I NEED TO STOP COMPARING MY FANFICS WITH OTHERS'.
I NEED TO STOP FEELING SAD ABOUT NOT GETTING ENOUGH ATTENTION.
I NEED TO KEEP MAKING FANFICS FOR MYSELF AND FOR FUN.
I NEED TO EMBRACE THE CRINGE.
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I NEED TO STOP COMPARING MY FANFICS WITH OTHERS'.
I NEED TO STOP FEELING SAD ABOUT NOT GETTING ENOUGH ATTENTION.
I NEED TO KEEP MAKING FANFICS FOR MYSELF AND FOR FUN.
I NEED TO EMBRACE THE CRINGE.
turtles pat each otherâs faces when courting each other so just imagine tmnts doing that to their crush
as a side note: red eared sliders sometimes instead gently stroke their intended mates face! leo is 1000% touchy and holds ur cheeks when he kisses you.
michaelangelo probably pats your cheeks to the beat of his favorite song.
donnie, on the other hand, either pokes your face like heâs trying to test the squishiness of your cheeks or drumming his fingers softly over them, especially when heâs boredly waiting for something to load.
raph is gentle and quick, just pat-pat-pat! all over your face, a gentle reminder youre his. he gives you a closed eye smile and turns back to his training.
Sometimes you just gotta get rid of all your offloaded apps knowing that you will indeed not go back to them and that you should not keep them âjust in caseâ
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Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.
Undressed Song Fic - Raph X Reader
Okay, I guess I'm on a Sombr kick because I was listening to my music and heard Undressed and realized it was a great follow up for the first fic, I will link it here lol
This ones a bit longer (3.8k words) and also not edited or reviewed- I find that I like spewing out my silly little stories.
Characters are aged up, early 20's - could be any version of Raph tbh but mostly the ones pre-rottmnt.
No warnings except for language & angst - if you've heard the song and read the last fic then you know why.
If I find a Sombr song that's about reconciling or being in a happy relationship this may get a part three but also maybe not \_(^-^')_/
You had a dream, you wanted better, you were sick of all the holes in your sweater
It had only been a couple of weeks since you ended your situationship with Raph, and he was going off the deep end. At first, he seemed fine, unbothered, stoic, his usual routine unchanged by the loss. His punches packed their usual punch, his blunt words didnât lose their edge, and if he did have any issues, they were kept inside under his thick shell. That could only last so long.
You looked to me and wondered whether, I was the lamppost to which you were tethered
The conversation of that night played over and over in his head, the way you looked so nervous to talk to him, the way his gut knew youâd want to stop seeing him, that you had come to your senses and realized he was too much of a freak to ever stay with.
I'm lookin' at you, and you're lookin' at me, But the glimmer in your eyes is sayin' you wanna leave
Then you dropped the bomb, âI canât keep hooking up with you.â Although there was certainly more you said after that, it didnât quite click at the time. The words stuck in Raphâs head like an unforgiving earworm out to ruin his psyche.
âI canât keep hooking up with you.âÂ
âWith You.â
âYou.â
You wanted more than just casual hookups, more than just late night meetings and hidden affection, yet Raph didnât comprehend that part; he only heard that you wanted to stop the good thing the two of you had going.
You say you don't mean what you're sayin' to me, But the glimmer in your eyes is telling me other things
So he did the only thing he knew how to do, deflect and avoid. âI- Iâm not⊠Iâm not ready for something like that.â These words were not the ones he wanted out of his mouth, but it seemed his brain took over, saving him from any hurt that would come from the situation.
I'm lookin' at you, and you're lookin' at me, But the glimmer in your eyes is sayin' you wanna leave
And you left. Just like that. No argument, no pleading, not even trying to go back to how things were. You had seemed done regardless of the answer he gave.
His brothers took notice immediately, the usual softer and calmer Raphael that they had become accustomed to was gone. They hadnât seen this side of him since they were kids. Once realizing that a certain human hadnât been by the past week, it tipped them off.
