เญจใปโโโโ ALL I WANT IS LOVE THAT LASTS, IS ALL I WANT TOO MUCH TO ASK ? โโโโใปเญง
link to part i
pairing โธบ satoru gojo x reader
teaser โธบ trying to mend your broken bond with gojo satoru becomes difficult at the entrance of a rival, a distinct memory from your past. torn between love that aches and love that heals, you are left to pick up the remnants of what could have been and lay to arrange what will be. choices hold the power to break or mend, and satoru meets your guarded heart that threatens to either tear you apart or weave you back together. will satoru be able to win you back in time โ or will the scars of yesterday refuse to tie you to a love that was never meant to be?
content โธบ fluff, reader, heavy angst, hurt/comfort, angst with happy ending, love triangle, shitty choices, implied abuse, jealousy, implied torture, implied slavery, mentions of grape, death, massacre, murder, royal!au, magic!au, historic!au
count โธบ 22k + 2k
authorโs note โธบ this came out way later than i had expected it to, oof. sorry to keep all of you waiting! for some reason tumblr is not letting me post the whole thing, so if you want to read what happens after 22k words, iโm leaving the ao3 and wattpad links as well.
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Three years had passed since that incident. You were now twenty years old, working a respectable job at Jujutsu High as a teacher. It was nice to utilize the knowledge you had gained back at the School of Royalty. Jujutsu High, as a school, was similar to the one you used to attend as a child, except the children here were far more humble. You preferred this over anything else though. You wouldnโt want to spend the rest of your time around spoiled kids who had never heard the word โnoโ in their lives.
It wasnโt necessarily the kids of the nobility that you despised, but rather the ideologies they carried with them. You still cringed remembering Kamo Alina babble about traditions โback at her kingdomโ. Perhaps you had hatred against all noble clans, except your own, the Gojo clan, of course. The rest seemed too hollow and self-absorbed, and their kids seemed either too coddled or too burdened.
You were in charge of the first years at the school. You had few students, but they were all the best ones you could ask for: Maki Zenin, Toge Inumaki and Panda. Maki was from the Zenin clan, whom you knew to be cunning and sly. She was very different from what the papers said about her lineage though โ Maki had a knack for being good at fighting and war skills, whereas her clan was famous for running with their tails in between their legs from their opponents. You had caught the little girl staring at you more than once during your training sessions with Utahime. It was nice to have her watch; perhaps it was best that way for her to learn the things you did as well.
Toge was from the Inumaki clan, and used to speak in only food ingredients to not accidentally curse those around him. And finally, Panda was the โsonโ of Principal Yaga, and a cursed corpse.
Here, you were glad you werenโt in charge of shaping heirs of stupid clans in a factory. Rather, you were to train and enhance those who were willing to learn. And in this humble, quiet school, you had found something even the nobility, who looked down upon the place as often as they could, could never offer to you: peace.
Things back at homeโฆ werenโt the best. Satoru was almost always away for โmissionsโ with Suguru, and it had been a long time since the two of you had even seen each other, let alone talk. You couldnโt recall the last time you both even sat together in the same room alone. He never told you where he was going, and you never asked โ what was the point after all? He wouldnโt say even if you screamed at the top of your voice.
His mother had quite a few times tried to fix the situation between you two, but it never worked. Satoru had developed a strained relationship with his mother as well. After all, she had a hand in keeping the secret of your engagement from him, so how could he trust her again? Every time she tried to help, the gap between the entire family seemed to widen even more. It didnโt help that his father had stopped talking completely to his mother as well. There were rumours around the clan that the leaders were sleeping in separate rooms after that incident with the Kamo clan. You would have felt bad for her, if you didnโt feel worse for yourself.
Shoko had decided to pursue her medical education in a different kingdom. There was a void from where she had left, and although you were happy for her that she was able to live her dreams, the emptiness you felt whenever you reread your old letters made you feel sorry for yourself.
Utahime had been the only one to stay back with you. When you told her about your plans to teach at Jujutsu High, she immediately dropped her own things and joined the same school. You would often feel guilty for leading her to a different path than she had originally intended, but she would constantly reassure you that she would never have it any other way. At the school, the two of you would fool around with each other a lot, but the hollow space left by the old memories of the others would always nag at your brain the second you were by yourself.
Dinnertime at the table became a quiet affair. Oftentimes, while playing with the food on your plate, you missed the old banters between Satoru and his father. It almost felt like a distant memory from a whole other timeline, as if those little moments never happened at all. You usually ate your dinner alone in your room now, since it wasnโt worth coming all the way to the dining room anymore. Satoruโs father ate out every day, and his mother used to be the only one to eat at the table. If it werenโt for her, you wondered if you would be eating at all.
This night seemed like any other night when you had decided to eat at the table. Yet you couldnโt look up at your motherโs face and into her eyes. She looked paler than ever as if she was sick. Her eyes seemed hollow and dark, and if it werenโt for the tight grip she had on her chopsticks, you would have wondered if she had any strength in her left at all. After finishing your food quietly, you set your chopsticks down, and were about to stand up to bow and leave, when she stopped you.
โStay,โ she said this one word softly, and it took everything in you not to collapse in her arms at the sound of her weak voice. She didnโt look at you directly, but rather somewhere on the table, and she looked as if she was lost in thought, though you knew she had become this way ever since that night.
You sat back down, and stared at her as her grip on her chopsticks tightened ever so slightly. She opened a quivering lip to speak. โMy son... my Satoru... Heโs never been this upsetโฆ at me.โ
You swallowed. He had never been this upset at you either. He had never been upset at all. You used to wonder if Satoru Gojo even had the word โupsetโ in his dictionary. And now that was all you could see.
โI just hopeโฆโ she trembled slightly, โ... that you can find it in your hearts toโฆ to forgive me.โ She looked up, and you looked away, for you knew the sight in front of you wouldnโt let you breathe another moment. You knew she was holding back tears. You were too.
โThere is nothing to forgive,โ you croaked out, hoping what you were saying was making sense. โI just wonder if this is worth going about if he isnโt happy with it.โ
โItโs not, youโre right,โ she murmured, looking back down to her plate. โI was a princess. I was told I could never be wrong. Yet here I am, hoping I am not, even though every cell of my body tells me I am.โ Then she looked right into your eyes, and something in your heart broke again at her state. โWould you want to marry someone who was not him?โ
You stopped. No. No, of course not. No, you would never, ever even dream of marrying someone that wasnโt him. But what could you do now? What could be done? If he did not want it, then how could you? How could you do something like this to him against his will? So slowly, you nodded. โPerhaps I could think about it. But not now.โ
โI understand. Goodnight to you.โ
โGoodnight, mother.โ
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โGood morning, Miss!โ
โGood morning, Miss.โ
โSalmon.โ
โYes, yes, good morning to all of you. Hurry up now, the first class starts in 15 minutes,โ you said swiftly, waving at the kids. You turned to Utahime, who was staring at the parents dropping their kids off to catch some hot single dad she, or rather you, could have a chance with. โWhat class do you have first, Miss Transfiguration?โ
โThe annoying third-years,โ she grumbled. โHow about you, Miss Charms?โ
โMy first years. Iโm charmed.โ
โSure, you are.โ
You watched the carriage Maki had stepped out of. It was rather modest for someone of Zenin lineage. But what really caught Utahimeโs attention wasnโt the car โ it was the man who stepped out to escort Maki.
He was tall, with dyed blond hair that shimmered under the morning light, and striking brown eyes. Utahime froze.
โWow.โ
โWhat?โ
โWow. Is thatโฆ him?โ she whispered, gripping your arm.
โHim?โ you asked.
โThe guy! From years ago!โ she hissed as if that explained everything.
You raised an eyebrow, watching as the man exchanged a brief word with Maki before returning to his carriage. โIori, youโre not making any sense.โ
Utahime pulled out her wand and immediately began tapping it on her temple at a rapid pace. โDonโt you remember when those exchange students introduced themselves? In the hall? That cactus transfiguration kid? This is him. Look.โ
A floating picture hovered in your hands. It was slightly blurry, moving up and down serenely, but you could make out the younger version of the man fixing his carriage in front of the school gates clearly. You blinked at the picture, then at Utahime.
