Guillian, that's the name. I belong in a blank page searching for tranquility and endless wander. She is currently a work in progress. PH, 19, Political Science
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Its been months since I get to open my laptop and sit on my chair without thinking about how to start my paper on hand, read international cases via pdf and research matters needed for studying. First semester of my last year in college ended well. I was able to complete the tasks and requirements before each subjects ended. I was able to somehow make a comeback on some of subjects that I really have no intention of spending my time studying. I was able to finally overcome my constant worrying over my grades, let it go and allow my performances to do the verdict for me and not me...over thinking.
If you cram, you’ll end up unwell. Being a college student for 3 years and a half, I am able to somehow formulate my own ways in studying, paper outputs, research as well as organisation and so on, for the reason that it has enable me to work efficiently and effectively which allow have better results. I guess it is suffice to say that I have not been able to master my ways for three years and still resort to cramming. This semester, if I am to summarise my half year in 4th year, it is more of a trial and error experience. Workloads keep pilling up each day specifically on my International Law subject and readings on various subjects that I have been neglecting because I have been focusing my time on Research and Case Digests as well as Recitation for international law which resulted to various downfall. In this sense, I have learned not to stress myself over the things that I cannot even manage to do at the same time since I have xbeen a multi-tasker for years. Moreover, not to cram for I’ll end up thinking if I really did well with my output or even with my performance on quizzes and major exams. And to loosen up a bit for being so focus on certain things allow you to forget what has been more important and enjoyable in life, which I fail to do every now and then.
Cramming is a 50/50 chance, you have 50% success rate and 50% failure rate but for every chances there is always an in between luck deciding “the end” of your actions.
Being undecided is harder than being neglected of doing something you love. I have 5 months or more to finally decide whether or not I will continue studying after graduation or take some time off and apply for a job. I’ve been weighing the pros and cons of my possible actions in the near future and have seen that I may or may not able to fill in the gaps if I enter in a certain career but have seen myself wandering and happy with what I might do. It is never easy to take a step far from what you do but it feels like removing the shackles that caged you. But, it is also harder to continue and make something out of your 4 years feeling exhausted and unwilling.
The final verdict lies when one is on the verge of choosing for the sake of not being wasted. I may or may not, we’ll see
Somehow good things come in the most unexpected ways. Good things happen over the course of my stay in the university, I already met a lot of people, delve myself into certain experiences and even exposed myself...and he came when I least expect it.
"Ever since I met you
You turned my world around
You’re my best friend and my lover
We’re like changing electric and magnetic fields
You can’t have one without the other."
Thesis can make or break you but in this case it did make me. My thesis mates and I decided to take a topic about the Effects of the Scarborough Shoal dispute on the everyday live of the fisher folks of Masinloc, Zambales. We received various comments and reactions with the output of our paper and our topic but still managed to pass the first set of this research and set our feet on the journey of data gathering. A lot have come out when we gathered our data, it feels like being open to a whole new perspective, different from what we hear in news reports from the media and even newspapers. People cover them every now and then but it was never showcasing the real problems they encounter beside the dispute. I felt hopeless at first since we can’t find what we are looking for but patience and hard work bloomed into a flower when we stumbled to the right place and right people.
I have never been excited in my whole life but only this time, I am excited to see what we can come up with and if we will be able to at least help the people of Masinloc with this paper.
Sunsets, bright faces and distress community. It may not be much but it feels better than the grandest places in the Philippines.
I am retrieving all posts from my Instagram and trying to consolidate it here so whenever I need it for something like crafting and finally making an album out of my Instagram I can easily access it.
Falls at Gabaldon, Nueva Ecija
Amo Yamie Crib at Mendiola
Road near the Hotel we stayed at Jeju Island
“The Generation where taking pictures first is important before eating the food”
From where I stand at Gabaldon
Flatlay of almost everything I want
Airplane view at Jeju
Departure area for Philippine Airlines at NAIA (Fun fact: I never tried riding with Cebu Pacific and I want to try it since the air fare is affordable too compare to PAL.)