âYou good, Raph?â Mikey, ever the peacekeeper, was the first to try and get the big guy to spill. âMâ fine, whyâre you askinâ?â He replied gruffly, ignoring the small urge to spill everything to his little brother right then and there. âJust seem a little out of it, thatâs all.â Mikey gave him a small shrug, maneuvering around him to get to the fridge. âI mean, you didnât even react when I replaced your sais with forks⊠You just tossed them into the wall and found where I hid them.â âWasnât worth gettin' worked up so early in the morninâ.â He grumbled out, nothing had seemed worth getting worked up for when he had so many things plaguing his thoughts- scratch that when it was mostly you, plaguing his thoughts.Â
I don't wanna get undressed, For a new person all over again
He recalled the first night he crashed at your place, how you welcomed him in with open arms. You had been so eager to see the softer side of him, to break down his walls and carve a place for you inside. The way you seemed to comfort him immediately, the feel of your nails against his shell lulling him to sleep, the way that same action would forever in his mind remind him of lying in each other's arms, breathless and content.
I don't wanna kiss someone else's neck, And have to pretend it's yours instead
At first, he hit up a couple of old flings. Girls he had fooled around with a couple of times before you, ones that he inadvertently stopped talking to once you two had started being intimate.
âYouâve learned some things since the last time I saw you.â Mona seemed to praise him as she lay beside him, her chest rising and falling. âIt hasnât been that long.â Raph scoffed, trying to recall the last time he had seen Mona Lisa. âYou may not think so, Raphael,â Mona stretched out, her tail resting over Raphâs leg. âBut we havenât spent the night together sinceâŠâ She paused to think, her fingertips idly wandering over his arms. âIâd say itâs almost been a year.â Her hands made their way to his shell, tracing patterns over the grooves. Turning, he seemed shocked, not just by her words, but by the fact that she wasnât you.
After that, he had given up on trying to replace what you had with someone else.
I took the train to see my mother I look across the track to see you with another
âHey, Raph.â Donnieâs voice came through Raphâs open doorway as he knocked on the frame. âApril, Casey, and (Y/n) are coming over tonight. Leo sent me to grab you so we could clean up.â Raph knew that wasnât the whole truth. Donnie was too acutely aware of when any of them were having an issue, and he was no exception. âFine.â He grunted out, ignoring the way Donnie opened his mouth to say more. âIâll be out in a minute.â âSure.â Donnie hesitated, lingering in the doorway for a moment as he seemingly went through different scenarios in his head for how to approach his brother. âItâll be nice.â He gave Raph a small nod. âTo have all of our friends together again.â âYeah, real nice,â Raph grunted as he got out of the beanbag and followed Donnie to the main living area. Leo and Mikey were already taking care of leftover pizza boxes and the odd scrap of clothing that happened to make its way down there. Grabbing a broom, Raph began to help, grateful for a simple distraction to figure out how he was supposed to act seeing you again.
âHey, guys! Wow, it looks great in here.â Aprilâs voice was the one to pull Raph out of his cleaning, now armed with a mop rather than a broom. The linoleum floor that their Sensei had requested was now much cleaner than before. âWe brought the âZa.â Casey lifted the boxes in his hand, leading the way to the kitchen. âAnd dessert!â It was you. You carried in a large platter that looked to have some sort of giant cookie on it. âAw yeah! Nothing beats pizza night with pizza dessert!â Mikey was the first to greet you, eagerly taking the platter from your hands. âI thought you said you wouldnât be able to find one?â
Raph watched as your cheeks took on that familiar red flush. Not as intense as when he would cause it, instead it was faint, gentle.
âWell, I wasnât able to find one, so I baked this last night and decorated it this morning.â You explained, earning impressed looks from his brothers.
Of course, they were impressed; they didnât know that you baked on the side. That any time Raph visited your apartment, it smelled like a patisserie and had the warmth of a freshly used oven. They didnât know you as he did. Why would you be giving your talented work to them?
