— A cruel affair, Itoshi Rin x reader
“ hey rinnie, you’re coming to see my band at the school festival, right ? ” you ask, walking on the right side of your friend and classmate, Itoshi Rin.
“ how many times do I have to tell you that I am for it to stick in your brain ? Seriously. ” the boy retorts crankily, although noting from his tone he wasn’t seriously annoyed at you asking.
“ ouch, aren’t you made of sugar and spice. ” you huff a sigh as you glance at him.
As if feeling your gaze on him, Rin’s gaze falls on yours momentarily aswell.
It was moments like these where your brain would practically rewire.
He had to know of the effect he had on you.
Otherwise his eyes wouldn’t look so softly despite his snazzy tone.
And his lips wouldn’t just slightly move upwards. Giving you the simplest yet most precious smile you had set your eyes on.
If this wasn’t on purpose he was more air headed than you initially thought.
And you were more stupid for continuing to like him.
Breaking eye contact you puff your cheeks out looking straight ahead.
The sound echoed in the empty street as you feel the burning sensation in your face.
Rin’s expression visibly drops as he looks at you.
“ what the hell are you doing slapping yourself idiot ? ” he spits out, stepping in front of you, taking a hold of your face, moving it from side to the side analysing your flushed cheeks.
You badly wished you could tell him that in that moment you weren’t red because you had just slapped yourself seconds before.
“ just wanted to clear my head. ” you try to say as the boy’s hands still squeeze your cheeks slightly.
For a few seconds you stop, basically ogling at him as you felt yourself getting warm from how close he was.
“ My god, you’re such a loser.” The boy chimed as a grin set on his face.
Your face feels empty most immediately as the brunette’s hands leave it.
“ i’ll see you later, want me to pick you up ? ”
you just gaze at him, expression contorted into an unreadable one.
“ it’s okay, thank you. But Yoichi said he’d pick me up. ”
The male says nothing as he turns around leaving for his street.
You think you stayed there watching his back for about 2 extra minutes before moving your own way.
Rin didn’t like you anyway. There was no need to get so worked up over him. Especially not when tonight he would confess his feelings to your best friend.
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Rin had never been the type to catch feelings for anyone in a fast amount of time. Never.
Matter of fact he prided himself with the fact that he didn’t seek out crushes or romantic interests so often at all.
Yet it seems like fate had other plans when throwing you in his life.
You had came with the spring.
Rin had seen you before, you went to the same corner shop as he did. Always got the same things.
A box of cherries and a bag of peanuts.
He didn’t remember that because he cared, it was just a weird combination of snacks. And you’d practically be there every time that he was.
But even then he never approached you.
You were just a stranger.
Until he realised you were the same age, and went to the same school as him. Well, realised is an overstatement.
He saw you before you saw him. It was the first day of school and on his way he had recognised you. Especially as instead of casual clothes, you were wearing the familiar uniform that the boy was adorning himself.
You were definitely lost, noting by the way you looked around aimlessly, holding your phone in the directions you were looking as if that would help.
He almost laughed watching you.
And he felt very stupid for the thought that popped into his head. But it didn’t stop him from continuing to do it.
So he went on, walking, counting down the seconds.
“ excuse me ! ” you approach him swiftly, stopping in front of him.
Bingo. “ hm ? ” he feigns ignorance, peering at you.
“ i’m so sorry to bother, but do you know where BLLK high is ? ” you ask him, looking away nervously.
“ yeah, I go there. ” he states cooly.
Gosh you were really pretty up close.
“ by any chance do you mind if I tag along ? It’s my first day and I also just recently moved so I have no idea how to get there..” you ask him, pushing your hands together looking up with a beaten expression.
The boy clears his throat, looking away momentarily.
“ oh my goodness Yay ! Thank you so much, my name is [name] by the way, what’s yours ? ”
And that day marked the first time Rin had felt like he accomplished something outside of football.
It was silly, and he wouldn’t let anyone know about it, but his interest just kept growing with each interaction you had.
Whether it was having lunch together, or watching him practice, or going to each other’s houses to watch badly written and directed movies.
He thought that you’d catch on he likes you.
Even letting you hear his teammates speak about how anti social he is to other people.
However you seemed to be way more dense than he initially thought.
Because in the two years since you had become friends, you genuinely had no idea Rin was painstakingly, head over heels in love with you.
Even if he wasn’t outright admitting his feelings, he thought you’d at least get the signs. The touchiness, the compliments, the things he’d do for you, and only for you.
Like taking your cleaning duties because you had band practice, or buying you the rilakkuma plushie you were gawking at but didn’t want to get, or picking the olives from your pizza because you didn’t like them.
Or maybe he was too blunt.
Did he seriously not show enough of how much he likes you ?
God what if you didn’t like him back.
He never even thought to consider that you could just be trying to stay friends and nothing more.
The boy groans into his pillow as a sudden wave of the many ways you could reject him tonight crashes into his mind.
You were so pretty today, did you really not catch on that he just wanted to hold your face and be close to you ?
But then you brought up Isagi.
“ stupid isagi. ” rin mutters as he picks up his phone, scrolling through his apps before throwing it on the bed.
Tonight was going to happen anyway. There’s no time to waste.
You were nervous. Really, really nervous. Especially as this was only your second time performing at your school’s early festival.
And it was the first time you’d perform your own song.
Maybe you shouldn’t. Maybe the song was too personal.
But you had written it specifically for tonight. And because you had no other way to vent your stupid crush out.
