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What abusers believe.

If you’ve ever had to deal with an abusive person in your life - like an abusive parent or partner - you’ve probably wondered what made them treat you that way. If you understand why abuse is happening, the thinking goes, you might be able to figure out how to make it stop.

So why do abusers do what they do? Do they have anger issues? Drinking problems? Past trauma? Personality disorders? Do they just need to get in touch with their feelings and learn how to communicate better?

Nope.

Abusive behaviours come from abusive beliefs. Abusers - whether consciously or unconsciously - hold specific beliefs about relationships that drive their behaviour and allow them to justify the horrible things they do. Even if your abuser has never put their beliefs into words, you’ll probably recognize a lot of these abusive beliefs:

You are responsible for my emotions. It is never my responsibility to reflect on my emotional reactions or learn better coping skills - it’s your responsibility to stop doing things that make me angry or upset.

I must act on my emotions. If I am angry, I am going to lash out. You have no right to criticize me for that, and it’s not my responsibility to learn to manage my emotions - you have to stop making me lash out at you. Asking me not to act on my emotions is controlling and wrong.

You will always be responsible for my emotions. Even if the relationship ends, you will continue to be responsible for my emotions, and I will expect you to continue to prioritize my feelings.

If I have feelings about something, it’s my business. If something you do or think causes an emotional reaction in me, then I have a right to get involved or tell you what to do. My feelings must be the priority. You don’t have the right to tell me that it’s none of my business.

You must judge me on my intentions, not my actions. If I didn’t mean to hurt you or scare you, then you don’t have the right to be hurt or scared. No one has the right to try to hold me accountable unless I meant to hurt someone.

I get to decide what your intentions were. If you hurt me, you meant to hurt me. If you make me jealous, you meant to make me jealous. Nothing you do is ever accidental or unintended - everything you do is intentional and malicious, even if it was a response to something I did.

My feelings are genuine; your feelings are manipulation. If I’m upset, my feelings are real and important. If you are upset, you have an ulterior motive - you’re just trying to be manipulative and get attention or sympathy for yourself.

You have freedoms because I allow you to. Every freedom you have in your life - like wearing what you want - it’s because I generously allow it. I expect you to be grateful to me for that. I have the right to take those freedoms away whenever I want, and I expect you to obey.

If you set boundaries with me, you are mistreating me. If you really loved me, you wouldn’t set boundaries with me. You are doing this to intentionally hurt me, which means I don’t have to respect those boundaries.

You holding me accountable for hurting you is worse than me hurting you. My pain at being called out is worse than your pain at being mistreated. If I feel bad about something I did, I have already been punished enough. You trying to discuss the issue or hold me accountable is just your way of abusing me.

If I apologized for something, you have to forgive me. If the relationship has ended, you have to reconcile with me. You don’t get to ask for more time apart or more discussion of the issue - once I’ve apologized, the matter is closed for good.

The relationship is not over until I say it is over. So long as I want a relationship with you, you must have a relationship with me. Your feelings are irrelevant. Even if we have broken up, you must remain available to me so we can get back together in the future. Not wanting a relationship with me means you are mistreating me or being immature.

I am the authority in this relationship. I am smarter and more perceptive than you. I know what is best for both of us. My version of events is always the correct one. I have superior judgement, taste and opinions. If you question me or disagree with me after I’ve given you the correct answer, you are disrespecting and mistreating me, or you are simply immature and incapable of knowing what’s good for you.

I have the right to control you. It is my absolute right to decide what you do and who you associate with. You have no right to disobey me. I am owed obedience and control; if you don’t give me those things, you are wronging me and cheating me out of the relationship I deserve.

If you resist my control, I am allowed to do whatever I think is necessary to get it back. Once you’ve resisted me, I am justified in whatever I do to regain control of you. I am not responsible for my actions when you resist my control; you forced me to do it, and it’s your own fault.

I should be your main focus. Everything else in your life comes secondary to me. When you make decisions, my feelings should be your first consideration. You are expected to make sacrifices for me and put me at the center of your life; I am not obligated to do the same for you.

