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A hrpf/horny sideblog 18+, she/her, mostly pens

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Current Ask Game:

Send me a fic title and I’ll give you the ship & summary for the hypothetical fic

[shanehollandered]

ok poll time because i am genuinely curious about something (and this is not a call out for anyone, that's just me being in my head)

do you answer comments on your fics or do you not (for the specific reason that it "distorts" the actual amount of comments)?

yes i answer comments

no i don't answer comments because of the above

secret third option (put it in the tags)

Remaining time: 3 days 17 minutes

[pnglove]

[tiredandoptimistic]

Nothing hits like "romantic couple and a third guy who's not dating either of them but is definitely a part of this dynamic"

[terriblygrimm]

[faerieinthehumanworld]

[putridghost]

[thesaltofcarthage]

[johanna-swann]

[kamikazequail]

[madlori]

bonus if you know which two are the "official" couple in this one.

[ellipsus-writes]

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[coffee-at-annies]

I am currently thinking about tumblr’s obsession with “came back wrong” necromancy fics, but applying that to the lens of players signing with or getting traded to former teams, maybe even being traded to new teams but with former teammates. Moves that should be a homecoming but they aren’t — things will always carry that faint hint of wrongness. Even when you can go home, you can never go home to the way it was.

[lovethytendytenderly]

[lovethytendytenderly]

brain wants to write tanger getting railed in jars nest but it will not let me actually open the word doc. it keeps pouting when i try

[lovethytendytenderly]

anyone want to think about Dom/Dom/sub SidGenoTanger with me?

[lovethytendytenderly]

And I’m back here again

[lovethytendytenderly]

@angelsbleeds hi hello you have activated my trap card. pls come wander down this bio-bdsm hypothetical with me

With the caveat that there’s many ways to do it, here’s my initial thought process that I put in one of my gcs after nobody took me up on it on tumblr originally: Dom/Dom SidGeno where they’re very happy together as a queer couple but they have always sorta hoped that Tanger would maybe be their third/sub and Kris has spent 20 years being a strong independent sub who doesn’t need a (permanent) Dom. He’s a beautiful untameable stallion but also this post bc Kris is both a stallion/working dog and a stray cat who thinks he needs to cling to being wild and carefree bc otherwise he’s unloveable. Spoiler alert: he’s not.

Meanwhile Sid and Geno (who are happy together and fine playing separately, together, whatever) are like damn you’re running yourself ragged (bc I love setting things during the sadboi year) and just want Kris to take care of himself/let one or both of them take care of him. Of course to Kris it’s all platonic despite the feelings he caught years ago and never really outgrew bc how could they love someone like him? They have each other. They’re so married. They’ve somehow made both being Doms work. Why would they want a stubborn (bratty) sub who is grumpy, struggles to submit, likes to be on top/is a top most of them time, won’t listen to them anywhere but the ice, and has a literal hole in his heart etc etc. Like imagine the anxiety fest as Kris struggles with his self image.

PO witnessing all of this cause he’s rooming with Tanger is like you’re such a goddamn idiot. Let your best friends take care of you.

Going backwards into how we got there, I think there’s some yummy history with Dom!Flower who spent Kris’s rookie year pushing him around and never quite stopped. bb!Kris wanted Flower to keep him but it was always going to be Vero for Flower so that was like his first professional heartbreak. I like the idea of saying Cath was there in the past, maybe even Alex but it didn’t work out when they tried to get serious. She couldn’t handle it—couldn’t handle Tanger—at least not all of him, every facet of his personality on and off the ice, and that was his biggest heartbreak. Probably Flower and Vero helped put Tanger back together, maybe even Sid and Geno too or the other Doms on the team. It didn’t always work out so great in the past, which means Kris also has the baggage of connecting SidGeno’s dominance with pity from the worst times of his life, when it’s not simply casual sceneing among teammates.

Even if we don’t tie it to things like plot and events and just wallow around in vibes and character studies there’s a lot there.