โYouโฆ remember him enough to produce this complicated magic?โ you asked, though you didnโt know whether to be amused or alarmed.
Utahime shrugged unapologetically. โYou gotta do what you gotta do.โ
You sighed, shaking your head in disbelief. โโhime, youโre a stalker.โ
She grinned, utterly unbothered. โA resourceful stalker, Iโd say. Anyway, donโt you think heโsโโ
โDonโt say it,โ you warned, already seeing where this was going.
โโhandsome?โ she finished, her grin widening mischievously.
You groaned, covering your face. โUtahime, heโs Makiโs guardian. You make it sound like Iโm ready to adopt her or something. Thatโs weird.โ
She waved off your protest, nudging you playfully. โCome on, heโs single. Uh, probably. And if heโs not, well, thatโs just unfortunate for him.โ
โWhy are we even talking about this?โ you muttered.
โBecause,โ she said with mock seriousness, โyouโve been single for far too long, and this is an opportunity. Soโฆโ She leaned closer. โWhy donโt you try flirting with him?โ
You stared at her like sheโd grown another head. โPreposterous. Absolutely not.โ
โWhy not?โ she teased, clearly enjoying your discomfort.
You glanced at the man who was now pulling away in the carriage looking like a war hero, and then back at Utahime. โBecause I donโt feel like dying today. You know, the Zenin clan and all of that?โ
She laughed, throwing an arm around your shoulders as you both headed back inside. โSuit yourself, but just know โ Iโm rooting for you!โ
โUtahime,โ you sighed, โyouโre impossible.โ
But her laughter was infectious, and you couldnโt help it.
You smiled.
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The staffroom was unusually quiet, save for the faint scratch of your quill against parchment as you graded the first-yearsโ essays. Utahime, however, was anything but quiet. She had perched herself on the edge of your desk, her hands gripping the back of your chair as she swung it gently back and forth.
โFlirt with him,โ she said.
โNo,โ you replied flatly, not looking up from the parchment.
โCome on, just a little?โ she coaxed, leaning over your shoulder and nearly smudging the ink youโd just scrawled across a particularly poor attempt at a levitation charm essay.
You leaned back slightly, giving her a deadpan look. โUtahime, I am trying to work.โ
โAnd I am trying to help you!โ she shot back, as if her nagging about your love life was an act of selfless charity.
You sighed, putting down the quill and crossing your arms. โFor the last time, I am not flirting with Makiโs guardian. Thatโs weird.โ
โItโs not weird. Itโs romantic,โ she argued, dragging out the last word like it was a persuasive spell. โYouโre single. Heโs singleโโ
โWe donโt know that heโs single,โ you interjected, but Utahime waved you off.
โSemantics,โ she said. โThe point is, heโs clearly into you. Did you not see the way he looked at you yesterday?โ
โThe reason he even looked at me was because you shoved me in front of him like a sacrificial lamb,โ you retorted.
โDetails,โ she said breezily, now swiveling your chair side to side. โBut seriously, whatโs the harm in a little bit of flirting? Heโs charming, dashing, hot, and youโreโฆ uh, youโฆ?โ
โWow, thanks,โ you said dryly, though you couldnโt hide the small smile tugging at the corner of your lips.
She grinned. โSee? Youโre already warming up to the idea,โ she leaned in close to your face.
The door swung open. There he was, the same man both of you had just been talking about. He took one look inside the room and raised an eyebrow. Your eyes widened, because of course, without any context it looked like you and Utahime were just about to kiss. You shrieked and pushed her away and she laughed at you, though she stopped when she saw the man judging her silently. Maki face-palmed behind the man.
โExcuse me if I am interrupting something intimate,โ he looked at you. โWe had an appointment regarding Makiโs performance, yes?โ
โHo ho ho! Yes you did!โ Utahime giggled and left the room, and it seemed like she had taken all the comfort out of it too, leaving you, him and Maki standing in it, staring at each other awkwardly. Maki coughed loudly and excused herself, and you made a mental note to reduce some points on her essay.
You cleared your throat as Naoya took a seat across from you. His presence seemed to shrink the staffroom. He leaned back in the chair as if he owned the room. You focused on the stack of papers in front of you, determined to act professional. In your mind, you could hear Utahimeโs voice still echoing: Flirt with him!
He folded his hands on the desk and his gaze flickered briefly to the papers in your hands before locking onto your face.
โI have to ask,โ he began casually. โAre you and that colleague of yoursโฆ together?โ
You froze mid-flip of Makiโs report card, staring at him as if heโd just asked you to duel. โWhat?โ
He leaned back slightly with a faint smirk. โYou and that woman. The way you two were before. It crossed my mind that you might beโฆโ He trailed off.
โIโm notโ sheโsโ what? No!โ you sputtered, feeling your cheeks burn.
โAh,โ he said softly, as if the weight of the world had just been lifted off his shoulders. โThank heavens. I wouldnโt have known what to do with myself if you were.โ
You blinked. โExcuse me?โ
His smirk softened into something more playful. โWell, Iโd have had to rethink all my plans, for starters.โ
โPlans?โ you echoed, your voice coming out higher-pitched than you had intended it to be.
โMhm,โ he murmured, tilting his head slightly. โPlans like how to win your favour, of course. You can imagine how devastating it wouldโve been to learn I stood no chance from the start.โ
You could feel your brain short-circuiting. Was he flirting? Or was this just his sense of humor?
โIโ uhโ Maki!โ you stammered, blurting out her name like it was a life saver. It technically was. โWeโre supposed to be talking about Makiโs progress!โ
โOf course,โ he said smoothly. โHer progress is paramount. But forgive me โ Iโm a man of focus, and right now, my focus seems to have shifted.โ
โLetโs have it shift back to Maki then,โ you insisted.
He chuckled softly, leaning forward just enough to close the space between you ever so slightly. โAs you wish. But if I may, just one more thing.โ
You hesitated warily. โโฆWhat now?โ
โYou have the most fascinating reactions,โ he said. โI could watch you get flustered all day.โ
Your hands gripped the papers tightly, and you let out an exasperated sigh. โMr Zenin, do you ever stop talking?โ
His grin widened. โNot when Iโm talking to someone this delightful. And itโs Naoya, to you, darling.โ
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For the schoolโs 107th anniversary, you and the other teachers had decided to plan a surprise event for the students, guardians and even the principal. But as you stared at the chairs lying askew everywhere, and the food stall looking like it had undergone a raid, you sighed. Who would have to clean everything up in the end? The teachers, of course.
You bent down to pick a random flask up from the ground, and you looked up to see Naoya standing at the entrance of the schoolgates. You watched as he shooed away the carriage with Maki and their driver in it, and walked towards you.
You got up quickly and panicked, eyes darting everywhere to see if he really was walking to you or not. Naoya stopped in front of you, and suddenly the flask in your hands seemed too heavy. You dropped it, but he caught the tin, lips curving into a smile at your surprise.
โAstonishing reflexes, hm?โ You nodded at his words and he laughed. โThat was quite the show, I believe. You handle large crowds really well.โ
You half-laughed at the compliment, looking down at your shaking hands. Why were you so nervous?
โYeah, well, the crowd has departed now, and this is the tough bit.โ
โI can help,โ he smiled at you, and you blinked in surprise.
โAh, you donโt have to. Besides, we canโt make guardians work for us.โ
โI insist.โ He pulled the sleeves of his shirt up and put his hands on his hips. โWhere are the inconveniences that have you so troubled? I shall fight them.โ
You snickered a bit. His dramatic actions reminded you of someone.
A certain someone.
Maybe thatโs why you liked his company.
You snapped out of your thoughts when you saw him staring at the upturned tables with dread. โHas there been a call of war here?โ
โClose enough. The seller had mochis on his bill of fare.โ
โThat sums it up. But you canโt possibly expect me to dirty my hands with this. A nobleman shouldnโt be doing manual labor,โ he shook his head and sighed.
