why does he always get to be happy when all he does is cause others pain..
i just don’t understand how i’m supposed to still believe that good prevails and that things balance out and people get their karma when he literally gets to live his life as he pleases unaffected by all of his own destruction. how is that fair. i don’t wish for his downfall either but i just don’t understand why i had to go through so much and he gets to just move on like nothing and be happy and get what he wants in the end..
i guess maybe it’s just my ego that hurts at this point. wondering why i wasn’t good enough for him to find happiness with me and not put me through all of that abuse like really what did i do to deserve any of that and right of the start too.. why does everyone else get a better version of you than i was allowed to ever have when that’s all i ever tried to do was help him find his happiness in his best version of himself. idk. sounds like my ego.
whatever. idk why i care. has to be my ego bc it didn’t hurt to see that he was with someone else lol so that was nice at least.
i really wish he would keep his word and move back to arizona at the very least like do everyone a favor please.
i just have to be patient i know. laziness and impatience my two biggest flaws.






















