Lachryma / Weeping

mid twenty something. MDNI. he/him. ♿ I eat puritans for breakfast. 🥩 Dominant. collection of musings. mostly erotic blog. Intersex trans queer butchdyke. Undead and past gender.

[lachrymalhaze]

I'd taken a bit of a sabbatical from tumblr (as far as posting goes). not entirely back just yet, but been figuring things out in the meantime. like... how people usually tag their blogs for easier organizing.

so, in the spirit of that, tags and a few other things going forward listed below for those interested, this post being subject to being edited whenever there's new additions, etc.

#weepinganswers > for answering submitted asks, q's, etc

#hazybedroomthoughts > anything & everything erotic textposting goes under this

#sensualhaze > erotic audio clips

#lachrymalmusing > sad or poetic writing. more of this may be on the side blog but if its erotic themed in nature prolly end up here. still experimenting

#serioushaze > going forward I intend to try to keep most of this stuff to my side blog @lachrymosedays but some of itll be over here for awareness sake, eg, censorship bills

also as im aware tumblr's kinky space scene has some... quirks, ill lay down a few other expectations.

- if you want to engage sexually with me or want me to fulfill any fantasy at all, I expect to be paid. mutuals can dm, anyone else, $$$$$$$$, I wanna see you put dollars where your mouth is. my cashapp is $lachrymalhaze if youre interested

- i'm here to promote myself and make money first, and learn things and find some community second. i'm new to things. be kind. if youre more experienced im happy to be friends or take any advice that is given freely. xoxoxoxo

- what kinks do i have? who knows. why dont you follow along & find out. or get up close & personal. wink wonk.

otherwise....

zionists can fuck off forever. free palestine (ONE state solution, Palestine). eyes on sudan & congo. land back. Black lives matter. the only good fascist is a dead fascist. no one is free until everyone is free. tme/tma shit is gonna make me pop peoples eyes out their skulls.

[theperksofbeingahugefuckingcunt]

Okay I’m currently furious that migraines are often so blindly easy to treat and I had to find this out myself at the age of 26 when I’ve been to a neurologist since I was 11 lol so I’m about to teach you two neat and fast little tricks to deal with pain!

The first is the sternocleidomastoid muscle, or the SCM muscle.

This big red section is responsible for pain around the eye, cheekbone, and jaw, as well as some temple pain. Literally all you have to do is angle your head down a little, angle it away from the side that hurts, and then you can gently pinch and rub that muscle. I find it best to start at the bottom and travel upwards. The relief is so immediate! You can increase pressure as you feel comfortable doing so.

Here is a short and easy video showing this in action

The second is a fast and easy stretch that soothes your vagus nerve, which is the nerve responsible for calming you down. The vagus nerve, for those unfamiliar, is stimulated by deep breathing such as yawning, sighing, singing, or taking a deep breath to calm your anger in a tense situation.

You can stretch this out by sitting up as straight as possible (this does not have to be perfect to work) and interlacing your fingers. Put your hands on the back of your head with your thumbs going down the sides of your neck and, while keeping your face forward, look all the way to one side with just your eyes. Hold that until you feel the urge to breathe deeply or yawn, or until you can tell there’s a change. Then do the same thing on the other side. When you put your arms down, you should clearly be able to turn your head farther in both directions. If the first session doesn’t get rid of your migraine, rest and repeat as many times as necessary. I even get a little fancy with it and roll my eyes up and down along the outer edge sometimes to stretch as much as I can.

If you need a visual here’s a good video on it. I know some of the language they use seems questionable but this is real and simple science and should not be discarded because it’s been adopted by the trendy wellness crowd!

I seriously cannot believe I didn’t hear a word of this from any doctor in my life. Additionally, if you get frequent recurring migraines, you may want to see a dietician. Migraines can be caused by foods containing histamines, lectin, etc. and can also be caused by high blood pressure in specific situations such as exercise, stress, and even sex.

If any of this information helps you I’d love to hear it btw! It’s so so fast and easy to do. Good luck!

[introvertathome]

Reblogging again because this just saved me from a really bad migraine

[vigilskept]

really i think the most insidious part of white supremacy is the way it will convince white people everything is actually About Them. being called out isn’t about you. poc expressing frustration at your behaviour isn’t about you. it’s about how you are affecting others. step one is literally just de-centre yourself from the conversation. anyone who’s not white has already had to learn this lesson the hard way and it gets tiring waiting for the rest of you to catch up

[creatingblackcharacters]

Imma say this and imma start my day, but

Like I said to the person who was threatening me with their own suicide yesterday (before blocking them), I think it's worth considering why y'all make excuses and/or get defensive when someone says something is racist.

