𓄹 𓈒 🦇 mel / dal 𓄼

cluster b be damned my boy can work a gun twenty-five | mello irl | he/they/she gay | isfp sx/sp 4w3 tri-461 | half fan page, half ic

[asharoni-arts]

eat up, my children.

[laundry00]

Stim board for whej theyre mean to matsuda on death note 😢

[starpalzz]

This is frying me so bad😭🙏

[keehlurselfs]

bpd mello always expecting people to leave, and always being the one to leave first. him thinking he’ll end up alone, so he ends up a self fulfilling prophecy, moving from being extremely attached to pushing (and literally running) away and splitting on them to protect himself.

when he leaves matt at wammy’s, a part of him was glad. he won’t have to worry about it anymore. he has the control, and even if it hurts, it would hurt a lot more to be left without expecting it.

he knows how attached he gets, so it’s hard for him to allow himself to develop relationships like the one he had with matt.

he ends up hurting the people he loves out of fear and out of thinking he is bad for them, he knows he’s a lot, he knows they’ll think so too eventually.

so he does them what he thinks is a favor and he leaves.

[xx-r0t-dot-com-xx]

shitposts for tn

[keehlurselfs]

i really do think mello and beyond would have an interesting, but unhealthy dynamic.

b would see himself in mello and kind of have a weird sortve fascination with him, while mello would look up to him due to wanting some form of praise and love from an older figure that he doesn’t get from anyone else.

i think mello would see a lot of his issues in beyond, being second, living in someone’s shadow, being so angry at being just an “option.” and it would kind of end with them instigating each other to be a worse version of themselves. they would be a very toxic dynamic and i don’t think it’d be super healthy, but there would be a level of understanding there.

mello would feel physically sick when news about beyond’s murders got out. if someone he related to and connected to so much could do something like that, what does that say about him? is he the same?

the worst part is he still empathizes with him. understands, almost. it makes him feel a certain way about himself that he misses and mourns someone like b.

[keehlurselfs]

bpd mello with b as one of his fp… totally not projecting my own first fp dynamic onto them #lol

[duberunarudi]

[keehlurselfs]

i really do think mello and beyond would have an interesting, but unhealthy dynamic.

b would see himself in mello and kind of have a weird sortve fascination with him, while mello would look up to him due to wanting some form of praise and love from an older figure that he doesn’t get from anyone else.

i think mello would see a lot of his issues in beyond, being second, living in someone’s shadow, being so angry at being just an “option.” and it would kind of end with them instigating each other to be a worse version of themselves. they would be a very toxic dynamic and i don’t think it’d be super healthy, but there would be a level of understanding there.

mello would feel physically sick when news about beyond’s murders got out. if someone he related to and connected to so much could do something like that, what does that say about him? is he the same?

the worst part is he still empathizes with him. understands, almost. it makes him feel a certain way about himself that he misses and mourns someone like b.

[keehlurselfs]

bpd & covert npd mello is so special to me. one day i’ll write out my full thoughts

[matsudaaaaa]

y/n x nice mafia imagines m4m

[keehlurselfs]

nice ….?

[matsudaaaaa]

y/n x nice mafia imagines m4m

[keehlurselfs]

?

[keehlurselfs]

hi (waves)

hello police officer

[matsudaaaaa]

hi mafia guy

Why did you kill my daI MEAN THE CHIEF. what the fuck was that about

[keehlurselfs]

sorry, handsome. sometimes sacrifices have to be made. i will say i didn’t want to kill him, though

[matsudaaaaa]

>:( he wasnt a sacrifice he was a good person and he deserved better!!!!!!!!!!!! i guess i appreciate that you didnt want to but hes still dead and its still your fault-

wait.

h. handsome????????

[keehlurselfs]

yes, handsome. has no one ever told you that before? interesting

[matsudaaaaa]

stop trying to distract me by fake flirting with me!! its not gonna work ((okay it is lowkey working)) but its MEAN. just be honest :/

[keehlurselfs]

and what makes you think i’d be lying to you ?

i am being honest, you are incredibly handsome, for a police officer that is.

[matsudaaaaa]

?? why would you be telling the truth?? literally no one thinks that

[keehlurselfs]

well, perhaps i can show you i’m telling the truth over dinner sometime :)

[matsudaaaaa]

i.... fine. ONLY because i want to learn that info about the kira case though, okay?

(and we have to go somewhere discreet... i really don't want the task force asking me why im casually having dinner with MELLO instead of catching him.)

[keehlurselfs]

aww, am i a hot topic around there ? cute

[matsudaaaaa]

well yes after you BLEW UP THE CHIEF

also you should probably tell near youre okay hes been moping (?) . in a non obvious nearlike way.

