My Shitty Thoughts

Dear you, here is my shitty thoughts on this changeless yet ever changing world.

[theoldestchorusgirlintheworld]

Having sex with someone actually is a big deal and involves a ton of vulnerability and I think it’s extremely troubling and gross and unhealthy and actually exceptionally dangerous that we pretend otherwise and encourage people to “be mature” by compartmentalizing/completely eliminating their deeper human emotions from their sexuality and that any other view is dismissed as prudish and invalid and unenlightened and childish and restrictive. I can’t think about this too much because it makes me rage but I hate how much porn and capitalism have destroyed how we understand and experience sexuality and intimate connections with one another so much.

[bloodbending]

peter parker in the 2002 movie is fuckin…. incredible. he gets bitten by a fuckin jacked red blue spider and he doesnt say “hey someone should take me to the hospital mayhaps?” he just goes home. then the bite swells to the size of a fuckin jawbreaker but he’s like “nah i just need a nap.” then he wakes up the next day and discovers that he DOESN’T NEED HIS GLASSES ANYMORE and he has a fuckin six pack. does he flip his entire Fuck? no. he says, “cool.” iconic.

[laughingfish]

2002 peter parker had no health insurance

[blackshuckofficial-deactivated2]

I may not have the best body but it sure does hold all my organs in place

[yoitsmvddi-deactivated20191112]

this is the type of positivity i need.

[valtsv]

"spotify premium" this. "spotify premium" that. back in my day if we wanted to listen to music offline we used youtube to mp3 conversion sites and the only ads we got were hot single women in our area wanting to fuck us

[theseerasures]

#back in MY day you played a game of russian roulette with limewire and you either got what you were looking for after 8 hours#or you got bill clinton claiming he did not have sexual relations with that woman (via @youngbloodbuzz​)

[moringmark]

[toptony]

Does anybody else get legitimately worried when a fanfic author who was updating regularly just suddenly disappears with no warning? Like, is it a serious case of writers block or are they in a coma? Did they just up and quit? Was it me? Were my reviews not good enough?! Did they die 😳?! Were they kidnapped? Do I need to file a missing persons report? Excuse me officer, there’s been 13 weekly updates and now nothing for months! Find them! What’s their name?! Name!? I don’t know their name but they write 3k+ chapters and I need them safe and back in my life!

[naughtylupine-deactivated202305]

Sir, that’s my emotional support fanfic author.

[drarrymylove]

Officer: i’m sorry, but you can’t file this person missing.

Me: you don’t have all the facts.

Officer: which are?

Me: i love them.

[phinarei]

So, painful story, but I’ve really needed to tell it for a while.

My best friend, the woman I loved for 13 years, was a fic writer in the middle of an especially long piece. She updated on a schedule and had for years. She had a small, but loyal following.

And then she died out of nowhere. One day we were laughing, the next she was in a coma, 3 days later she was dead. She hadn’t been ill and to this day we don’t know what took her. She was just gone.

I knew she had friends all over the world so I went into her email to see if I could find addresses and notify people after a week of blind grief. In her inbox were about a dozen concerned messages from her readers. I cried. I cried and cried and I responded to all of them, telling people she had passed.

And the messages kept coming. Those people spread the word and message after message came in, most of them addressed to me now, as I had given those original readers my contact info. There were words of comfort and grief and just every emotion imaginable in that scenario. I wrote back to them all, thanking them and comforting them.

For months after she died, during the worst of my grief, I had those messages. I had those people. And they had me. I really think I might not have made it to the other side without them.

So, the fact that you care? That you think of them? That these authors who became a presence in your world are missed when they aren’t there? It means something very real. On the off chance that the author did die? Anyone who has seen this post will find comfort during the loss of their friend or family member, knowing that you all exist. That they aren’t alone. That you CARE that the world now lacks their loved one.

So, yeah. I’ve seen this post and ones like it for years and wanted to share this story. I finally could today.

Thank you, every person who reblogged this post. People like you are the biggest reason I’m alive today.

[hundondestiny]

i love libraries but i wish ppl would stop acting like they’re a utopia that exists outside the bounds of oppression except for when it helps tbh.

[hundondestiny]

i have only ever felt welcome in libraries where the staff looks like me, and that’s including when i WORKED at a library as a student volunteer at age 14/15 when one of my grown as fuck 40+ white colleagues refused to be alone in a room with me because i made her uncomfortable by virtue of being Black :) wouldn’t even sort magazines standing next to me, at that, because i was such a threat to her apparently. 

this whole “uwu librarians are just such sweet people! librarians become librarians because they love people! we exist to support the community!” shows me very clearly where people are coming from and it’s not my reality. libraries should be that but don’t pretend those are things that can be assumed lmao.