âVery cool, hopefully it tastes as good as it looks.â Leoâs voice broke his train of thought. He watched as his brothers peered over the dessert and how that faint red flush stuck to your cheeks. âHopefully it does, I didnât get a chance to taste it since I didnât have any dough leftover.â Your voice was just as melodic as before. Raph watched with a scowl as he analyzed your body language; you were open, smiling, seemingly at peace with yourself. How come you werenât hurting the same way he was? How come after one week, you were fine? There's nothin' worse than seein' your lover, Moving on while you still suffer âAye, you good man? You look like youâre trying to take out my friend over there.â Casey stepped directly into his line of sight, causing him to realize that he was glaring. ââM fine, itâs nothinâ.â He huffed, realizing that was the closest heâd been to being angry the whole week. âCâmon man, I may not be your brother, but I know you better than that.â Casey brought a hand to Raphâs shell pushing him towards the garage. âLetâs talk, just real quick.â
Raph grunted and begrudgingly followed Casey, unaware of how you let out a small breath as soon as his back was turned.
âWhatâs eating you, man?â Casey settled himself on the turtlecycle, swaying with the balance of the bike. âYou canât tell anyone,â Raph said, feeling his throat go dry at what he was about to admit. âNo duh, man. Spill.â âSeriously, Case, not to April, not to my brothers, no one.â Raph looked at Casey almost expectantly, a look that truly caught the young man off guard. âPromise, man!â He raised his hands, trying to convey his honest intentions. âWhat, did you kill someone or something?â âNo, thatâs not-â Raphael seemed frustrated, but ran a hand over his face before sitting in one of the many rolling chairs that littered the garage. â(Y/n) and I had been hooking up for a whileâŠâ Raph didnât miss the audible gasp that came out of Caseyâs mouth, but continued anyway. âThey wanted somethinâ serious, butâŠâ Raph stood, trying to figure out how to convey the words in his head. âI- I just screwed it up, and now I canât get âem out of my head! Theyâre everywhere- in my dreams, my memories- hell, I even hit up Mona and the whole time- the whole time I was thinkinâ of em.â Casey looked like a fish out of water, mouth wide and gaping as he processed all the information his red-clad friend just dumped on him. âQuit lookinâ at me like that- I know I fucked up, but now? Now they seem fine, like nothing happened, unaffected that they weaseled their way into my life and now I canât function without 'em!â Raph thrusted his fist into the wall, shaking some of the frames that hung. The sting of pain was almost grounding as he finally got his thoughts out. Laughter was the first thing Raph heard outside of the ringing of his ears. âYouâre whipped.â He glared at Casey as he got off the turtlecycle. âIâm sorry, bud, but you are down so bad. I mean, going at it with Mona and only thinking of (Y/n)? You are whipped like cream.â Casey chortled again before approaching Raph slowly, putting a reassuring hand on his shoulder. âHow good was it?â âOh, shut up man- I donât even know why I told you.â Raph practically growled, shoving his hand off his shoulder. âOh, come on! If youâre down this bad, it mustâve been mind-blowing.â Casey chuckled, grabbing Raphâs shoulder again, only to be met with an electric green glare. If looks could kill⊠âOkay, okay, serious- serious Casey time.â He removed his hand and dusted himself off. âSerious Cassidy time.â âYour full name is Cassidy?â Raph snorted before quickly being shushed by Casey. âHow long were you two hooking up for?â He asked, no teasing, no joking, he was being true to his word. âAccording to Mona, I hadnât hit her up for almost a year, soâŠâ âAlmost an entire year of hookups?â Casey asked, sitting in Raphâs abandoned rolling chair, watching as he nodded. âAnd what went wrong? You said they wanted something more serious, so what stopped that?â Raph contemplated telling a lie, making it seem like it wasnât entirely his fault, but nothing came to mind on how to spin this. âI did.â He murmured, shame flooding his being as he leaned against a workbench. âI stopped it- I thought⊠I thought they wanted to end things, not go further, and I- I panicked and said I wasnât ready.â He admitted resting his head in his hands. âSo you told them you werenât ready,â Casey repeated as he hummed in thought. âThatâs not as bad as I thought it would beâŠâ Raph shot him a glare from behind his fingers. âJust saying.â Casey shrugged, âThatâs really not that bad, you werenât ready, and now you are, why donât you just tell them?â âYou didnât see them.â Raph sighed, rolling his neck slightly. âThey looked the same coming in, like nothing affected them after their confession.â He spoke softly; his usual brash words seemed⊠fragile, hopeless.
