Idaho Rock Hound

[unknxwne-deactivated20211207]

FOREVER:

Listen close forever was a dead end

It burnt so bright till the day that it faded

There was not enough time to retrace my steps (of regret)

What does not grow falls to decay (like the rest of us)

A fire burns bright down to the embers

But when it dies it's gone forever

Everything that I've ever wanted

Painted as a beautiful moment

I could forever hold it

If forever was a moment

Engrained into my tainted/sullied mind

Are the stories/fables of this faded lie

That empty words could fill all my hollows

But forevers not a moment

Don't want to wash you out of my skin,(or my bed, where you've been )

In my head I play it back, on repeat

Salt to rust, the flaws that end/break a love

Time was never good to/doesn't side with those who don't/ never change

A fire burns bright down to the embers

But when it dies it's gone forever

Everything that I've ever wanted

Painted as a beautiful moment

I could forever hold it

If forever was a moment

Engrained into my tainted mind

Are the stories/fables of this faded lie

That empty words could fill all my hollows

But forevers not a moment

Hey guyssss I need ur help! If you've read this, would you mind giving feedback? I finally wrote this today (been tryna write it for a bit) and I don't know if it conveys what I'm trying to say? So I was wondering what you guys got from reading it? Thank you so much 💛

Also, I am yet to add a bridge part :)

[idahorockhound]

[idahorockhound]

[unknxwne-deactivated20211207]

FOREVER:

Listen close forever was a dead end

It burnt so bright till the day that it faded

There was not enough time to retrace my steps (of regret)

What does not grow falls to decay (like the rest of us)

A fire burns bright down to the embers

But when it dies it's gone forever

Everything that I've ever wanted

Painted as a beautiful moment

I could forever hold it

If forever was a moment

Engrained into my tainted/sullied mind

Are the stories/fables of this faded lie

That empty words could fill all my hollows

But forevers not a moment

Don't want to wash you out of my skin,(or my bed, where you've been )

In my head I play it back, on repeat

Salt to rust, the flaws that end/break a love

Time was never good to/doesn't side with those who don't/ never change

A fire burns bright down to the embers

But when it dies it's gone forever

Everything that I've ever wanted

Painted as a beautiful moment

I could forever hold it

If forever was a moment

Engrained into my tainted mind

Are the stories/fables of this faded lie

That empty words could fill all my hollows

But forevers not a moment

Hey guyssss I need ur help! If you've read this, would you mind giving feedback? I finally wrote this today (been tryna write it for a bit) and I don't know if it conveys what I'm trying to say? So I was wondering what you guys got from reading it? Thank you so much 💛

Also, I am yet to add a bridge part :)

[idahorockhound]

Ok Life truly does get better with time. NOT! I was a lucky enough to get hepatist A from a restraint span a week in the hospital and my liver is not getting not gonnna lie I a little nervous about it. Another famous quote that is bullshit. What does kill you makes you stronger? Really who who after this how about what doesnt kill you leave you on the floor wishing you had died but only quickly with no pain. I wish I could say the good news is the discovered I had a bacteria infection in my blood and the fixed ir with an antibiotics. Wow I can now think clearly and I can see again and even at night amazing! The bad news is the antibiotics set off my Lupus so I. Can't see at night and I have double vision. my arthritis is back in all the joints and I have the rash on my arm. I got lost on my way to work the same way O always go. I am no longer woking or driving I fell asleep at a stop and about drove off an embankment fortunately people ran up and banged on my car woke me up just in the nick of time and the decided it would be a great idea that they call the police. Huh ok ya I don't if they were any help because I left. And special cootos to my ex -mother in law who went and told my land Lord I am shooting with haroen and it's not Lupus now I am being elected oh yes I am feeling stronger by the second karma is real and I shudder what will to you.

[sighinastorm]

This is the Goose of Outrageous Self Assuredness.  Take from her example, her ludicrous and excellent poise in the face of bullying, and be confident in your place, your course, your equal validity.

[africanaquarian]

I’m always amazed by the amount of fucks geese refuse to give.

[fuckyeah-nerdery]

This is it, this is everything you need to know about geese in one video.

[idahorockhound]

Doctor Visits

Was thinking when I am at the doctors office and the nurse is checking you vitals why do they ask what is your level of pain I mean if you tell them. The answer they never ask where does it hurt or why and when then the doctor comes in they don't bring it up so why do they ask does the insurance company pay them to ask it?

#theydontgiveafuck

[creativeronica]

Being in Pain. Expends. Energy.

[jennytwoshoes]

A friendly reminder for those of us who do very little during the day (by “normal” standards) but are still exhausted

Your body is literally fighting the pain. Fighting takes energy

[randomslasher]

…oh…

[idahorockhound]

I have a freind that she calls Snake rock from eastern oregon I haven't heard of that its found only in Oregon and Israel can you exlplain if true or not thank you

Snake rock agget is fossilized snakeskin and or fish skin I believe I have not come across any but can imagine being very party especially from a salmon or rainbow trout. So unless I am thinking of the wrong stone I would imagine one can find it about anywhere you can find agget but then again I have never found before

[idahorockhound]

When did you first know? That "to just be yourself" was the only answer to solve all your life problems.. that life decided to dump on your doorstep before you could walk.

