Analysis Makes Me Feel Alive

She/Her - Abbott Elementary, The Pitt, Marauders, PHM, Spider Man, Super Girl, and Heated Rivarly happen to be my hyper fixations. Bishova and Wolfstar will forever be my favorite - Jilly >>> Jegulus - Platonic ships happen to be some of my favorite things in the world - Frodo and Sam, Jake and Holt, Remus and Lily, Will and El, Jacob and Janice - I’ve got ADHD and OCD

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That scene in Brand New Day where Peter is sitting with MJ and Ned laughing felt exactly like the nauseating grief of when someone or something reminds you of the happy person you used to be with the person you lost when you are still struggling with denial. The sick feeling of genuinely loving a moment while internally still thinking constantly about how you just want them here with you. It's a really profoundly sad scene that is acted incredibly well. Honestly, I felt so seen in Peter as someone who felt like a zombie and totally different version of myself after my friend passed away in high school. It's difficult to find art that portray grief for a best friend - I'm glad that BND didn't ignore the grief Peter felt for Ned because it was just as overwhelming and the movie makes you feel that reality.

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100 posts!

[cilnqtasha]

Clintasha Fic Recs

Hello. I’ve finally decided to create a clintasha/clintnat fanfic recommendation list based on the fics I’ve read since 2012 - though I took a long (really long) break after the mess that was aou :’-) The fics are arranged in no particular order because i’m too lazy

1) Dear Natasha THIS. This fic will rip your heart out and make you bawl. It’s a must read for all newcomers to the clintasha ship - I’d go as far to say that you can consider it as some twisted form of hazing ritual. It’s written from Clint’s POV while Natasha was in a coma. 

2) Compromised (Series)

Girl, Compromised

Hawkeye, Compromised 

Stubborn Love 

Lost Moments 

Become Not Yours (status: incomplete)

3) I Dare You What’s wonderful about this is that it’s LONG. Like, 152 Chapters long :>

4) Somewhere They Can’t Find Me (Series)     -The Sound Of Silence     -April Come She Will     -Keep The Customer Satisfied     -A Hazy Shade Of Winter     -Leaves That Are Green

5) Just A Debt This is one of my favs! If you’re looking for angst, this is the one you should check out.  It has so much angst :0 It’s basically about Clint with severe PTSD, while Natasha and the rest of the avengers try to help him heal.

Keep reading

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KIT CONNOR IS CYCLOPS!?!

Big if true. They look great together.

[critter-of-habit]

Yelena: Okay we can have that drink, but can we meet in my office? I have some work to do

Kate: ... Your office? Sounds lame but I guess...

[melina-mellow]

If you said that in 2026 they'll finally start introducing the X-Men in the MCU and that it'll start with Jean and Peter siblingism, I would have slapped the shit out of you.

I know comic purists (me included) hate when the MCU makes significant changes in character relationship dynamics, but honestly.

I don't give a shit if it's well done. And frankly, I like the dynamic they built with Jean and Peter.

I know Jean typically isn't the go to when people think of "X-Men that Peter is close with"—it's usually Logan, Kurt, Bobby, Kitty and Emma sometimes (she has a soft spot for him)— like yeah, they're good friends and allies, but not close.

But I hope they continue this dynamic with her and Peter in the future. I also wouldn't mind Peter being close with the X-Men in MCU.

Not only will the mutants gain a loved and respected ally in someone like Spidey on their side. But it'll also hit so much harder for Peter when he realises that he inevitably was the person who essentially created the prototype for what will be the inhibitor collars.

How hurt he'll be that something he created was used to harm his new friends. Ugh, the angst would be delicious.

For the first time since Endgame I'm excited for the future of the MCU.

[witchsamlizzie]

Sadie Sink - Jean Grey Icons

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And yes found family Jean Grey and Peter Parker is never going to leave my mind they are siblings now.

What do you mean he let her into his mind so the memory of his aunt could comfort her when he couldn’t and than took a bullet for a girl he knew was hurting as much as he was?

What do you mean she stayed by his side using her powers to keep him alive in the room where her sister was killed despite the danger because she couldn’t bare to lose him too?

Siblings.

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I’m not going to lie. If my sister was taken I too would likely be willing to sacrifice other people to get her back. And I would a hundred percent murder the man who tortured and killed her if I had the chance. Jean Grey did act like a villain but her panic and grief makes her deeply understandable. I’m so excited to see her in future movies and see her relationship (platonic mind you) with Peter evolve.

