I love that there are two types of Ilya Rozanov playlists that fans make:
One half is like "Ilya Rozanov's Pregame Playlist" and it's a bunch of fun party/hype songs
And the other half is "Ilya Rozanov Vibes (Warning: This is the most tragic playlist anyone has ever created)" and it's some dead dove do not eat angst
CONNOR STORRIE & HUDSON WILLIAMS
In newly released exclusive photos for The New York Times (December 2025) via HudconUpdates & Connor Storrie Canada
Ph. Ryan Pfluger
SHANE HOLLANDER, MLH STAR, DIES FROM ACCIDENTAL OVERDOSE (click to read more)
That’s the headline Ilya reads on his Google alerts when he’s home alone. More and more articles start coming out, his phone pinging with different versions of the same sentence over and over. Every website claiming this horrible, twisted lie that Shane Hollander is dead.
It has to be a lie after all. This must be wrong. They’re all surely misreporting things and it’ll turn out that Hollander is alive, safe in his boring home in Montreal. Ilya’s confident there will be a statement made soon but he’s too impatient to wait for that.
Sure, they haven’t spoken since the day Shane fled from his home, leaving Ilya to clean up half-eaten tuna melts and their mixed come off his chest.
And Ilya didn’t reach out after Shane got a nasty hit in San Jose a few weeks ago— one that left Shane with a fractured collarbone and concussion. He tortured himself with the footage and drafted an “are you okay?” text but he never sent it. He had been a coward.
He wishes more than anything that he sent it now.
He calls Shane. It’s 8PM in Boston, which means it’s 8PM in Montreal and even Shane isn’t lame enough to be in bed so early.
No answer to his call. No answer to his texts. Nothing.
He calls and calls and calls and fucking calls but there’s nothing. No response, no answer. Not even a ‘read’ receipt. Shane isn’t cruel. He would call him. Even with this fractured something that they are (or were), he would have reached out. He would have heard about the news by now and called Ilya back or texted to say it was fake. That he was fine. That it was idiots being idiots and talking about something they knew nothing of.
So why the fuck is Shane not answering? The only reason he wouldn’t is if… is if…
Ilya doesn’t know what he’s doing until he’s in his car and headed to Montreal. His phone dies halfway through the trip from attempts to get in contact with Shane. Still nothing. He’s in a state of delirium when he crosses the border into Canada, with no plan other than making it to Shane’s house.
If Shane’s alive, he’ll be in his home and he’ll answer the door. And if not… Ilya doesn’t want to think that far.
Shane’s lounging on his couch, half asleep and frustrated at the world. He’s still reeling from getting the worst, most frantic phone call from his parents earlier that day.
And all because he’d gone to the hospital earlier. There had been unforeseen conflicts with his medication and some supplements he’s taking, something that risked leading to an overdose if not caught as early as it was.
Somehow that afternoon trip led to someone violating HIPPA and even more confusingly, led to quite a bit of the population mistaking him for being dead.
For once Shane’s thankful his mom talked him into keeping a landline when buying a home. “You never know what may happen Shane,” she had said.
Wasn’t that the truth? The whole reason for the urgent visit was because he got dizzy that morning, his vision and balance going off kilter, and he had dropped his phone, breaking it beyond repair. It was added to his list of annoyances with today. If not for his parents and Hayden having his home phone number… they might have believed the news for much longer than they had to.
It’s 1AM when furious knocking wakes him up. He must have fallen asleep down stairs. Shane’s groggy before it really hits him that someone is at his front door. No one in their right mind visits at one a.m.
He gets up and peeks through the peep hole and swings the door open before he even knows he’s going to do it because it’s—
Ilya.
He looks like shit. Eyes red-rimmed, hair like he went through a wind tunnel. He’s wearing flannel pajama pants, slides, and a sweatshirt. He looks like he just rolled out of bed.
He doesn’t get any words out before Ilya knocks the breath out of him by collapsing into him. It’s a hug but feels a bit like a tackle too. If Shane weren’t as athletic or as on guard at seeing Ilya, he may have fallen backwards.
It takes several moments to register Ilya is shaking in his arms.
No. Ilya is crying in his arms.
Shane’s brain searches for anything that would make this confusing thing make sense. He begins to think it may be a dream he has yet to wake up from but then it hits him.
The article. His phone being broken. His parents had called everyone they thought was important.
the centaurs win the cup and in the midst of the wild locker room celebration, someone asks “where are the marrieds?”. the ever wise and vigilant bood answers “honestly prob in a closet somewhere fuckin” everyone cheers 🎉
cut to shane and ilya - in a closet somewhere- clinging to each other so tightly, sobbing tears of joy and happiness.
it feels like a dream come down and they don’t want to wake up.
It’s weird how everyone hating you when you’re nine years old still affects your self esteem when you’re 26 like yeah nobody came to my birthday party but that was like 17 years ago why is it stopping me from going to a gay bar
You guys aren't imagining hard enough so let me paint you a picture
The sex Shane and Ilya had pre-tunameltdown. It was nice. It was good! But it wasn't meant to be anything more than another casual hookup.