Tanger who’s the wild stallion and feral cat and loyal dog. He can be so easy for Sid and Geno (or the other Doms on the team). Sometimes. When he wants to be. When he knows he has to be. He’s too old not to know how to go sweetly to his knees when he, or a Dom (or a coach), needs him to. He’s coachable. So coachable. That means he can be easy in the room and easy on his knees because he knows better. Difficult subs don’t make it as long as he has. Geno hates it because that’s not Kris. That’s Kris packing away all his rough edges to be *good* (for a given value of it). It always bursts out of the box again— a bad penalty, a worse fight, a screaming match in the locker room— Kris is never consistently good, just the facsimile of well trained dog without letting them put in the work to actually make him heel. It passes muster on the ice where he is a loyal dog with a job to do but it falls apart off the ice. That’s the untamed stallion of it all. If anyone actually gets to touch the untamed stallion at the heart of him and doesn’t want it— doesn’t want him— it’ll break him beyond all repair. Cath leaving did its damage. So he’s easy when he needs to be, snarling when he can get away with it, and when it gets truly bad he hides himself away so nobody can see him claw and bite—the truly feral cat/feral brat that needs to be allowed to rage himself out against the bed until all the energy has bled out of him. Except he doesn’t show that side of himself casually. Sid and Geno know it’s there. They’ve butted heads to many times over the years to not know. He won’t show it to them. (Flower has seen it. Flower has seen everything of Kris and as much as it broke all of them he still walked away from it. He had to).

Sid & Geno, they want it. They want him. At his best and worst. Sid wants to ride him hard and put him away wet. He wants to be the one putting Kris through those stupid gym challenges just to see how far Kris can push his body and reward him for doing it. Sid wants to edge Kris for hours until he’s a snarling teary mess and then sit on his dick and still not let Kris come until Geno’s all the way inside of him and he’s stimulated from both sides. Sid wants to test that iron will against his own stubbornness and dominance and see which one of them breaks first. Sid doesn’t even mind that he doesn’t know if it’ll be Kris or himself.

Geno wants Kris. He wants him easy and languid after a win. He wants him so mad that he’s the bull and Geno is the one going toro and dodging out of the way at the last minute. He wants to be the distraction breaking the stalemate between the unstoppable force and the immovable object so that they can get on with sex now please. He wants to be the one covering hockey bruises with his own and he wants to take care of those bruises afterwards, but mostly he wants Kris. Not the version that’s good because that’s the assumption. Geno wants the version that’s happy. The one that’s taken care of. That isn’t suffering by himself from injuries or subdrop or who knows because he won’t talk to them, just the coaches and trainers. He wants to take care of the sub who’s sad at home recovering from a broken foot and a broken heart and his second stroke with only the rookie dom he’s billeting for company or care.

Kris well. He’d want that if he thought it was actually on the table. But feral cat. He thinks he’s just a teammate. A convenient sub. He is not an easy fuck and he knows better than to say that where his friends can get offended, but he doesn’t think that highly of himself and his true submission. Cath couldn’t handle the worst of him. Flower for all his virtues never really tried with the worst of Tanger. He’d make Kris sit it out or send him home to Cath if he could. Kris has never had someone look at all of him and want to own it the way Sid and Geno do.

[lovethytendytenderly]

@angelsbleeds I meant to respond earlier but work and life. Apparently I can’t be brief so chucking this under another cut instead of replying to you 🙄

In my head there's a very specific kind of calculation Kris is doing wrt his submission in the locker room and casual play between teammates and coaches etc. Not all the time/every time, but often enough. Where he's looking at the room and himself and weighing his wants/headspace vs the expected behavior/submission vs team culture and making a choice. Sometimes he goes to his knees because he wants to. There were times , for example, when Flower posted a shutty and Kris wanted to celebrate. Sometimes though it's that calculation when you're the only minority in a room and you start to wonder how cool or professional or specific you need to act because any other option loses face. Not every time, but that calculation is there. I'm generalizing of course, this is over the entire course of Kris's 20+ year hockey career, including going back as far as juniors. And I am very specifically thinking about public scenes/locker room scenes. The sort of private-but-public locker room vibes sort of thing. The sort of thing that’s professional, but also casual and intimate and having to ride the edge of that even if it means you absorb or self inflict a microagression or two.