Even if you were to consider another song, you had no time. You already sent the tabs to your other members, you couldn’t put them through the hell of learning another song in under an hour.
So you tuned it all and just focused on getting ready.
Before you know the time for Isagi Yoichi, your best friend and bassist of your band to pick you up was already here.
You give your outfit another look before basically flying down the stairs as you overhear the chatter between Isagi and your mother.
“ i’m ready ! ” you shout as you get to the last step.
Both of the pair of eyes turn to you as your mother gives you a big hug and smile seeing you, whilst Isagi helps you with your bag.
You both say your goodbyes to your mother and leave on your way.
“ are you ready ? ” the boy asks, peering at you as he put on his helmet.
“ okay maybe let’s not say that now. ” he sighs amusingly, putting the other helmet on you as you both get on the bike.
The ride there is quiet as your mind is filled of scenarios of how tonight is going to play out.
You’re going to need a tube of ice cream for yourself by the end of the night. And definitely a rewatch of to all the boys i’ve loved before.
You feel slightly bitter as you finally get backstage. You shouldn’t be, you should feel extremely happy for your best friend, but how could you be when you’ve liked Rin for so long.
You shake your head as you prepare your microphone. Nothing to do now anyways.
As you all get ready to get on stage, your name is announced cheerily, claps erupting from both familiar and non familiar faces. Sometimes this felt more like just a highschool band.
As you get on stage you feel the nerves, with eyes watching you, both curiously and excitedly.
“ this is a cruel affair. Enjoy. ” you announce, a graceful smile on your face as you looked a the crowd.
Searching for a familiar face.
And there he was, Itoshi Rin.
In all of his glory, adorning his black zip up, with a few chains on his neck that make him look even more handsome than usual.
Your eyes lock for a split second before your gaze averts to the side as you start singing.
As she wakes, they all say, with wide-eyed gaze and amaze.
Your voice echoes throughout the room as people listen to the melody in a trance like state.
How can somethin’ so uncomplicated, still fill her brain…
The stage erupts in applauses as you finally finish. You try to catch your breath as you turns around to your friends smiling softly.
As you all pay your respects once more you leave the stage.
“ that was so good you guys ! ” you exclaim excitedly as you hug them all.
“ I thought I was going to literally die from the heat up there bruh..” bachira mumbles as he lays his lead on Isagi’s shoulder.
“ no kidding it was so hot. ” your best friend mutters as she fans herself.
You all spark more conversations sharing what you had enjoyed most and other silly stuff.
You talk for a few more minutes before your voices are interrupted by a familiar voice.
“ hey. ” he says in his familiar serious tone.
You don’t even need to turn around, matter of fact you think if you will, you’ll just start crying.
“ hey yoi, can you drop me off home now please ? ”
“ huh now ? ” the boy asks his expression turning into a confused one as he looks at your other friends in shared agreement, before they all turn their gaze to the male standing in front of the curtains.
Rin’s eyes widen slightly as he calls out to you, almost choking on his words. “ don’t ! ”
You turn around looking at him, swallowing down on nothing as you finally get to see him up close.
Ugh you were right. He looked even better now.
“ I need to speak to you [name], preferably alone. ” he mutters as his gaze falters off of yours, looking down before immediately looking right back at you with sheer determination.
“ with..me ? " you ask, eyebrows scrunching in pure confusion.
Were you going to be rejected ? F— no.
But your words halt as you feel two familiar hands push you forward, your best friend.
“ go [nickname] ! Why are you making the poor boy wait. ” you felt a pang of slight hurt in your heart.
Nevertheless you swallow all of your emotions down and after letting out a long sigh you follow the brunette outside.
“ do you think she knows he likes her ? ” bachira asks, munching on a pack of pokie sticks.
“ he thinks she only sees him as a friend. Take a wild guess. ” Isagi states, crossing his arms with a sigh.
“ they’re both just as dense as each other. ”
That was something the three could all agree on.
You and Rin have been walking for what felt like ages now. ( it’s been 5 minutes )
Did rejections really have to drag out this long ?
“ so, how come we had to come all the way out here ? ” you ask as you follow closely behind him.
The boy gulps down as he finally looks up at you, his gaze locking yours as he pulls you closely, facing him.
You look up at him in slight surprise, unable to react in any other way as your mind tries to think of any way to survive the interaction in itself.
You shut your eyes, preparing yourself for the moment you expected the whole day.
“ I’ve liked you ever since the first time we met . ”
“ you and her would make an amazing pair ! ”
“ huh. ” you both say looking at each other simultaneously.
After a few more seconds of nervously being in the presence of each other rin finally breaks the silence.
“ I like you [name]. I’ve always liked you. I’m confident enough to even say that I love you, God I love you so much. ” the boy says as he looks at you desperately searching for an answer in your expression.
“ you’re joking. Rin, is this a joke, is anyone else around—” you ask him, looking around in disbelief.
“ it’s not. Please just look at me, it’s not. ”
Your eyes settle onto his warmly, as you feel the familiar sensation bubbling up in your throat.
“ don’t feel pressured to answer. But, just know, okay ? ” he adds as he looks away, letting out a shaky breath as he turns to leave.
But before he can even take a step, he’s stopped by your grip on his sleeve.
“ I like you Rin. No, I love you. ” you choke out through the sobs tearing at your voice, out of pure happiness.
You didn’t stop crying even after Rin hugged you tightly and kissed each one of your tears away.
Who knew that such a cruel misunderstanding could have such a happy ending.
