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The concept of being 4 months clean from ai...
idc what you guys think I'm proud of him
Several AI services (chatbots ) are purposely addictive, the same way people can become addicted to gambling or shopping. We’ve literally seen in real time how ChatGPT has caused psychosis and delusions in people; it can have a huge affect on someones’s mental stability. Just because it isn’t substance-based doesn’t mean that doesn’t count as an addiction, and shaming people who are trying to move on and improve themselves is counterproductive. Im proud of that dude and his 4 month mark!
AI chatbots can fuel emotional dependence and blur boundaries. Emerging research highlights significant mental health risks. Here are import
Large language models often prioritise agreeability over truthfulness to the detriment of users
AI addiction includes the overuse of AI chatbots and companions, often leading to adverse psychological effects.
Some articles to back my statements, and this isn’t even mentioning about the predatory chatbots who do this on purpose
Then I'll mention the predatory chatbots who do it on purpose! Character.ai is one of many AI chatbot websites that're designed to be addictive.
None of the signup methods require a password. It only takes email and birthday. Minimizing time on the signin or signup screen makes it harder for people quitting to avoid relapse.
"Characters" on the website will send messages "on their own" (prompted by the site) to try to invite inactive users back after as soon as 1 day of inactivity. This is likely to force FOMO, or make users feel more like they owe the bots a response. Unhealthy attachment stuff.
Account deletion is an essential part of every service that should go smoothly, right? Right? Wrong. It takes 1-2 weeks for a Character AI account deletion to be finalized, and account deletion requests have a high chance to not go through if you're not using the app.
Rephrasing: People leaving Character.AI are pushed to download the app in order to delete their accounts, if they haven't already. This makes it harder for people to quit and stay gone. Failing to quit an addiction makes it harder to quit successfully in the future, so this feels like a feature, not a bug. On top of that, the delete account menu reads like this:
Tell me THAT doesn't sound like a bad ex. It's a carefully crafted yet hostile environment to those who are already addicted to the technology. I am so so SO happy, downright delighted that they've managed to quit, and I wish the best for others in recovery spaces or considering quitting as well!! While AI addiction is an emerging condition, there are already therapists and other mental health professionals trained to help people plan to quit and do so a bit easier. (If anyone seeing this is in need of them, there are several tumblr Communities here devoted to quitting, too. They provide a mix of advice, venting spaces, and proof that you aren't alone.)
metaverse being an 80 billion dollar turbo flop that immediately shut down after one of the worst performances and subsequent total company rebranding in recent history SHOULD, in a kind and just world, have spelled the end for the entire company. but unfortunately we live in hell and "Meta" is still alive
same goes for twitter too like that shit should have shut down a month after it became X, The Everything App but these guys just have so much money that 80 billion dollars can be burned with reckless abandon and their companies will survive
idk if this is quite what you were thinking w genderqueer ilya thoughts but i think one of the more interesting things about ilya (kind of buried under all the angst and hockey and stoicism of "i am fine fuck off") is that he's technically been wearing a woman's necklace from the moment we first met him. and to me the things he keeps from his mother don't actually stay static
at first it's very simple. grief logic. he keeps her necklace, he keeps small objects of hers, he doesn't think of it in terms of identity or gender or meaning. it's just continuity. it existed, she existed, i miss her so much it rearranges my lungs, therefore it stays.
but then it starts to expand in a way that doesn't feel as clean....
he likes the scarves she used to wear in her hair. and instead of putting them away as keepsakes, he starts wearing them, like around his wrist, tucked into his belt, sometimes just because his hand reaches for something and it happens to be there. and it stops being only "this reminds me of her" and becomes "this belongs on my body"
and then it branches out beyond her entirely. he gets his ears pierced. not as a statement, not as a reinvention arc, just because at some point he realizes he can, because there is space now, geographic and emotional and social, that doesn't automatically punish small deviations from sanctioned masculinity. grief gave him access to objects. exile gave him access to possibility. and his body just quietly stops respecting the old rules about what it's allowed to become. if that makes sense
and i think the childhood piece matters here too. he remembers picking out earrings with his mother before events, helping her tie her dress, matching the shoes. he spent his teenage years around svetlana and sasha. he was intrinsically invited into those spaces young, and i think that bleeds into his adult life once he's no longer living on red alert. in ottawa, secure, finally safe, married, an organism that's been on high alert for decades is allowed to put things down. so yeah. he likes tennis bracelets and diamond earrings and soft leather gloves with fur trim like his mother wore
the post-soviet context matters here more than it gets credit for imo. soviet masculinity wasn't just social pressure, it was structural. and then the state stopped existing six months after ilya was born, which means the men who raised him were performing those rules on inertia, with nothing left to enforce them. hockey adds another layer on top of that. two systems, stacked, pointing the same direction. the miracle isn't that he eventually wears the earrings. it's that the impulse survived long enough to meet the permission
and what i find most interesting is that the cross gave him the grammar for all of it without him knowing. it was the first thing his body just kept without asking whether it was allowed. and that taught him something: some things aren't punished. they're just outside the frame. unthinkable rather than forbidden. the scarves have less cover, there's no grief logic that requires him to wear them rather than fold them in a drawer, but by then his hands have learned to reach for things and keep them
not an arc. not a label. just a man who slowly stops respecting a border he never agreed to, in increments small enough that it never becomes an announcement. in a body that got very good, very young, at doing things without making them into events. this feels very ilya to me
Hi sorry it took me so long to answer this but this is genuinely fucking beautiful to me. Legitimately. I’m not sure I even have the words for it so I’m going to let this ask speak for itself, I hope you don’t mind <3
adult life is truly just thinking “I NEED TO CLEAN” while dealing with the 17 other things that have a hard deadline
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I was gonna do the whole burning up in the sky thing, but I really liked this :)
shane's hands in ilya's hair (for @madevampselle)
disabled people are often in permacrisis
there's never enough money each month. there's always an unexpected illness. new symptoms pop up or old symptoms flare up. meds have to be managed always and refilled constantly and any refill has the opportunity to go wrong. any regular care has the opportunity to go wrong. any mistake can send your health spiralling. it's always "i just need to get through this bad patch" but as soon as one ends another begins. another crisis begins in the middle of the last crisis. managing one thing leaves another thing to be neglected until that becomes a major issue and has to be managed asap and the cycle starts anew over and over and over
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