You raised an eyebrow at that. โYouโre the one who insisted on staying to help.โ
Naoya grinned. โWell, I canโt leave my favorite teacher to fend for herself. Besidesโฆโ He picked up two chairs effortlessly with one hand, and turned around to see if you were still watching. โItโs a chance to show off.โ
Maybe it wonโt be as boring with him around after all.
You had found yourself in this lonely teahouse far more than you could admit for someone of your status. It usually buzzed with the chatter of lonely workers, gossiping seamstresses and little children. But it was better, far better than what was going on at home anyway. You stared at your chawan, and put your fingers around it to drink. But the vessel was hot, and you hissed as you withdrew your hand back, the tea inside seemingly hissing back menacingly.
โCareful, darling,โ a voice said from behind you and you jumped. โI said, careful,โ he taunted, rubbing the top of your head affectionately. You looked up to meet Naoyaโs eyes, your own widening when you saw him.
โNaoya!โ
โFancy meeting you here. I didnโt think Iโd find you in such a quaint little spot.โ
โMe neither. Isnโt this place,โ you waved around at the dull walls of the room, โbelow your usual standards, Mr Zenin?โ
He crossed your table to pull out a chair in front of you and sat down. โI could say the same about you. Or perhaps,โ he brushed his fingers on your lips to wipe the wetness of tea from earlier, โwe were led here by fate.โ
You choked on air at his action. โFate? Weโre just at a teahouse. Itโs not exactly a meeting of the stars.โ
Naoya grinned at your fluster, and leaned forward playfully. โAh, but you see, fate works in mysterious ways. And right now, itโs working to bring me closer to the most captivating woman in the room.โ
โHa, ha,โ you mumbled, staring into your vessel to avoid meeting his eyes. โYou talk too much.โ
He laughed softly. The server arrived with a platter of sweets, and bowed, โFor the lovely couple.โ
You spat the tea you had just sipped out. โWeโ weโre notโโ
โThank you, miss,โ Naoya interrupted you swiftly, and nodded at the server, who immediately straightened up to take his leave.
You stared at him, aghast. โNaoya, weโre notโโ
โNot yet, at least. But Iโm not opposed to the idea. How about we take the first step?โ He leaned in closer and planted a teasing kiss on your cheek.
Your jaw dropped โ from embarrassment or at his audacity, you did not know. โWhatโ?โ
โThere. Now weโre official.โ
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You clutched your bag tightly. Great, another rainy day. And you had refused the umbrella your maid had offered to you as well. Sighing, you looked at the sky. The downpour didnโt look like it was going to stop anytime soon. If only a miracle happened that would escort you back home safely.
โStranded, are we?โ Naoyaโs voice broke through the rain. You turned to see him standing with a pristine black umbrella, grinning at you as if he was not surprised at all to meet you here.
โYeah. You stayed back? Whereโs Maki?โ
โOh, I left her to go home in the carriage,โ he shifted the handle of his umbrella to one shoulder. โNeed me?โ
โIโll manage,โ you replied, not wanting to disturb him. Though part of you wondered whether he would be here if you hadnโt been stuck here as well.
โLetโs not ruin such a lovely sight with such a disaster. Come on, Iโll walk you home.โ
โIโll be fine, really. You donโt have toโโ
โI insist. Or would you prefer I let you catch a cold? Then youโd have no choice but to rely on me to nurse you back to health.โ
You groaned. โYouโre impossible.โ Realizing you had no way home without his help, you stood under his umbrella. He grinned at you, tilting the umbrella more towards you to shield you from the harsh rain.
โYouโre getting wet,โ you pointed out.
โItโs a small price to pay.โ He glanced at you with a sly smile. โDonโt tell me youโre worried about me.โ
โIโm not,โ you scoff slightly.
โGood. Iโd hate for you to think Iโm fragile.โ
The walk ahead was comfortable, although you didnโt think that was the case for Naoya. By the time you had reached the entrance of the clan, you could see Naoyaโs sleeves were drenched. But he didnโt seem to mind at all. His eyes followed something ahead that you coulldnโt see through the fog that covered the atmosphere.
โNaoya? What are you looking at?โ You asked, and he huffed in irritation โ more so at the thing he had seen than at you.
He wrapped an arm around your waist and you involuntarily sucked your stomach in at it. He led you to the figure.
White hairโฆ Lovely blue eyesโฆ
Your fiance who refused to be yours.
Gojo Satoru.
He was leaning against a pillar with his arms crossed in front of him, staring at you two through his sunglasses as if he would rather be looking at anything else than at the fingers curling around your waist.
Naoya, much to your horror, approached Satoru with you still in his arms. โGreetings,โ he said pleasantly. โWeโve met before, yes?โ
โYes,โ Satoru replied coolly. Then he addressed you, though his eyes didnโt quite meet yours. โWhoโs he?โ
You started. Fuck. What was he to you? An acquaintance? The guardian of one of your students? An associateโ?
โHer boyfriend,โ Naoya stepped in before you could respond, and you watched Satoruโs eyes lose what little warmth they had earlier. He turned to you as if expecting you to deny the claim.
โWhat? I mean, I guessโฆ? Maybe? But Iโm not sureโโ
Satoru arched an eyebrow, and let out a single syllable that made your heart break into pieces all over again. โOh.โ He looked at you with an expression you couldnโt understand at all. His lips were twitched, but he wasnโt happy. His eyebrows were furrowed, but he wasnโt confused. You felt like he was toying with your brain on purpose with all the failed hints his face gave.
Naoya grinned smugly. โDonโt worry, Iโll leave her in your care now, brother.โ He was clearly enjoying himself.
Your eyes widened.
Lookโฆ Iโve never thought of you that way before, okay? Youโreโฆ youโre pretty, but youโre like a sister to me. Thatโs how Iโve always seen you.
Satoruโs eyes darkened, and he shoved his hands in his pockets, taking a step back. โGreat. Fantastic,โ he mocked you. โIโm so glad youโre being taken care of, my little sister.โ
A few more minutes passed, though they were so awkward you did not have the courage to relive them. Naoya had left with a smirk and a wave, and Satoru had followed you inside the estate when all you wanted to do was get away from him.
โYouโreโฆ back, haha,โ you mumbled, and he nodded. The rain patted against the windowsill softly, and each drop felt like it rained in your heart.
โIs he really your boyfriend?โ He blurted out.
โHuh?โ You were caught off guard. โOh, umโฆ I donโt know? He took me out for coffee once. Does that count?โ
โNo, absolutely not,โ Satoru scoffed.
You paused. And then you let out a laugh. He stared at you and let out a bark of laughter as well.
โHim? Your boyfriend,โ he wiped the tears off from his eyes. โThe audacity!โ
โTypical of him, I suppose,โ you chortled.
โWhat did he even ask you for the coffee thing?โ
โHe said he wanted to talk about Makiโs essays,โ you snickered, and he cackled.
โEssays?โ
โYeah!โ
โYou know, you should probably go on a real date sometime. Just so you can tell the difference between a parent-teacher conference and, yโknow, an actual date,โ he rolled his eyes.
โOh, yeah? And whoโs going to take me out on this โreal dateโ? You?โ You teased.
Satoru froze. He opened his mouth as if to respond, then quickly closed it, his gaze flickering away from you.
You felt the awkwardness returning from earlier. Forcing out a laugh, you waved your hand dismissively. โIโm kidding! Obviously. Haha. Anyway, I should, uh, go now. Busy day tomorrow and all that. So, um, goodnight!โ
You practically bolted from the room, leaving Satoru standing there, staring at where you had just been. His hand twitched as if he wanted to stop you, but he stayed silent, his jaw tightening as he watched you retreat.
You locked your door, hoping you werenโt being wishful as always when you heard the faint murmur of his voice.
โMaybe I would.โ
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The next morning, you stepped out of your house, adjusting your bag of supplies on your shoulder. Rejecting your driver who had offered you a ride in the luxurious carriage, you walked on, greeting the little children of the various families of your clan. Crossing the gate of the main estate, you found Satoru leaning casually against a nearby carriage, waiting for something โ or rather, someone.ย
โMorning,โ he said, grinning like he had been there for hours. His sunglasses reflected the surprise in your eyes under the morning light.
