For EVERY enderman (live or dead blog)
I don’t give up! I won’t give up!
reblog if you NEVER give up
I wrote this statement 4 years ago
Hi!
You may not know or remember me. I used to draw on this site, “mainly” enderman characters.
I was around 13 when I found endermen oc on google images, later on I’ve decided to follow all endermen I could on tumblr and then decided to draw my first oc. In the beginning it seemed I’m doing right: I drew with my low level skills, answered few questions I got, and met with new people. I was happy that I could find something I loved. Then, years later checked back and realized…
I ruined it… f*cking ruined it
My purpose was to talk new people, finding my ocs by others, to recognize them, remember them, to draw my favourite endermens in the community.
I did some awkward stuff in elementary school that made me socially anxious. Drawing always made me angry for no reason, because of that, I often stopped drawing, so in my free times I only liked drawings, until I found out that I could get notes by reblog.
I was so excited, that I went too far. These images are from my archive before I cleaned out.
I reblogged so much that my artworks were lost in all of other posts
Then I thought it would be a good idea, to make sh*tty logos and tried to make some kind of promotion(?) which made situations more complicated and awkward. Of course people didn’t what blog I was.
I’ve lost my focus from my real purpose: draw my endermens, making rps and comics.
I failed miserably
Later on I’ve tried Devintart where I also kinda failed. I uploaded many stuff and also made new enderman ocs but because I was still a retard, I answered questions in a wrong way and not made enough endermen content…
It’s 2020, I’m 19, using Twitter more often, and still thinking about my past. I don’t like endermens now as my “childhood self”, I even started to hate them. I don’t know what should I do anymore…
I gave up
Sorry for taking your time reading this, I wanted to let it out.


