Meanwhile, you were in the kitchen, helping the guys arrange pizza boxes and gather plates, napkins, and drinks.
âSo, any updates on that booty call douche you were having issues with?â Mikey asked as he set out cups and ice for the sodas you had brought in. You gasped, shoving Mikey away. âShut up, Mikey! Thatâs so not cool to bring it up like that.â Mikey chuckled a bit as April sent you a knowing look. âCâmon (Y/n), did you confront the guy?â Mikey asked, way too interested in your personal life. Groaning, you set down the cups in your hand. âUgh. Yes, I told the guy what I wanted, and he didnât want the same thing.â You answered, ignoring the pit in your stomach that had opened up as soon as you walked into the sewers. âDudette⊠Iâm sorry.â Mikey looked genuinely apologetic for once, and you realized you must not have been hiding your emotions as well as you thought you were. âItâs no big deal.â You answered, steeling your feelings as you poured yourself a drink. âShe was crying for days, took a lot of ice cream to get her back on her feet,â April whispered to Mikey, whose face seemed to fall at the thought. âApril!â You nearly choked on your drink before shooting her a glare. âNot cool.â âItâs okay, Angelcakes!â Mikey reassured you with a small side hug. âWeâll have such a good time tonight, you wonât even think about that loser.â Mikey always knew how to get you to smile and seemed insistent on keeping one on your face throughout the night. It was Casey who broke the small bubble of relief you had as Raph approached with him. âWhat loser?â He picked up a slice of pizza and started chowing down. âDonât-â âThe loser that broke (Y/n)âs heart,â Mikey stated matter-of-factually, interrupting your nearly non-existent warning. âJeez, Mikey, go ahead and tell everyone why donât you?â You smacked the arm that was still around your waist, causing the turtle to wince. âIt was-â You were ready to defend yourself, but noticed how Casey seemingly choked on his mouthful of pizza and how Raphâs usual intense eyes seemed dimmed. âNothingâŠâ You finished averting your gaze and taking a sip from your cup. âCasey, you okay?â April patted Casey on the back as Mikey took notice of his brotherâs absent gaze. âI know, Raph, that guy was a total douche for letting someone like (Y/n) get away, I told âem that whoever they were, theyâre totally missing out on a killer person like (Y/n).â Mikey slung an arm around Raph, but his gaze never left you, or more like your cup as he couldnât bring himself to meet your eyes. I'm lookin' at you, and you're lookin' at me, But the glimmer in your eyes is sayin' you wanna leave âSeriously, guys its not a big deal, can we just drop it?â You passed your cup to Casey, who couldnât stop coughing. Deciding to put space between the two of you and help Donnie with whatever music selection he was working on.
Raph stood rooted in his spot, Mikeyâs arm still around his shoulders⊠Obviously, you hadnât told them who you were seeing; Mikey was living proof of that, but that loser⊠that loser was him. You thought he was a loser. You say you don't mean what you're sayin' to me, But the glimmer in your eyes is tellin' me other things The night was different. After the initial shock of Raph coming to terms with his feelings, only to learn how you thought of him, it was tense. Everyone had just assumed it was because you were having a rough time with this so-called fling, but only Casey and Donnie knew that Raph was having the same rough time. âItâs getting late, I think Iâm gonna head out.â You stood from your spot between Mikey and Donnie, the former hoping to lift your spirits, and the latter knowing you needed a buffer from Raph. âBoo, you sure you donât want to hang around any longer?â April asked from her spot next to Casey. He squirmed a bit, as if to signal Raph for something. âIâd love to Ayps, but I got that thing tomorrow.â You suddenly felt guilty as both you and April knew you had a coffee date the next morning, one that she had set up for you. âOh, right⊠Itâll go great, heâs really a nice guy.â She gave her usual cheery smile, but little did she know she was lighting the fuse of a short stick of dynamite one spot away from her. âIâll walk you out.â Raph stood almost immediately; his darkening demeanor didnât go unnoticed by his brothers, but it also warned like a threat, âdonât get in my wayâ. I don't wanna get undressed, For a new person all over again You walked beside Raph out of the lair, he was currently trying to calm himself down to have a civil conversation with you, and the clenching of his fists wasnât the only thing that gave it away.