โUhโฆ good morning?โ You blinked in surprise. โWhat are you doing here?โ
He shrugged at you. โThought you might need a ride.โ
โDonโt you have work?โ You asked sceptically. He had had missions and trips to be on all this time, so why was he here now?
He shrugged again, shoving his hands in his pockets. โNot yet. Free morning.โ
โOh,โ you frowned at his excuse. โWell, I usually just walk to work. Sorry.โ
โAh, well, no problem then,โ he straightened up, brushing imaginary dust off his sleeves. โIโll walk with you.โ
โWhat? No, itโs alrightโโ
Satoru waved the driver of the carriage off and waltzed over to you. โToo late. Iโm committed now.โ
You sighed in defeat, letting him walk with you. Silence loomed over you, the kind that made you hyper aware of every crunch the leaves under your feet made, every chirp the birds on nearby trees let out, and even every breath you didnโt know you kept holding.
โItโs a nice morning, huh?โ He finally broke the tense silence, though the strain in his voice made it even more awkward.
โYeah it is,โ you glanced and nodded at him briefly.
Another long stretch of silence. When did you two become this way? Nevermind, you remembered the day it all had started a bit too clearly for your liking. But this seemed too delicate, too much. How was your walk with the arrogant Naoya Zenin more comfortable than one with the person you had spent nearly all your life with?
โSo,โ he started again, clearing his throat, โyou walk this route every day?โ
โItโs not that far,โ you nodded.
โItโs been a while since I walked anywhere,โ he chuckled softly to himself.
You risked a small smile in the midst of the unpleasant stillness. โYeah, I remember. You always complained if the carriage wasnโt ready, or if you were sent to meet other clans on foot.โ
โI was spoiled,โ he grinned proudly. โStill am, probably.โ
Despite yourself, you laughed softly. But it was fleeting, and the silence returned to keep reminding you of how much everything has changed. By the time you reached the gates of Jujutsu High, the sun was higher in the sky. Satoru stopped a few stops short of the massive gateway.
โWell, here you are,โ he turned to look at you with softened eyes.
You nodded and adjusted your bag. โThanks for walking with me.โ
โAnytime,โ he smiled. Faint as it was, it still didnโt reach his eyes.
In the faculty lounge at Jujutsu High, you sat with Utahime after she had barked at the other teachers to let her have some โalone timeโ with you. It seemed as if although she was trying her best to get you and Naoya together, she was hardly denying the rumours between you and her.
ย She suddenly perked up mid-cursing at an answer paper of one of the third-years. โOh, right! Did you hear? Thereโs a new recruit for a teaching position. Principal Yaga told me yesterday.โ
โOh, cool,โ you snapped out of your own thoughts about the weird tension Naoya had landed you in. โWhoโs interviewing them?โ
โYou, duh.โ You groaned audibly and she laughed.ย
โHopefully itโs not another Ijichi,โ you grumbled, wincing as you remembered the interview you had with him a few months ago.
โBe nice,โ she said, though she snickered at the memory. โHe was just nervous!โ
โNervous?โ You huffed loudly. โUtahime, the man tripped over his own feet before he even sat down. And I wasnโt even intimidating!โ
โYou? Not intimidating?โ She raised an eyebrow. โYeah, definitely. Tell that to the first-years.โ
โIโm a delight,โ you shrugged, batting your eyelashes innocently. โIjichi, on the other handโฆ couldnโt even make eye contact during the interview. I had to repeat my question three times before he answered.โ
โMaybe this one will be better,โ she got excited, and you knew what she was thinking of before it even came out of her mouth. โWho knows? They might even impress youโโ
โNo,โ you snapped, and she giggled.
You were in enough of what your teenage self would have called โboy troublesโ already to have a third one enter your life. First Satoru, then Naoya, and now Satoru again. You sighed. Shouldnโt you be flattered that a guy like Naoya shows interest in you? Heโs rich, a noble (although the Gojo clan wouldnโt care about status either way), handsome and romantic. What more could you want? But on the other hand, Satoru isโฆ wellโฆ him? You hardly think anyone would be able to compete with the Satoru you knew.
Utahime set down her papers and held your hand, as if determined to show you how a real man should hold you. โAlright, whatโs wrong?โ She asked gently. โYouโve been off for days. Donโt think I didnโt notice.โ
You hesitated. โSatoru,โ you muttered.
โOf course,โ she sighed. She inhaled loudly beforeโ โThat insufferable, pompous cretin! A walking disgrace to his lineage! Iโve met noble horses with more grace and tact! A royal pain, in every possible way. That walking definition of idiocy needs to be knocked off his pedestal, preferably into a pile of mud.โ
You blinked rapidly. Youโd be lying if you understood a single word that she just said.
โWhat does that even mean?โ
โDoesnโt matter,โ she waved a hand dismissively, fuming with rage. โThe point is, heโs an idiot. The biggest idiot. And if heโs making you feel like this, then Iโm going toโโ
โOkay, okay!โ You smiled faintly at her ambitious attempt to choke thin air with her hands as if grabbing his throat. โBut itโs not just him.โ
โThereโs more? Itโs alright, I can fightโโ
โNot for fighting!โ You added quickly, alarmed. โItโs Naoya.โ
โWhat did he do?โ She stopped her antics.
โI just feel like Iโm stuck between those two,โ you palmed your face. You were utterly distraught. โSatoru keeps walking me to work, like heโs trying to fix things, but then Naoya, heโs been kind, attentive, and all of the good stuff you keep babbling about. I donโt know what to do if it ever came down to choosing between them.โ
She leaned forward seriously, and forced your chin upwards to meet her eyes like your second mother. โListen. Ask yourself two questions. First: Who sees you for you? Not the โIโm-strong-enough-to-not-need-anyone-elseโ image youโve been trying to put up, not the teacher youโve become, but justโฆ you. The good and the bad.โ
โAnd the second?โ You frowned thoughtfully.
โWho makes you feel safe?โ She said simply. โNot just physically, but emotionally as well. Who can you trust with your heart, knowing theyโll look after it like the finest treasure?โ
Like the finest treasure? The answer was simple.
But not the one you wanted.
Not who you craved.
โYou donโt have to decide right now,โ Utahime gave you a small smile. โJust donโt settle for less than you deserve, okay?โ
You nodded gratefully. โYouโre way better at this than you seem like, you know.โ
โIโm a delight,โ she echoed your words from earlier, giggling.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
It had been almost a month since the walks with Satoru had begun. You had hoped as time went by you wouldโve gotten more used to the tension it carried, but each day seemed to offer a new, worse one. The quietness lingered heavily between you, just like it had been all this while.
โSo,โ he started, glancing at you, โam I annoying you?โ
โWhat?โ You cross-questioned, startled at the insecurity in his voice. โNo, why would you think that?โ
โI dunno,โ he shrugged, trying his best to be nonchalant, but you knew him too well to know it was an act. โItโs been over a month of me tagging along, and you havenโt said much. I thought maybe youโd prefer walking with someone else. Like Naoya,โ he mumbled the last part.
โNo,โ you said firmly. โYouโre not annoyingโโ
โI just hoped,โ he cut you off, โyouโd think this was better than with him. Thatโs all.โ
You didnโt know how to respond, so you just hummed, looking away at a nearby tree and counting the number of leaves on it.
โYeah,โ Satoru chuckled quietly, though it didnโt quite reach his eyes. โThought so.โ
You couldnโt reply to that.
โHere we are,โ he murmured, opening the schoolgates for you just to find something to do. But when he followed behind you inside, you raised an eyebrow.