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fanart i posted on twitter a while back decided to post here too!! new to tumblr so lets see how this goes lol

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"When did you get hot?" But it's Dorcas in fifth year, unable to take her eyes off Marlene who got a wolfcut, septum piercing and red streaks in her hair over the summer.

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so glad we've all embraced short marlene mckinnon. yes, she's 5'2". yes, she's still strong enough to kick your ass. yes, she has to stand on her tiptoes to kiss her beautiful, tall girlfriend, dorcas meadowes.

[nilrna]

dorlene are my only true enemies to lovere

[sproldenlover]

asexual flag color fireworks. the detail that goes into heartstopper is insane.

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What subtypes of Pure OCD I think Remus Lupin would have:

DISCLAIMER: Remus is obviously the opposite of all these fears and I know that logically he would know all of this is false but OCD is awful and I think these themes would never totally go away even though they obviously got much better in the seventh book once he faced his fears with Tonks.

HOCD: I mean, this one is pretty obvious but I think he would have a genuine terror of hurting others not only when transformed but at all times. In cannon he clearly has a lot of self loathing because he's dangerous and I think this fear would never leave him for one instant. There so much misinformation going on about his condition and everyone else like him. I think he would internalize it and even in the later years after spending time working through the lies to recognize the truth he would still struggle with compulsions and obsessions over being out of control of his own actions in the every day. That's why he pushes people away - he's terrified of harming them. Later in the war it turns into a fear of harming Tonks in particular that's so strong he leaves home so he doesn't harm her. He's a lot like Harry, seeing his anger as a sign he might harm someone and because he got angry at Tonks he freaked out badly.

Scrupulosity: Remus would be terrified of being an evil person. He doesn't want to be one of the evil werewolves and tries to do everything to be one of the good one. He sees himself as corrupt and weak inside which is exactly why he would be so shaken by the realization that the Marauders thought he was the traitor in the third book. It sends him into a spiral making him check himself over and over to try to feel like he's "brave" enough. He also believes he wasn't as good as James and Lily and is so wracked with guilt over being the one alive. In his mind his weakness caused Sirius to betray James. He also deep down believes he let Sirius be corrupted. His obsession over proving his bravery backfires in the later books making him start to fully believe that he caused Tonk's unhappiness and is too old to be worth anything. Naturally this is ridiculous but the combined burden of the real fear of the death eaters cracking down on werewolves, his fear of harming her, and the belief that he was weak and corrupted (and could corrupt his future child genetically) caused him to freak out.

POCD - This might be uncomfortable but I genuinely believe Remus would suffer from this subtype. He was preyed on as a young child and was likely told that all werewolves preyed on children as well. He'd therefore be terrified that he was doomed to be a child predator. I think teaching at Hogwarts terrified him to his core because he was having to face not just children but the child of his dead best friend. I think his fear of being a predator is what caused him to always give Harry space and not try to adopt him. Deep down he's scared he's somehow "grooming" Harry.

SO-OCD - Yeah this would make Remus go a bit crazy from Hogwarts onwards. When he loved Sirius he was constantly questioning whether he was truly queer or just wanting attention especially since he had liked girls in the past. When he was with Tonks he had an awful OCD attack about whether he was just misleading her and had always been gay even though logically he knew this couldn't be true.

Magical Thinking OCD - Remus would spend literal hours after the Marauders died thinking about what he should have done differently. He'd also think for hours about how he could save Harry and destroy Voldemort even though logically he knew he couldn't do either. He would always feel responsible for when Voldemort succeeded because deep down he blamed himself for what happened those years ago.

False Memory OCD - Remus spent years trying to figure out what he had forgotten in the past about Sirius after Sirius went to Azakban. He'd be like a detective searching through every memory to find something that would be the missing piece to the "obvious" signs of Sirius being evil.

Emotional Contamination OCD - He'd have pretty awful EC when spending time with the Slytherin's during Hogwarts days fearing that he would become evil when around them and later when spending time with the werewolves Dumbledore asked him to. He'd try to think the right thoughts and convince himself that he still held to the right beliefs when around them. He'd also believe that he could contaminate those around him. Tragically this fear applied to the Marauders before they died leading him to believe he corrupted both Sirius and James in different ways.

[rosy-toast-and-moons]

WAIT WAIT WAIT-

OCD Remus’s Lupin.

you may leave.

[outromoony]

Lily is to Remus what James is to Sirius btw