not expose sex workers to ur puritanical, reactionary followers. u need to be nicer to sex workers.

hyzenthrae

god i wish id been given blockers im going to fucking cry

hyzenthrae

cis ppl: do not believe ANY shit you read about blockers being dangerous,. by believing this information or doubting it or staying silent when ppl express trepidation over it you are actively contributing to trans suffering

hyzenthrae

i was five years old when i started puberty in full force, this cascaded into a hellish series of health concerns, physical and mental and social. it's how i was diagnosed with (n?)CAH and bc my condition was not grievously salt-wasting, it was written off as something i would just have to deal with despite the medicine to stop my development already being available in the late 90s/00 (same time that the Dutch Protocol emerged).

intersex and trans kids are not beholden to the whims of their sex hormones just because they are below age of consent, or bc they need responsible adult guidance in order to support and arrange for their care. in fact these are the reasons W H Y these conversations should be had with children, specifically children who have already expressed gender nonconformity or dysphoria (whether physical or social) as early as possible.

intersex and trans kids are not hypotheticals, they are not blank slates until they turn 18, they are not to be "protected" from their options, they are to be informed, guided, and supported to make their own choices and that may or may not have anything to do with their genitals or reproductive capacity, btw.

fageleh

When you scatter your creative writing with a punctuation monoculture of full stops—and, instead of making regular use of the comma, semicolon, colon, parenthesis, or dash, you harvest a field of short staccato sentences—you are deliberately clipping the wings of what could have been a single, delightfully meandering, luxurious flight of a sentence. And it sucks.

romanceyourdemons

the great thing about the wuxia genre is you can start a sect called the Evil Blood Cult in a place called Demon Mountain that’s a volcano full of poison and you all wear crazy gothic black and red hanfu and practice Sinister Backstabber Style kung fu and like. that’s not a deterrent to prospective disciples. do all that and a fuckton of bright eyed youngsters will still show up at your door and say hello i would like to join the demon mountain evil blood cult where do i sign up?

deep-green-existentialist

Lockheed Martin was at my college's job fair

delsinsfire

forgive and forget? wrong. charged two-handed heavy attack with my greatsword of resentment

sotrias-labyrinth-deactivated20

I feel like ODD being an official disorder in the DSM should be the thing that makes everyone go “hm” about how psychology is practiced

txttletale

[looking a child directly in the eye] i diagnose you with Shitty Bitch Syndrome. this makes it legal to do medieval german tortures to you by the way

cringepics

cmon man

picklepuffin

Hi I have an undergrad psych degree! I also have ADHD! In my motherfucking TEXTBOOK, the authors said, “Research describes ADHD as a neurodevelopmental disorder in the same vein as Autism. We are putting the (miniscule) section on ADHD in the same chapter as ODD, though, because we believe really these disorders both boil down to ✨️ people not doing what we tell them to because they are lazy✨️”

So my actual TEXTBOOK admitted that it was biased and teaching these disorders based on opinion and not up to date research. And, as described above, the section on ODD was basically just, “these are bad kids. We will not look into why or how or what comorbidities exist and we will also not be exploring the possibility of ODD really being a manifestation of trauma/undiagnosed adhd/autism/pathological demand avoidance/persistent drive for autonomy. We will however be mostly focusing on how annoying these kids are to their parents and teachers ✨️”

It’s fucking crazy. “Yeah we know lots of people with autism struggle to follow demands. They may either ignore/not register demands or have meltdowns when demands are placed. They may engage in physical aggression, verbal aggression, and property desctruction when directed to complete tasks or be exposed to uncomfortable sensory input. They may need to know the why behind demands and consequently argue with authority figures. They may be easily upset by sensory input or social interactions and have emotional outbursts when pushed beyond their limits. Some children with autism seek attention and may engage in maladaptive behaviors to elicit the attention of peers and caregivers if positive attention is not given freely/if they are ignored when behaving appropriately. All of these are symptoms of their underlying neurological differences and should be met with compassion and understanding. They are not bad children. Their brains process information differently and therefore they have executive functioning, sensory processing, and emotional regulation challenges that cause these behaviors.

