it’s just like. im so exhausted. and it feels like i can tell myself its okay and maybe i’ll believe it for a second but then im afraid again. and no matter how many times anyone else tells me its okay it just doesn’t stick. okay well it was okay yesterday but maybe its not today. maybe it never was. im hypersensitive to stuff that isn’t even there. im picking up clues that don’t exist. and i just feel like im doomed and i can’t even talk myself out of it. so its like okay yeah maybe. maybe all my friends do hate me and they’re going to leave. cause clearly i cant be convinced otherwise. maybe im gonna die alone and im gonna die of something awful. maybe everything is terrible and something bad is going to happen. cause even if everything goes right i’ll still think that. so like what am i supposed to DO