Why are you that upset? If I said the design is racist, why are you telling me every reason you thought it wasn't, as if that's going to make the harm any less upsetting? As if it's going to rationalize it (which, really, underscores that you think there's an overreaction occurring).

"Well I thought it was-" "but I thought it was-" "well to be fair, it's-" why do I have to bring an entire court case of evidence to prove harm, but the harmful party/situation in question gets the automatic benefit of the doubt in your mind?

I get being thorough and not accepting anything at face value. But it doesn't escape me that excusing and rationalizing racism is the default response. If we're doing that every time someone approaches us... You may wonder why y'all don't get approached with said problems.

[guelwaar]

people love the idea of the mean girl nurse pipeline because it problematises medical abuse as a personal perversion rather than understanding it as a product of broadly held ableist values and its like, if this was only about ontologically evil teenage girls choosing to enter a profession because of their unique sadism then you really wouldnt expect to see the exact same forms of abuse pervading all arrangements of paid, unpaid, formal, ad hoc, and familial caretaking as well -- its more comforting to believe the nurse was just a preexisting bad person than that most of the world broadly hates disabled people and will abuse, neglect, and gaslight them if given power over their care

[creatingblackcharacters]

If you like stories with:

Female rage

BLACK female rage

Child rage at abuse

Rage at domestic abuse

Stories about burn victims

Vengeance and the internal conflict that comes with it

Rage against misogyny and the violence that comes with

A "was it worth it" narrative

Good soundtracks

Greek tragedies

Kill Bill

Supporting Black women writers

You're gonna LOVE

[creatingblackcharacters]

1) I've been told it's burn survivors, I apologize and will remember this in the future

2) movie leaves theaters TOMORROW MAY 29TH (or so I heard) so if you haven't seen it yet and you want to, and it's available near you, go do so!!

[spicerackgames]

my femdom monsterfucker demo is now done! I'M FREEEE

if you wanna learn more about it / download it, it's here on itch.io!

features:

nameable fem mc (default is mercedes!)

14,000+ words

5 nonhuman guys to meet (+1 monster bestie)

a fun li'l dressup minigame

enjoy 🫶🏽 (any bugs you catch, just inbox me or comment on my devlog on itch!)

[spookycriticalblog]

Fuck it at this point can y’all actually start supporting indie animation and indie games made by black artists/creators because I’m really getting sick and tired of everyone hyping these racist phase mediocre white people that get 90% of their humor from 2000s newgrounds animations

[creatingblackcharacters]

Idk y'all. I just think at the end of the day if you can't find the strength of conviction to say "saying racial slurs for fun is wrong no matter when it was said, and harm has to be addressed and properly mended" over an overt slur- the easiest possible scenario of testing one's antiracism- God knows where we're gonna find the strength of conviction to uproot white supremacy in every other relevant facet of our lives and system (which is all of it). Because it's gonna be a LOT harder than that and a lot more complex than that.

[bebsi-cola]

it's strange that there's talk about disabled people as if we are either diagnosed or undiagnosed when both groups and indeed all disabled people are on the whole underdiagnosed. like yay you spent 6+ years fighting for an answer. they gave you one that doesn't cover even half the problems you have, was poorly explained to you (if they explained it at all) and with no followup treatment. you're close to right where you started but now there's a little word on your medical files that you can bring out to fail at getting people to take you seriously or other people can bring out to dismiss and mock you.

[maxmag1]

Zulu Mythology Gods, Creation, and Ancestral Power

Zulu Mythology offers a fascinating look into the spiritual world of the Zulu people, blending creation stories, ancestral worship, and powerful deities. Centered around Unkulunkulu, the creator god, this rich tradition explores the roles of sangomas (diviners), sacred animals, and ancestral spirits known as amadlozi. Zulu cosmology bridges the physical and spiritual realms, with rituals, dreams, and ceremonies keeping the connection alive. From myths about eternal life and the cattle of heaven to goddesses like Nomkhubulwane, Zulu mythology remains deeply relevant in modern South African culture, drawing interest from historians, anthropologists, and spiritual seekers worldwide.

[that-grassbro]

watching westerners talk about how all transmascs will one day reach a stage* where 'misogyny will no longer affect them' really makes me understand why theres such a big 'feminism is no longer needed' sentiment within western countries. You really think the main body of oppression is just 'are there people who dislike you'. Which is a part of it yes, but thats not like IT?

Misogyny permanently alters your life path.

There are binary trans men who pass today who still suffer from after-effects of fgm which a lot of the time cannot be cured.

There are binary trans men who pass today who do not have the basic education needed to advance in the modern world.

There are binary trans men who pass today who cannot walk/are permanently disabled by misogynistic practices in their youth.

