Relapse Diary

TW: Ed, mental illness. NOT PRO ANYTHING. Just a really nice normal person who happens to be mentally ill :). 5'5" SW/HW110 LW85 CW 105 (BMI 17.4) GW105 UGW95

[iammarieofromania]

Getting hospitalized on Valentine's Day is so aesthetic of me🩷❤️💜🩷❤️

[imsoclearpilled]

Pinterest Key Words:

Mealsp0:

Portion control

Small portion

Small meal

Rice cake aesthetic

Coke Zero inspo

Low cal meal

Zero calorie foods

Low cal aesthetic

Thinsp0:

Petite aesthetic (also works for mealspo)

Body aesthetics goals

Thin body goals

Heroin chic

Her0in chic

90s thin

[shadowydonutnightmare2]

This is gold

[iammarieofromania]

Hunger hurts but starving works

(but hunger really fucking hurts)

[iammarieofromania]

i don't want anything anymore (and if i did, it would be impossible anyway)

[schadenfreude--rose]

Save me gay ppl in my phone

gay ppl in my phone

gay ppl in my phone save me!!

[starvingxskinny]

waking up to stars on the ceiling and bruises on pale skin and battered feet on & off the scale and almonds in ziploc baggies and bite marks on fingers and hair down the drain and measuring crunches by the spots left on the spine and enough water to drown organs and eating an apple with a knife and fork and battered feet on & off the scale and desperate hands clutching ribs and standing up & the world goes dark and carrying an emergency rice cake in your purse for weak spells and enough green tea to drown organs and how many calories are in toothpaste and whatever nail polish color covers yellow and battered feet on & off the scale and is today the day my heart gives out and how many calories do you burn when you sneeze and pillows squeezed between thighs and waking up in a new body everyday and fingers clasped around wrists and notebooks filled with numbers and purple crescents below the eyes and accidentally knocking your elbow on your hip bone and being afraid of your own reflection and i’m not hungry or i already ate or i’ll eat later or i don’t feel well and oxygen that tastes like splenda and battered feet on & off the scale

[grease-rat]

beautiful piece, horrifying illness

[s1ckandtired]

I want this permanently on my dash. It’s such a flawless expression of what it’s like to suffer through an eating disorder

[iammarieofromania]

There's no excuse for having the same BMI two days in a row tbh

[iammarieofromania]

After DAYS of binging (700-1500), stayed under 250 today! Could always be lower but I'm still proud of myself for going to bed with intense hunger pangs

[iammarieofromania]

Realizing he doesn't love you anymore <<<

[iammarieofromania]

Gummy vitamins are my safe food

[iammarieofromania]

no one has ever been this lonely before. i invented it.

[iammarieofromania]

Took less than four days of coming back to school to lose a pound...college>>>

[iammarieofromania]

They don't tell you this but 84.3% of 4n4 is just having the hiccups

[iammarieofromania]

Lost the Snickers Mini I was gonna eat for dinner...the universe is trying to tell me I'm still too f4t to eat 42 c4ls in one sitting

[iammarieofromania]

Maybe I wouldn't be so desperate for approval if someone approved of me for once

[caffeinatedloser-deactivated202]

I suck at this disorder

[iammarieofromania]

Put my phone between my thighs to brush my teeth like i always do and it fell instantly so I'm doing something right