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No one gets me… I’ll just put this here / 23 /

[icryal0t]

I only made this fucking Tumblr to stop texting you. To stop saying disgusting vile things to you because of how hurt I am

Only made this stupid page to stop myself from cutting. It’s not working

[icryal0t]

I just got out the ward 6 days ago and I’ll just say I’m actually really thankful for my life and those who care about me. It gave me a lot of perspective and made me appreciate what I have. I didn’t wanna die I just wanted the pain to stop. And for a week, I got a little break. The only thing that actually helped was learning some healthy coping skills and the other patients. Other than that it was pretty miserable lmaoo but nonetheless I was forced to sit with what got me there. And bc of the new environment all I could do was stress about being there instead everything else in my head I’m always worrying about. I’ve been really sad today and it got me thinking about the ward a lot, the girls, some of the staff, and those less fortunate who ik won’t be leaving anytime soon. I’ll never forget the people I met in there they changed me forever. ♡

[icryal0t]

Dude r u in jail? I'm not a moot, but I came across ur blog and ur last post is about breaking into someone's house, and I got worried about whatever is going on

I’m just now seeing this and no I didn’t go to jail lmaooo but ironically enough my ex went to jail for two weeks after I caught him cheating cuz we started fighting outside his house. And iiii also just got out of “jail” well a psych ward after trying to kms 2 days after he cheated on me 🫠 been home for 6 days now

[icryal0t]

Of course it’s not enough to deal with my entire life falling apart with stress at every angle I gotta have my sister attack me too. One argument n she want to bring up my ex like that’s EVIL asf

EVERYBODYJUSTSTAYTFAWAYFROMMEPLS

[icryal0t]

Well everybody can clap now bc me n my toxic ex of 5 years broke up finally.

Caught him cheating INPERSON

Most traumatic shit ever. He pushed me on the ground in front of the girl he was cheating with.

But good news is he’s in jail idk why he got arrested but he has two warrants in other counties so he should be there for the week at least. Feels good to see him get instant karma I literally saw the cops in front of his house right after the whole fallout.

We both could’ve been arrested for dv or disturbing the peace but God got me outta there just in time. #BLESS

[icryal0t]

Relationships will kill you

[icryal0t]

I haven’t cut for 21 days and I feel like I’m about to relapse. I’m trying so hard but idk what else to do with myself.

I have so much pinned up emotion I want to explode from all this pressure.

All I want is a normal life, ik things happen I’m just tired of being in a content state of confusion as to where it all went wrong.

I don’t remember what it feels like to have a good week.

[icryal0t]

I just want to feel seen. He does not see me. I’m so lonely in this relationship

[icryal0t]

I just broke into his house I’m this close to macing him in his sleep then beating him up while he can’t see

[icryal0t]

I swear somebody’s gonna die me or him

[daddystinygirll]

If my thoughts were visible, you’d hold me differently.

[arrowspade]

[lookitsbambi-deactivated2026050]

before i met you, it's not like i was doing perfectly, but i was fine. why did i have to meet you? why? you changed everything. you made me feel loved and then you took it all away, and now i know i'll never feel that way again. i'm tainted, ruined. i'll never be the same person i was before. i can never reach that version of myself again. sometimes i don't know if i'll ever get over this grief. i'm so fucking tired of existing with it.

[icryal0t]

Real asf .

[icryal0t]

I haven’t smoked or drank in 3 days !! 🙂‍↔️

EVERYBODY CLAP

[icryal0t]

My bf found my tumblr n basically said he don’t gaf about me being suicidal and self harming. Laughing at me. When he gets upset he no longer cares about what I’m going through bc to him this is all a ploy to manipulate him. The thing is ik I’m gonna do it. I just don’t know when but ik I’ll be gone this year. I’m literally subbing a class right now and I’m holding back tears in front of these kids as I write this. Ik when I go home to my parents I’m gonna cut againnnnn and when I go to my apartment I’ll go to the 17th and stand on the ledge againn.

Cutting and coming close to attempting is my comfort right now but ik eventually that won’t do anything an I’ll have nowhere else to go.

[icryal0t]

Cutting myself bc I feel numb🌚 🌝 Cutting myself to let out the pain

[icryal0t]

I hate going to the bathroom floor