โYouโre coming all the way in? Donโt worry, Naoya wonโt step inside the school.โ
โGood to know,โ he adjusted his sunglasses, โbut Iโm not worried about Naoya.โ
โThen?โ
He closed the gates and turned to face you, beaming despite his earlier demeanour. โIโm a candidate for the teaching post.โ
โWhat?!โ
โWhat? You didnโt know?โ He tilted his head, acting innocent. โThought Iโd apply for the position. Figured it was about time I contributed my immense knowledge to the next generation.โ
โYouโve got to be kidding me. You? A teacher?โ
โIโll take that as a compliment even though itโs meaningless that way,โ he pouted at you. He then pushed past you to the hallway. โYouโre the one interviewing me, hopefully? Race you!โ
โWhat theโ Satoru, come back!โ But he was already running to whatever empty classroom he could find. Talk about professionalism.
You marched off to Principal Yagaโs office and burst in, resulting in him nearly stabbing his own finger with a sewing needle. โSir! I canโt do this.
โItโs 8 in the morning,โ he sighed wearily. โAnd what is it that you canโt do?
โI cannot interview that man.โ
โWhy not?โ
You gestured wildly at the hall, from where audible noises of furniture being dragged around could be heard. โBecause itโs Gojo Satoru.โ
โI see.โ Yaga leaned back in his chair, staring at the hall with a transfixed look. โWell, if itโs such a problem, Iโll just have Utahime handle it.โ
Uh oh.
โNo, no. Sheโll kill him. Literally.โ And you didnโt feel like cleaning up a crime scene today.
โWith killer questions?โ He remarked thoughtfully, rubbing his chin. โThen itโs settled. Sheโllโโ
โNo, sir! Iโll do it.โ
โAre you sure? You donโt have to.โ
โYes I do,โ you gritted your teeth.ย
You had finally found the man after looking through twenty three whole classrooms spinning rapidly on a chair. You coughed loudly and he jumped, though he sighed in relief when he saw that it was just you.
โThought Iโd get fired if the Principal saw me this way,โ he said as you sat on the chair in front of him. โAnd I havenโt even been hired yet. Imagine that!โ
โYou know I could reject you as a candidate as well, right?โ You rolled your eyes.
โWhat? No, you wouldnโt!โ He shouted indignantly. โI knew I shouldnโt have eaten your last mochi.โ
โWhat? You ate my last mochi?โ
Satoru gulped, and you groaned.
You clutched your clipboard, already regretting your decision. โAlright, Mr. Gojo. Letโs begin.โ
He grinned. โOf course, Mrs. Gojo. Donโt let me distract you.โ
โLetโs start with the basics,โ you tried to sound as professional as you could. โWhat experience do you have working with students?โ
โWell, Iโve been mentoring the younger sorcerers unofficially,โ he leaned back in his chair with a lazy smile. โDoes being charming count?โ
โNo.โ
โReally?โ He tilted his head. โBecause I think itโs working on you.โ
You paused. โThis isnโt a date,โ you glared at him. โItโs an interview.โ
โSo you do know what a date is,โ his grin widened in size. โGuess Naoya didnโt ruin you completely.โ
โWhy do you want this position?โ You gritted your teeth.
โFigured Iโd spend more time with you.โ
โHow do you handle indiscipline in the classroom?โ You deadpanned.
โDepends,โ he tapped his chin thoughtfully. โAre we talking about kids or you?โ
Fuckingโ
โDo you even want this job?โ
โI do,โ he said simply.
You slammed your clipboard on the table in annoyance and stood up. โYouโre following me, arenโt you?โ You pointed an accusing finger at his face.
He looked at you incredulously. โWhat? No. Why would Iโโ He stopped, and his tone softened. โIโm here because Iโm sick of the nobility and their entitlement.โ
โHuh?โ
โYou heard me.โ He stood up as well, crossing his arms and speaking more earnestly than you had ever heard from him. โKids from those circles? You canโt change them โ theyโre too far gone. But here? The students come from humble families. They still have a shot at thinking for themselves, at doing things for the right reasons. I want to make sure they donโt grow up like us.โ
You were stunned into silence, but before you could respond, a voice came from the doorway.
โCongratulations, Satoru Gojo. Youโre hired,โ said Principal Yaga, sparing one glance into the room and then leaving again.
Satoruโs expression changed again, and he was beaming like he hadnโt just bared his soul out to you a few moments ago. โLooks like youโre stuck with me, huh?โ
You groaned, burying your face in your hands. โโฆGreat.โ
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
โThis,โ you gestured to a nearby door, โis the main classroom. Itโs where first-years have their lessons. Itโs equipped with barriers for live combat simulations, so theโโ
โYou know, youโve got a really soothing voice,โ Satoru cut in. โEver think of switching to narration?โ
โShut up,โ you shot him a glare. โAre you just here to waste my time?โ
โCanโt I appreciate you a little?โ He pouted, but when your look refused to soften, his shoulder sank and head drooped, and he trailed behind you like a small puppy.
So cute.
No, fuck, what the fuck are you thinking?
You walked on ahead, and the whispers from all those years ago that had remained in your thoughts seemed to bloom louder again.
You donโt even belong in this house!
Weโre not kids forever, you know.
The two people I trust the most in this world!
Nothing more. Nothing less.
โAre you okaโ?โ
โWhy are you here, Satoru?โ
His smirk faltered. โI told you. I want to help shape the next generationโโ
โAnd youโre telling me it has nothing to do with me?โ
His gaze softened. โWould it be so bad if it did?โ
You bit your lip, trying to shut out all the voices echoing in your head. โAfter what you said to me all those years ago? Because if you think that can be fixed thenโโ
โStop.โ
You did.
โI donโt know how old you think I was then, but itโs not like you were any older than me at that time. I want you to understand that,โ he spun you around to face him, โI want to change. I want to show you how much I regret raising my voice at you that way.โ
โIs that all you regret?โ You asked.
He paused a bit, then fixed his sunglasses to cover his eyes completely. โNo. I regret saying thatโโ
โHey there!โ chirped in a voice you almost didnโt recognize from how much you were focussing on Satoruโs words. Satoruโs face hardened when he saw the person waving at you from behind. You turned to look at him.
โNaoya?โ
โYes, missed me? I dropped Maki with the driver earlier than usual for you,โ Naoya strode up to you, and hooked his arm with yours, snatching you away from Satoruโs grip. โLetโs walk you home, darling.โ
โYou know, Naoya, for someone who talks a lot about class, youโre pretty shameless when it comes to interrupting private conversations,โ Satoru spat venomously, making the latter turn around to face him sneering.
โPrivate? Oh, forgive me,โ Naoya snickered. โI didnโt realize you were finally learning how to talk to a woman. But could you get a different one? This oneโs taken.โ
โOh, shut up. Isnโt it past your bedtime, Zenin? Shouldnโt you be off practicing your bowing skills or groveling to your clan?โ
โGroveling?โ Naoya smirked, clearly unbothered. โNot my style, Gojo. Thatโs more your speed, isnโt it? Or did you think running off to teach would make people forget how much of a disappointment you are?โ
โUh, okay,โ you tried to interrupt. โI donโt thinkโโย
โOh, Iโm sorry,โ Satoru cut you off, leaning forward with mock curiosity. โMust be hard living in a world where your only personality trait is kissing your eldersโ feet.โ
โSays the man who threw away everything his clan worked for,โ Naoya mocked back. โCouldnโt handle the pressure of actually being useful?โ
โUseful?โ Satoru laughed maniacally, and you felt a shiver run down your spine. โIs that what you call wagging your tail for every decision the Zenin fossils make?โ
โEnough! Please. You two are acting like kidsโโ You stepped in between them and raised your hands.
โDonโt think I donโt see what youโre doing, Gojo,โ Naoya chided. โTrying to fix what you broke, crawling back like the desperate little rat you are.โ
โDesperate, huh? And what are you? Youโre just a carbon copy of every other one of your morons. Must be boring living without a spine.โ
โBetter a spine than whatever it is you call yourself. A disgrace to the Gojo clan. No wonder theyโve been so quiet about you. Theyโre probably embarrassed.โ
โOkay, enough! I donโt have time for this,โ you shouted.
