idontknow

I dont know a rant page? something to help cope with this world. he/him/they/them can call me blue

[idontknowwhattoputbuthi]

Im starting to feel like 'if I cant have peace then yall cant either' (about my family)

[idontknowwhattoputbuthi]

the rage consumes me

[worthnotwantnot]

if i try hard enough i can avoid my entire life i think

[furiousgoldfish]

oh so everything that ever happened to me is gonna haunt me forever? great

[idontknowwhattoputbuthi]

I love that i cant handle anything ever

its so great

[avoidant-dreams]

avpd culture is i would talk to you, but there's something deeply wrong with me. i can hide it from you as best i can initially but eventually something will give and i'll ghost you and never think of you again so that i don't feel the shame of all that time I was visible to you

[maybeshehasbpd]

it gets worse before it gets way worse

[unfiltereddddmess]

All I see when I look around is all the ways I fail as a person

[avpdculture]

avpd culture is getting triggered and immediately telling yourself "this is stupid, this is such a stupid thing to be upset at, why would i tell anyone that i'm upset over this, i'm going to sound like an overreactive, oversensitive baby" and just self-isolating instead of talking it out. maybe this time it'll actually work 👍 (it won't but i'll do it anyway)

~

[yourangelciggyagain]

Having mental illnesses is so fucking embarrassing guys. Why am I such a whiny fucking bitch about everything? I was supposed to be so much better than this. I genuinely need to get a grip.

[traumatizeddfox]

“i have a very childlike rage, and a very childlike loneliness” - Richey Edwards

[idontknowwhattoputbuthi]

how do people deal with emotions changing so much and fast and so extreme all the time?

[twistedsweethearts]

I can’t even be bothered to vent my frustrations anymore because literally no one cares and nothing makes a difference.

[thevoid-looksback]

The wordart makes it fun!

[idontknowwhattoputbuthi]

I hope one day I'll be in a place that when the door opens to the house, I wont be sick to my stomach and terrified.

I hope i can have a safe place to be and it not get ruined.

[idontknowwhattoputbuthi]

I feel forever ruined from everything that happened and the stuff that is still happening

[idontknowwhattoputbuthi]

they say to ask for help as if that does anything

I ask and they ignore me

I ask and they tell me to just try harder

I ask and they tell me im my own problem

I ask and they give me some non-answer

I ask and they dont hear or help ever