Hi Guillian!! I just want to say that you're a talented photographer and I like the pictures that you take :) I recently created a personal/photography blog just last week, but I occasionally post about books, too, because I love to read! I was wondering if you can come and visit my blog someday? :) I really admire yours! I'm relatively new to Tumblr so I'm hoping to connect with other bloggers here. I'd really appreciate it! Thank you!
Hello Jillian! Woah we have the same name (at least in pronunciation)but differs in spelling. Thank you for the kind words. Nakakatuwa na someone appreciates what I do. I am really going to visit your blog. :) Ang cute ng cursor mo. hihi I love how personal your posts are. Keep posting :)
I am tagged by two people with different set of questions. First set tagged by @caffeinatedhuman and second set tagged by @elysianxreveries.
Tagged by Caffeinatedhuman
cute ng url mo :)
Name:
Guillian
Star Sign:
Taurus
Lucky Number:
I don’t have a lucky number but when it comes to bunutan I always want the median number.
Last Thing Googled:
Kathy Bates hahaa because I’ve been searching for updates on American Horror Story and i want to know if she’s going to be on Season 6
Favourite Fictional Character:
Cha Do Hyun of Kill Me, Heal Me <3
Favourite Songs:
Nothing in particular but I love listening to Coldplay, Daughter, Oh Wonder and Indie Songs
What are you wearing right now:
Patrick Star Shirt and Shorts
When did you start your blog:
I can’t really remember the exact date but I guess I’ve been here for 3 to 5 years.
How many followers do you have:
Is this really necessary? Chos. I am not famous hehe 360
What do you post:
my attempt on photography, anything under the sun, crafts and planner related, musings
Do you run any other blogs:
Yes. I have a portfolio blog: guilliancaptures
Why did you choose this URL:
It was my gloomy and depressing days when I have this url and I still get to write literary pieces when I had lostethereal.
Tagged by Elysianxreveries
Birthday:
May 1997
Gender:
Female
Relationship Status:
No. I am not in the search. Career muna
Zodiac Sign:
Taurus
Siblings:
I have 2 siblings and both are boys.
Favorite Colors:
Pink, Brown, Cream, Gray and White
Pet (s):
I have no pets, but I my love for dogs is growing.
Wake up Times:
Earliest is 9 am and 12 pm is Latest time
Love or Lust:
Despite everything, still love
Lemonade or Iced Tea:
Iced Tea
Cats or Dogs:
Dogs. I love the face of chow chow (?)
Coke or Pepsi:
None, I can”t drink soft drinks
Day or Night:
Night
Text or Call:
Text
Met a Celebrity:
is Gab Bayan of That’s My Bae considered as a celebrity? Haha I met him at FEU.
Light or Dark Hair:
Dark Hair
Shorter or Taller:
Taller
Chapsticks or Lipsticks:
Both. On Liptsticks, I love the nude colors.
City or Country:
Country
Last Song You Listened To:
Hands to Myself by Selena Gomez
I’ve been training myself to acquire new techniques and editing skills in the field of photography with the hopes of making something out of it. I’ve been watching youtube tutorials and lessons as well as reading articles on the internet. Photos taken around the house.
Doing the film-like edit is somehow difficult since my main objective on editing it is to not destroy the quality of the image. Adding more filters and even contrast and brightness to a photo can make or break it, since the heaviness of the elements can destroy the clear quality of it resulting to a low image quality.
Lightroom edits done: Film preset (can be downloaded free on internet, I forgot the link) + Auto Tone + Manipulation on Point Curve + Grain
Visit my semi-portfolio site: guilliancaptures | compilation of all shots I took
I’ve been fond of scrapbooking and crafting since high school and project life has been the scrapbooking/documenting method that I love and enjoy the most. I get to use project life cards that can be purchased online or DIY it, washi tapes and do-it-yourself embellishments. Project Life is not hard and complicated to use rather simple and you can do whatever design you want.