If I spend money on you or do something for you, you are in debt to me. You spending money on me or doing things for me does not erase your debt to me, and I am never in debt to you. You are indebted to me for as long as I decide. I may decide that your belongings and earnings also belong to me, since I allow you to have them. I may also decide at any time that you owe me for gifts I gave you, even if they were meant to be gifts.

I am not abusive, and you are not allowed to tell me otherwise. I know what abuse is, and real abusers are significantly worse than me. If our relationship has ever had any good times or positive moments, it can’t possibly be abusive. If you accuse me of being abusive, you are the one abusing me, or you have been led astray by bad influences.

Relationships should be effortless (for me). I am owed a relationship that is peaceful and requires no real effort from me. It is your job to make sure we have that kind of relationship. If there is any tension or conflict in the relationship, it is your fault, and you are depriving me of the relationship I deserve to have.

Abusers and victims alike often buy into the narrative that abuse is rooted in anger issues - after all, abusers are frequently angry, and anger is an issue that can be treated. But this narrative just isn’t true. Abusers aren’t abusive because they are angry. Abusers are angry because they are abusive.

A non-abusive partner is not someone who has learned how to control their rage whenever you spend time with your friends or get home 15 minutes late from work. A non-abusive partner just doesn’t feel any rage in those situations. An abuser’s rage is firmly rooted in their beliefs about relationships - they feel entitled to a relationship that meets their impossible expectations, and when they inevitably don’t get it, they bubble over with fury. Whether they know it or not, they have firmly entrenched beliefs about how relationships should be, and those beliefs are at the heart of their abuse.

Can abusers stop believing these things? Maybe. If they can acknowledge that they have these beliefs, accept that these beliefs are dangerous and unreasonable and let go of these beliefs, maybe it’s possible for them to no longer be abusive in the future. Maybe. But it’s not your job to hang around and find out. If you’re in an abusive relationship of any kind, you deserve better. There are many people in this world who don’t hold abusive views of relationships, and you deserve to find happiness with them.

#psychology #abuse #childhood abuse #abusive relationship #emotional abuse #abusive parents

politeyeti

Revised alternative autism criteria

This continues to be a side-project of mine. I sometimes really wish it was the 1800s and I could just up and declare myself a scientist and doctor and everyone would go with it. I’m planning to take these to my (autism-specialist) therapist tomorrow. I’ve done a bit of revising, added a few points, and clarified the impairment bit. Thoughts?

A. Differences in perception (at least 3)

1. Sensory defensiveness (ie, complaints or avoidance of any of the following: loud noises or places, bright lights, textures (food or object/clothing), tastes, smells, touch)

2. Sensory seeking (ie, stims or stimming behaviour such as rocking, flapping, finger flicking, hair twirling, spinning objects, etc or actively desiring any of the following: deep pressure or touch, vestibular sensation [swings, spinning in any context, etc], specific smells, tastes, or textures)

3. Auditory processing difficulties

4. Unusual, awkward, or delayed motor skills, or asymmetry between gross and fine motor skills (ie, clumsy but with strong fine motor skills, good gross motor skills with poor hand-writing or table skills, strong skills in a special-interest related area but poor overall [such as an ability to manipulate small objects but poor handwriting])

5. A reduced or lack of conscious awareness and/or use of allistic (not autistic) nonverbal behaviour and communication such as facial expression, gesture, and posture. This criterion should not exclude persons who have learnt to read or otherwise comprehend nonverbal behaviour by rote learning, particularly adults. Intentional learning to overcome an inherent difficulty in comprehension is supportive of this criterion. It should also not exclude persons who have been taught to use nonverbals to be less visibly different. In such cases, internal report of difficulty should take precedence over apparent behaviour.