The walk through the sewer was stifling. Raph seemed to still be gathering his thoughts, and you? You were just aiming to get out of here without breaking down into tears. You hadnât even wanted the date, but April insisted on setting you up with someone who was looking for a relationship. Once you finally caved, she nearly cheered over the phone and sent the guyâs picture.
He was handsome, an objectively nice-looking dude. It took everything in you not to start bawling again when you saw bright green eyes looking back at you through the screen. You didnât want to go through with it, you even contemplated calling it off, but April was insistent that youâd like the guy. I don't wanna kiss someone else's neck, And have to pretend it's yours instead, And I don't wanna learn another scent âThis is far enough. I know the way out of here.â You managed to clear your throat as you came across the straight shot to the surface. Raph stopped a few steps ahead of you before turning around. âLook, I know you know the way out, thatâs not why I offered.â âYou didnât offer.â You shot back, not wanting to be caught in whatever apology or grand gesture he had planned. A small grunt escaped Raphâs lips as he heard that tone- a tone that had once lit a fire in him, something that he knew would be a challenge, something fun. âI guess itâs not somethinâ a loser does.â âI didnât say that.â You had to keep your voice from quivering, knowing that he probably was just there to boast about how he was fine without you. âYou didnât have to.â His usually playful tone when you argued was gone, replaced by one laced with disdain. âSo this new guy, he a loser too?â I don't want the children of another man, To have the eyes of the girl that I won't forget, I won't forget You felt your face flush, not with the usual flutter that came with it. No, this time it was out of anger. âI donât need to tell you that. I donât know why you feel entitled to that information.â âI donât feel entitled to anything-â Raph raised his voice, but you didnât flinch. âYou do!â You had matched his volume. He had never heard you yell before. Scold? Yeah, plenty of times. A warning tone? That too. Scream? Not often, but when it did happen? That was inflicted by him. But to actually yell at him?
âYou feel like, because I wanted to further our relationship, youâre entitled to any details of my personal life!â Your eyes burned passionately as you raised a finger to point at him. âBut you said NO!â You pressed your finger against his plasteron, any residual sadness you had was like gasoline, lit by the flame of anger he sparked in you. âYou are the one who wasnât ready, and I respected that. I gave you space, but now that Iâm trying to pick up the pieces of what you broke, you suddenly feel the need to stake your claim? You have no claim!â You heard your words echo back at you, but you didnât care. I don't wanna get undressed, For a new person all over again âI ainât tryin to stake my claim!â He yelled back, unwilling to just sit there and take these accusations from you. âJust listen, will ya?!â âNo.â Your answer surprised not only Raph but yourself as well. âNo?â He asked, the surprise easily being taken over by the frustration of not being able to plead his case. âWhadya mean no?â âI mean,â It was like your body had taken control of itself, like you were a backseat passenger to your movements and words. âNo. I donât want to hear what you have to say, I donât want to talk, I didnât even want to come tonight because I canât think of you without wanting to cry my eyes out!â You cursed yourself for saying that, letting him have that vulnerable piece of knowledge over you. âSo, No. Raphael, I will not âjust listenâ.â Your legs moved automatically, walking down the straight shot to the exit of the sewers, even though your heart was dying to hear what he had to say.
â(Y/n)!â Raphâs voice echoed through the tunnels. How was he supposed to make this right if you wouldnât give him the chance to? I don't wanna kiss someone else's neck, And have to pretend it's yours instead âRaph, whereâve you been?â Mikey asked as he walked back into the lair, his eyes red and raw. âJust needed a minute,â Raph grunted out, his voice hoarse. âRaphâŠâ Casey stopped the instant he saw the wetness around his mask; this hadnât gone the way they hoped. âIâm goinâ to bed.â He grumbled out, moving quickly before anyone else could see.
I don't wanna get undressed, For a new person all over again
Couple of thoughts here at the end, this was WAY longer than the first and also I have the headcanon that Casey's dad was really into the 'Wild West' so he named him after Butch Cassidy but liked Casey as a nickname. ALSO I try my best to write gender neutral, but I do slip up on occasion, so sorry about that :/
Theyâre the rats⊠rat dads.
