I Left My Brain on My Window

Lazy time poet. Pandaan-based cat.

[dimazfakhr]

“Semua itu ada masanya. Jangan terburu-buru mau memulai yang baru kalau yang sebelumnya belum benar-benar selesai. Selesaikan dulu sampai benar-benar selesai. Agar tak membebanimu di kemudian hari.”

— @dimazfakhr

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Satu Inginku

Aku ingin berdua bersamamu di antara lengahnya langit malam Di bawah siraman bintang dalam kegelapan yang temaram Bergandengan tangan tiada melihat ke depan dan belakang Tersenyum, tertawa pada kesedihan yang sesaat menghilang Aku ingin kabur bersama jemarimu yang bergoyang di ketinggian Menari, melekuk, mengarungi sungai penuh bebatuan Aku ingin rembulan terlelap dalam seribu malam Jatuh dan tenggelam, terkoyak hempaskan nyanyian Aku ingin bercengkerama dengan belaian rambutmu Bersama nada rendah melayang di ujung lidahmu Berpelukan dalam panas dan dinginnya isi dunia Bercerita dan bercinta dengan hanya bertatap mata Aku ingin ada di dua puluh empat jammu yang terbuang sia-sia Tergeletak tak berkuasa, tak berdaya, tanpa balutan busana Aku ingin menjadi sepenggal nafas berat di ujung angkasa Dalam aliran deras yang kian meluncur bersama asa Aku ingin meraih selaksa sinar dalam derap kakimu Bersama cepatnya detak jantung yang merayu tubuhmu Aku ingin menarikmu dalam hasrat abadi kehidupan Merayap, menggelayut dalam belahan, merasuki belaian Aku ingin menyentuh peluhmu dengan arus yang berbisik Lewat bibir yang terbakar oleh kepulan asap kerinduan Aku ingin detik terhempas tanpa ada yang mengusik Jatuh hati pada kedipan mata penuh ketidakpastian Akulah pelaut dalam diamnya lautan biru Menderu haru dan menyentuh kalbu Akulah rahasia dalam tumpukan dosa Terbawa ragu menuju akhir masa Kaulah indahnya nyanyian hujan di musim panas Surya jingga yang kabur di bawah kaki tak beralas Kau adalah tiga buah huruf mendayu dalam mimpi Terselip di jaring pikiran yang tak mampu kuakhiri

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One and Two

Today I was wearing accustomed black shirt Not to mention with all the joy in its every dirt I can remember enough anytime you wore skirt Nothing seemed odder than a frozen dessert As if the season changed so would you And the freezing hands we hold, lost its clue I'm might be desperately mad at you But I am just a past time overdue I tried to keep up to let myself telling you That the sky you drew is still a dark blue Clear in my head you've found something new Far better than exchange our shoe Sometimes the trees just remind me With all of us stood there to see As if I lay my rest to have some tea I'll smile away and never lose any This one is for you for me this is hard but it is true Within memories that pull us through And all the strange that makes us two

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Suatu Hari Tanpa Sepatu

Kau sibakkan belahan indah rambutmu Torehkan wajah lembutmu tiada meragu Kau lukiskan warna di tiap goresan semu Di sekujur pojok gurantan tajam matamu Pagi berkicau di kedua pijakan kakimu Lalui setiap sudut, kautapaki jalanmu Sesekali menebar semerbak syahdu Kauberbisik lagu mentari yang merdu Tak henti kupandangi dirimu Berlenggok dengan kaki jenjangmu Tiada aku pernah merasa malu Keindahan dunia sekejap berlalu

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#23

Luapan ini tertuju padamu Pada kerinduan yang mendayu Pada lembaran yang membiru

Aku melagu mengenangmu syahdu Memandangi memori indah tiada ragu Pada canda tawa yang kini membisu

Pagi yang indah telah menantimu Merayu ragamu menuju kelabu Tiada terkira betapa aku cemburu

Mimpimu mencuri sebagian waktuku Berlari dari apa yang tak pernah kami tahu Kaujejak renungan tanpa senyum palsu

Dirimu di hati kami selalu Dalam dan jauh singgahi kalbu Menderu-deru memecah beku

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Sweet Sleep

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House of Wolves You're not living down on the hell Get up to reach heaven and be well I seek you highway so you won't dwell Didn't make it sound like you might fell

Vampire Town Woke up mighty far outside my house Couldn't move, couldn't see as I suppose

The sun lights are so slight to dispose Missing home's smell sharp like a rose

My head heightened that I feel overdose Thought I'm thirsty and becoming crows

I want red licking my mouth to my nose Now you know I'm the hell one of those

Deadman Road I saw flies creeping out of bodies Wrecking those brains into pieces Turned out I got up and started running Only there I felt I can't be long staying Gone to the dust all I want is one thing Despise all sickness to be human being

City of Angels I've got my wings piercing with gold And a lonely part alone in the cold I slept with the sky with nothing to hold Dreamt the dream that's never sold

High Garden I've known since I'm in the other side Left the undead with my own ride Hail away for the light is too bright And I'm done afraid of what it might

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Sometimes when I can't put up anymore fight people know nothing about.