I want to stress that it's not non-consent, simply dub-con. I think Sid runs a locker room where no means no and nobody is forced to do anything they don't want to do. Sid got hazed enough his rookie year by the older Doms on the team that he isn't letting that shit fly. If Tanger (or any of the other subs) never went to his knees in the room everyone would be cool with it (and Sid would have/has had to have words with any teammates that weren't cool with it). So there's no overt coercion at Kris, just a sort of specific kind of dub-con where unspoken power dynamics (hockey culture, workplace culture, etc) muddies clear communication. And again this is years worth of life being condensed down into a couple paragraphs.

Specifically going back to the early years bc that’s where I’ve been recently, Kris was a young hotshot sub in a room full of young hotshot Doms. There were expectations. Kris probably got really good at riding the edge of those expectations. Especially with Dom teammates he didn't like as much as Flower, the frenchie group, and his D-partners. Flower claiming Kris as his defenseman(/sub) (explicitly in a D/s way) probably helped him navigate the locker room in a lot of ways. It gave him leeway to shrug people off even within a culture of and the expectation for casual sceneing and nonmonogamy. As for the rest? Kris knows how to play a room. Even as he's gotten older he still knows how to do it even without Flower or a permanent collar from a non-team Dominant.

Sid gets it that Kris feels he has to act in certain ways. He doesn't like it, but he gets it. Sid has had to act in certain ways for most of his career. The C and the support of the pens org means that he has had certain freedoms in exchange for certain expectations. This has especially become truer as he's gotten older and he's cemented his legacy on all levels of hockey, but that awareness, that media training, it never really went away. He's just hid that calculation behind warm affability and gone to work. So Sid understands Kris weighing the pros and cons and doing the same. Kris's career is way more volatile and way less secure than his, best defenseman, future hall of famer, or not. And there was a long time when he didn’t have fhof tacked on the front of him, not just because he’s a sub, but that contributed.

Geno I think hates it. It took him a while to recognize it as a calculated choice rather than clear want - what with being a young hotshot Dom still learning english and with certain expectations of special treatment that I think is common in full-of-themselves teenage boys more than anything else. Once Geno learned, he got picky and testy. He'll push Kris away if he thinks Kris's motives aren't 100% honest. It pisses Kris off. Makes him prissy and has started a number of fights. So maybe he's going sweetly to his knees after a game because it will reflect well in the coaches eyes that he's rewarding Geno for a hat trick. He also wants to blow his friend because those goals were fucking hot and he likes having Geno's big dick in his mouth. Geno likes to prod Kris until he says the embarassing but true thing that's behind the easy media ready answer. He likes to know how much Kris wants it, and well, sometimes Kris wants it so bad it makes him look stupid (which he hates and then it’s a circle of them hissing at each other like feral cats until someone butts in).

Again, that's public/within the wider team. I think private scenes have run the full gamut of experiences, enough for Kris to know what he likes and for Sid and Geno to get a tantalizing taste of just how far they could push him but being stopped by the fact that it is casual/just buddies.

I really have not dug into Kris's history with Flower but I definitely think they did a ton which helped shape Kris into who he is. Both in his preferences and also in the knowledge that he was Flower’s other sub, very much wanted but second fiddle to Vero everywhere but on the ice and on the ice there was more important things to worry about. I think Jars is a sub which is very different from Kris's experiences with Muzz and Flower who were both Doms.

