i luv lucifur

Axe / he/it + neos / 18

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INTRO POST

WARNING: THIS IS MAINLY A VENT ACCOUNT. EXPECT TO SEE UPSETTING TOPICS AND IMAGERY. I WILL TAG AS BEST I CAN.

YES, the typo in my name is on purpose because I'm a furry

Name: Axe (or Axel) or maybe Lucifur.. debating that name

Age: 18

I'm the host of a system, so some of my alters may make posts

Collective pronouns: he/it

My pronouns: he/it/spiral/fractal/twist/butcher/guts/flesh there are more but yeah. neopronouns are cool if you disagree fuck off

Autism + Anxiety + ADHD + P-DID + other unknown ones because god hates me + physical issues probably EDS

Interests: Postal, Faith The Unholy Trinity, horror media, music (mainly rock/metal/punk), musicals, and more I can't think of right now

Umm idk what else to put... might probably update later

DNI!!: use common sense, bigots and weirdos dni

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Mmmm I love constantly being in denial and/or second guessing myself about my multiplicity over every little thing!! I didn't have imaginary friends as a kid? Oh then we MUST be faking! We don't have blackout amnesia? Ohhh boy you sure have deluded yourself into thinking you're a system just cause you feel different sometimes!! Ignore the fact that you literally have different voices/accents sometimes, you're just CRAZY!!! I mean, obviously you can't be a system cause you don't remember anything bad enough to cause a CDD happening in your childhood (even though the whole point of a CDD is to not remember the trauma) YOU'RE JUST CRAZY!!!!!

(This is all sarcastic and not being serious but also sharing a lot of doubts I have over whether or not I'm a system)

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Help how the FUCK do I increase system communication I'm like 80% sure we have P-DID but I'm constantly fucking second guessing and doubting if I'm a system AUUUGHHH

Like I've known i have at least SOME SORT OF DISSOCIATIVE DISORDER SINCE LIKE 2022/2023 but I CONSTANTLY FEEL LIKE IM AT LIKE. THW BEGINNING OF SYSCOVERY PLSSSS HELP

IM STRUGGLING SO MUCH PLEASE FOE THE LOVE OF GOD HELP US WITH SYSTEM COMMUNICATION AND STUFF

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I hate it I hate it I hate it my face isn't right nothing looks how it should. My eyes are too big I don't remember them looking like this they aren't mine they aren't mine and it scares me

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How the fuck do I tell if there's a new alter when I'm always fronting so like. I can't tell if it's just my brain being weird for other reasons or if there's Literally Another Guy who's blurring with me

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The last two times I have gotten drunk I've relapsed and cut myself. surely this time will be different! (it won't)

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I think I should be legally allowed to kill one person of my choosing. to make up for all the bullshit

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I'm high as fuck rn man

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Yeah I'm sure that's normal hashtag paranoia

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First post wahoo

This will probably be mainly how I represent me/us

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