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Time Machine

A wound may heals as seconds gone by A circle will not end even if men die The wind’s breezing through our window All tears we drown are nothing but a show

Befriended with the tree and the bird Never once bothered us to be a nerd To know the heart is to feel the blood To catch those dreams we now forget about

Felt the shot of our madly deeply love Nothing in this word we didn’t know of In any minute now remembering those days As well as walking to our very own ways

I was our part we promised not to apart And history is now we are about to start Missing the piece hand we hold on tight I’m going left while you go far too right

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Past and Passed

Ice cream garden full of theory I don’t care I just want to be free Your strawberry tastes like a sorry Our past tense is a part of history

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Her

Long I waited for the good to come forward Then I realised she wanted me to move toward Asked me to stay inbetween Spoke to me not again to be mean

She said she shall be there Staring at the atmosphere She shouted like I was able Instead of being this imposible

Like the drawn sky on a paper Blue, bold and seemed clearer What I was thinking is only her Nothing more even to this world

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Windblown

The wind has commenced to blow And I’m staring through the snow No one else can’t enjoy its show But me still skipping every row

Pour the coffee with no sugar Down my throat it felt darker Burnt it all before got bitter Put them out and tasted better

Took some pain from every past All remains can only be last Sewing future shan’t be an enough So I went home tighten up my scarf

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And I suppose you built yourself an army. But you know you can never beat me.

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Cigarette in A Twilight

Dear a cigarette in a twilight I should’ve talked to you last night I can’t seem getting you out of my sight And here after, you might be the late light

So I crawled in the bed with my cat And wearing some sort of stupid hat To go through the reckless infinity Just to stay upon the gravity

I may be having it all But all I’ve got is an old soul Seem no more time needs to roll Now I keep on trying and going fall

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Happy.

Of course happy are also coming from other person, not fully from our-very-self. When we see the ones we love are happy, we should be happy as well. And if they are not, how come we be happy. Why some say happy comes from ourself or from what we decided everything to be. We don’t rule the feeling. God does. Turn it upside down. In every inch of time. Do not get lost on your thoughts.

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Do you like the sky? Cause I can make it fall to you Or do you wish to fly? Cause I shall make it work for you

Oh I would do anything To make you feel something Even I will draw the milky way Just the way you say

My heart is paralysed My eyes’ve been hypnotised You are the sun on my beach You’re the ocean I want to reach

The world means an illusion And you’re my true imagination Living here without you Yet nothing I could do

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Long-loving you is never a regret

Incomparable dreaming So preciously charming You are cold very cold Like falling snow you are I can never reach you Even if I'm always wanting to All this slow motion, I am the impossible Then you just fly higher And falling for you, Is finding treasure You're the best reality, You're my best imagination Knowing you made me understand The difference between love and desire You're the love and always you are As you walk away I feel cracking As you stand closer I cannot breathe To see you is to hold my whole feeling And it wasn't like easy talking to you I feel heavily chilling in front of you Getting colder and freezing This feeling,, I know this would lead me nowhere So then I buried it all as you turn away And then it wakes up every time you near Again and again.. Am I just lost in time? Or I just feel you For so many time I feel you Like the better old days were together To show the world I still want you After all this time I never thought this feeling's still here And I'm exactly a fool enough to show But I guess you already know I dare to say Seeing you near never hurt me But it's an absolute hurting To keep me hiding you inside In some way you're like the rain You remind people their pain I know you shall never read this I know you shall not understand this Just so you know this is all I shall ever get And my rhapsodic of you is never a regret

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Menunggu

Kau mendayu memalingkan wajahmu Melempar senyum jauh nan semu Bersama awan yang berubah abu Kau berlari tapi tiada yang kau tuju Hujan badai, meski lama akan berlalu Jika memang rindu mampu mengubah ragu Aku masih akan bersedih dan menunggu Meski hanya untuk belaian lembut jemarimu Dan demi langit untuk tetap membiru..