You guys should go read my poetry: https://archiveofourown.org/works/61513375
under the cut: chapter names, summaries + themes, tws
1- Choices: mental health themes
2- The Kids Are Getting By: queer experience, tw for mentions of pills / medication
3- Flower Food: body image, dysphoria, dysmorphia, trans angst
4- That Funny Feeling: family issues angst
5- The Tragedy Of Regulus Black: marauders, jegulus, suicide by drowning
6- Self Love in the Biblical Sense: finding a place for yourself in religion as a queer person, greek gods / godesses
7- Angels: religious trauma, smoking mention
8- Advice: SA TW, addiction, nature appreciation, recovery
9- This Is Home: moving house as a metaphor for metamorphosis/ big changes
10- Some Days: family trauma, moving house / running away
11- Ghosts: SA TW
12- We Have Enough Dead Friends: suicide ideation, importance of chosen family
13- Cannibalism as a Metaphor: TW sex, intimacy issues
14- To Borrow Grief From The Future: death of a pet
15- To Learn To Swim: feeling as though youre aging too fast, trans angst
16- Astronomer Falls In Love: wormhole as a metaphor for getting too close to someone too fast and ruining a relationship, toxic relationships
17- For The Best: toxic relationships, realising you have to protect your peace and realising you cant save everyone from themselves
18- It's Not Raining (Anymore): inspired by a song my dad likes (dirty rain by ryan adams) addiction, throwing yourself out a window
19- Discovery: catholic boy reconciles religion, science and history, and the cruelty of man
20- The World Keeps Spinning (So Dance With Me): healing/recovery, recovery from sh and sa
21- Nature, Red In Tooth And Claw: body stuff, body image, dysphoria, dysmorphia, trans angst
22- Smalltown Boy: queer experience, sibling relationships, tw sa
23- Cliffside Improvisation: trying to navigate a new relationship with past sa trauma / other emotional baggage. about my partner whom i love lots
24- Trying So Hard To Become The Hero You Become The Monster: about queer coded villans and young queer people seeing themselves in the enemy, and a bit on the best little boy in the world syndrome, growing up with it and getting over it which leads to burnout lmao (its a real thing look it up)
25- Birdsong & Angels: religion as a queer person, nature
26- Sehnsucht: my awesome partner, growing up queer, fear of a new relationship with past trauma
27- The Sunlight Of Your Arms: idk i tried a sonnet
28- Jack: a platonic crush
29- Birthday Parties: implied past suicide ideation, me crashing out over aging
30- Summer Storms: yearning but a little bit freaky. implied car sex
31- Golden Hour: more yearning but softer this time. about my partner again lmao
32- A Sheep In Wolf's Clothing: how lots of small moments and acts build up and you remember them, trauma, growing up queer
33- Logistics: my partner again, growing up queer, family stuff
34- Expedition: nature
35- Litany: growing up queer, quitting a sport, hearing about queer people dying and feeling it as though it was a personal loss, being a social outcast
36- Roses: being a gay trans man with parents who dont respect it
37- Negative Space: missing my partner
38- Overture: an ideal world where people didn't hate me on principle for being queer and family stuff
39- Half Life: i saw the tv glow and idk this happened. tw sa
40- You'll Never Wander (In The Dark Alone): tw sa, i love my sister and im sad i cant shelter her from all the bad things in the world
41- Renewal (A Scout's Promise): nature, community, scouts in general
42- This Gun In My Right Hand Is Loaded: a murder in which you are the victim and the suspect as a metaphor for transition
43- Not Anymore: hollanov from ilyas pov
44- Hotel Lobby At Sunset: seeing young queer people who are still hiding and my heart breaks for them a little
45- Conversational: my best friend is awesome and i love her sm we basically speak in code
46- Unauthorised Absences: tw for death, throwing up and suicide, someone close to me attempted recently and i wrote this about it
47- A Chronological Account of Things I've Wanted To Be When I Grow Up: exactly that. tw for implied sa and ed
48- Breakup Message Disguised As A Poem: js been broken up with, this was written when I could see it coming
49- Dead Canaries: stressing out over things that dont matter except everything matters so uhh
50- The Burning Light: an icarus poem but its also sort of about love
51- City Nowhere: gore nd body horror. partial credits to @iloverocks51
My pookie character sheet for Jackass Merrychristmas! Pls enjoy I feel at the end he'd be skinny and boney and mental, also ignore the shitty poem at the end lmao
Hey I'm Alive! Here is jack and simon that i did at my local park that was converted for toddlers only bc the council hates us. Sorry for my lack of posting I got drenched in school work and such but the load will come off me soon in mid june! Enjoy my drawing and random posts I might do as I gotta get my ass to work with them character sheets 😅
How it feels being the only person who hates the new series with a burning passion since my autistic ass can't accept anything not canon, AND also watching people embrace it as the new canon but I'm not.
