for anyone whoās been following for Heartbeat (Fire on Fire) updates, hereās a little snippet something I wrote for the next bit:
āIād bond with you right now.ā
Louisā smile grows wider until he has crinkles by his eyes.Ā
āI would too.ā He admits quietly. āBut you deserve a proper romantic ask, and I want to give that to you first.ā
āAnd I want to ask you proper too!ā Harry says. āSo we canāt until each of us has asked the other.ā
Louis pulls Harry closer, and when their lips touch, the spark of electricity feels stronger than ever before.Ā
āWait,ā Harry pulls back. āCan I just bring up one more thing thatās been on my mind?ā
āUm, are you sure that Iām not putting too much on you?ā
āWhat do you mean?ā Louisā brows furrow with confusion.
āLike, that Iām leaning on you too much. I donāt want you to feel like, exhausted with how much you have to um, be understanding and just, be there for me and stuff. Does that make sense?ā
āIt does make sense. But no, youāre not putting too much on me. I am your partner. We are doing life together. You are supposed to be able to lean on me.ā
āAre you sure, though? Because I feel like you do all this for me, but I feel like you donāt ever need to lean on me.ā There it is, the thing heās been insecure about.Ā
āHave you ever heard the saying that comparison is the thief of joy?ā Louis softly tucks a curl behind Harryās ear. āWe are two different people, you canāt compare us in any facet - emotionally, physically, sexually - none of that. The unfortunate fact is that your past and the things that youāve been through means that you need to be loved in a different way than me. And that is absolutely, one hundred percent okay. Also, I do lean on you. I lean on you for more than you realize. You love me in the ways that I need to be loved. You listen to my work problems, and you make my tea just the way I like it every single day, you give me massages without me even having to ask. You reassure me when I need it. You let me be super meticulous about the way that I need our space to be organized. You let me be the little spoon and make me feel safe being fucked without making it into something heteronormative. We lean on each other. Give and take. Iām not keeping tabs. I just love you, and you love me just the same.ā