[hundondestiny]

it’s like a very specific brand of white women librarians who make these kinds of posts and it aggravates me because they are absolutely the ones who call the cops on people who fall asleep, on the adults with learning disabilities who want to participate in children’s storytime (because so many libraries pretend illiterate adults don’t exist to begin with, or just any adults who would like to be read to???), who make stupid rules about who can use the community meeting spaces and for what even tho ur district tells u it’s supposed to be for anyone fitting x y z standards some Sally or Jane always has “it’s just our preferences here at [branch]!” to say about it, who will tsktsktsk at the white boys who come in clearly high but tell you to “keep an eye on” the group of all brown kids because they look like trouble… who huff and puff and get annoyed when they have to explain something multiple times to a patron with a diff native language than English or taking a few extra steps to serve patrons w disabilities but has nooooo problem excitedly repeating information over and over for the abled english-speaking people, cuz you know, they DESERVE help! they’re not a nuisance!

like fucking… miss me w all this nonsense honestly it’s fucking infuriating the more i think about it. if you pretend we already live in a world where “if only libraries had funding, they’d be havens!” then no one is going to have the motivation or even knowledge to push for that as a reality. and the reality is libraries for many of us are just another site of surveillance and violence by the same group of people in a different outfit.

[blue-wisteria-and-freckled-skin]

I will never forget the time I had a man cry while I was serving him in the library where I’ll work.

He was a regular, but didn’t often do much other than sit around and enjoy being here. One day after coming back after my lunch break, he came to the helpdesk and since my other colleague was busy, I stopped shelving and went to help. I’ll be honest, he has learning difficulties and unfortuantely he isn’t very clear when speaking, but we eventually worked out that he wanted a book (through me guessing and him pointing at multiple people reading). After narrowing down what he wanted to read about, dogs, I stood up to go get some examples before he stopped me to say “I can’t read very well.” 

In that instance, I felt so sorry for him. It was clear from his expression that he was ashamed, and I have no doubt half of that shame comes from other people’s usual reactions, but I just nodded, told him to wait there and went to go find some books. Bringing back a handful of different books, from picture books to children’s non-fiction, to dyslexia friendly and giant print books, we had a look through them together while I asked him what books were good and what were bad, so I knew what I was looking for, and it became clear that what he really needed were essentially picture books with at most a sentence per page.

That was simple enough, so I took him to the children’s area and we looked through some books together, ignoring the Karen-mom clearly glaring from the sofa she was sat on. A little later he’d chosen a handful of picture books and was grinning from ear to ear. We went back to the desk and I issued them for him and he was ready to go, before he started crying, explaining he’d never been able to choose his own books before. He learnt pretty soon that I was, unfortunately, the only one of my colleagues who had the patience/human decency to serve him, so he’d usually come at that same time once a week to change his books, always immediately looking for me so I could help him.

This is just one example of one customer dealing with what is practically bullying from adults, who should know better. He just wanted to read and was belittled so much that he was embarrased to say so. Please, please bare in mind that if you serve customers in a shop or library or any customer service role- it shouldn’t even have to be a second thought to just.. not be a dick.  This is just one example. but c’mon, please just be decent to other people.

[ultrajubilee]

This made me so angry and sad. So many people need to take a long walk off a short pier. Thank you so much for being kind i.e a decent human being.

[theleakypen]

god this is so important and it’s one of the aspects of “vocational awe” that we don’t talk about nearly enough in professional library circles.

There’s a bunch of talk about how vocational awe means that library admin will argue that since it’s a calling, library staff should do more with less, resign themselves to being paid less for their labor than they ought, things like that.

There’s not NEARLY enough talk about how library staff will hide behind the “inherent goodness of library work” and ignore the ways in which they perpetuate systems of oppression.

Librarianship is EIGHTY PER CENT WHITE. That number goes up when we’re talking about library administration. And despite the fact that librarianship is overwhelmingly female, library leadership is overwhelmingly male. So we have a majority-white profession headed mostly by white men. Do the math yourself for what kind of service that results in.

Look at the Code of Conduct in a lot of libraries and you’ll see how damaging it is to homeless patrons, mentally ill patrons, patrons of color, patrons with trauma… I did a whole paper in library school on how public libraries can better serve patrons experiencing homelessness and let me tell you we are NOT THERE.

There’s a lot of work being done right now in libraries to try to undo some of these institutional issues. There’s work around divesting from police in libraries, work on not making POC on staff responsible for “cultural sensitivity” or “diversity” training, shit like that. It’s a long road and we’re definitely not there yet and it pisses me off so much when people pretend that libraries, by virtue of being what they are, are somehow exempt from all the bullshit. They’re not. We’re not.