Naoya immediately shut up. โAre we overwhelming you, darling? I can always walk you home. Gojo here,โ his expression soured again, โcan find his own way back.โ
Satoruโs jaw tightened. โFunny, I was about to say the same thing about you.โ
โYeah? Then why donโt you just let her choose?โ
โOf course.โ
Both of them turned to you simultaneously, and you made a mental note to never interrupt their conversations ever again. Before things could escalate further, however, a sharp voice cut in.
โWhat in the name of all things holy, proper, appropriate, virtuous, demure, and absolutely not Utahime Iori is going on here?โ
โWow, did you just compare yourself to a holy being?โ Satoru snickered, and earned a slap on the back of his head by her.
โI said โabsolutely notโ, you white-haired freak.โ
โUtahime!โ You sighed in relief, running to hug her around the waist, and she patted your head pitifully.
โThere, there. You were stuck in this pissing contest between manchildren, werenโt you? You poor, poor soul.โ
โWoman,โ Naoya curled his lip, โdonโt you have better things to do than stick your nose where it doesnโt belong?โ
โLike youโre doing right now?โ Utahime replied coolly. โWeโre leaving,โ she yanked you away from them with her.
โWaitโโ Naoya protested.
โHeyโโ Satoru stepped forward.
โNo. Bye,โ Utahime turned around with her nose high in the air, and you gave a meek wave to both of them. They did cancel their plans to walk you home, but god did you feel grateful to be dragged away from their fights about winning you like an object.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
Life had taken a strange, twisting turn ever since Satoru had re-entered your world. The once awkward silences during his walks with you were replaced by lively conversations now. He was speaking to you more now. He would sometimes do or say things that reminded you of how he was, but it wasnโt quite the same. He still hadnโt joined you for dinner again, despite the seat you subconsciously left empty every night at the table.
Meanwhile, Naoya was relentless in his pursuit โ walking you to school, picking you up, showing up at your door with every excuse in the book, Impress to Repress: A Nobleโs Guide to Obtain the Perfect Wife. Funnily enough, you didnโt suppose it would be too far-fetched to think he had that book somewhere in his room with the way he would speak with you.
โI thought you might need help carrying your books,โ heโd say, flashing you that perfect smile as though you couldnโt see past the charm.
Or: โA lady shouldnโt walk alone in the evening.โ
And his favorite: โI dropped Maki off early for you.โ
It wasnโt entirely unwelcome, though. Naoya was charming and thoughtful in a way that had its appeal, but it also left you feeling like you were being swooped away too far, like he was a strong tide made to sweep you off your feet. But when the tide receded, you found yourself glancing over your shoulder, wondering if Satoru had noticed.
Just who should you love?
Naoya was kind โ kinder than youโd expected him to be. He knew how to make you laugh, smile, blush all the same. But his ego often left you bristling. He would decide for you even though you wanted to do it yourself, and part of you wondered if he was just like the Kamo servants and nobles you had seen earlier.
And then there was Satoru. Heโd shattered your heart three years ago with careless words. The memory still burned like a fresh wound, but there were moments now when you saw something different in him. Something softer. Something that almost made you believe he could fix what heโd broken. But it was too toxic to linger on.
You reached the teacherโs lounge and found it empty except for Utahime, who was leaning against a desk, flipping through a stack of papers. She glanced up as you entered.
โFinally decided to get a break?โ
โYeah. Did you bully all the other teachers out again?โ
โThank me for that,โ she poked her tongue out as you sat down laughing.
โActually, I came here to ask you something,โ you hesitated.
โHm?โ
โWhyโโ you huffed. โWhy did you step in that day? You know, with both of them. You were supposed to let meโฆ choose.โ
Utahime set her pen down with a soft sigh. โBecause you werenโt ready.โ
โWhat do you mean?โ You frowned. โI couldโveโโ
โCould you, though?โ She wondered loudly. โIโve known you long enough to recognize when youโre drowning in your own head. Youโre still holding onto pieces of your past with Satoru while Naoyaโs practically dragging you into his future. And you? Youโre just standing there, caught in the middle, hoping someone else will make the choice for you.โ
You spluttered at how accurately she described your situation. โBut you saidโโ
โI said โtake your timeโ, didnโt I?โ
โYou did,โ you sighed. โBut what if itโs too late?โ
โIf it is, then a choice will be made for you,โ her eyes darkened. โYou know what clans are like. The Kamo clan even set up a proposal for Satoru, and he was just seventeen at the time.โ
You opened your mouth to argue, but what could you say? If it wasnโt for your mother that day, Satoru wouldโve been married off at the mere age of seventeen. The Kamo clanโs elder daughter had been married off at a young age as well, from what you had heard from their maids. Whoโs to say that wonโt be the case for you as well? How long could your mother shelter you after all?
Utahime softened slightly. โI stepped in that day because you needed time. But donโt think for a second that Iโm going to keep doing it. This is your life. Your future. And youโre the only one who gets to decide whoโs in it. So stop running in circles.โ
โBut Iโm scared,โ you croaked out.
โScared?โ
โWhat if I make the wrong choice?โ You said quietly, looking down at your own hands.
Utahime leaned back with a small smile. โThen you deal with it, just like everyone else. But at least itโll be your choice, not theirs.โ
You nodded slightly.
โOh, and one more thing โ next time, donโt let two grown men fight over you in public. Itโs embarrassing.โ
You sat there, chewing on your own nail and wondering if you should laugh, cry, or start packing your bags to run away from both Satoru and Naoya entirely.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
On Utahimeโs advice, you had prepared two separate diaries to recount heart-fluttering scenarios you had with each man to help you โdecideโ between them. As much as you found the whole idea ridiculous, you figured trying it wonโt hurt. You had asked both Naoya and Satoru to buy you a diary each just to see how differing the outcomes would be.
Now, you picked a diary that looked posh and had a sophisticated-looking leather twine to strap it shut. The cover looked menacing, and the pages were eerily white. You did not have to second-guess to know who bought this one.
โNaoya,โ you muttered, scribbling his name along the first page. You then turned to the next page, and began writing.
1. Cafe dates... he always ordered my drink without asking. Polite, attentive, charming... but also predictable.
2. Parent-teacher meeting dates? Oh god, does that even count? Itโs just like what Satoru said.
You paused. Were you supposed to add Satoruโs name while writing in Naoyaโs diary? Scoffing, you continued.
He made sure my notes were perfect, held doors open, smiled at every passing teacher like he was running for class president.
3. Dinner at the estate โ ugh. The way he spoke to mother, like he was auditioning to be the next clan leader. Why is he so flawless?
You groaned aloud.
โIs he just too perfect or am I just being unfair?โ
Annoyed, and also running out of romantic scenarios to write for Naoyaโs diary, you picked up Satoruโs diary. It was like the old one you had maintained when you were thirteen. You giggled a little remembering how much you had to plan and strategize on the diaryโs hidden location to keep it away from him. You couldnโt be caught dead with him knowing what was in it.
The first thing he had said when you had asked for a new diary was, โWhy, is my charm too much for you that you have to pen it down so you donโt overflow?โ And god, was he right.
You ran your fingers on the spine of the diary. It was your favourite colour โ you wondered how he still remembered that. Did he have his own secret diary you had to find soon? You opened it and began writing.
โWhere do I even start with you, you pumpkin?โ You giggled at the words you had just scribbled.
1. The staff room date. Well, if you can even call it a date. You barged in uninvited, stole half my lunch, and started criticizing my handwriting like you were some literary genius. Just like you used to. What did you call it when we were kids? A calligraphy competition on every page, huh?
You remembered the scenario all too well.
The staffroom was peaceful for once, the only sounds coming from the ticking clock and the low murmur of the other teachers quietly going about their breaks. You were tucked into the corner by the windows, your lunch spread in front of you, savoring the rare moment.
And of course, it was then that the door flung open with an obnoxious swing.
Satoru Gojo.
You didnโt even have to look up.
โWell, well, look whoโs having lunch all alone! No invite for me? Rude.โ he smirked, sliding into the chair opposite you like he belonged there. Without waiting for your response, he reached over and casually snatched a piece of your lunch.
