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solarspunk

#manifesting

veliseraptor

can't believe it's only tuesday. it feels like it should be at least wednesday and honestly really thursday

mikkeneko

Happy feels like it should be at least wednesday and honestly really thursday tuesday

rslashrats

grab your nonbinary unspecified body part and do something vague to it

chilewithcarnage

russianblush

this feels like emotional torture

#literally maybe actors should be illegal this is soooo much ajdhdhsjsk #hudcon #hollanov

deathgasmic

i will not lie, friends in my phone, i have been imagining affection from time to time

deathgasmic

elokitties

me as a fish living on a beautiful costal shoreline: I hope that gay crab doesn’t show up today

the gay crab:

draconym

It's nuts how common it is to not allow children to be angry, even (especially) in households where adults are angry all the time. As a child I knew my own anger was unacceptable--not just expressing it outwardly but feeling it at all. So now as an adult my immediate reaction to my own anger is often to feel guilt instead of like. Noticing when someone is being rude or unfair or my boundaries are being violated or whatever. fucked up.

jackawful

to this day "who is allowed to be angry" has been an incredible benchmark for teasing out who, in abusive situations with mutual accusations and DARVO happening, is being abusive and who is being abused. one of my favorite resources about this, the Creative Interventions Toolkit, phrases the question "who sets the weather?" in the relationship and I think about it so so often when I think about my own childhood. I was parentified in a way that set me up for future abusive relationships, because I had to soothe my parents' anger while not being allowed to feel angry myself. I am extremely grateful to everyone outside myself - friends, therapists, partners - who's gotten angry on my behalf about how I'm treated or let me know something I'd been excusing or blaming myself for was actually Not Okay. I guess the good news here is that it's possible to learn how to access anger again in a healthy way, it just takes support, like doing physical therapy for a muscle that didn't develop quite right.

draconym

I relate so strongly to this.

This is not to say that feeling anger is abusive; it's human to feel anger. But if you've ever felt like your anger was "unjustified" or were afraid to express it outwardly because you expected it to be dismissed ... ask yourself how you would react if the roles were reversed. I find that a lot of folks who were The Grown Up in a relationship with their parents hold themselves to much different standards than they hold other people.

I've seen plenty of situations that involve two or more people hurting each other and not admitting any fault because they want to protect their own egos. But. Notice when you think you're not entitled to be upset about something. When someone tells you you shouldn't be upset. There's a difference between taking your anger out on other people and just. Being allowed to feel angry.

#literally this. the who sets the weather. i wish i had seen it sooner and been able to do something in my last relationship #save

grabmyboner

they’re at a party and everyone is drunk even shane and it’s so buzzy and fun and then ilya loses sight of shane for approximately seven minutes and then relocates him and finds he’s wearing one of those plastic gold king crowns on his head and ilya well ilya blacks out for about three seconds and then walks off while he was in the middle of a conversation and just hands his drink to whoever and beelines it to shane and grabs his hand and pulls him along to a random room and shane is tipsy and relaxed and just smiles like kermit the frog with a crown on being pulled along by his man and then ilya is locking them in someone’s bedroom and crowding shane against the door and shane is like snickering because ilya is tickling his neck with his kisses and his crown is a lil lopsided now with how his head is angled and he’s like “hehe ilyaaaa what are you doin” and ilya is just kissing at every piece of exposed skin and then dropping to his knees for his king and shane’s eyes go all dark with his pupils blown out from seeing ilya nosing at his crotch through his jeans and looking up through his lashes with an open mouth and shane is staring down at him with his lopsided crown on and his skin has a pink flush from the alcohol and he’s got a hand pushing ilya’s curls back from his forehead and ilya licks his lips and says in his thick lustful accent “can I suck your cock, King Hollander?” and well king hollander is nodding so fast his crown slides down and he pushes it back up to its rightful position and watches ilya watch him while he sucks his cock and oh there’s a mirror just in front of them and shane gets to see himself wearing a crown and getting his dick sucked by ilya fucking rozanov. it’s a pretty good night to say the least

#this is epic. good morning #hollanov

piningandslowburns

Let me emotionally destroy you with this reminder of what actually happened in the book 😭

“He’d needed to pull over while driving home that night because he hadn’t been able to see the road through his tears. He’d been so confused and scared and devastated. He should have been going home with Rose, his gorgeous movie star girlfriend, not crying on the side of the road, alone in his car, over an obnoxious Russian hockey player.”

#😭bruh #game changers #shane hollander

handsywoman

worried shanebug :c

#i wanna eat him #shane hollander

cassierobinsons

you say dean sucks cas good and hard thru his jorts but when are we gonna talk about cas sucking dean good and hard thru his blue mechanic overalls

cassierobinsons

if cas saw dean like this. well, heh. let’s just say horses wouldn’t be called ‘horses’ anymore.

#four letter word for intercourse

lavenderprose

There exists a video somewhere of Shane Hollander standing in the parking garage of Censplex wearing a backwards snapback and althetic shorts with an inseam that is probably quite literally just listed as 'slut' on the tag as he stares down whoever is holding the camera. In his hands is a beautiful and perfectly spherical watermelon. In his eyes there is nothing.

"You want me to do what?" he asks.

"Crush it," says Harris, too loud and close to the camera.

"Like, with my hands?"

"The challenge is to do it with your thighs."

Shane, his face and his watermelon do not move.

"It's for charity."

Smash cut to Shane sitting on a parking block, face bright red as he reroutes every bit of strength in his entire body towards his thighs. He is utterly silent, straining, and he only makes a sound when the watermelon finally gives up and crumples under the onslaught.

The sound he makes is high, long and deeply inappropriate. It also echoes throughout the entire parking garage for what seems to be a preternaturally long time.

"What the fuck is--" Ilya, who heard that shit through an open window all the way in the team offices, careens out of the propped-open side door just in time to see his husband bite a hunk of watermelon from the dripping remnants. There is juice on his thighs.

"Hey," Shane says, and then squints at the camera, deadpan once again. "I nominate Ilya Rozanov for the watermelon crushing challenge. Or whatever."

Harris, luckily, has a second melon handy.

#this is so crazy. i haven't thought about that challenge in years

cuppydogshane

if your tumblr experience of heatriv is people arguing about hudson and connor and whos better and saying that queer men donnt have a place here you are following bad people and you shoupd change that.