Cut to a few weeks later (idk what the actual timeline of events are). Shane and Rose start dating and shortly after that Shane contracts a "strange stomach bug." It knocks him out of a couple games and he can't seem to shake it off.
But Rose - who is very intuitive - figures it out right away. Instead of directly confronting Shane about his sexuality, she presents to him a pregnancy test. At first Shane starts panicking thinking he knocked up Rose, but she's quick to dismiss his fears.
"It's not for me." Shane sighs out a breath he'd been holding in as a sense of relief washes over him. "It's for you." Rose goes on to say, which makes Shane tense back up again.
This is what leads into their conversation about Shane being gay. Rose is very clear that she's not here to judge or pry into his life. She wants Shane to be fully aware that he is safe to come out to her. He admits that yes he has slept with another man and yes he does "prefer being the hole, rather than the peg." That's the confirmation that Rose needs to ask him to take the test.
"Look, it may seem silly, and I won't force you to take it, but it wouldn't hurt to roll out the possibility."
Shane is beginning to panic now. Because if it turned out to be positive he'd have to live with that weight of knowing when he got pregnant, who the other father was, and what he did on that day. How he not only hurt himself, but Ilya as well. Could he face the man he walked out on with such groundbreaking news? How would he even go about telling Ilya? And even more, is he ready to go through with this?
Shane takes the test from Rose with shaking hands and decides to give it a go. He's hoping for a negative, but an unmistakable (though rather faded) second line appears telling him that the thing he feared was true.
Rose is there to comfort him right then. She makes a promise to support him in any way she possibly could.
"Do you know who the other dad is?" Shane nods. "Are you going to tell him?"
Shane stalls for a moment. Of course he's going to have to tell Ilya. There was no way he wasn't going to. But it was scary. How would he even get the news to Ilya? How would Ilya even take it?
Cut to All Stars. Sure, Shane shouldn't be playing in his current condition, but it's not like anyone currently knew, and it wasn't as if he was planning on keeping it. He wasn't. He was sure that after he told Ilya he was planning on getting an abortion. He felt Ilya deserved to know before he went through with it though.
He tries to break the news at the bar (as he pretends to sip at a beer), but it's far too crowded to drop the ball. At least Ilya was receptive of him. They were back on speaking terms again which was a positive sign. He'd get around to telling him later.
He's lounging by the poolside when he notices Ilya playing with some kids in the pool. Shane's mind couldn't help but drift to a future of Ilya playing with their kids in the same manner. It's a ridiculous thought, but he can't shake it. Ilya is so good with children. He'd make such a wonderful dad, and Shane could give that to him if he wanted to.
This is the first time it crosses Shane's mind that he could go through with this pregnancy.
He manages to get through the game without any issues (though he recognizes he's more exhausted than usual after playing). He finds Ilya and asks for his room number. It'd be more practical to break the news in the privacy of his hotel room after all.
Ilya is rightfully in a state of shock when Shane drops the news onto him. At first he thinks he misunderstood. Maybe he's mixing up English words again? Surely, Shane didn't just tell him he was pregnant. All words escape him and he's left staring blankly at Shane who is growing more and more anxious the more time passes without a response.
"Are you sure?" Ilya eventually manages to get out.
"Do you think I would be telling you if I wasn't?" Shane snaps back with a little more irritation in his voice than he intended. "But you don't have to worry about it. I'm not keeping it. I just thought you should know beforehand."
Ilya could only nod in response. Of course. Ilya can't be hurt that Shane doesn't want to keep their baby. Shane shouldn't have to go through with an unwanted pregnancy, not at the height of his career, and it's not like Ilya is ready to be a dad yet either. He swallows a hard lump in his throat as the news finally settles into him.
One day...
The pregnancy weighs on both of them. Shane doesn't want to hesitate in his decision. He would love to see Ilya be ana amazing dad to their kids one day, but that can't be now. Ilya would support Shane. He knows now is not a good time for either of them to enter parenthood, but a part of him still wishes that they could have this.
It's a thought that never leaves their minds even after it's all said and done. It sticks with Shane as he's walking out of the clinic. It lingers with Ilya when he gets the confirmation text from Shane. It's something they come to realize they both want. It can't happen today, but with the possibility there, they can revisit it again in the future. They can try for it when the time is right.
hudson williams wasn’t even profiting off of gay heated rivalry fame when he was cast as an evil bisexual in yaga he’s just in it for the love of the game
I'm not usually a tummy person, and belly buttons kinda freak me out. My current obsession is just another example of the impact Hudson Williams had on my life
I love ilya rozanov so much and he doesn't deserve the way his father treated him and he didn't deserve to be abandoned by his mother and he is so good he is so so good and so so sad and I want to hold him in my arms
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