Have you ever been sent a prayer request for somebody and then immediately felt that sinking feeling? The sort of hopeless, burdened and sad feeling?
I think it stems from a lack of faith and trust in how God could answer your prayers and whether or not he will.
But here's the thing: You can tell God that!
I found myself reminded of this today. I remembered that actually I can be brutally honest with God. Truth and communication are keys to any good relationship - and it's no different with Him.
He already knows what's in my heart. But I shouldn't let that stop me from honestly confessing those gritty feelings; "God I don't feel very hopeful about this, I don't see how that person will ever get better, what if they get worse? I'm just not sure how you're going to answer this one..and I even feel guilty for feeling that" and then moving onto "But I want that person to be completely healed - And I know that you have the power to do it."
You know what? This kind of prayer is in the Bible too!
Take a leaf out of the dad's book in Mark 9 (16-27)
This Dad was in utter distress, because his son had been possessed by an evil spirit since his childhood, so badly that it had tried to kill the boy several times. He took his son through a crowd of people to Jesus, and begged Him,
"If You can do anything, have pity on us and help us!"
Jesus immediately challenged him,
" 'If You can?' All things are possible to him who believes!"
The boy's father then cried out,
"I do believe; help my unbelief!"
That may seem like a contradiction in itself, but it's a very relatable feeling - "I want to believe, but I'm not there yet, help me Lord!"
I think that being this honest with God helps you to leave things at his feet - and not carry them around with you. Perhaps we need to start incorporating that cry of "Help my unbelief!" into our prayer life far more often.
(And by the way, Jesus gladly healed the boy, even after the father had confessed his unbelief! So there you go.)