B. Differences in cognition (at least 3, one of which must be 1 or 2)

1. Difficulty in beginning or ending (at least 1):

Perseverative thoughts or behaviours

Needing prompts (visual, verbal, hand-over-hand, etc) to begin or finish a task

Difficulties planning complex activities

Catatonia

Difficulty switching between activities

Lack of apparent startle response

Preference for sameness (same food, same clothes, same travel routes, etc)

2. Difficulty in using language (at least 1, not necessarily present at all times):

Problems with pronoun use that are developmentally inappropriate

A reduced or lack of awareness of tone in self (ie, speaks in a monotone, childish, or otherwise unusual manner) and/or others (ie, does not perceive sarcasm or follow implied prompts, responds to rhetorical statements and questions in earnest)

A reduced or lack of awareness of volume (ie, speaks too loud or too quietly for the situation)

No functional language use (includes sign, PECS, spoken, written, and any other communicative language regardless of form)

Echolalia

Mutism in some or all situations

Uses scripts instead of spontaneous language (these may also be delayed echolalic in nature)

3. At least one special interest in a topic that is unusual for any combination of intensity (ie, does not want to learn/talk about anything else, collects all information about the topic) or subject matter (ie, unusual, obscure, or not considered age appropriate). Topics may be age appropriate and/or common (such as a popular television show or book), but the intensity of interest and/or specific behaviour (such as collecting or organising information as the primary focus) should be taken into account.

4. Asymmetry of cognitive skills

5. Talents in any pattern recognition, including music, mathematics, specific language structures, puzzles, and art (any one meets this criterion, not all must be present)

6. A tendency to focus on details instead of the broader picture, across contexts.

C. These differences cause impairment and/or distress in at least one context (ie, school, work, home), which may be variable over time. Impairment or distress may be defined variably, including meltdowns, anxiety, depression, a pervasive sense of not fitting in, and compulsive behaviours. It is necessary to remember that while the symptoms are not necessarily disabling in themselves, the social response to these symptoms can be disabling. The impairment or distress may be historical, with appropriate evidence to support this claim (ie, a documented history of meltdowns as a child, and only mild anxiety as an adult), as distress may decrease over time and with education. D. Symptoms should be present in early childhood, but may not be noticable until social demands outpace compensatory skills, at any age

#actuallyautistic #autism #alternative autism criteria #pretty well done as someone with autism #psychogy

healingchildhoodtrauma

Children need their emotional needs met just as much as their physical needs.

To ask a child to not have emotional needs is to ask a child to not be a child. It’s impossible. To ask a human to not be a human.

Emotional neglect and abuse is more than just “some mean words”...

It’s a lack of guidance. A lack of nurturing. A lack of reassurance. A lack of positive reinforcement. A lack of being seen. It stunts children’s growth. It damages their self esteem. It sets them up for abusive relationships outside the home. It’s setting them up for failure. To not nurture a child then expect them to just magically be a well adjusted adult when they turn 18 is ridiculous. To expect ourselves to go from a traumatic, unsafe childhood where we were not allowed to be children to a healthy adulthood without addressing our childhood is ridiculous. It was the beginning of our lives. It was our development, our acquaintance with the world. We were vulnerable and dependent on our caretakers. We were sponges. I feel like what I have to do now is wring out the sponge of my mind of all the toxic influence of my family. The farther I get from my childhood the more clarity I have of how not okay it was. I’m healing from trauma and discovering who I am now in a safe place.

#cptsd #developmental trauma #emotional abuse #childhood emotional neglect #trauma #abuse #psychology

cluster-a-pds

I finally have had the time to sort through that survey for people with Cluster A PDs . Here’s the stuff about it that I previously mentioned I would post!

Keep reading

#cluster a #cluster a pd #stpd #szpd #ppd #personality disorder #mental illness #psychology

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Deconstructing STPD: Ideas of Reference

Ideas of reference (you are here)

Odd beliefs

Odd perceptual experiences

Odd thinking/speech

Paranoia/Suspicion

Inappropriate/Constricted Affect

Odd behavior/Appearance

Lack of close friends + Extreme social anxiety

The first symptom listed for STPD in the dsm-5 is Ideas of Reference. I’ve seen a lot of misconceptions surrounding that symptom, with definitions and examples ranging from ‘very vague’ to ‘super precise’. A quick Google search doesn’t help much, either.

The most common definition is that ideas of reference are when you relate things to yourself when they shouldn’t be related to you at all.

