hi Shi! firstly, i would like to say that your art is beautiful.
i stumbled across your blog about 30 minutes ago or so while searching for anything relating to Allocer. (...well, before i gave up and searched for general demonolatry because all the results were some dating sim, or something.)
i was wondering, how do you get to the point that you're at? what with the knowledge, the gnosis and all that. your devotion is truly beautiful. perhaps some resources or tidbits of knowledge you'd be willing to share?
i'm not necessarily looking for a relationship like yours and Lucifer's, i am nowhere near ready for that. i'm moreso just looking for a decent foothold to start with.
(i'm hardly ready to be returning to Satanism in general after many instances of turning my back and outright running to christianity, then going back to satanism. its shameful, honestly. constant running in tight circles. i feel like i'm flailing and drowning in inch-deep water, like a laughing stock among spirits and gods, like they're all using me as some kind of toy to play tug of war with... but that's neither here nor there, though if you do have advice for that, it'd be appreciated... the reason i'm starting with Alloces, if you're wondering, is because i asked "who is my guardian demon, if i have one?" and his card leapt out. this was then followed by me clicking on a tarot reading offering advice on who to work with, in which the reader pulled his card first, and giving a reading from him. is that naïve or misguided, do you think?)
i apologize that this became a bit of a derailed ramble. i'm just a bit frustrated that my spiritual life is hysterical and melodramatic, and i feel like a fool. i want a solid bit of ground to stand on, and am unsure of where or how to begin to regather myself. i hope this ask isn't 'too much,' so to speak, and i apologize if it is. there's absolutely no pressure to reply.
you can reply publicly or privately, either is okay. (at least, i think thats how it works. forgive me, i don't use tumblr often, lol)
Hi! Thanks for reaching out!! I'm really stoked you appreciate my art :)
To be completely honest I find myself having a really hard time answering this question when it comes up, I suppose because I don't consider myself to have really "done anything" specific or special to get to where I am. I kinda just let my interests lead me wherever they lead me, and that happened to be straight into Lucifer's arms.
I suppose my biggest piece of advice would be to be genuinely passionate and curious about whatever spirit you are attempting to build a relationship with.
I didn't just approach Lucifer wanting to have some deep relationship with him, I was actually just a huge fan and worshipper of him for a long time, he was my special interest. More than just wanting to have a conversation, I literally wanted to know him, know things about him, learn information about his lore that was niche and interesting. I want to obtain knowledge I didn't have before. I think the reason I've had such great success with Lucifer specifically is because nearly every time I contact him, I am also seeking to discover the answer to some question. I don't just want to know him, I want this specific curiosity fulfilled. When you genuinely seek to know something specific about an energy or deity, you will learn much more about them naturally.
I believe one of the first questions I had for Lucifer was about his so called resurrection. Did you die? Were you reborn? What does it mean to be reborn? How does an angel die? Are you an angel? Are you a god? What is a god? Why are you this and not that? What is that? And what are you?
One question leads to another and another takes its place. I didn't have to be some super talented master wizard to gain Lucifer's favour. I just had to have the audacity to treat him like a source of inspiration and pondering.
I would tell you that consistency is key, but consistency is built on curiosity. I don't necessarily remember to meditate and do my cleansing rituals for Lucifer every morning. I more so just remember the energy I felt while I was meditating in the shower yesterday, and I become curious as to whether Lucifer's energy feels the same today as it did yesterday. I gave him a red apple and some water yesterday. What if I gave him a green apple and some tea today? Should I add salt to this offering? Well I didn't add any last time, maybe I'll try it now. I think this sigil worked really well in our last spell, I wonder if it's just as effective under the new moon as it was under the full moon. Lucifer really likes coffee, but would he like decaf coffee? What is the symbolic meaning of decaf?
I think the most solid ground to stand on is always what you actually want to know and do. In regards to Allocer, you may have been drawn towards him because of a reading, but you should ask yourself what you're genuinely curious about in regard to him. What aspects of his character align with or subvert your own personality? Does this feel super random or eerily spot on? If you were to work with Allocer, what color candle would you use? What about incense? Where does the name "Alloces" even come from? What language is that? Would it make any difference if you contacted "Allocer" rather than "Alloces"? What about "Allocet" ? "Allocey?"
At some point you look back and realize a conversation has occurred between yourself and your own curiosity. That will naturally provide you with the foundation you need to build something meaningful. Regardless of it be Lucifer or Hermes or Archangel Jophiel, all of my most successful communications occurred when I was seeking genuine insight, even if that insight is something as small as whether Lucifer favours red or green apples.
And of course, read stuff. Read a lot of stuff. Even if you don't absorb everything you read, it will naturally provide more content in your brain to inspire ideas or questions.