Guys Imma finish off the lotf series, As a tealand person I'm gonna give my opinion and see if it changes from being a hater due to simon and roger being white.
Ok so episode one is fully down and here are my opinions. Piggy was absolutely perfect, however I wish he was a bit more timid at times, but other than that piggy was by far my favourite and the best because he was strong, funny, maybe even charismatic, and 100% matched the book. Ralph was ralph but I really wish ralph had that authority power he did in the book as wasn't as warm and kind, he was not as kind at the start. Jack was something, I think he's too mean because at the start of the book he was definitely charismatic and somewhat likeable and only picked on piggy, having a lot of chemistry with ralph, but I only saw him really being boiled down to rude prick, he's a rude prick later. The littluns were perfect and Simon definitely showed his kinder side with piggy which I like but I feel with the new scene he was kinda out of character, Simon is quiet and kind simplified and would of never done that in my opinion. The lack of roger too really got on my nerves because roger is important, a lot his scenes he wasn't in like the voting for a chief. Another issue is we don't know who anyone is for the minor roles such as bill, henry, johnny, and maurice to name a few. The piggy name drop felt weird too. Other than that though the acting was incredible, but I can never give it a 10/10 because I'm a sucker for canon accuracy so this episide is a 9/10.
Ok episode two down and I'm disappointed really. It was not at all in chronological order which removed a tonne of the characters motives and development which was crucial to the storyline and mad me confused on where we were in the book. Not just that but jack still feels one dimensional, yes it was nice to see his vulnerable side but he still has that one sided rudeness despite it being his episode, any vulnerability was short and overpowered by his rudeness, his vulnerable moments stay vulnerable in the book. Simon still felt out of character completely and his relationship with jack was so odd, like yes yummy jimon but book jack doesn't give a shit about simon, he barely has a deep relationship with simon because simon is either with ralph and piggy or alone on his own. Not just that but roger was way closer to jack in the book than maurice, but here its shown maurice is closer and jack and roger barely have a relationship with jack. At least they got maurice's character, even though they kept on calling him morris AGAIN. WE TEALANDERS KNOW ITS NOT MORRIS, OML! This episode felt like filler and missed out so much crucial plot it was honestly extremely sad to watch, the lack of character development and proper structure made their actions seem out of place. The only good thing I can say is yet again the quality of the acting was outstanding, and I liked seeing that mini prologue and the scene they kill the pig, but it doesn't exuse such poor writing, it felt as if the writers had never read it. I genuinely thought my opinion was going to change. This episode is a 2/10, the 2 is only for the acting.