Now, that’s true–it’s the examples that are more shady. STPD is rarely a topic of discussion in the psychologist community–the lack of resources is proof of that. Likewise, the explanation of the symptoms isn’t always the best.

Like all symptoms of any mental illness, ideas of reference run on a spectrum. And, a lot of the time, only the extreme end of the spectrum is represented.

So, on a scale of one to ten, ideas of reference would go like this:

1: occasionally thinking people are looking at you strangely, focusing on coincidences more than you should, but overall, functioning normally in social situations and not letting it bother you.

5: more often than not, you think people are laughing at you in public for no reason, but you tell yourself it’s okay–sometimes, coincidences (especially in the media) catch your attention, and you DEFINITELY focus on them more than you should. It impacts your social functioning a bit, but not seriously–you can ignore it if you try hard enough.

10: social situations are a nightmare. You can’t stop focusing on the people you’re almost 100% convinced are laughing at you–coincidences are more than just coincidences at this point, much more, and your thoughts drift to the ones you notice often. You don’t like to hang out with friends often, especially in large crowds.

As you can see, there’s a pretty big gap between 1 and 10. Personally, I stay around a 5-7 on most days, but particularly stressful times can raise me to an 8 or even 9.

On most websites, they focus on the extreme side–9 and 10. Those are pretty extreme examples! That kind of idea of reference usually only shows up in pretty serious cases of STPD.

A lot of people have ideas of reference, even when they don’t have STPD–those with social anxiety and even BPD might experience them.

The difference, however, is that ideas of reference in STPD mostly inflict feelings of PARANOIA rather than ANXIETY, EMBARASSMENT, or SHAME. You might even experience a change in emotions–feeling sad, worthless, even angry–if you have BPD.

Neurotypical individuals might have ideas of reference, but they usually stay from a 1-3 range. Any more severe might suggest a mental issue, but not necessarily–if it’s the only symptom you experience, it’s worth getting checked out, but you don’t automatically have a mental disorder.

TLDR; If you hear people talking and think it’s about you, or read internet stories and think they might have been written about you, you most likely have ideas of references. Just because you don’t immediately see yourself in billboards doesn’t mean you don’t. And having ideas of reference doesn’t necessarily mean you have STPD, or any mental health issue, for that matter.

Hope that helps :)

#stpd #psychology #whole series is well done #personality disorder

shitborderlinesdo

Diagnostic Checklist Masterpost

As well as being found under the tag #diagnosticchecklist, here is a masterpost of all of the checklists I have made so far. This provides some basic information about different mental disorders and can be used as a tool for communicating your symptoms with your mental health provider. They may also be used to self-diagnosing purposes, though further research is recommended if you qualify for a diagnosis.

Keep in mind that you may still receive a diagnosis if you do not meet the minimum requirements. Also keep in mind that your experience with a mental disorder exists on a spectrum, and there is no One True Experience for having a mental disorder.

Note: If you are seeing a reblogged version of this, be sure to check the original post, because I will be updating this post as I create more checklists.

Neurodevelopmental Disorders

Autism Spectrum Disorder

Attention-Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder

Schizophrenia Spectrum

Psychosis

Schizophrenia

Schizoaffective Disorder (coming soon)

Catatonia (coming soon)

Mood Disorders

Bipolar Disorder

Cyclothymic Disorder (coming soon)

Major Depressive Disorder

Persistent Depressive Disorder/Dysthymia (coming soon)

Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (coming soon)

Anxiety Disorders

Social Anxiety Disorder

Panic Disorder (coming soon)

Generalized Anxiety Disorder

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

Acute Stress Disorder (coming soon)

Dissociative Disorders

Dissociative Identity Disorder

Dissociative Amnesia (coming soon)

Depersonalization/Derealization Disorder (coming soon)

Eating Disorders

Avoidant/Restrictive Food Intake Disorder

Anorexia Nervosa

Bulimia Nervosa

Binge-Eating Disorder (coming soon)

Personality Disorders

Paranoid Personality Disorder

Schizoid Personality Disorder

Schizotypal Personality Disorder

Anti-Social Personality Disorder

Borderline Personality Disorder (quiz version)

Histrionic Personality Disorder

Narcissistic Personality Disorder

Avoidant Personality Disorder

Dependent Personality Disorder

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder

Alternate versions by pdpeach [x]

If you do not agree with a checklist, do not yell at me about it. All of this information is pulled from the DSM-5, so your beef is with the book and its writers, not with me. Stop messaging me yelling at me about how the DSM is horrible.