I was rotating an idea but it's not fully formed where Kris and Tristan would occasionally scene together as two subs. They could be as rough with each other behind closed doors as they wanted because it's easier to express violence laterally than it is to do it against someone who is supposed to function as an authority. Those scenes helped Kris release the pressure valve of stress and tension that just wanted to smash every single one of his sticks against the boards or punch the wall or something equally self destructive. Maybe by the end of it Kris would be at the edge of subspace all the rage bled out of him. And then Tristan would go back to his Dom/wife and Kris would go back to his empty house. At least until PO started living with him. Or Tristan caught on and started calling one of the Doms on the team to do aftercare. So there’s more casual experience with Sid and Geno to reinforce that they don’t actually want him it’s just buddies/teammates

For current teammates, EK is absolutely in this AU but I have no idea if he is Dom sub or switch which makes pinning down how he fits into the puzzle hard. Especially because I'm coming at this from an angle that it's sorta expected that within a locker room/sports team, everyone is familiar with everyone and will probably scene with everyone of compatible dynamics at some point. Long road trips without partners means you either pick up or pair off (which is how Flower/Tanger came about in the first place). Then there’s also public scenes meaning that even Doms who aren't into other Doms are probably at least passingly familiar with the way the others' dominance functions.

[lovethytendytenderly]

Can I propose a song for ship playlists for your emotionally constipated ships that struggle to communicate?

[thingsmk1120sayz]

June 12th 2009

June 12th 2016

Two very important days in Penguins history

[exhuastedpigeon]

The first rule of fandom is have fun. The second rule of fandom is find an enabler and become an enabler. Yes you should write that fic. What if it was even hornier? What if it was angstier? What if you wrote it just for me?

[ussjellyfish]

I love the randomness of the kudos email. It’s the fic I wrote this week. The one that’s 13 years old. The one that I don’t remember what it’s about or even what fandom it is.

Thanks lovely readers. <3 your taste is mysterious and wonderful.

[brawlite]

honestly sometimes there's no better feeling than rereading a fic you've written and coming out of it going, "yeah that actually this DOES slap. exactly what i wanted to read. fucking nailed it."

[misscryptidart]

My knight: "I am a steward blade. I am a vessel of violence and duty. There is no man, beast, or devil I fear."

Me, lifting my hand gently: "Okay but what if I cradle you softely?"

My knight, suddenly shaking: "That isn't- I'm n-not, hang on jsut a second."

[lovethytendytenderly]

anyone want to think about Dom/Dom/sub SidGenoTanger with me?

[lovethytendytenderly]

And I’m back here again

[lovethytendytenderly]

@angelsbleeds hi hello you have activated my trap card. pls come wander down this bio-bdsm hypothetical with me

With the caveat that there’s many ways to do it, here’s my initial thought process that I put in one of my gcs after nobody took me up on it on tumblr originally: Dom/Dom SidGeno where they’re very happy together as a queer couple but they have always sorta hoped that Tanger would maybe be their third/sub and Kris has spent 20 years being a strong independent sub who doesn’t need a (permanent) Dom. He’s a beautiful untameable stallion but also this post bc Kris is both a stallion/working dog and a stray cat who thinks he needs to cling to being wild and carefree bc otherwise he’s unloveable. Spoiler alert: he’s not.

Meanwhile Sid and Geno (who are happy together and fine playing separately, together, whatever) are like damn you’re running yourself ragged (bc I love setting things during the sadboi year) and just want Kris to take care of himself/let one or both of them take care of him. Of course to Kris it’s all platonic despite the feelings he caught years ago and never really outgrew bc how could they love someone like him? They have each other. They’re so married. They’ve somehow made both being Doms work. Why would they want a stubborn (bratty) sub who is grumpy, struggles to submit, likes to be on top/is a top most of them time, won’t listen to them anywhere but the ice, and has a literal hole in his heart etc etc. Like imagine the anxiety fest as Kris struggles with his self image.

PO witnessing all of this cause he’s rooming with Tanger is like you’re such a goddamn idiot. Let your best friends take care of you.