Okay, so first off, I am NOT an artist. I have no formal training/courses or really know anything about art at all. With that out of the way I started watching the 2003 TMNT series, just about through the first season and I thought itâd be fun to try and draw an OC in the style cause I really like the animation style of these types of shows, eg. X-Men, Thundercats, Batman the Animated Series, stuff like that, so hereâs what I ended up with.
Took me like three or four days of constantly referencing April and Caseyâs character designs and replicating what I could but uh yeah here it is lol Her names Nex, no last name given and no real backstory, just liked the idea of trying to draw a character.
If you read this far thanks! I used my iPad, Apple Pencil, and the app sketchbook :)
The sillies but if they were in a skateboarding magazine cover! đą
(Ver without the cover art on it)
Back to Friends Song Fic - Raph X Reader
Hello! I've been meaning to write more and figured I'd post it to tumblr and see if anyone reads it lol.
I heard this song and it made me want to write one of the og song fics I had read in middle school.
Characters are aged up, early 20's - could be any version of Raph tbh but mostly the ones pre-rottmnt.
No warnings except for angst - if you've heard the song you know why.
Touch my body tender 'cause the feeling makes me weak. You lay on Raphâs chest as he breathed in and out slowly, listening to the soft inhales and exhales that he produced in his sleep. It had almost become a routine: you had a bad day, he had a bad day, someone needed cheering up, and you happened to find that happiness in each other. Kicking off the covers, I see the ceiling while youâre looking down at me. Once again, you were still awake, enjoying his body heat and deep in thought about what you two were. It had always been casual, friends just taking care of one another, until it hadnât. You found yourself searching to be in his embrace, to smell his scent, and to feel the ease after a tough day. It was moments like these that kept your heart in a vice, unwilling to believe it was solely stress relief. But like all good things, it didnât last forever. His phone rang, interrupting the bliss and waking him from the slumber. âHello?â His voice was gravelly- as if he had been sleeping through the night. âYeah. Yeah I'll head out. No, I'm nowhere.â That statement wasnât uncommon, but it didnât hurt any less, especially when he nudged you off of him and sat up, phone still in his hand. Getting up, you redressed, knowing that the serenity of the moment had passed, and it was once again time for a quick goodbye and being left to your own devices. âThanks again, Iâll text you, okay?â His voice broke you away from your thoughts. You nodded, waving your hand as he left the room, taking the comfortable atmosphere with him.
How can we go back to being friends when we just shared a bed? âHey, you guys have met (Y/n) right?â April had brought the guys to your study session in the park, noting that Donnie would be able to help if you had any questions. âA few times,â Leo said, shaking your hand politely, the other boys nodded and waved. It wouldnât be an issue if it werenât for the fact that not even 24 hours ago, you had had the red one in your bed. âNice to see you all again.â You waved with a small nod of your own, not missing the way Raph looked completely uninterested and almost bored. How can you look at me and pretend Iâm someone youâve never met? âThanks for all the help Donnie.â You were packing up your textbooks alongside April as the group of you prepared to go get a late dinner. âIt was nice to have someone who actually knows what theyâre talking about explain a topic.â The comment made April snicker, thinking back to some of your less knowledgeable professors. âNo problem, itâs nice knowing what theyâre teaching at the university, even if it's a bit outdated.â Donnie smiled. âMikey didnât make the order too complicated, did he?â You and April were tasked with getting the pizza, then the boys would meet you at the lair. Your gaze naturally drifted to Raph; he was on his phone as Mikey chattered in his ear about something or another. His usual peaceful, sleepy demeanor you saw was replaced by his typical unamused, annoyed look. You studied his face, the way his electric green eyes flit across the small screen. The way his alluring green skin contrasted with the red of his mask, drawing you back to those eyes, those eyes you were just dying to have even glance your way. It was last December, you were layinâ on my chest. Your mind drifted to the first time Raph had fallen asleep at your apartment. It was a particularly late night and he had a nasty argument with Leo, leading him to you. It had only been a couple of times since you started hooking up, but this time he seemed exhausted- you felt a pang of guilt knowing heâd have to navigate back to the lair in his tired state and offered him a shared space in your bed for the night. âYou sure I ainât puttinâ you out? I ain't exactly a small guest.â His voice dripped with exhaustion as he lay beside you, flush from your previous activities still present in your face and his breathing. âItâs no big deal, really.â You insisted, deciding to prove it, you opened your arms and motioned for him to come closer, bringing his head to your chest. âI wouldnât want you going out tonight anyway, apparently itâs supposed to rain.â He tensed at the sudden contact with your chest, but you felt him ease into it after a moment. Lazily scratching patterns into his shell, you glanced down and saw that his eyes had shut. I still remember I was scared to take a breath, didnât want you to move your head. âEarth to (Y/n), we need to go?â Aprilâs voice brought you back to your senses; you had spaced out and not heard the last of her and Donnie's conversation. âSorry! Yeah, yeah lets go.â You nodded, shaking your head a bit as Donnie and his brothers left for the lair. âWhatâs occupying your mind tonight?â April asked, eying you skeptically. âJust⊠thinking I guess.â You said softly, remembering the way Raph barely acknowledged you all night. How can we go back to being friends when we just shared a bed?