#psychology #diagnostic criteria

shitborderlinesdo

Personality Disorders and Common Co-Morbidity

If you have a personality disorder, it’s very likely you have several other disorders. Not only do many people with personality disorders have more than one personality disorder, they also have a higher risk of having any Axis I disorder (mood disorder, anxiety disorder, etc.)

In this post, I’m going to talk about commonly co-morbid personality disorders specifically. If you have a PD, it’s possible to have any other PD, but I’m going to list some of the common ones so people can look into them, see if they are at risk, and hopefully learn a little in the process!

Cluster A Personality Disorders

Paranoid Personality Disorder: commonly diagnosed with Schizotypal, Schizoid, Narcissistic, Avoidant, and Borderline.

Schizoid Personality Disorder: commonly diagnosed with Schizotypal, Paranoid, and Avoidant.

Schizotypal Personality Disorder: commonly diagnosed with Schizoid, Paranoid, Avoidant, Obsessive-Compulsive, and Borderline.

Cluster B Personality Disorders

Antisocial Personality Disorder: commonly diagnosed with Borderline, Histrionic, Obsessive-Compulsive, and Narcissistic.

Borderline Personality Disorder: commonly diagnosed with Paranoid, Schizotypal, Histrionic, Antisocial, Narcissistic, Dependent, and Avoidant.

Histrionic Personality Disorder: commonly diagnosed with Borderline, Narcissistic, Antisocial, and Dependent.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder: commonly diagnosed with Histrionic, Borderline, Antisocial, and Paranoid.

Cluster C Personality Disorders

Avoidant Personality Disorder: commonly diagnosed with Borderline, Paranoid, Schizoid, and Schizotypal.

Dependent Personality Disorder: commonly diagnosed with Borderline, Avoidant, and Histrionic.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder: commonly diagnosed with Antisocial and Schizotypal.

#reference #personality disorders #psychology

wordsnstuff

Resources for Writing Injuries

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Aortic disruption

Blunt cardiac injury

Cardiac tamponade

Flail chest

Hemothorax

Pneumothorax (traumatic pneumothorax, open pneumothorax, and tension pneumothorax)

Pulmonary contusion

Broken Ribs

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Abdominal

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Penetrating injuries (see also, gunshot wound & stab wound sections)

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Lung Trauma

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Fractures

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Bruises

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Face

General Information

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Corneal Abrasion

Chemical Eye Burns

Subconjunctival Hemorrhages (Eye Bleeding)

Facial Trauma

Broken/Dislocated jaw

Fractured Cheekbone

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femoral artery (inner thigh)

thoracic aorta (chest & heart)

abdominal aorta (abdomen)

brachial artery (upper arm)

radial artery (hand & forearm)

common carotid artery (neck)

aorta (heart & abdomen)

axillary artery (underarm)

popliteal artery (knee & outer thigh)

anterior tibial artery (shin & ankle)

posterior tibial artery (calf & heel)

arteria dorsalis pedis (foot)

Cuts/Lacerations

Scrapes

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Bruises

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In the Neck

In the Shoulders

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Stab Wounds

General Information

In the Head

In the Neck

In the Chest

In the Abdomen

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General Resources

Guide to Story Researching

A Writer’s Thesaurus

Words To Describe Body Types and How They Move

Words To Describe…

Writing Intense Scenes

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Elements of Scarecrowcore

A love of syringes

Beakers and flasks everywhere

Spooky mask with gas filters

Burlap on everything

Red plaid button ups and flannels

A while room dedicated to your favorite books

Feeding the local crows

Bullied in your childhood

Probably also bullied in adulthood

Phobias are your life

A strong hatred of Freud

Skull that emits a high frequency sounds affecting the brain

A gauntlet made of needles

Self-diagnosed autistic

Hroo Hraa

jonathanandcarter

Mm. Sure, I guess, don't know why this would be a "core" people would care about. I don't know what the fuck the skull you're talking about it though, and a gauntlet of needles sounds... very interesting but more dangerous than anything else. If I cared to add something else though, I'd say constantly brewing coffee, and also lots of nearly worn-out blankets.

