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32 / Canada / baby gay / schizoaffective & PKD

[loxyco]

Loxy & co. (that's you!)

hi i'm Loxy, and i recently found out that for my own sanity i can no longer be romantically or sexually involved with men. neurodivergent; i don't believe people were made to slave their lives away at jobs that don't care about them. while medications that keep me sane have stripped me of having a libido, occasionally NSFW and kink appears here. i talk a lot in tags.

i am: pro choice, pro union, pro SW, anti grind, anti fascist, anti cop, uniquely individual yet predictably human. fuck late stage capitalism!

there's no cohesive theme for this blog, but you can expect to see posts about: goth/alt fashion, LGBTQ, gaming, body positivity, witchy things, mental health, music from many genres, art and aesthetically pleasing things, social issues, and general chaos.

RIP Eddie Munson. Mana-sama might as well be god. i hope Ryan Ross is living his best life. Katie Jane Garside is an ethereal being from another world. despite everything it's still you. all hail Sheogorath!

Terfs and minors DNI

(edited Jan 19 2025)

[loxyco]

the bad thoughts are lessening. the jealousy is lessening. the compulsions are lessening. the bad feelings are lessening. they're still there, but they're getting better. i feel lighter.

[loxyco]

absolutely enamored at the effort they've been putting into making me feel like i'm hot. obviously i also appreciate the small number of other people who have been doing that recently too but it hits different when it comes from that special person, probably because i'm not used to getting that as a response to my insecurities from a good chunk of the special persons i've had in my life

[loxyco]

i feel like i'm surrounded by people who wouldn't understand my issues lmao and probably think i'm crazy (news flash: i am)

[loxyco]

there's only one person on here who would know what this means but i think i'm going to start identifying indulging in my jealousy and the compulsions i get because of it as "away moves"

[loxyco]

just read something that may have altered my brain chemistry (for the better) around my issues regarding porn usage + jealousy

[softieskywalker]

i think the key difference between george lucas’s star wars and disney’s star wars is that lucas is a man with an ideology. someone with a point of view, and all that entails. which comes with ideas of revolution, anti-imperialism, challenging the status quo, cultural appropriation and racist stereotypes. complex and contradictory ideas because that’s how artists are: complex and complicated people. disney is not. disney is a corporation. a corporation can’t have ideology, because ideology defeats the purpose of profit. and when the only thing you do is to turn on the movie manufacturing machine before you sit down and plan what ideas are you trying to convey to the audience, then your results are going to be washed out corporate garbage. and because when you’re a giant corporation who only cares about selling to the widest audience possible, you can’t take sides. you can’t decide on an idea. because you want to sell your product to people who are on the entire political spectrum. which results in movies without ideology, without purpose, without soul.

[david-talks-sw]

I have been looking for this post for years after I came across it and it’s finally here and I need to reblog this because it is absolutely and entirely accurate.

[comebackali]

#as I always say: lucas was making a samurai film and a ww2 flying ace film and a western film and adding laser swords#because he fundamentally LIKED samurai films and dambusters films and westerns and 40’s adventure serials#but disney are making a ‘star wars film’ and adding nothing because it already had laser swords and they have nothing else to say#xerox of a xerox baybeeeee (via harrietvane)

[depsidase]

[silkenshadows]

All the models posing for Biederer Studio were anonymous, except Lucette Desmoulins.

[velvetcloak]

[velvetcloak]

[velvetcloak]

👏👏👏

[loxyco]

just remembered this gem, and i think it goes both ways

[loxyco]

it's so funny to me that the things that have been helping me the most are a single moment from a 2009 film, and a 16 year codependent gay relationship

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]

Brandon Lee playing a Gameboy on the set of The Crow 

[loxyco]

you ever realize you're doing something neurotic that is only serving to harm you? i was doing that for a while despite being aware of it... but today i finally decided to not do that thing. not gonna say what it is cos i don't wanna be judged for it, it was a pretty stupid thing ahah but like wow look at me go

[loxyco]

just remembered this gem, and i think it goes both ways

[loxyco]

just crazy how when someone actually considers you and treats you well, you want to give that back to them. whenever i would have problems before it was usually met with contention - so it was hard to be motivated to put the work into fixing the problem. why would i want to give them the satisfaction of having the problem solved if they didn't even try to understand it?

[loxyco]

i'm realizing that like. after so many failed relationships i had basically just stacked a bunch of maladaptive behaviors and now i'm like, having to reprogram now that i'm spending time with someone decent

[loxyco]

it's basically like through each relationship i was given suggestions on how to code, and each time something buggy got left in there and i didn't realize it. and now i'm around someone who is better at coding than anyone i was with before, and i'm going "oh" as i recognize all these bugs. troubleshooting the issues is difficult but if it's anything like real coding it will be satisfying whenever i fix a problem

[loxyco]

i'm realizing that like. after so many failed relationships i had basically just stacked a bunch of maladaptive behaviors and now i'm like, having to reprogram now that i'm spending time with someone decent