Queer-autistische Träume

Kiki Hesterkamp. Zitate die mir gefallen oder mich inspirieren, Posts übers schreiben, und ab und zu vielleicht auch etwas zu meinen eigenen Romanprojekten

[kikihesterkamp]

Nach über siebzehn Jahren Kreatives Schreiben komme ich langsam dem Punkt immer näher, an dem ich hoffentlich gut genug bin um zu versuchen, professionell zu veröffentlichen.

Weil aber mein eigentlicher Blog ein ziemliches Chaos an Fandom-Posts, Memes und Politik ist, dachte ich, sollte ich vielleicht einen eigenen Blog für mein Schreiben erstellen.

Wie der Titel schon sagt, bin ich eine bisexuelle, autistische Frau, und das zeigt sich auch in den Themen meiner Romane und Kurzgeschichten und Fanfictions. Es wird einfach viel zu wenig über diese Überschneidung an Identitäten geschrieben, vor allem auch im deutschen Raum und in Science Fiction, Dystopie und Fantasy, den Genres die ich bevorzuge.

Außerdem werde ich hier auch viele Zitate aus Büchern, die ich grade gelesen habe hineinstellen, weil sie mich bewegen, berühren oder beeindrucken.

[wizardarchetypes]

like and the idea that women are 'allowed' to be emotional under patriarchy while men aren't is so wild to me because anyone who's ever been a woman in a workplace knows there's no fucking way you can ever be emotional without basically being shadowbanned from any opportunity for promotion or important assignments/projects forever and ever and ever. any woman can tell you the social punishment for crying or even getting a little emotional in almost any situation. women are expected to be emotional, but they are not free to be emotional. they are punished for it all the same. and yes, certain marginalized men are also forbade from showing emotion because they will be similarly punished.

but my point is that i feel men can and should discuss the issue of shame which stifles men's emotions without pretending we live in a fantasy world where women are exempt from the issue.

"men are shamed for showing emotion" is a true statement, full stop. there's no reason to begin or end it by insisting women, in contrast, are not.

[rottingtrouble-child]

I saw this video about a doctor who performed an MRI on a 5 year old and discovered she essentially had “brain damage” from excessive iPad use, as the white matter in her brain couldn’t form properly due to an understimulated environment.

Hmm it’s almost like there’s supposed to be adult figures responsible for monitoring her screen time and making sure she develops properly… certainly this isn’t the result of neglect at the hands of her parents…

[rottingtrouble-child]

“This 5 year old is brain damaged by excessive iPad use”

Translation: This 5 year old is developmentally impaired by neglectful parents who used an iPad as a stand-in for social and environmental stimulation / interaction for hours at a time during critical early stages of child development. The iPad is the cop-out.

[rottingtrouble-child]

“Children don’t have the strength to hold pencils anymore because they only use screens.”

Translation: Parents aren’t making the conscious effort to help their children develop necessary skills and letting iPads raise them.

When are people going to realize the iPads and whatnot are the instruments through which the neglect is happening through and not the cause? How the fuck do you let your child have such a severe lack of physical strength in their hands that they can’t hold a pencil properly?

[rottingtrouble-child]

People will see a study suggesting children with higher screen times have poorer or negative developmental outcomes and immediately say it’s the screens causing this, and not the more likely fact that higher screen time = less engagement time with their environment, physical exercise, parents, family, and their peers, all of which are NECESSARY for a healthy upbringing as a social species.

It’s like saying a dog who was kept in a cage all its life and left with atrophied muscles was damaged by the cage, and not by the fact its owners were too lazy to play or walk their dog in order for its muscles to build properly. The cage is the instrument of neglect and the owners are the perpetrators, in the same way parents are the perpetrators and weaponizing screen time as an excuse and painting themselves as helpless bystanders.

[kikihesterkamp]

Slightly worried my novel dissolves into men-writing-women territories since I have quite a few descriptions of boobs by now. But then, these descriptions are from the perspective of sapphic women (both protagonists are bi butches), so I hope that differentiates it enough.

Yeah, boobs are described in a horny way, but it is in the context of the protagonist also being attracted to how strong and angular her love interest is. Or in context of accidentally almost touching them during sexually charged fight training, and I describe this character not just as strong, but outright bulky, aka chubby in a threatening way. It is not the POV-perspective (yet), but one of the protagonists is very flat-chested and her love interest finds that incredibly attractive.

I don't actually think describing boobs, even hornily, automatically makes it men-writing-women (yes, even if it does come from a cishet man), it is a very specific mix of objectification and honing in on extremely tightly set beauty standards.