You sighed. โI didnโt invite you because I didnโt want you here.โ
โFair enough. Lucky for you, Iโm here to grace you with my presence anyway.โ He gobbled up your lunch. โHmm, not bad. You didnโt cook this yourself, did you?โ
You snatched your box away from him. โCan you not? This is my lunch.โ
Satoru leaned back with a huff. โWhatever.โ He noticed your open notebook. โWhatโs this? Lesson plans? Donโt tell me youโve been taking this teaching thing seriously.โ
โDonโt touch that!โ
But he did. And he held it out of reach, flipping through the pages. โRelax, Iโm just taking a look. Whoa. Your handwriting hasnโt changed a bit.โ
โAnd whatโs that supposed to mean?โ
โYou know, it looks like youโre trying to win an award for best handwriting or something.โ
You flushed. โI just like making it neat!โ
โNeat? Are you kidding? I remember trying to copy your style once when we were kids, and mom thought I was possessed.โ
You snorted. โMaybe you were just bad at writing.โ
โOh, absolutely. I gave up halfway and just stuck to my chicken scratch.โ
2. The sparring match. I hated you for pairing up with me for what? โShowing the kids how itโs doneโ? What does that even mean? And what kind of lunatic goes easy for three rounds and then wipes the floor with you in the fourth? But afterward, you stayed to help me fix my form. You didnโt have to... but you did.
In the grounds, you stood with your wand in your hand, and across from you stood Satoru, smirking confidently, his wand poised like an extension of his arm.
โShowing off, huh?โ
โShut up, youโre the one who needed my help in โteaching these kiddosโ,โ you shot back. โAnd besides, I donโt need you to show off in front of them."
โWho said Iโm showing off?โ He grinned. โJust here to make sure you donโt embarrass yourself.โ
He flicked his wand, sending light spells your way. You blocked them as best as you could, but he was always one step ahead.
โYouโre not even trying!โ You shouted.
โOf course not, Iโm just giving you a chance.โ
But then, without warning, he shifted his stance and cast a powerful spell that knocked your wand from your hand.
โWhat theโ?โ
โLanguage.โ
โโhellโ
โJust showing you how itโs done,โ he shrugged, and you gritted your teeth.
He stepped closer, handing you your wand. Reluctantly, you took your wand.
โSince when did you become better than me at this?โ You asked him.
โSince you forgot your old self among your new troubles,โ he replied with a twinkle in his eye.
3. The stargazing. God, Satoru, youโre insufferable. Who even points out constellations while lying on the grass and makes up fake names for them just to make someone laugh?
You laid on the grass, watching the night sky stretch endlessly above you. Satoru was beside you, dramatically pointing at every star he could set his eyes on.
โYou see that one? Thatโs the Satoru constellation. Handsome, charming, and clearly the best in the sky.โ
โI donโt think thatโs a real constellation,โ you giggled.
โIt is if I say it is,โ he pulled a face.
โAlright, alright,โ you shook your head. โYouโre impossible.โ
โAnd yet, here you are. Lying next to me, staring at my constellation.โ
You stayed quiet, watching as his expression softened. He turned to you, lifting his head with the palm of his hand and looking right into your eyes with his bright blue ones.
โYou know,โ he whispered. โStars are kind of overrated.โ
You turned to look at him. โWhyโs that?โ
He spared half a glance at the sky before leaning in to nuzzle into your neck, but he stopped short, barely a few inches away from your skin. โBecause Iโve been staring at something brighter all night.โ
Your breath hitched, but before you could respond, he turned back to the sky, his usual grin breaking the moment. โIโm just a chill guy, just thinking, you know.โ
โAbout what?โ You asked curiously.
โHow someone as brilliant as you still gets stars in her eyes every time she looks up.โ
โWow, thatโs surprisingly poetic of you.โ
โRight?โ He gushed over himself. โDonโt get used to it though. I have a reputation to maintain.โ
โThere it is,โ you smiled.
โBut seriously,โ he laid his head down on the grass right next to your chest. โI donโt mind the stars. I just think the viewโs better when youโre in it.โ
You turned away, pretending to admire the flowers, but the heat in your cheeks might have given you away.
Why did you look at me like that, like I was the only star that mattered?
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
Maki leaned against your desk, watching you intently. โSo... what's going on with you and Naoya?โ
You widened your eyes. She had insisted on staying back to help you rearrange the chairs after class, yet here she was now, asking you questions about your personal life.ย
โWhy does that matter?โ You asked, sounding more defensive than you had intended to be.
โHeโs from my clan,โ she said, as if that was enough of a reason for you to talk about the weird love triangle you had landed yourself in. She sat on your desk, swinging her legs up and down.
โLook, I... I donโt really know. I mean, itโs definitely more than what I expected, but Iโm not sure where itโs going.โ
Maki raised an eyebrow, her lips pressing into a thin line as if she was considering something. She seemed rather skeptical.
โAlright, just donโt martyr yourself for him.โ
Your stomach twisted at her words. Did she even realize what she was saying? You looked up at her, trying to read her expression, but it was hard to tell what she was really thinking.
โWhat does that even mean?โ You asked incredulously.
Maki sighed, pushing herself off from the desk. She walked a few steps towards you. โHeโs not worth it,โ she said, and then she left the classroom just like that.
What the hell?
Youโd known all this while the Zenin clan was among the more orthodox and conservative ones, and you considered yourself lucky to be part of the Gojo clan, one of the more lenient ones. But seeing a young girl, a student you had been teaching for a while nonetheless, voice out a cryptic message, or rather a plea for help from misogynistic fucks, perhaps, made you second-guess the whole idea all over again.
Just what has this girl been through?
Later that day, you spotted Maki and Naoya leaving together, and felt the pit in your stomach deepen.
Something was not right.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
Your ears had perked up when you had been told by your mother that there was another meeting of the clans of the nobility, but that wasnโt what had you interested. It was the fact that all the clans would be present, and that included the Ieri, Iori and Geto clans. As much as you were sure your friends would hate to attend this stupid meeting, Satoruโs suggestion of sneaking out made you far more excited than you should be.
So here you were, writing letters to Shoko and Suguru to attend the meeting at all costs after barking Utahimeโs ear off to do so as well. You crumpled your parchment up and threw it in a corner for the fifth time.
What were you even supposed to write to friends youโve grown apart from?
You huffed and began scribbling on fresh parchment once more.
Dear Shoko,
I can already picture you rolling your eyes at this letter. โWhat is she up to now after not keeping contact for ages?โ youโre probably thinking. Well, for once, itโs not mischief, or boy troubles, or even weird investigations cough cough.
Itโs been so long since we last saw each other, and Iโve missed you more than words can say. Remember when we used to sneak out of classes just to sit under the old tree and complain about literally everyone? Things have changed so much since then โ weโve changed so much. But I think a part of me still hopes that when I see you, itโll feel like no time has passed at all.
Thereโs a clan meeting coming up (ugh, I know), and I heard your clan will be attending. Please tell me youโre coming. Iโll even tolerate your sarcasm if it means we can catch up properly. Bring your flask, too โ I have a feeling weโll need it. Oak tree, Iori Estate, donโt forget.
I canโt wait to see you again. Write back if you have the time, or just show up and surprise me. Either way, Iโll be waiting.
With love and exasperation,
Your favourite patient
Good enough, you thought, but Shoko probably wonโt even read all of that. Eh well it didnโt matter anyway.
Dear Suguru,
How have you been? Really been? Iโve missed having someone to talk to who actually listens. Iโm sure your clan keeps you busy, but I hope youโve found a moment or two to breathe.
Thereโs a clan meeting coming up, and I heard the Geto Clan will be attending. Just the thought of seeing you again after all these years makes me... well, nervous, if Iโm honest. Not because of anything bad, but because thereโs so much I want to say, so much Iโve wanted to ask you.
Do you remember the last time we all sat together, back when things were simpler? I miss that. I miss us. Maybe this meeting will give us a chance to find that again โ at least a little.
I hope youโll be there. No pressure, of course, but if you come, weโll be waiting under the oak tree out back in the Iori estate. Weโd really like to see you.
Take care of yourself, Suguru. And donโt overthink this letter as much as I overthought writing it.