âApril⊠what does it mean when youâre with a guy, but he doesnât tell his friends about you?â You asked, knowing the answer, but not quite believing your own thoughts. âOh, (Y/n)âŠâ April said with a pitying tone. âSounds like youâre just a booty call.â You swallowed slowly, but it didnât help as your mouth turned to a desert. âWho is it? Donât tell me itâs Derek from our Intro to Humanities class. I know he's cute, but heâs a douche.â âNo, no, itâs not Derek. No one from school.â You admitted as the two of you descended into the lair, Mikey waiting at the bottom to help navigate the sewers and carry the pizza. âThen who is it?â She asked before Mikey grabbed the boxes. âWhoâs what?â He asked, watching as you hopped off the ladder. âNo one, Mikey, itâs nothing.â You said before being quickly cut off by April. âSheâs being strung along as a booty call by some douche.â She explained, and Mikey gasped, looking between you two. âNo way! Youâre a hot commodity (Y/n)- you shouldnât let some douche string you along. No dick can be that good.â He led the way to the lair, pizza boxes steady in his hands. âNobody is leading me along!â You defended yourself; however, the little voice in the back of your mind screamed that they were right. You walked into the lair and waved to Raph, who was reading a magazine on the beanbag in the corner. He glanced up, but returned to the text in his hand. How can you look at me and pretend Iâm someone youâve never met? âFoods here!â Mikey called out. The boys came into the kitchen, eagerly grabbing their slices. You sat at the table, picking at the slice while drafting up a text to send to Raph, knowing you couldnât handle the emotional whiplash. âYou good?â Raphâs voice drifted into your ears. Snapping your gaze to meet his, you looked around, noticing the kitchen was empty. âEveryoneâs headin' into the living room to watch a movie.â Swallowing your nerves, you willed yourself to tell him, admit that you wanted something more, something other than just pick-me-ups. âRaph, I canât do this.â âCanât go watch a movie with your friends?â He asked, quirking a brow, or at least where a brow would have been. You stared into his eyes, trying to find the strength to end it. Was it worth it? Worth never hearing him call your name in that sultry voice again? Worth losing the fondness of the countless nights spent together? Worth not only losing a sneaky link, but probably a friend as well. The devil in your eyes wonât deny the lies youâve sold. âI canât keep hooking up with you-â You began, watching as he tensed and glanced over his shoulder, ensuring no wandering ears. âI want an actual relationship, but if youâre not okay with that, thenâŠâ Iâm holding on too tight while you let go, this is casual. âI-â Raph looked uncomfortable, as if this conversation caught him by surprise. âIâm not⊠Iâm not ready for something like that.â He admitted with a small grimace. Your heart crashed at your feet, pieces cutting into you as they flew across the floor. Shattered and empty, you gave him a small nod. âI understand.â Standing from your chair, you tossed your empty paper plate into the trash, allowing for more space between the two of you. âIt was nice while it lasted.â Raph gave a solemn nod, whether in agreement or acknowledgment, you weren't sure; regardless, he watched as you left. Giving April a hasty excuse and waving to the rest of the guys, you slipped out of the lair and walked back to your apartment. How can we go back to being friends when we just shared a bed? How can you look at me and pretend Iâm someone youâve never met? Iâm someone youâve never met.
