"I'm about to break. This is my fate."

tw | she/her | 20+ | mentally ill loser | feel free to dm me if you ever need someone to talk! you are not alone! | if you know me- no, you don't. (michael langdon's wifey since 2018)

[speakingspirals]

i hate getting upset over stupid shit.

[speakingspirals]

[tyynicbubul]

When you are crying for hours and lowkey realise no one gaf about you so u stfu

[traumadumprrrr]

sobbing rn i just want to be loved

[thatborderlinequeen]

I'm so unlovable it actually needs to be studied

[mypersonalventaccount]

note to self: stop putting effort into people who don't even return half of it

..like i'm not even worth anything

[starlightlangdon]

ily pookie

[justabrokenheartedangel]

ilyevenmore pookie

[justabrokenheartedangel]

guess who's still gonna be hospitalized on their birthday on monday 🤡

[justabrokenheartedangel]

this is genuinely one of the worst years of my life i didn't know it could get worse and i don't know how to get through this. i'm allowed home for the day tomorrow but not for the night. it's literally christmas. i hate it here. i can't take it anymore. and some of the most important people in my life just leave me behind like i never meant anything to them like i can't even wrap my head around it. literally when you need them the most. those are what i once called my best/true friends. and that's been happening with several people all throughout this awful year. life feels utterly pointless.

[justabrokenheartedangel]

was put in isolation 💔 i could really use some friends right now i'm rotting away in here 😭 it is so so bad, both the situation & my mental health.

[justabrokenheartedangel]

guess who got admitted to the psychiatric hospital as an emergency

🤠✌🏻

(yes i'm coping with humour leave me alone i've cried enough today)

[mypersonalventaccount]

while they have moved on from you, you are stuck in a loop, left with the pain unable to heal. while they got over you, you still wonder where you could have made a turn for the better, blaming yourself for everything. you just cannot move on, wondering if you ever will.

and they probably enjoy knowing that you're still suffering while they're thriving without you.

[mypersonalventaccount]

part 2 of "the urge to disappear everywhere online", literally planning it in my head; logging out, deactivating, deleting all of my accounts on every single platform, cutting off pretty much everyone, getting a new phone number or none at all & just disappearing like i've never even been there, even moving to a different place if i could.

it's not like anyone would look for me or wonder where i've gone after all. might as well kms.

[gabapentinblues]

realizing that maybe it never does get easier

[earlgreygirlfriend]

i fucking hate these emotions so much why can't i just be normal

[nettles-bpd]

i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself

i wish i felt like i was worth something

[lunavenusjupiter]

i’m such a fuck up, a failure, and all i do is burden others. i don’t want to exist.