Other users says that project life is hard to keep up with since it is like a week to week basis however, I only use it for my travel and musings. I’ve been using project life for 6 months now and I am very satisfied with what it can offer rather than the traditional scrapbooking that is starting from the scratch. I have nothing against the traditional way however it is taking me hours to finish 2 pages instead of filling a lot that’s why I did the big switch.
What is Project Life?
Project Life® is an ultra-simple, über-stylish solution for getting your photos off your phone and computer, out of boxes, and into albums.
Gone are the days of cutting, pasting, buying oodles of supplies, and spending hours on an album. Or even hours on just one page. - See more at: http://beckyhiggins.com/project-life/#sthash.rTn7ySVn.dpuf
The PROs and CONs of Project Life
PROs
Organised documentation of important events in life.
Easy to use.
Not high maintenance--Project Life can always lived by the principle “Simplicity is beauty.”, meaning you can insert your photos and journal cards on your own liking. Also, since the project life cards are already equipped with designs you can let it be as it is without putting much decoration instead paste some photos, memorabilia, souvenirs and even write stories.
Project Life cards are functional. There are project life cards with embedded themes such as Week X with days, Currently, Now Watching and so on.
Secured memory keeping. Each pages are made out of plastic.
CONs
As a student, Project Life materials are quite expensive. I need to save up money to buy a 1,000 pesos+ worth of album with 10 pages and project life cards with the price ranging from 180-1,500 depending on the kits. What I hate the most when buying project life cards is the quantity when buying shares of low prices has also a minimal quantity forcing me to buy the set with higher number so that the shipping fee will be all worth it.
There is a standard layout in project life. The quantity of boxes and how wide it can be depends on the size of the album. Project life album sizes are 12 x 12 and 6 X 8. You may opt to use We R Memory Keepers Fuse sleeve to manipulate the layout.
Here are some of the spread I made.
Advice for using:
Do not overthink. using project life may a bit frustrating at first since you want tot have a perfect looking spread, however, let the ideas and design you want flow with no restrictions.
Start small before going big. Use a 6x8 album first, it is easier to maintain and keep.
Take the photos the most memorable and weirdest scenarios and event in life. Your project life album is your journal. Record everything you want, do not think of restrictions. When it comes to camera, you may use Instax, Camera Phones and DSLR.
Be flexible. You may do whatever way you want on your album. It is yours anyway.
Go have fun with colors. Do not restrict yourself. You may do color scheme method if you really want to.
Write whatever you want. Qoutes, dates, lyrics, journal. Tell the stories you want keep alive thru words.
Enjoy! Having and doing project life for the past months has been my tool for stress relieving and pressure. It is a crafting method that can be both used to enhance your skills in art and a medium to calm you whenever you need to. Think of project life as your favorite food wherein you can eat it and look for it whenever you crave to. Do not obligate yourself to finish or many spreads, just do whatever you can.
You may buy Project Life materials and crafting materials at these local online shops.
Beehappy, Saffy Tenten, Berrystreats, Hobby Depot , Craft Unlimited Ph
We’ve been together since third grade and my whole elementary years is the most exciting and unbelievable things done. We went from being the happy go luckies-bullies-dreamers-supporters of each others and now in the path of being grown ups building a career.
We definitely have the best of times from our elementary years, but being apart from them during my high school years provided an enormous adjustment for me since they became a big part of my social circle. However, even though we aren’t together for 4 years straight, everything is intact and nothing has been changed except for being girly and others.
Last week friday, we went for a simple reunion catching up, eating, giving of movies and playing arcade like a kid. (lol)
This is the game I most enjoyed and you can play this when you are feeling pissed off and wanting to explode. haaah
It is my first time playing just dance and I am creative. HAHA
To my for keeps,
Cheers to our 12 years of friendship and let’s drink to more years of memories and experiences together. We might not graduate at the same time but we will all graduate college in the future.
