there's always another day.
and i can't decide if that's good or bad. because i'm 16.
school is piling, social tensions rising.
romantic interests on the horizon, constantly coming closer.
but as someone who barely has themselves figured out, i dont know what to do about someone else.
so i ignore all those feelings,
and get back to studying.
because even though that's all I seem to do,
and I'm constantly exhausted, and
i have to keep going, because i have no choice.
my grades, life, health, are
falling, but it's all i can do to keep them up.
and sometimes i cant even do that.
because i keep telling myself.
you can rest at the next weekend.
but then, all of those are gone.
i'm stressed about school and friendships and crushes. and the future; college, jobs, life away from home, money. i live in a great house but we're only here because we inherited it. i don't have a spare $20 to go to the movies. but i do have a spare 20 minutes (maybe) to make sure i get just above a 65% (maybe) on my next history exam. yet maybe i should use those 20 minutes to sleep? no, i've got to keep studying. right?