I don’t think e you se self is the answer

[makingmyinvisiblevisible]

Fatigue with a chronic illness:

Wake up - I don’t want to get out of bed!

Midday - I need a nap!

Time to actually go to bed - I can’t sleep!

And repeat!

[sporks-and-spoons]

I wanna take a quick 25 year nap. Ya know just a lil snooze to perk me up

[s0ftfuzzyman]

me, forgetting that fatigue is a symptom of all my illnesses: why do i never do anything im so lazy :^/

[idahorockhound]

What is wrong with me and don’t say nothing

Seems like I go to the doctors about 2 times a week still and now I am back to square one FML I know nothing and the doctors know even less and last week I was at the Idaho Arthritis Center seeing a worthless doctor DR. Meier She told me I have Arthritis shown in my ex rays both shoulders elbows wrists fingers knees ankles toes my back oh and in my right jaw that’s been the worst. They do a blood test that shows anEnzyme or protein That would Show you have lupus then you repeat the same test 3 months later Well they did three on me June and showed positive again on September 7th but they ran a third test on September 14 which did not show it so the doctor said well that means you don’t have lupus so you don’t need to schedule any appointments. Well if I don’t have lupus then why do I now have arthritis everywhere that can’t be normal can it? what do I have? She said I don’t know maybe the sleep doctor can help you your appointment is next week (mind you standing in the arthritis center and they can’t help me with the arthritis) I am always in pain or tired oh by the way they told me I am always so tired because I have lupus and my body is attacking itself any bets the doctor next week will say oh I can’t help you have something going on causing this.and it’s not sleep apnea. I am about to give up on all this nonsense I just don’t know what to do or even think about it because there is something going on oh here’s a happy thought I missed taking my blood thinners just 3 days and now my left leg blew up 3 times it’s normal size so blood clots are back but lupus isn’t the causing it so if I don’t have lupus what else caused blood clots arthritis fatigue and an extreme dislike for doctors

[idahorockhound]

[idahorockhound]

People are constantly surprising me.

I think I know who they are, but then a new part of them is revealed. It isn't always good, but luckily it isn't always bad. It helps remind me that change, even in just a simple opinion, is happening.

I'm hopeful that even when suicide appears to be the only option left, that the situation and feelings are temporary and important to process so you are able to learn, grow, and appreciate the absence from suffering no matter how brief the reprieve.

If you are wanting to end your life, please reach out. Don't hide your feelings, don't be ashamed or embarrassed, and don't convince yourself that you are alone, unimportant,or unloved. Someone cares.

The only way to truly garuntee a life with endless pain, suffering, and anguish is if you die, and then it isn't even your pain. It's the survivors who still love you and won't ever stop. We never forgive ourselves for not saving your life. We never stop wondering, "what if." We never stop blaming ourselves. We never move on, get over it, or forget you.

You are unique, irreplaceable, and necessary. Please don't purposely create a world that doesn't include you. Don't worry about the time it takes to feel differently, just work on knowing how precious time is, especially yours.

♡ You are loved. You are supported.♡ By Andrea Stewart AJ

[becausefuckfibro]

A few words about Afflicted, because the spoonie community has got so many words to get out about this shitshow.

If you’ve missed it, Afflicted is a new docuseries on Netflix that follows several people experiencing chronic illnesses and the measures they take to find relief and, dare it be said, cures. A comment frequently made by the subjects is that Western medicine has been woefully inadequate for what they have been going through, and so they are shown exploring alternative medicines, substantial changes to their ways of living, and tests and treatments that aren’t well known beyond conventional modern medicine. As the series go on, supplemented by edits of commentary from ‘specialists’, it becomes clear that these measures are being used by the documentarians as reason to mock them and dismiss any legitimacy to their conditions.

All the documentary’s subjects have since come out on social media, upset by the way they were portrayed in the final edits, and discuss how they and their supports were manipulated by the people who claimed to have an interest in sharing their stories. Most recently, Jake hosted a livestream Q&A that you can watch on YouTube.

One of the only things Afflicted did successfully was validate and encourage the stigmatization of people who are chronically ill. The scrutiny, skepticism, and dismissal we experience on a daily basis from the medical and social communities alike has already been painful and a totally unnecessary burden. Afflicted doesn’t give people with chronic illnesses a voice - it amplifies the voices of people who want to tell us it’s “all in our heads” and supports comparisons on “who’s really sick”. It lets people talk even more about us and not to us. It merges us into one character in a cautionary tale about overactive imaginations and attention-seeking.

It promotes a supposed specialist telling viewers that we become attached to our ‘roles’ as chronically ill people and that failing to be cured by routine medicine means we have committed to a subconscious need to be sick.

It tells viewers that we should be pitied for our inability to exist in a reality that doesn’t match theirs.

It warns our loved ones that we are probably just manipulating them in one way or another, either to cling to them or reject them entirely.

It portrays the chronically ill as merely being victims of trauma and labouring from the inability to just get over it.

We are reduced to oddities, burdens, lunatics.

Our illnesses and the things we do to try and have any semblance of control over them when all else fails are indulgent and entitled.

So yeah, fuck Afflicted.