“The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quite alone with the heavens, nature and God. Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be and that God wishes to see people happy, amidst the simple beauty of nature. As longs as this exists, and it certainly always will, I know that then there will always be comfort for every sorrow, whatever the circumstances may be. And I firmly believe that nature brings solace in all troubles.”
― Anne Frank, The Diary of a Young Girl
Watching
Re-watching all seasons of The Big Bang Theory (still on going) and I am currently on Season Episode 13. This is one of the series I’ve watched that I never get tired watching again and again. It is like my version of Harry Potter Movies. I am super in love with the show and with Sheldon Cooper. hihi
Reading
The Virgin Suicides by Jeffrey Eugenides. The sad truth about this is, I started reading this book last month and I can’t get myself to read it even put my old habit back. It feels like being lost in a certain path that you are once familiar.
Listening
We don’t talk Anymore by Charlie Puth ft. Selena Gomez.
Thinking
About possible careers and job I can pursue that can make me go places or possibly build and develop me as an individual and nurture my skills. For the past few months, I’ve been weighing the pros and cons of taking chances in a certain career that I possibly won’t make it…either due to having no interest or failure to comply. And I honestly, don’t want to suffer in that landscape.
Feeling
Heavy both inside and out. It feels like my whole body is swelling and it is taking me to be lethargic. So much hate for red days.
Smelling
The last perfume I had on me which is the VS Coconut. It smells like vanilla but in a very mild way.
Wishing
I can buy all the planner materials I want. I’ve been browsing online shops and preventing myself on buying crafting/planning materials that I won’t need in the future that might end up in a destash sale.
Hoping
The weather to be better. Am I the only one still feeling hot despite of the rainy season?
Wearing
My cookie monster’s friend shirt (lol) and plaid shorts.
Loving
My new traveler’s notebook that is intended for 2017, although I begin designing and organising it.
Wanting
A wave of positivity that would help me set my mind on thinking that I am capable of doing things and will gain the success and contentment I want.
Needing
A new set of scent chips because I am running out of stock and my room won’t smell good anymore. huhu Lightning a candle and melting 3 pieces of scent chips has been my routine for the past 5 months and breaking it feels like being out in a certain blood compact. (lol)
Yehliu Geopark Landscape, Wanli District, New Taipei, Taiwan
It was raining when we had our tour at Yehliu Geopark so the excitement and thrill to see new scenery and chances for photography is not at its highest peak. All I want to do is to sit in a specific spot and wait for others to come back from their tour, however, I need to make the most out of our trip so I conquered the slippery floor and long walks.
I am amazed on how the government of taiwan able to preserve the park. All the rock formations are well maintained and at its best condition. There are guards around to make sure that none of the formations are being abused nor stepped on. What I observed the most are the locals, they are the primary movers on doing the violations (the don’ts) for the sake of good pictures. I don’t have any hatred nor anger towards people who’ll do everything for good photos because I do that too, however, there are set limitations that is needed to follow in order for the geological park to be maintained. I am a secret lover of the environment and seeing them being used irresponsibly makes me wish to have a change of roles, wherein the violators and apathetic people of society will turned to the worst case of environment and the environment will be the people stepping on them and killing them. Perhaps, the best way is learn the value of self-discipline and everything else will follow.
Visit more of my travel posts @ International and Domestic
I watched the the darkness take over the submerging colors of sunset and allow the night to be prevalent for the day. That day has become a mixed of realizations and possible actions to take if needed. I chased for the right angle or the most stunning view to portray my fascination over skies and it never fails me even in the darkest and terrible situations.
What made me love the sky?
It is a one fine day, when we are able to look up above even if an enormous glare damage our eyes. We enjoy the pain but we mostly love the view. The clouds has become a manifestation of how we'll be able to find a soft spot inside our souls but we fail to recognise the truth of the things that decay inside us.