Episode 3 finished and I'm still disappointed. Okay so lets see what I did like and not per say mind. I did not care at all about the jimon stuff, yes it was weird due to how their relationship is in the book but it was nice to see preisland choir boys as well as some jack complexity from simon's diary. I did like how samneric were not painted! A big detail that is sometimes missed out which is crucial. Plus I love how the boys in ralph's tribe was confused by the dance. Another good thing was seeing roger more closer to jack because they are very close towards the end of the novel. Plus I very much laughed at seeing the boys smoke because it was so random but in a good way and the choreography in their dance at the very start was very good from the stance of an ex dancer. Despite this there are major draw backs. Simon's death scene, it was so lacking and so rushed. Firstly the boys were chaotic unlike in the novel where they danced in rings while still have some sort of chaoticness. Secondly them actually killing simon seemed so rushed and I didnt get to see the savagery among the boys as the chase the poor simon to the beach. Not just that but simon didn't look beaten up enough, he was stabbed and bitten and his flesh was ripped at. Not just that but after killing simon all the boys were shocked at their actions as they realised there mistake but no one was! Another big detail was everyone joined in! But the "good guys" for some reason didn't. The scene before simon's death with the pig's head was so poor too, its his episode I want to see how he saw the pig's head as he Hallucinated before having a seizure (which he never had). Yet again the order of events were all over the place and we missed important simon scenes with that, and the lack of order made the character's motivations seem odd and unexplained, as if the writers never read the damn book. Continueing with characters, everyone is so out of character, especially ralph, Ralph is incompetent and is too kind to some and too rude to others, nothing like him in the book. He is so out of character it's a joke and painful to watch. Yet again character relationships make zero sense, simon being belittled by ralph and piggy makes zero sense because they are friends, plus ralph calling simon batty makes no sense since ralph would never say that to his face. Knowing the book, the characters seem to have lost their complexity and overall made more one sided. The point is every character has bad and good, morally grey to some extent, but here they very much box them up into good and bad. Since I did enjoy some bits this episode gets a 5/10 and as always, the acting is amazing.
The final episode and it was something. It was not at all like the book, not one bit, but for some reason it felt...ok? It somehow finally showed jack's complexity, that he is a coward and even he knows too far. It showed the sadistic nature of roger, and his relationship with jack. It showed the pain and suffering of them all mentally and physically and that even ralph has experienced death before. Seeing the navy officer uncomfortable and disappointed, how jack couldn't own up, ralph's dispear, it was closing, comforting. For piggy's death at first I was confused on why he was still alive but seeing him slowly bleed to death made his death much more saddening and I actually cried with anger. I'm quiet apathetic but this chubby little kid has not only made me cry once but again. To watch his fear of not knowing as ralph tried to reassure him made me want to go through the screen and save piggy. It was so painful to watch ralph be so incompetent it kills piggy, if you are confused he didnt perform basic first aid which is common knowledge then and now in britain, if he did so piggy might of survived or at least lived long enough for the navy officer to have come. I was literally raging like a drunk man in a pub watching football, shouting at ralph its his fault piggy dies because he's so incompetent. This episode alone was an 8/10, 2 marks deducted for inaccuracy but piggy's death really just really made the episode peferct.
For an overall review the series is a 5/10, the first and last episode was amazing but everything in between was rubbish and it did not help how inaccurate it is. @botteldwater told me is was like a fanfiction which I agree, it does feel more like a fanfiction with how south it went.
Have I changed my mind? No, I'm still its no.1 hater but now I've watched it I have a reason to but I still got to enjoy some bits.
Guys Imma finish off the lotf series, As a tealand person I'm gonna give my opinion and see if it changes from being a hater due to simon and roger being white.
Ok so episode one is fully down and here are my opinions. Piggy was absolutely perfect, however I wish he was a bit more timid at times, but other than that piggy was by far my favourite and the best because he was strong, funny, maybe even charismatic, and 100% matched the book. Ralph was ralph but I really wish ralph had that authority power he did in the book as wasn't as warm and kind, he was not as kind at the start. Jack was something, I think he's too mean because at the start of the book he was definitely charismatic and somewhat likeable and only picked on piggy, having a lot of chemistry with ralph, but I only saw him really being boiled down to rude prick, he's a rude prick later. The littluns were perfect and Simon definitely showed his kinder side with piggy which I like but I feel with the new scene he was kinda out of character, Simon is quiet and kind simplified and would of never done that in my opinion. The lack of roger too really got on my nerves because roger is important, a lot his scenes he wasn't in like the voting for a chief. Another issue is we don't know who anyone is for the minor roles such as bill, henry, johnny, and maurice to name a few. The piggy name drop felt weird too. Other than that though the acting was incredible, but I can never give it a 10/10 because I'm a sucker for canon accuracy so this episide is a 9/10.
