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More freaks for the freak pile.

.smth about extremely repressed and suicidal trans girl having the “evil” version of herself tell her that she looks good in a dress. and then she tells that reflection that she wants her dead. Yeah

cloudedcomet

I think if you understand TADC as a deeply personal and direct story centering on transness, emotional/self repression, the inner complexity of cruel people, ego, control, self-destructive tendencies, second chances, and what it means to live a meaningful life, all filtered through the core vision of one person, you'll find a raw expression of all those things, an experience being shared. You'll find a story that is consistent in its theme, subject matter, and quality throughout. Not something impossibly esoteric or flawlessly sophisticated, but a story that puts every piece it needs to into place. A story that completes itself, that says what it needs to and leaves a mark after it does.

Conversely, if you understand TADC as a story to take every single aspect, moment, outcome, and detail totally literally rather than in tandem with the thematic signficance it communicates. Or were looking for a more lore-driven story. Or were hoping for a more rounded exploration of its world and characters, a hollistic dive into the premise it sets up rather than a story barreling towards a specific end goal/a very pointed thematic stance. You're gonna end up disappointed with what you got.

And this is not a moral judgement, I don't think any expectation is at all more correct than another. I actually think my last point is probably even the most fair stance to have. Especially if you don't engage with any secondary material and just look at the show itself, since it doesn't totally establish Jax as a core focus until later in its run. Some storylines do feel very sidelined.

But if you view the show for what it was meant to be rather than what it was expected to be, I personally think it was rather beautiful. Not perfect, not the pinnacle of cinema, but as a trans woman, it was meaningful to me, dearly so. I feel like the standards its being held to aren't totally reasonable. I think it's a story that deserved to be told as it is, I think it's human.

ferweenie

Gooseworx is stronger than me because if my introspective transgender theme narrative about identity and accepting your circumstances was infiltrated by media iliterate 12 year olds who treated my work like it was fnaf and said my self insert of me at my worst was literally the worst person who deserved nothing but the worst and could not recover ever i would actually fucking explode. I would kill people. How does she do it.

cholerascum

all I will say is that I think this movie is incredibly important media in current year.

cholerascum

to have something made by a trans woman be such a global success to THIS scale, something completely indie too, and so well recognized and have the reach it has.

breaking things down to the basics, gooseworx is a trans woman who posts art online. and in current year, with the current political climate, to have a regular trans woman make something so important?

I'm a trans woman that posts art online. a whole hell of a lot of my friends and family are too.

maybe I could do what goose has done.

blackwellselfieho

I kinda like the idea of jax becoming a cautionary tale of what happens when you let dysphoria and self hatred eat you alive. I've met so many of him IRL in my own circles. I think people need to hear it. I need more characters who eat themselves alive and actually have to suffer the consequences of not choosing to be better. It's pretty refreshing to see a different and nuanced take on dysphoria and how it doesn't always manifest the way you would expect.

demilypyro

"if Jax is a trans woman she's still an abuser so she's bad representation so the show is transphobic" you're an idiot. you want your blorbos to be perfect ideal angels, I want my blorbos to be realistic, nuanced, flawed human beings, we are not the same. I LIKE that she's messy and fucked up and problematic, I think it's a realistic depiction of how a lot of repressed and traumatized trans women are. I think the show goes to great lengths to explore how and why she is the way she is, and to evoke sympathy for this kind of person. it doesn't excuse her actions but it does make them understandable. and I think the fact women like that deserve sympathy is an idea worth stating and worth shouting. yes she's a bully and she hurt everyone around her and that may never change. she still deserves sympathy.

myaatwins

here’s this while i’m still processing the movie

parasauropteryx

ive been thinking about this for a while, about how the way jax is treated by some fans irl is a really bitter reflection of her status as a closeted trans woman. it feels like it adds to the tragedy of it in a way. i see so many fans vitriolically referring to her as a man, refusing to think any further and only thinking they see some sort of predator and abuser. insisting she is irredeemable and should be shunned by the only people she has in her life. jax isn't real but even so, her actions are treated as if they are. "jax is just gooseworx's favourite" yeah. why do you think that is? what is she putting of herself in jax? why do you automatically assume this means the transfem creator must be a violent and abusive person instead of anything else? why do you say you want to see more messy female art but make an exception in this case? the whole thing feels like metatextual performance art.

demilypyro

Digital circus' biggest problem is that it was written to be a niche show aimed at weird analytical queers with actual media literacy and it accidentally blew tf up and hit the mainstream and a bunch of people who have never had a second thought about anything got into it

kicsterash

My entry for my friend's DTIYS on instagram :) Hope you all like it!

alicemaryx331

☆Retry now Jax!♡!♡!☆

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wonderlandsghost

Is it just me who's kinda put off by the idea that Jax doesn't deserve sympathy/a redemption arc/anything good basically? Or even the idea that Jax actually deserves abstraction?

God, I don't even know how to word this without making people think I'm excusing their actions. But the fact of the matter is them taking accountability for their actions and growing as a person aren't mutually exclusive at all! They can do both!

I see so many comments and tiktok posts about how they're an abuser and how the show and characters excuses their actions because misogyny and I can't help but think... If Jax does end up having a hopeful ending where it's implied that they'll grow and change, people will have a huge problem with that because lord forbid genuinely bad people even try making an attempt at change and growth.

Don't even get me started on the "Pomni is a pick me girl" comments. I see so many of them on tiktok. Mostly jokes about how Pomni would defend Jax even though they're such a bad guy. And I know they're just jokes and maybe I'm being too sensitive but I'm like.. What even prompted that as a comment? Literally at no point did I remember Pomni excusing Jax' actions. She is quite literally just.. Being there for them.

This is literally just a ramble and not really a properly detailed rant.. English isn't my first language and I don't have the vocabulary to properly write down a lot of my points but I hope this comes across as cohesive. I'm using they/them for Jax because I'm becoming more and more sure that they'll come out as transfem in the finale and I feel weird using he/him.

Sighs. I don't know. I hope Jax has a hopeful ending (and comes out as a girl.)