#Jonathan Crane #Scarecrow #jonatham commenting #dc comics #batman villains

sociopathicdisturbance

ASPD and Trauma

As I have said many times on this blog before, ASPD is a trauma based disorder. I speak from experience on this. I did not know what ASPD actually was until recently, when I discovered that I have it. Prior to that my only knowledge of ASPD came from movies and whatever I heard people say about “psychopaths”; how they are naturally horrible, evil people who want nothing more than to destroy everything in their path and take pleasure in abuse/rape/murder etc. This is a sensationalized and unrealistic understanding of the disorder. It’s an easier and more profitable notion for people to digest, rather than the harsh reality that ASPD results from repeated, extensive childhood trauma.

I always talk about ASPD from a traumacentric POV. Cluster B disorders in general are misunderstood, and somehow still a “mystery” in the medical community as to how they form and function. I am no doctor, nor do I have a degree in psychology, but you don’t have to be a rocket scientist to see that there are patterns in the risk factors for these disorders. It’s a combination of nature and nurture: your genetics combined with “Emotional, cultural and social factors” (aka whatever unstable/abnormal situation you grew up in). If a child is predisposed to a cluster B personality disorder due to a family history and then subjected to trauma, they will unsurprisingly develop that cluster B disorder in many cases. Most people you talk to with Cluster B disorders will have some sort of trauma in their developmental years.

Like with any disorder, I believe there are levels of severity with Cluster B disorders as well, based on genetics + trauma. Those who endured trauma for longer periods of time, or those who have a more intense predisposition might have a louder presentation of their disorder. Like the trauma itself, the lasting effects will be very individualized based on the person.

I can’t speak for other Cluster B disorders. I have briefly touched upon this topic in a previous post, but I know that growing up in my situation, it was actually beneficial for me to be very cold and have as little empathy as possible in order to ensure my own survival. ASPD runs in my family, so even without my trauma, I would probably still have lower than average empathy. However with my trauma, I did not get the chance to properly develop that empathy that I know I do have. My mental development as a child went instead to very basic survival instincts, as there was no room left to develop normally. Everyone has empathy, some just have more than others, and others too don’t have the tools to express it in a socially acceptable manner. I personally think that the little empathy I do have developed in such a way that it got channeled to things like stuffed animals and family pets, the few things I had as a child that did not hurt me. I projected myself onto them, and as a sociopath it is easier for me to empathize with something that I see myself in. Otherwise, it did not benefit me in any way to form connections with other people, so I simply didn’t. It is not a choice, it’s a scar.

My mom and siblings know about my ASPD and fully accept it. I am the same person to them that I always have been, and ASPD has given them an explanation for some of my behaviors. It’s really not a big deal for them, it’s just how I am. Because my siblings went through most of the same trauma with me, it is very likely that my sister has ASPD as well. We have had very honest and open discussions about it as a family unit, and although they might not fully understand, I know that they accept me no matter what. When I came to my mom with the fact that I am a sociopath (self dx), she was confused and scared at first, but upon explaining it to her and talking to her, she warmed up to it and now supports the disorder wholeheartedly. For parents or caregivers of a child with ASPD, my advice is this: Be supportive. Be loving. Be accepting. Accommodate for your child, and understand that they will not express things in a typical way. Work with them, not against them. They did not ask to develop a cluster B disorder.

ASPD is trauma based.