Going backwards into how we got there, I think there’s some yummy history with Dom!Flower who spent Kris’s rookie year pushing him around and never quite stopped. bb!Kris wanted Flower to keep him but it was always going to be Vero for Flower so that was like his first professional heartbreak. I like the idea of saying Cath was there in the past, maybe even Alex but it didn’t work out when they tried to get serious. She couldn’t handle it—couldn’t handle Tanger—at least not all of him, every facet of his personality on and off the ice, and that was his biggest heartbreak. Probably Flower and Vero helped put Tanger back together, maybe even Sid and Geno too or the other Doms on the team. It didn’t always work out so great in the past, which means Kris also has the baggage of connecting SidGeno’s dominance with pity from the worst times of his life, when it’s not simply casual sceneing among teammates.

Even if we don’t tie it to things like plot and events and just wallow around in vibes and character studies there’s a lot there.

Tanger who’s the wild stallion and feral cat and loyal dog. He can be so easy for Sid and Geno (or the other Doms on the team). Sometimes. When he wants to be. When he knows he has to be. He’s too old not to know how to go sweetly to his knees when he, or a Dom (or a coach), needs him to. He’s coachable. So coachable. That means he can be easy in the room and easy on his knees because he knows better. Difficult subs don’t make it as long as he has. Geno hates it because that’s not Kris. That’s Kris packing away all his rough edges to be *good* (for a given value of it). It always bursts out of the box again— a bad penalty, a worse fight, a screaming match in the locker room— Kris is never consistently good, just the facsimile of well trained dog without letting them put in the work to actually make him heel. It passes muster on the ice where he is a loyal dog with a job to do but it falls apart off the ice. That’s the untamed stallion of it all. If anyone actually gets to touch the untamed stallion at the heart of him and doesn’t want it— doesn’t want him— it’ll break him beyond all repair. Cath leaving did its damage. So he’s easy when he needs to be, snarling when he can get away with it, and when it gets truly bad he hides himself away so nobody can see him claw and bite—the truly feral cat/feral brat that needs to be allowed to rage himself out against the bed until all the energy has bled out of him. Except he doesn’t show that side of himself casually. Sid and Geno know it’s there. They’ve butted heads to many times over the years to not know. He won’t show it to them. (Flower has seen it. Flower has seen everything of Kris and as much as it broke all of them he still walked away from it. He had to).

Sid & Geno, they want it. They want him. At his best and worst. Sid wants to ride him hard and put him away wet. He wants to be the one putting Kris through those stupid gym challenges just to see how far Kris can push his body and reward him for doing it. Sid wants to edge Kris for hours until he’s a snarling teary mess and then sit on his dick and still not let Kris come until Geno’s all the way inside of him and he’s stimulated from both sides. Sid wants to test that iron will against his own stubbornness and dominance and see which one of them breaks first. Sid doesn’t even mind that he doesn’t know if it’ll be Kris or himself.

Geno wants Kris. He wants him easy and languid after a win. He wants him so mad that he’s the bull and Geno is the one going toro and dodging out of the way at the last minute. He wants to be the distraction breaking the stalemate between the unstoppable force and the immovable object so that they can get on with sex now please. He wants to be the one covering hockey bruises with his own and he wants to take care of those bruises afterwards, but mostly he wants Kris. Not the version that’s good because that’s the assumption. Geno wants the version that’s happy. The one that’s taken care of. That isn’t suffering by himself from injuries or subdrop or who knows because he won’t talk to them, just the coaches and trainers. He wants to take care of the sub who’s sad at home recovering from a broken foot and a broken heart and his second stroke with only the rookie dom he’s billeting for company or care.

Kris well. He’d want that if he thought it was actually on the table. But feral cat. He thinks he’s just a teammate. A convenient sub. He is not an easy fuck and he knows better than to say that where his friends can get offended, but he doesn’t think that highly of himself and his true submission. Cath couldn’t handle the worst of him. Flower for all his virtues never really tried with the worst of Tanger. He’d make Kris sit it out or send him home to Cath if he could. Kris has never had someone look at all of him and want to own it the way Sid and Geno do.

[yotzuyu]

[arachnerd-8-legs]

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