Ok episode two down and I'm disappointed really. It was not at all in chronological order which removed a tonne of the characters motives and development which was crucial to the storyline and mad me confused on where we were in the book. Not just that but jack still feels one dimensional, yes it was nice to see his vulnerable side but he still has that one sided rudeness despite it being his episode, any vulnerability was short and overpowered by his rudeness, his vulnerable moments stay vulnerable in the book. Simon still felt out of character completely and his relationship with jack was so odd, like yes yummy jimon but book jack doesn't give a shit about simon, he barely has a deep relationship with simon because simon is either with ralph and piggy or alone on his own. Not just that but roger was way closer to jack in the book than maurice, but here its shown maurice is closer and jack and roger barely have a relationship with jack. At least they got maurice's character, even though they kept on calling him morris AGAIN. WE TEALANDERS KNOW ITS NOT MORRIS, OML! This episode felt like filler and missed out so much crucial plot it was honestly extremely sad to watch, the lack of character development and proper structure made their actions seem out of place. The only good thing I can say is yet again the quality of the acting was outstanding, and I liked seeing that mini prologue and the scene they kill the pig, but it doesn't exuse such poor writing, it felt as if the writers had never read it. I genuinely thought my opinion was going to change. This episode is a 2/10, the 2 is only for the acting.
Episode 3 finished and I'm still disappointed. Okay so lets see what I did like and not per say mind. I did not care at all about the jimon stuff, yes it was weird due to how their relationship is in the book but it was nice to see preisland choir boys as well as some jack complexity from simon's diary. I did like how samneric were not painted! A big detail that is sometimes missed out which is crucial. Plus I love how the boys in ralph's tribe was confused by the dance. Another good thing was seeing roger more closer to jack because they are very close towards the end of the novel. Plus I very much laughed at seeing the boys smoke because it was so random but in a good way and the choreography in their dance at the very start was very good from the stance of an ex dancer. Despite this there are major draw backs. Simon's death scene, it was so lacking and so rushed. Firstly the boys were chaotic unlike in the novel where they danced in rings while still have some sort of chaoticness. Secondly them actually killing simon seemed so rushed and I didnt get to see the savagery among the boys as the chase the poor simon to the beach. Not just that but simon didn't look beaten up enough, he was stabbed and bitten and his flesh was ripped at. Not just that but after killing simon all the boys were shocked at their actions as they realised there mistake but no one was! Another big detail was everyone joined in! But the "good guys" for some reason didn't. The scene before simon's death with the pig's head was so poor too, its his episode I want to see how he saw the pig's head as he Hallucinated before having a seizure (which he never had). Yet again the order of events were all over the place and we missed important simon scenes with that, and the lack of order made the character's motivations seem odd and unexplained, as if the writers never read the damn book. Continueing with characters, everyone is so out of character, especially ralph, Ralph is incompetent and is too kind to some and too rude to others, nothing like him in the book. He is so out of character it's a joke and painful to watch. Yet again character relationships make zero sense, simon being belittled by ralph and piggy makes zero sense because they are friends, plus ralph calling simon batty makes no sense since ralph would never say that to his face. Knowing the book, the characters seem to have lost their complexity and overall made more one sided. The point is every character has bad and good, morally grey to some extent, but here they very much box them up into good and bad. Since I did enjoy some bits this episode gets a 5/10 and as always, the acting is amazing.
At first I was confused but realised now we are gonna get people who never read the book and will take the new series as canon. Say goodbye to your jalph everyone and the complex characters they were, and say hello to people who think piggy's real name is Nicholas
Guys Imma finish off the lotf series, As a tealand person I'm gonna give my opinion and see if it changes from being a hater due to simon and roger being white.
