LUCA☆

IG&TT: @Quite.DeLuca

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I've finally graduated, so off to college admissions hell I go🚶‍♂️🚶‍♂️🚶‍♂️

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I find it funny how some of the horny blogs I interact with sometimes end up following me, like damn, ya'll are into my crazy? XD

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Just some thoughts...

Its only been 2 hours since we stopped talking, I feel so sick and needy. Is this how it is?

No matter how hard you try to make me happy, I'll always be left unsatisfied the moment it stops.

I can't stop talking to myself, like I'm with other people with their own thoughts and opinions, am I losing it?

I'm so sad. I hate it.

I need something to make me feel good.

I sick of coping sexually when Im alone.

I've had enough but I keep going back for more.

I don't like it anymore, I want it to stop.

Come back, I want to talk again

It hasnt been that long, has it?

I know you're busy.

I won't mind it too much.

I talk to myself enough that I can barely ever tell if it was real or not.

Would it matter?

Why can't I just accept both as my reality?

I want you all the time.

Please, give me more attention.

Never look away from me.

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I feel scared

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Had fun today = Dread of tomorrow

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MY PARENTS SET THE PARENTAL CONTROLS TO LOVK MY OHONE AT 8PM FUCKKKKKK AND IT OPENS AT 10 AM

I FUCKING HATE THIS SHIT

ISTG ONE OF THESE DAYS IM ACTUALLY GONNA GO KMS

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How is a star topology formed?

And then I imagined an actual fucking star💔

Chat I'm cooked

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I can't.

I'm actually going fucking crazy.

My parents took my phone, I was feeling stressed as fuck.

There wasn't anything for me to do.

I had to break something or else I'll lose my mind.

I tore up a fucking pillow case into strips.

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SOMEBODY FUCKING SEDATE ME

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I am genuinely losing it this week

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Bitch ka na nga, bobo ka pa WHAHSHAHS

(You're not only a bitch, but you're also a dumbass WHAHSHAHHA)

I'll fucking kill you

Talk shit about me and try to push me off the edge

I kill you and then kill myself

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Are you fucking kidding me?

You fucking bitch.

What the fuck is wrong with you?

The fuck did I do?

Fuck you.

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"Sorry, I had to help my sister with something."

Mf we were texting on discord, I watched you switch around different games while I waited.

You played Monkey Balloons TD for 30+ mins in the middle of e serious conversation lmao

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"What college are you going to?"

Idk I didn't I'd last highschool

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No one talks about how depression doesn't just happen. It's a slow... excruciating pain bubbling inside you. Each pop tightens your chest, that you can't breathe and you can't speak because it just hurts so so much; So, your body just rolls around and kicks in torture. Eventually, you'll stop crying, but you won't forget how it felt.

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My Mom Is Mean

I felt like shit today.

I woke up early at 6am to get ready for my college entrance exam, on my own.

But then mom woke up and asked why I was up so early, so, I told her about it.

She immedietly rushed around to get ready, yelling at me, pinching me, all those things.

I was too slow, I was too messy, I was too loud.

I felt horrible on the way to the school.

I felt like crying, but I had to hold back.

It was meant to be my big day, to be independent and confident by myself.

But she ruined it.

She pushed me around and made me feel like a little kid.

I really don't like it.

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Why tf is researching for work out plans so complicated?? One girl shows her pre-workout stretches, the next guy tells not to do static stretching and rather to do dynamic ones to lessen injury, then the second guy just straight up says NOT to stretch at all !! Like huh?? Geez.

I'll do basic stretching and then workout, and do whatever on my own, fuckass influencers.