Mandatory Happiness

Troy • He/him • 19

[cock-holliday]

Despair is easy, hope is hard. And brother, I like to stay hard

[currentlycryingaboutlancelot]

[through tears] yeah i remain whimsical

[deathwishdecay]

breaking: fetish opera just introduced cannibalism

[gimmeiero]

[leathergerard]

"we were talkin about what kinda electrolytes they would have in draag.... i said they would have slaterade.... just made of pure slate.... anyways-" ????????

[utopians]

on a similar note, working an office job has me thinking a lot abt the weird dissonance between the projected disembodied identity of the Professional and the reality of a person as like. an oozing sweating animal. like you think abt it enough and the whole building starts to feel like a lot of dogs wearing collared shirts

[acasternaut]

2022 vs 2026 :]

[girlgerard]

ray beaming at gerard when they picked up the flag……….

[girlgerard]

damage fucking lethal

[girlgerard]

this is the worst thing to ever happen btw. ray is incapable of not showing how proud he is of his best friends on his face and in this situation it is like a bullet to a central artery. oh he loves them

[thekidsfromyestergay]

He loves them so much. He loves them so fucking much.

[lakevida]

i think its charming when peoples personal lives improve and they get drastically worse at posting

[visenyaism]

For the thought crime of experiencing optimism you have been sentenced to five years of propeller hat and rainbow lollipop

[ilickedanenvelopeandilikedit]

I AM ON TESTOSTERONE‼️‼️‼️‼️

[dingdongyouarewrong]

the plan? fill my house with chintz so the guy my husband is cheating on me with won’t have anywhere to fuck him

[toroxstar]

new old mcr playing deathwish

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[ilickedanenvelopeandilikedit]

I keep maintaining that I’m very casual and unattached to my situationship but the entire time I’ve been writing poems about him it’s been stuff like ‘he is carrying a severed hand in his pocket and I’m upset that it’s not mine’ or ‘this is a bullfight. I am the bull. And also we’re both going to hell’. And lowkey this should have been a sign months ago. Maybe.

[ilickedanenvelopeandilikedit]

hello my delightful blog I haven’t posted on in a while. this is my list of life updates

Ive almost finished my first year of college which is insane but i love it sm here n i think i get to stay over the summer with my job. Speaking of my job im a tour guide (it’s all very political to me, i wanted trans/queer kids to see that they could be happy here and im succeeding at it. Which is spectacular)

i got this grant for $6k for this documentary im shooting next semester which is hype. I don’t really wanna do documentaries after school but I think it’ll be good experience n im gonna make $2k for it which is nice

i also work for like the local promoters now. I don’t get paid or anything but its hype bc the woman who runs it is incredible n i like helping and getting to be more apart of the scene

the boy i was so in love with has a hinge profile (so he was prob lying to me about not sleeping with other people) and on said hinge profile it says he’s straight so it lowkey needs to be wraps with that one. I haven’t ended it with him yet but wtv.

off of that, I’m getting my first std test tmrw bc of that guy so im a little nervous but it should be fine. Idk what they do but i have faith. Im also going to talk to them about T again n i should be able to get on it bc im 19 now so this is really baller i think :)

idk all in all I’m really happy, I have some cool ass friends n I am doing pretty good. I do wanna go back to therapy when i can, but that’s a summer thing maybe.

anyway I lowkey missed tumblr shoutout my tumblr

[bobbysox]

"this is my daughter :)" your son likes to be talked to like a dog

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[ilickedanenvelopeandilikedit]

College is so insane bc I’m at my house rn n it’s one in the morning n I just got a call from one of my best friends bc she’s at her ex situationships dorms and they’re cracking, and she put them on the phone and they said to let them know if I ever wanted to join???