And also, I am not willing to participate in this weird "I am not better than a man because I think that women is hot" purity posturing. So I guess I continue

[lazer-exe]

I'm gonna say it, I do think that even the laziest person imaginable should have a roof over their head, food in their stomach, and access to healthcare

[torirosepatrocolus]

first in my bloodline to read this much gay fanfiction

[noisytenant]

Whenever I see some anon asking an artist if it's "okay to take inspiration" from their art it makes me want to make some kind of manifesto or billboard or PSA or skywriting campaign to undo whatever damage strange litigious illustrator types inflicted upon the most basic foundations of the creative process. We can't let them get away with this

[aromanticduck]

Free service with ads: Well, if I'm not paying for it they have to foot the bill somehow.

Paid service with no ads: Well, if they're not funding it with ad revenue, they need to charge us something.

Paid service with ads: Well that's bullshit.

"We used to be a paid service without ads, but now we're putting ads in it! If you want the ad-free version you have to pay more for preeeeemium": Fuck you fuck you fuck you

[alvoskia]

Lord, I'm one, Lord, I'm two Lord, I'm three, Lord, I'm four Lord, I'm five hundred miles from my home

been thinking about the Dearborn family lately

[kikihesterkamp]

Finally at the point where my two protagonists interact for the first time. Or, well, protagonist and villain-protagonist. I so looked forward describing their first impressions of each other.

And also writing their first fight, since the villain protagonist just landed with her spaceship in order to start her regimes mission, and the protagonist, declared a terrorist in that mission, had nowhere to go but to attack.

[vintageandroid]

i made a post like this before but I can't find it now. so. I'll just redo it.

What's the first "big news story" you remember from when you were a kid?

It's something I love to ask mixed-aged groups sometimes because I think it's really interesting to see the responses. I've gotten answers from the Olympics of [whatever year] to Watergate to more recent stuff from my niblings.

My first news thing I remember is the OJ Simpson trial. I vaguely remember watching the news with my grandparents before that, but that's the first story I remember, in part because my second grade teacher had us go play so she could watch the verdict 😂

[absolutelynotclassicusernam-blog]

I remember walking down the street and seeing a sign protesting George W. Bush’s war on Iraq, so I think that.

[kikihesterkamp]

Something about mad cow disease which also showed a dead cow being burned, and I remember feeling so sad for the cow

[stealingpotatoes]

i don't know what older adults were on about when they said being a teenager was good <3

[langernameohnebedeutung]

isn't it fun how quality standards just do not apply to AI?

I just had to call a customer service hotline - but now they put you through to an AI. I had a pretty simple request, a simple piece of information to be relayed to a responsible party. But the AI couldn't do that, so we went in circles (drip-drop goes the water~) until I finally got put through to an actual human person employee, who took my message and e-mailed the person and that was it.

BUT what's interesting is: I got the announcement "Your call might be recorded, please stay in the line to evaluate this conversation-" between my "conversation" with the AI and before I got put through to the human employee. Not before talking to the AI. Before talking to the actual person. Mind you, the AI failed this pretty simple task and went in circles and was useless. The employee was friendly and immediately helped me, no problem. But I can only evaluate her, not the crap AI.

Any negative evaluation on my part would reflect poorly on the person who helped me, so obviously I give a positive evaluation - but that also means that from the perspective of the company, customer satisfaction remains constant ("yay AI was a success!") OR it gets worse for the human employees when people take out their frustration with the AI on them. Pisses me off.

[1989nihil]

Hope this brings you zum schmunzeln, OP:

Wegen KI-Fehlern: Ford holt 350 erfahrene Ingenieure zurück

Eigentlich sollte künstliche Intelligenz alles schneller, billiger und besser machen. Nicht beim Autoriesen Ford: Steigende Kosten und Mänge

[langernameohnebedeutung]

Also haben sie bereits existierende Designs in die "ich gebe dir bei allem Recht!" Maschine geworfen und ihr gesagt, sie soll daraus ein Auto remixen...und es hat nicht geklappt??? :0

[unscharf-an-den-raendern]

[mealreminders]

X

Remember to eat so you have the energy and strength to fight the patriarchy and fascism.

[osinthewhite]

"but physical media is worse quality and will break with time" I DON'T CARE! I WANT TO OWN THINGS I LIKE! I WANT SHELVES FULL OF DVDS, CDS, AND A LIBRARY!

[the-desolated-quill]

That’s not even remotely true. I have DVDs and CDs from the fucking 90s that still work.

The Sony shills are getting desperate. They know they’re on the losing side of the argument, hence why they have to make up guff like this. If the facts truly support their claim that digital is the future, then why are they lying? They shouldn’t need to, should they? 🤔

[datasoong47]

[linguisticparadox]

[r5h]

Relevant XKCD: https://xkcd.com/2609/

[bralsra-deactivated20250108]

theres ALWAYS a relevant XKCD for everything huh