There are binary trans men who pass today who will live in poverty forever because they were forced into marriages young

There are binary trans men who pass today who will never achieve their dreams because they were not allowed to play instruments or sport or early life skills that cannot be 'caught up' later in life

There are binary trans men who pass today who cannot have children because of reproductive violence

There are binary trans men who pass today who missed out on critical promotion years because they were forced to be wives/mothers

And this is not a #sadcore #never transition post, because all this stuff does not mean that you cannot live a happy and fufilling life, it does not mean that there isn't joy in transitioning or that the world is hopeless.

This idea that in order to be a happy man you must deny the role of misogyny in your life is such an insidious lie because it forces trans activists to either shove every single one of these men (plus all the ones who dont even pass/transition/know they're trans now) under the bus, or discourage young boys from transitioning.

Hint: Pretty much everyone chooses the 'lets throw these trans men under the bus and blot their brains out to the reality of transmasculinity' option.

Literally. Some of you heard this quote 'How many Einstein’s have spent their lives washing dishes, how many Mozart’s bent over stoves instead of pianos, because they had the misfortune of being born a woman?' and said: But the moment you find out you're a man it can all go away!

Anyway this is getting long and disjointed but my point is basically summed up with: misogyny permanently alters your life path and there is not such thing as 'graduating' from the affects of systematic oppression

*the idea that half, let alone ALL transmascs have access to transition let alone transition to the point of 'passing', let alone all the complexities of stealthing is absurd in and of itself, but thats for another post.

[lachrymalhaze]

Cult survivors in western countries clawing our eyes out too.

[pillowspace]

Life's been great ever since I started blocking mean people in reply sections, I love seeing a blocked reply on a random post followed by a group of people going "what the hell are you talking about" under it. I have no idea, I can't see what they said

[pillowspace]

I'm sure it says something

[lachrymalhaze]

Literally everywhere for me because I lurk comment sections/notes and liberally block every bigot, asshole, and bad faith nuisance I see. Sometimes I hunt them down to block them! I love blocking people

[heseemstobeeatingsomething]

this spiel is about yay-bunnies btw

Yay-bunnies didn't invent shit she runs a gimmick blog about bunnies and people are mad at her because she hates trans men and acts creepy around minors and hides behind her identity and cutesy persona while starting massive harassment campaigns against other trans people.

[cornona]

“the entirety of trans history had consisted of trans women actually getting out there and fighting for everyone else, where were the trans men??” in insane asylums. getting trapped in forced marriages with men with no legal route to divorce. getting impregnated through legal marital rape. getting legally beaten by their husbands due to “rule of thumb” laws. being financially dependent on their fathers or husbands due to women being barred from both the workforce and opening bank accounts/credit cards. committing suicide. that’s where they were.

trans women feel high and mighty and claim authority over the queer community because “all the history is about us!!!11!1! we fought for your rights!!!11!!1” but never contend with the fact that trans women had the privilege to fight. the privilege to break away from the patriarchy, even if it was dangerous. trans men didn’t have that choice

ATTENTION TRFS: i’m a trans woman!!💕🏳️‍⚧️ calling me out for this reply or any other post i’ve made is, by your own standards, violent transmisogyny punishable by death (tumblr ban), and anything short of uplifting my voice is an act of aggression 💕💗💖💞💓💕💞💖💗💓💞💕💖💓💓💓🩷

[lachrymalhaze]

you are epic /gen

I feel the same about you!!! Thanks for being such an unapologetic example of standing up for oneself while disabled. I've taken a lot of it to heart and it's a great show of palatability =/= authenticity nor honesty. I'm proud to be disabled these days and have begun taking pride in being seen as a big, mean bitch. We exist as more than inspiration or a barometer of tolerance of bad behaviours from others. And I think when I first started seeing your posts, I found both a lot of solace and humanity in that. I'm newer to tumblr; and hadn't the foggiest this site was so wild towards transmascs and men, so running into the 4channer white women unironically using "tmes" and "afab privilege" on my fyp had me so fucking gobsmacked. It's so divorced from the real world.

Trans women irl, especially WOC, and I, see each other and generally give a nod. Like, you don't want to *out* anyone, but I get a lot of compliments on my backpack, my pride jacket... etc. tldr, this site is fucking insane to trans men. 😭 Sorry for such a long answer, but I'm more than happy to provide sanity in your notes and to this site. One severely disabled guy to another!

[lgbtq-refugees]

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[lachrymalhaze]

normie

on anonymous? 🤨 I'm gonna need you guys to pull your pants up and send hate with your full ass blogs if you want to get in a tizzy with me. this is about the most mediocre of "insults" ive been called, and ive been called a lot, so you might need to get more creative if you wanna make a mark. response as a pin of shame for you