[lo-cotidiano]

Vocational Awe was coined by Fobazi Ettarh, a Black woman.

And speaking of paying people for their labor, she also has a PayPal.

Along with In the Library With a Lead Pipe, I’d suggest Library Juice Press for folks who are interested in starting to learn more about the theories of Critical Librarianship.

(LJP books are expensive but you can ILL these books, some articles you can find online, this is a way to find the librarians who are doing the work, and if you are financially able to do so, you should be paying us for our labor anyway.)

[headspace-hotel]

Dandelions symbolize everything I want to be in life

[main-river]

Fluffy and dead with a gust of wind?

[headspace-hotel]

Unapologetic. Hard to kill. Feral, filled with sunlight, bright, beautiful in a way that the conventional and controlling hate but cannot ever fully destroy. Stubborn. Happy. Bastardous. Friends with bees. Highly disapproving of lawns. Full of wishes that will be carried far after I die.

[ruffboi-mags]

Also the Dandelion doesn't die with the wind scatters the puff.

It spreads and thrives.

[laughingsquid]

A Woman Put Together a Star Trek Starfleet Uniform Outfit Seemingly by Accident

[sleepysnowfinch]

Accident? Yeah, right. This woman is clearly a Starfleet admiral. 

[thesylverlining]

This is:

Completely beautiful

No way in hell by accident

Me in 50 years

[aeliad]

Yeah, that is classy a.f. street cosplay and we all want to be as cool as her when we’re old. 

[whitepeopletwitter]

[imjustsoscaredallthetime]

[wtfteaching]

This absolutely works and provides you free amusement

This absolutely works and provides you free amusement

[rebelmeg]

NO REALLY, TRY IT. Try it with any kind of inappropriate humor. Sexist, racist, homophobic, all of it. Look at them blankly, say, “I don’t get it.” And watch the discomfort with the old timey pleasure of a rich old lady wearing pearls.

[whitepeopletwitter]

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

When I was a kid I had a reputation for faking sick because nothing much seemed to be wrong with me. Years later I found out my symptoms were psychosomatic due to the constant stress of untreated mental health issues. I spent 20 years in chronic pain because the adults around me just saw a child who didn't want to be in class

Listen to your goddamn kids.

[sometimesyouhavetobebrave]

...i just lost a lot of leftover guilt from missing so many days in elementary school.

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

Children SHOULD miss school when they are feeling unwell, physical or mentally. And every child is going to get sick sometimes. That is normal. It’s a bad sign if a child never misses a day of school--that is often a sign of neglect or abuse. Children are children, they do not have the same stamina, authority, or the same communication skills to articulate their needs that adults have. 

Normalize giving kids days off for their mental health.

[loulouducks]

Every month my mom allotted me and my brother one mental health day. If we aren't feeling well emotionally or physically we can say we're cashing in our day and roll back into bed no questions asked about school. School is no longer on the table its, "are you okay", " whats going on", "would you like space from me right now" "is something going on I should know about", etc. I'm so glad she did that for me and him, especiallu with us both having mental health issues as kids.

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

THIS. THIS IS SUCH GOOD PARENTING.

[hplyrikz]

Clear your mind here

[hplyrikz]

“I can feel this heart inside me and I conclude it exists. I can touch this world and I also conclude that it exists. All my knowledge ends at this point. The rest is hypothesis.”

— Albert Camus, The Myth of Sisyphus (via hplyrikz)

Clear your mind here

(via hplyrikz)

[lolwtfmemes]

[4gifs]

[yuzupool]

i’ve been comprimised 

[dvas-mech-deactivated20160528]

i laughed for about 349583492547252 years

[jayjaysingh-deactivated20150720]

I’ve waited 2 years for this post to hit my dash again. Totes worth it

[kreature-ofthenight]

It get better this guy, he wanted to work for the police but they didnt want him because he was to “unfit” now he spends his freetime trolling and running from the police. he is by now a pretty famous comedian and just to show you

thats him dressed up as sonic and blocking real trafic photograph machines and stuff

thats him spraying a guy who smokes in a zone where its forbiden with a fire extungisher

blocking the street with a DIY railway

blind man driving

AND as a snail on a speedway

[tree-of-blue-squirrel]

the backstory behind these is far funner than the stuff he does

[geeky-jez-deactivated20231025]

[tessacrowley]

teacup what the fuck i just woke up why would you put this rIGHT AT THE TOP OF MY DASH

[wolg-fang]

Ok so I’m crying and you should experience this wonder too