Others might find it odd on why people are too obsessed on capturing the beauty of sky but if you ask me, its another way of looking in a place that has this serene feeling, that sings lullaby in your ears. It feels like being moved away from all the anxieties in life and difficulties. The sky has become more of a friend that begins to understand you the moment it sense you which is way better than your human friends who only knows you by trying to act as if they know you fully, more than you know who you are (but really, only few really knows you well).
My fascinations with the sky started when I watched a Korean Drama movie. The main character shoots the sky daily with hopes of sending his love and care for the family that is separated to him by death. It inspires me to start capturing the sky with also the hopes of overcoming my anxieties and other people’s uncontrollable emotions because believe it or not when everything seems to be falling out of places, I always find time to fixate myself on the various formations of the cloud and take time with it. Allow myself to leave the undeniable reality and contemplate everything before letting my emotion and mood take over me.
Sky, for me, has become a sort of therapy, it is an exercise that enables you to appreciate the simplest beauty and clear your head from everything. It is like doing a meditation but the different is you are taking shots and at the same time having the best moments in your life.
Reading
Articles and blog posts regarding budget travels and travel adventures. My feet is itchig to go somewhere.
Watching
Descendants of the Sun and it is really lovely. Woaaaah~~ I regret not watchibg it sooner. I am now on Episode 8 and I just started last night haha
Writing
This blog post and record keeping in my planner. I am finally getting some time to keep my planner updated.
Listening
Carnival Town by Norah Jones. It calms me at the moment and I babdly need it.
Thinking
about what would my last year in college be if I were to take things in different directions and be reluctant to engage on various things. I might be a disaster.
Smelling
The scent of Vanilla and burning wood from my candle.
Wishing
I could be more free to travel alone go anywhere I want.
Hoping
For good things to come and a sense of clarity
Wearing
A shirt and short (always)
Loving
my new set of zebra mildliners. I finally have the three sets and I am excited to try all of it.
Wanting
A peace of mind.
Needing
A breeze of cold air. Aaah~ Its june and it is still hot like summer.
When we went to Jeju, the cherry blossoms season is almost at its end so its like doing a last minute sight seeing and picture taking with them. The tour guide brought us to a place with bunch of fully bloomed cherry blossoms and I picked some. haha
Visit more of my travel posts @ International and Domestic
I’ve been wanting to write something here in tumblr ever since I became active. Something that I am not used to dwell in since people who happened to read my blog and writings always tell me that I put much attention on writing about the dark things in life, which is entirely true since this is where I find comfort and I get to relate myself easily. The hardest part for me as someone who tries to create a career out of writing has recently opened my senses vividly clear that I cannot entirely delve myself on things I cannot find myself and put myself in the shoes of some character that I am forming inside my mind. What I am saying is, it is harder than I thought. Besides, a great writer can make something worst to beautiful.
People from my non-social media space tell me that I am a good writer but no...unfortunately, I realised that I am not and I have tons of other things need to consider. I cannot even write something happy, hopeful even youthful. What I am trying to say is, I am probably not destined on this field and maybe destined to do other things that I have greater chances of making a career and life out of it, because honestly, I am in the phase of “whether or not I should do what lies ahead of me or take a different path and do what I really love despite what others might say so I can leave the great chances of sobbing, regretting and doubting.”
It is been hard for me to realise what I am capable of, because on the duration of assessment, all I do is doubt my confidence and my skills. And I don’t have proof or evidence that I am really good at something. Maybe its true, that I am overthinking and afraid that I might regret whatever will happen to me. Maybe, I am afraid that I am never good enough and not do what is exactly in my mind, that I might end up someone who is trying to pick up the broken pieces of life and make it whole again.
The point is, I am done writing and I would love to learn how so I can improve but not today and not at this era. What I need to is focus on how I will be able to resolve the fragments of doubts and plans, and establish control on things I cannot get myself to hold.
