Being unsure whether I should follow inktober2020 oder linktober2020.

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Cosimo Galluzzi
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Janaina Medeiros
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@kinky-corpsbride
Being unsure whether I should follow inktober2020 oder linktober2020.
Kinda forgot its October and got very tired so starting with a 20 min speed drawing - art supplie changed during half of the time. Kinda embarrassing but hey I’m in it for the feeling 😅
I didn’t have the choice whether to be born or not. I didn‘t have a choice to be traumatised and broken by so many things and people in my life.. I didn’t have the choice whether to be sick and never know if I got 60 years or like 60 days left to live..
So please.. let me have that one choice in my life. Let me have the choice, to leave this place, when It’s time for it..
My eyes are heavy,
My heart is cold
Let’s open my veins
Like I was told..
My live is a nightmare
That sadly came true
Dear happy me..
I‘m missing you...
Happy birthday to me tomorrow?
Or happy „let’s give my suicide attempts it’s 18th try“ day..
Still discussing with my self
Why do we always try to be nice and lovely too everyone, even though they’ve hurt us? Let’s take some moments to be the Demons we are and let happen what has to happen.
Zwischenbilanz
- über Jahre sexuell Missbraucht
- 2 mal vergewaltigt
- 3 Stalker
- 4 gewalttätige Ex-Freunde
- 17 Suizidversuche
- 30 Diagnosen, psychisch wie körperlich
- 10 Jahre zu leben (wenn sich nichts ändert)
- 4 mal Psychiatrie
- ED auf Autopilot
- 5 mal fast gestorben (abseits der Suizidversuche)
- .... Fortsetzung Folgt
Panicking cause I know I’m crashing down in the next 7 seven days. But no plan when, so every seconds scares me.
ANXIETY!
Being loved shouldn’t be that scary and painful anymore.. it shouldn’t make me feel uncomfortable, worthless, anxious and depressed.
Jeder hasst mich.. ausnahmslos jeder.
It fuckin doesn’t matter if you will ever win the war, cause you won’t be abled to put your attention on the victory. You will just sit there and try to crawl back to when you had a personality.. even though it was a disorder, cause now you have to go in, looking for yourself in all the ashes and the shards, while always keeping an eye back on the enemy you defeated.. scared he‘s growing back to fight you again now that you start healing..
„DEATH“
D rugs
E mergency rooms
A nxiety
T rauma
H eartbreak
girls this is important as fuck
I will never not reblog this. Nothing is more important than this. Remember it always.
this needs to be signal boosted for all to see.
This goes for lgbtqia relationships too kids.
leave while you still see the early red flags, before it becomes really dangerous.
What Are the “Warning Signs” of an Abuser?
Red flags and warning signs of an abuser include but are not limited to:
Extreme jealousy
Possessiveness
Unpredictability
A bad temper
Cruelty to animals
Verbal abuse
Extremely controlling behavior
Antiquated beliefs about roles of women and men in relationships
Forced sex or disregard of their partner’s unwillingness to have sex
Sabotage of birth control methods or refusal to honor agreed upon methods
Blaming the victim for anything bad that happens
Sabotage or obstruction of the victim’s ability to work or attend school
Controls all the finances
Abuse of other family members, children or pets
Accusations of the victim flirting with others or having an affair
Control of what the victim wears and how they act
Demeaning the victim either privately or publicly
Embarrassment or humiliation of the victim in front of others
Harassment of the victim at work
What Traits Do Abusers Have in Common?
There is no one typical, detectable personality of an abuser. However, they do often display common characteristics.
An abuser often denies the existence or minimizes the seriousness of the violence and its effect on the victim and other family members.
An abuser objectifies the victim and often sees them as their property or sexual objects.
An abuser has low self-esteem and feels powerless and ineffective in the world. He or she may appear successful, but internally, they feel inadequate.
An abuser externalizes the causes of their behavior. They blame their violence on circumstances such as stress, their partner’s behavior, a “bad day,” on alcohol, drugs, or other factors.
An abuser may be pleasant and charming between periods of violence and is often seen as a “nice person” to others outside the relationship.
Will always reblog!!
Stupid lies Part 1: ...
~ I’m just tired
~ I’m not hungry
~ I can really open up in Therapie. It helps so much
~ “no I’m not suicidal anymore. It was just a stupid phase like self harming, being bisexual or bay blade...”
~ It’s ok if you project all of your selfhate on me. That what friends are for
~ I feel comfortable with your friends. I feel like they like me and integrated me in your group
~ I’m not jealous.
Stupid lies Part 1: ...
~ I’m just tired
~ I’m not hungry
~ I can really open up in Therapie. It helps so much
~ “no I’m not suicidal anymore. It was just a stupid phase like self harming, being bisexual or bay blade...”
~ It’s ok if you project all of your selfhate on me. That what friends are for
~ I feel comfortable with your friends. I feel like they like me and integrated me in your group
~ I’m not jealous.