Me stalking accounts and spam liking and reblogging posts from authors/artist I like, hoping they don't think I'm weird
If you love Alex Brightman as much as I do you get it. lol
lol Iâm so sorry but not at the same time Adam.
I know Alex is 5,6 Adamâs just giant and an a ass hole when heâs jealous so he calls Beej short. lol
sisters and bikes
The boys get into a fight at thanksgiving...
(i just love this scene from friends okay? sue me). (i also changed the scenario a tad).
Raph: yeah, about the whole telling my dad about the pot thing...i think i'm just gonna write him a letter
Vern: you had your chance. splinter, raph smoked pot with casey!
Splinter: what?
Raph: oh you are such a tattletale! *looks at mikey and then splinter* that mailman vern got fired, he didn't steal his playboys, mikey did!
Vern&Splinter: *slow blink*
Mikey: yeah well hurricane gloria didn't break april's patio swing, leo did!
April: *rapid blinking*
Leo: donnie's been paying april to do his laundry all year!
Donnie: APRIL AND CASEY ARE LIVING TOGETHER.
Splinter: *slowly looks at april and casey*
April: i love jacques costeau...?
Vern: *eyes widen* ah man! i wasn't supposed to put beef in the trifle!
Casey: I WANNA GOOOOOOOO *tugging april's arm*
Splinter: that's a lot of information to get in 30 seconds... *rubbing temples*
googling shit like "why do i feel bad after hanging out with my friends" and all of the answers are either "you need better friends" (i don't; my friends are wonderful) or "your social battery is drained, you need to rest and regain your energy levels" (i don't; i've got tons of energy, it's just manifesting as over-the-top neurotic mania). why is this even happening. it's like some stupid toll i have to pay as a punishment for enjoying myself too much
I actually, genuinely think social event aftercare would fix me. I need someone to put me to bed and say "you were fun today and no one hated you"
#theres a thing called 'larp drop' thats essentially this#esp since when having a great time you might be more inclined to disregard your limits and ignore discomfort#(and forget to eat/drink if its larp whoops)#and then once you have a moment to yourself it all comes crashing in#source: once forgot to eat at larp and had a sobbing fit in my car that ended the instant i bit into a chicken nugget - @queerfarmgremlin
this is also true of festivals, conventions, pride parades, concerts, and any situation where you have a lot of fun with other people!
rottmnt raph deserves more love so my request is a rottmnt raphael x female reader! raph and reader are friends but she is much closer to donnie thanks to their love for books and videogames and the fact that she is pretty smart. they are always playfully teasing each other and almost always together just the two of them and raph is starting to get jealous even though he doesnât understand why. leo is the one who notices it and he confronts raph and tells him that he has an obvious crush on reader and he should try to get closer to her or even ask her out instead of seething in silence and ruining the vibes in the room. but since leo knows that raph is both still in denial and a chicken when it comes to feelings, and that he most likely will not follow his advices, he decides to take the situation in his own hands. leo goes to donnie and pester him with questions about the reader and their relationship until donnie gives up and tells leo that the reader has had the biggest crush on raph since the first time that they met and honestly he is quite tired of hearing her lust and simp after him without doing nothing about it. so they start planning a way to force raph and reader to be alone and create the right atmosphere for them to confess to each other. they succeed and raph ends up kissing her and asking her on a first date! thank you so much, i love the way you write!
ps: i read all the chapters of sun killer and omg i canât wait for the next one, i love the story so much! you also have amazing music taste period.
A/N: Firstly, I agree; Rise Raph definitely deserves more love! đ©· Second, thank you so much for the lovely compliments! They mean a lot to me đ
I hope you enjoy this story, anon! đ«¶
Mission Accomplished (fluff)
â€ïž ROTTMNT Raphael/Female Reader â€ïž
CWs: Fluff, very mild angst, jealous Raph, mutual pining, oblivious idiots in love, meddling brothers, matchmaking shenanigans, first kiss. All characters are aged-up.