Ok so episode one is fully down and here are my opinions. Piggy was absolutely perfect, however I wish he was a bit more timid at times, but other than that piggy was by far my favourite and the best because he was strong, funny, maybe even charismatic, and 100% matched the book. Ralph was ralph but I really wish ralph had that authority power he did in the book as wasn't as warm and kind, he was not as kind at the start. Jack was something, I think he's too mean because at the start of the book he was definitely charismatic and somewhat likeable and only picked on piggy, having a lot of chemistry with ralph, but I only saw him really being boiled down to rude prick, he's a rude prick later. The littluns were perfect and Simon definitely showed his kinder side with piggy which I like but I feel with the new scene he was kinda out of character, Simon is quiet and kind simplified and would of never done that in my opinion. The lack of roger too really got on my nerves because roger is important, a lot his scenes he wasn't in like the voting for a chief. Another issue is we don't know who anyone is for the minor roles such as bill, henry, johnny, and maurice to name a few. The piggy name drop felt weird too. Other than that though the acting was incredible, but I can never give it a 10/10 because I'm a sucker for canon accuracy so this episide is a 9/10.
Ok episode two down and I'm disappointed really. It was not at all in chronological order which removed a tonne of the characters motives and development which was crucial to the storyline and mad me confused on where we were in the book. Not just that but jack still feels one dimensional, yes it was nice to see his vulnerable side but he still has that one sided rudeness despite it being his episode, any vulnerability was short and overpowered by his rudeness, his vulnerable moments stay vulnerable in the book. Simon still felt out of character completely and his relationship with jack was so odd, like yes yummy jimon but book jack doesn't give a shit about simon, he barely has a deep relationship with simon because simon is either with ralph and piggy or alone on his own. Not just that but roger was way closer to jack in the book than maurice, but here its shown maurice is closer and jack and roger barely have a relationship with jack. At least they got maurice's character, even though they kept on calling him morris AGAIN. WE TEALANDERS KNOW ITS NOT MORRIS, OML! This episode felt like filler and missed out so much crucial plot it was honestly extremely sad to watch, the lack of character development and proper structure made their actions seem out of place. The only good thing I can say is yet again the quality of the acting was outstanding, and I liked seeing that mini prologue and the scene they kill the pig, but it doesn't exuse such poor writing, it felt as if the writers had never read it. I genuinely thought my opinion was going to change. This episode is a 2/10, the 2 is only for the acting.
Out of all the things I was disappointed with in Lord of the Flies, I am upset we didn't get a proper prologue or even an epilogue. I really want to see how the kids readjusted to society after the island and what became of the war.
I haven't watched the full adaptation series yet but there is a reason, mainly because the book really never explored it, but also thats for us, the fandom, to decide and create, to ponder in our beds before going onto AO3 to see what others think. Plus the war part I think was just something looming over them as they had their own war on the island, a metaphor in its own way you could say. But I too do wish to know what happened before and after the book's events because we can't always use history as a guide.
Guys Imma finish off the lotf series, As a tealand person I'm gonna give my opinion and see if it changes from being a hater due to simon and roger being white.
Ok so episode one is fully down and here are my opinions. Piggy was absolutely perfect, however I wish he was a bit more timid at times, but other than that piggy was by far my favourite and the best because he was strong, funny, maybe even charismatic, and 100% matched the book. Ralph was ralph but I really wish ralph had that authority power he did in the book as wasn't as warm and kind, he was not as kind at the start. Jack was something, I think he's too mean because at the start of the book he was definitely charismatic and somewhat likeable and only picked on piggy, having a lot of chemistry with ralph, but I only saw him really being boiled down to rude prick, he's a rude prick later. The littluns were perfect and Simon definitely showed his kinder side with piggy which I like but I feel with the new scene he was kinda out of character, Simon is quiet and kind simplified and would of never done that in my opinion. The lack of roger too really got on my nerves because roger is important, a lot his scenes he wasn't in like the voting for a chief. Another issue is we don't know who anyone is for the minor roles such as bill, henry, johnny, and maurice to name a few. The piggy name drop felt weird too. Other than that though the acting was incredible, but I can never give it a 10/10 because I'm a sucker for canon accuracy so this episide is a 9/10.