[keehlurselfs]

well, he shouldn’t of gotten in my way. i gave him back his daughter, he should’ve stayed away.

and am i supposed to care that near’s moping ? ha.

[matsudaaaaa]

wait real quick can i ask you something without you killing me

are you and near siblings or exes ive been debating this like since we learned about you both and i HAVE to know. im afraid to ask near in front of the task force cause theyll all call me dumb again

[keehlurselfs]

he is neither to me.

[keehlurselfs]

ooc //

i have a really long, in depth analysis of how i think beyond birthday and mello’s dynamic would be. it is not happy.

[keehlurselfs]

hi (waves)

hello police officer

[matsudaaaaa]

hi mafia guy

Why did you kill my daI MEAN THE CHIEF. what the fuck was that about

[keehlurselfs]

sorry, handsome. sometimes sacrifices have to be made. i will say i didn’t want to kill him, though

[matsudaaaaa]

>:( he wasnt a sacrifice he was a good person and he deserved better!!!!!!!!!!!! i guess i appreciate that you didnt want to but hes still dead and its still your fault-

wait.

h. handsome????????

[keehlurselfs]

yes, handsome. has no one ever told you that before? interesting

[matsudaaaaa]

stop trying to distract me by fake flirting with me!! its not gonna work ((okay it is lowkey working)) but its MEAN. just be honest :/

[keehlurselfs]

and what makes you think i’d be lying to you ?

i am being honest, you are incredibly handsome, for a police officer that is.

[matsudaaaaa]

?? why would you be telling the truth?? literally no one thinks that

[keehlurselfs]

well, perhaps i can show you i’m telling the truth over dinner sometime :)

[matsudaaaaa]

i.... fine. ONLY because i want to learn that info about the kira case though, okay?

(and we have to go somewhere discreet... i really don't want the task force asking me why im casually having dinner with MELLO instead of catching him.)

[keehlurselfs]

aww, am i a hot topic around there ? cute

[matsudaaaaa]

well yes after you BLEW UP THE CHIEF

also you should probably tell near youre okay hes been moping (?) . in a non obvious nearlike way.

[keehlurselfs]

well, he shouldn’t of gotten in my way. i gave him back his daughter, he should’ve stayed away.

and am i supposed to care that near’s moping ? ha.

[keehlurselfs]

hi (waves)

hello police officer

[matsudaaaaa]

hi mafia guy

Why did you kill my daI MEAN THE CHIEF. what the fuck was that about

[keehlurselfs]

sorry, handsome. sometimes sacrifices have to be made. i will say i didn’t want to kill him, though

[matsudaaaaa]

>:( he wasnt a sacrifice he was a good person and he deserved better!!!!!!!!!!!! i guess i appreciate that you didnt want to but hes still dead and its still your fault-

wait.

h. handsome????????

[keehlurselfs]

yes, handsome. has no one ever told you that before? interesting

[matsudaaaaa]

stop trying to distract me by fake flirting with me!! its not gonna work ((okay it is lowkey working)) but its MEAN. just be honest :/

[keehlurselfs]

and what makes you think i’d be lying to you ?

i am being honest, you are incredibly handsome, for a police officer that is.

[matsudaaaaa]

?? why would you be telling the truth?? literally no one thinks that

[keehlurselfs]

well, perhaps i can show you i’m telling the truth over dinner sometime :)

[matsudaaaaa]

i.... fine. ONLY because i want to learn that info about the kira case though, okay?

(and we have to go somewhere discreet... i really don't want the task force asking me why im casually having dinner with MELLO instead of catching him.)

[keehlurselfs]

aww, am i a hot topic around there ? cute

[matsudaaaaa]

i have some info on the kira case, if you’re interested ;)

... fine... i still dont forgive you though!! and um

why me? i can give you the contact info for the new L instead, he's a lot smarter...

[keehlurselfs]

you’ll understand why i can’t do that once we talk.

[matsudaaaaa]

??? um. alright... im listening, i guess..

[matsudaaaaa]

i think i got pranked. 💔

[keehlurselfs]

didn’t sound enthusiastic enough.

[matsudaaaaa]

DID YOU WANT ME TO DO A LITTLE DANCE OR SOMETHING??? o_o

[keehlurselfs]

hm. sounds like a good start :)

[matsudaaaaa]

i have some info on the kira case, if you’re interested ;)

... fine... i still dont forgive you though!! and um

why me? i can give you the contact info for the new L instead, he's a lot smarter...

[keehlurselfs]

you’ll understand why i can’t do that once we talk.

[matsudaaaaa]

??? um. alright... im listening, i guess..

[matsudaaaaa]

i think i got pranked. 💔

[keehlurselfs]

didn’t sound enthusiastic enough.