Why was sirius so fixated on severus ?
I had this question for a long time and i have a theory, because i understand where james reasons can come from (he liked lily and was jalouse of her male friend,but also had his fun) and they both bullied other kids. But they always came back to severus.
i belive the reason for Sirius is that he saw Snape as everything he was running away from. He was desperate to distance himself from his family, and Snape, with his Slytherin ties and interest in the Dark Arts, represented the kind of person they were -his family - but also the kind of person Sirius feared becoming -like them -
So he dehumanized him, turned him into a symbol of everything he rejected in himself; it was a way for Sirius to symbolically fight against his own past and prove (to himself and others) that he wasnāt like them.
And it's so fascnating that He was so obsessed with not being like his family that he never stopped to question whether his actions actually mirrored theirs.
He just thought he was different just because he believed in different things, but behavior-wise? He was capable of the same kind of cruelty, the same kind of black-and-white thinking.
he wasn't different from them, he just wanted to be.
That's why he never felt remorse, he never even considered what he did to Snape as bullying because, in his mind, Snape deserved it.
it was about punishing someone he saw as evil , as a symbol of everything he hated and feared about his own family. Thatās what makes it so chillingāSirius genuinely thought he was doing the right thing.
But also, it was his self hatred, and his enjoyment of the act itself, feeling powerful! Relishing in the feeling of his superiority. Of being better then someone (exactly what his family belive).
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