like the betrayalās always going to be worse if they cared about you and it didnāt matter. someone discards you because they didnāt give a shit, then you can be angry about that, you can feel vindicated in that, you can get over it. but if they can look you in the eyes and say āI love you. I would make the same choice again.ā You will never sleep peacefully again, is all.
āI thought they cared about me, but they were lying this whole time.ā <- tired. boring. removes all the nuance of this relationship to make it easier to move on from.
āI thought they cared about me, and I was right, and every minute they were there for me, every time they said they were proud, every laugh we shared leaning against each other bruised and breathless, all of it was real. and they still left me behind. They could put their love aside. I couldnāt.ā <- insane. will never leave you alone. reminds you that even the worst people are still people and can still care about even the ones they hurt the most and that undoes neither the harm nor the love.
okay. something about the way i worded this is making people think this is a vent thing about real relationships. and itās fine if thatās where it took you. but i feel like i need to be transparent here: this be blorboposting. karlach cliffgate and her terrible awful no good very bad betrayal.