Those kids over there? Yeah they have all the same symptoms but they are just Morally Wrong and Bad Children. They have Oppositional Defiance Disorder. How can I tell? Well that one hand flaps and that one doesn’t.”

brightlotusmoon

glorioustidalwavedefendor

How would you even measure that?

Things adults wrongly identify as arguing:

Asking for clarification

Asking any kind of question

defending yourself

answering a question teh adult has just asked you

breathing

Existing

Oh, also:

Race and the Mental Representation of Individuals Diagnosed with Oppositional Defiant Disorder: Implications for Diagnosis

Results: Classification images (CIs) showed that the children selected as having ODD appeared more prototypically Black in facial appearance than children not chosen as having ODD. No differences emerged in the gendered appearance of the two group-level CIs. Judged rates of ODD were higher for the children who appeared to be Black. However, diagnostic judgments of clinical trainees and practitioners were unaffected by appearance factors, suggesting that formal clinical training might attenuate the influence of stereotypes on judgment. Discussion: These results indicate that an overlap in Black stereotypes and diagnostic criteria for ODD might contribute to elevated diagnosis of ODD in African American children.

whereserpentswalk

Overwhelmingly Black diagnosis.

Pathologizes problems with authority to dismiss them as irrational.

ndnbutch

genuinely I do love katara and sokka as a representation of how Indigenous people can be written in a fantasy setting and it was nice to have something like that in a childhood that was spent consuming a lot of media set in fantastical worlds. however I think if those are the only fictional Indigenous characters you can name, especially like as an adult, you should really make an effort to also engage with stories that portray real Indigenous people and cultures in the real world

ndnbutch

actually I’m going to add to this and say something that I know will be very controversial on tumblr but. if the only fictional Indigenous characters you as an adult can name in general are from solely children’s media, you should really make an effort to engage with a broader range of stories that portray real Indigenous people and cultures in the real world. sorry. I know this is a touchy subject. This isn’t meant as an indictment of adults who engage with children’s media overall. I just think those shouldn’t be, like, the only Indigenous characters you’re exposed to. respectfully. you’re going to be missing out on a lot of aspects of our stories, frankly. no matter how deep you think that story tailored to a child audience is. it very well may be. it was still written with children in mind first and foremost. please attempt to broaden your horizons.

ndnbutch

and if I’m being really honest? once you’ve finished listing fictional Indigenous characters you’ve heard of? my challenge to you, white tumblr user, is to name at least one work of non-fiction (book, essay, documentary, etc) created by an actual Indigenous person. you’re allowed to use search engines you just have to name one. and then you have to engage with that work, if you haven’t already.

shiverandqueeef

currently represented in this list: Mi'kmaq, Blackfoot, Mohawk, Cherokee, Anishinaabe, Cree, Haida suggestions always welcome

here's a list of 120 movies to get you started!

dog-on-prog

i don't have a cute photo to post but i would like attention anyway

hyzenthrae

god i wish id been given blockers im going to fucking cry

hyzenthrae

cis ppl: do not believe ANY shit you read about blockers being dangerous,. by believing this information or doubting it or staying silent when ppl express trepidation over it you are actively contributing to trans suffering

hyzenthrae

i was five years old when i started puberty in full force, this cascaded into a hellish series of health concerns, physical and mental and social. it's how i was diagnosed with (n?)CAH and bc my condition was not grievously salt-wasting, it was written off as something i would just have to deal with despite the medicine to stop my development already being available in the late 90s/00 (same time that the Dutch Protocol emerged).

intersex and trans kids are not beholden to the whims of their sex hormones just because they are below age of consent, or bc they need responsible adult guidance in order to support and arrange for their care. in fact these are the reasons W H Y these conversations should be had with children, specifically children who have already expressed gender nonconformity or dysphoria (whether physical or social) as early as possible.

intersex and trans kids are not hypotheticals, they are not blank slates until they turn 18, they are not to be "protected" from their options, they are to be informed, guided, and supported to make their own choices and that may or may not have anything to do with their genitals or reproductive capacity, btw.

misophonie

sometimes a nude i take is so good it's hard not to post it on here and every other blog and on instagram and twitter and facebook and vkontakte and rent a billboard for it and print 100 copies of a flyer and dispersing them in a town square