#fairly accurate #although i will say its rather unlikely that someone who developed aspd will find acceptance among the family they grew up with #psychology #aspd #trauma #ptsd #cptsd #jonathan crane #scarecrow #dc comics

chronicallyinvisible

sometimes depression is so scary because you stop being able to achieve any sense of fulfilment. a huge part of being human is looking forward to things and having treats, goals, rewards, outcomes that you strive towards. if you don’t have those things it can be really, really hard to find any sense of purpose. having depression is asking yourself what do i want to eat, what do i want to watch, what do i want to play, what do i want to listen to, what do i want to do, what am i looking forward to, what’s driving me to keep going, and having the answer be a resounding ‘nothing’

#as someone with severe chronic depression #this is rather accurate #i know i havent been on for a while #id apologize but i dont actually care #jonathan crane #scarecrow #dc comics #batman villains #depression #psychology

nymika-arts

The woods are lovely, dark and deep 🍃🍂

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Part 2 🍃

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I think I accidentally deleted half of this post so here’s part 3 and 4 again lol enjoy

#horror #jonathan crane #scarecrow #art

abz-j-harding

Some Monster Designs I did for an indie horror film called ‘Book of Monsters’

#corvid #corvids #art #horror #black and white #i like these

I fucking hate that certain so-called professionals think they can cure personality disorders, or shame someone with a PD out of their "unacceptable" behaviors. It's a goddamn personality disorder. A disorder woven directly into the personality from a young age. It is not something that can be killed, only controlled, and only that with lots of patience and practice.

For example. Morals. If one has ASPD, like myself, they would be unlikely to change their moral axioms simply because most others would believe that they "ought to." Axioms are by definition not something that can be reasoned or proven. Some may be more effective, but that does not mean they are right.

What I am getting at is this. YOU CANNOT CONVINCE ME THAT "EVIL" IS EVIL. YOU CANNOT SHAME ME OUT OF MY ACTIONS AND OPINIONS. I do what I want simply because I want to do it. I am aware that my motives are primarily if not completely based on emotion in the end; but that is far from unique to me. I DO NOT feel guilt. I DO NOT feel remorse. It is not so much as even a possibility for me, and because of that, any appeal to my "humanity" is utterly in vain.

#jonathan crane #scarecrow #personality disorder #psychology #aspd #antisocial #dc comics #batman villain

iteachpsych

Not so relevant, but interesting nonetheless. You can see that SSRIs are a combination of stimulants and anti-psychotics. These form the drug therapy used in OCD (Psychopathology) but are often used to treat Depression and many other mental health issues. Larger here: (http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-VD42CLDdIwc/TVhp4q9ziXI/AAAAAAAAAU4/ZqcjkZFhqc0/s1600/Drug_Chart_Color.jpg)

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saw this & my brain went “lets try all of them”

#drugs #medication #mental health #stimulant #depressant #antipsychotic

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Deep Frog

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do you think this is what lovecraft meant whenever he described something as being beyond description

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“It was a terrible, indescribable thing vaster than any subway train—a shapeless congeries of protoplasmic bubbles, faintly self-luminous, and with myriads of temporary eyes forming and un-forming as pustules of greenish light all over the tunnel-filling front that bore down upon us, crushing the frantic penguins and slithering over the glistening floor that it and its kind had swept so evilly free of all litter.”

— H. P. Lovecraft,

At the Mountains of Madness

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This.. actually makes a fine reference to what a lovecraftian eldritch abomination SHOULD BE. not just.. tentacles and darkness. Perpetually changing, not cemented in form, with an otherworldly feel to it. Completely unrecognizable by most human descriptions, and only able to be viable perceived by those fine enough to be an adept wordsmith.

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I think that this is very nearly an ideal representation of a lovecraftian eldritch horror, because the video that we see is (I’m fairly certain) footage that has been fed through Google deep dream.

The reason the frog looks so weird is because the program is trying to look at the frog, figure out what it is, and then overlay other images of the same thing.

The the thing about lovecraftian horrors issn’t just that they look conventionally weird or gross or scary. Instead, they are things that are so utterly alien that the human mind cannot properly comprehend what it is looking at. They defy description because they defy understanding.

And here we have a video of a computer, a simple silicon substitute for the human mind, struggling to understand what it is looking at, in much the same way that you would be hard pressed to understand a shoggoth.