Yours,
Your favourite troublemaker
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
You sat across from Satoru in the carriage to the meeting in silence. His eyes were fixed on the passing scenery outside, but you could tell from the way his fingers fidgeted against his knee that his mind was elsewhere โ most likely at the fact that both his mother and father were in another carriage together.
Over the years, their relationship had grown even more strained than it had become on that unfortunate day. You couldnโt imagine what it would be like for either of them to be forced to act like a healthy couple for the sake of a few hours in front of thousands of other people.
โSatoru?โ You called softly, and he snapped out of his thoughts.
โHm?โ
You patted his knee. โTheyโll be fine.โ
He huffed a short laugh, turning his head just enough to glance at you. โYouโre too optimistic. What if they explode at each other in the middle of the meeting? Or worse, drag the entire Gojo name through the mud?โ
โThen you can just blame me,โ you shrugged, trying to lighten the mood. โSay I tripped and caused a distraction, or spilled tea on someone important, or whatever it is that nobles dislike.โ
โOh? And they would believe that? Miss perfect student?โ He cracked a small smile.
โIโm not a student anymore,โ you stuck your tongue out at him, and he laughed.
โYeah, but I donโt think that would really improve things.โ
โIt might. Chaos is a great way to bond people. Just look at us!โ
He turned fully to face you now in amusement. โThatโs your big plan? Turn the meeting into a comedy night?โ
โIf it gets you to stop worrying for five seconds, then yes,โ you smiled.
He leaned back in his seat, the faintest smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. โYouโre ridiculous, you know that?โ
โMaybe. But ridiculous is what you need right now.โ
He held your gaze for a moment, the storm in his eyes quieting just a little. โThanksโฆ for, you know, trying.โ
โTrying?โ You gasped as if offended. โI excel at this. Just wait โ by the end of this night, youโll owe me for single-handedly saving the Gojo name.โ
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
You tiptoed through the dimly lit corridor, Satoru trailing behind you with his usual cocky grin. He wasnโt exactly stealthy, but he was trying his best, even if his โbestโ meant occasionally tripping over his own feet and knocking random armours on the way.
โThis is dumb,โ he whispered to you. โWe should just portal her out.โ
โNo! Thaโll make it too obvious,โ you whisper-shouted. โWeโre supposed to be discreet.โ
โYouโre whispering like a toddler playing hide-and-seek,โ he snorted and you shushed him. โThatโs the opposite of discreet.โ
โShut up. Now whereโs the oak tree?โ
โOut?โ
โObviously, genius, but whereโs โoutโ?โ
โUhhhh,โ he dragged out his response before pointing to a very clear exit. โThere? You didnโt see that yet?โ
You chose not to dignify that jab with a response, pushing open the door to where Shoko and Suguru were supposed to wait for you as per your letters.
โFuck, itโs dark in here,โ your voice echoed for some reason.
โCareful, princess. Wouldnโt want you to be caught swearing like youโre not from a noble clan,โ Satoru snickered, and you wanted to whack him on the head like Utahime had done the other day.
โAbout time,โ a bored voice said, making the two of you jump and turn in horror, staring at the darkness to make out the figures that were inching closer and closer to you. โWe thought you chickened out from what you said in the letter.โ
โSh-Shoko?โ
โDuh.โ
โShoko!โ You ran up to her as she came into the light of the estate, hugging her like your life depended on it. โMissed you.โ
โMissed you too,โ she patted your shoulder. โDid you two get lost, or were you off making out in a broom closet or something?โ
โWhat?โ You deadpanned. โI havenโt seen you in years, and this is how you greet me?โ
Suguru grinned from beside her. โI mean, sheโs not entirely wrong,โ he gave a light punch on the chest to Satoru. โYouโre a little flushed.โ
โSee?โ Satoru smirked. โI told you we shouldโve taken the broom closet route. Much more efficient.โ
You groaned. โLeave that! Utahimeโs stuck in some ridiculous ceremony, and we need a plan to get her out.โ
โHow bad could it be?โ Shoko said. โLight some incense, wave your hands, maybe sacrifice a virgin or two, chant a bit, and sheโs done, right?โ
โYouโve clearly never been to an Iori ritual,โ Suguru replied. โTheyโre like a cult, but boring.โ
โOh, theyโre worse than boring,โ said Satoru. โThey make you kneel for hours, bowing and chanting. And if you screw up, they start over. Itโs like boot camp for spiritualists.โ
โExactly,โ you said, sighing. โSo, we need a distraction. Something big enough to pull her out but small enough not to get us executed by her clan.โ
โI say we fake an emergency,โ suggested Suguru. โLike, โOh no, a curse is loose!โ Then sheโs got to leave.โ
โToo obvious,โ Shoko lit a cigarette. โTheyโll know itโs fake when Satoru doesnโt stop the โcurseโ immediately.โ
โHow about an eating contest?โ proposed Satoru, immediately earning an actual punch from Shoko.
โWhat if we convince them that Utahime has to perform an exorcism somewhere else?โ asked Suguru. โLike, say, the riverside.โ
You snapped your fingers at his brilliance. โYes! Perfect! Weโll say her โspiritual energyโ is needed for a very urgent ritual. Shoko, youโll pretend to be an elder. Suguru, youโre the messenger. Satoru, justโ stand there and look important.โ
โExcuse me? I am always important.โ
โAnywayโโ Shoko interrupted, taking a long drag. โI bought props just because.โ She pulled out her bag and unzipped it. Out came tumbling fake moustaches, eyebrows, caps, cloaks and god knows what.
โWhat theโโ you were stunned. โWhy did you get this stuff?โ
โTold you, just because,โ she shrugged. โItโs a stupid clan union meeting. Thought weโd need some entertainment.โ
โShoko, youโre a genius.โ
The four of you tried to find the ritual hall amongst the many rooms of the estate. After bullying a random security guard and having him lead you to the hall, Satoru dramatically banged the door open. The elders of the Iori clan all turned to look at the four of you, and Utahime, who was kneeling in the center surrounded by them, glanced up and immediately put her head back down with curses disguised as a cough.
The air was thick with incense and your eyes were burning. Shoko scratched her fake beard, and stepped forward to speak in a loud, rumbling voice. โElders of the Iori clan!โ She lifted her hands up and flailed her arms around wildly to address them. โThere has been a disturbance under your watch,โ she thundered, โin the northern woods, of which none can speak.โ
โA disturbance?โ A grandma squeaked. โWhat kind, Master Yoo?โ
You had no idea who Master Yoo was, but if this plan was working, you didnโt care either.
โIt shall remain classified,โ Suguru stepped forward slowly with a hunchback and a stick. โNone can speak of it without endangeringย everyone else.โ
โIt is the kind,โ you bowed to them, โthat only the heir of a true princess born to a clan as unique as yours, in the shadow of an oak as old as yours and for a purpose as grave as this may resolve.โ
โUs?โ An old man exclaimed. โSo you have chosen us?โ
โYour heir, to be exact,โ Suguru clarified.
โAh, well, then, we shall send the boyโโ
โThe girl, please,โ you deadpanned.
The elders blinked. โWhy the girl?โ
โHer energy is unique and, uh, mesmerizing,โ Shoko boomed, making them fall to their knees. She dramatically walked to the squeaking grandma and grabbed her by both collars of her kimono. โYour heiress has been chosen by the spirits of the longgone.โ
โChosen, you say?โ She squeaked in response. โWhy wasnโt this revealed earlier?โ
Satoru sighed dramatically while you lifted Utahime up. โDo you always question the will of the spirits? No wonder they never bless this place.โ
The elders were flustered. They waved Utahime away. She rose stiffly and, still muttering long strings of curses, followed you all out.
Minutes later, the five of you were lounging by the riverside, the cool night breeze rustling the trees. A bottle of sake was being passed between you, the props of earlier long discarded.
โA divine mission? Really?โ Utahime was exasperated. โThatโs the best you could come up with?โ
You laughed, and Shoko said, โWell, it worked, thatโs all that matters.โ
โYouโre welcome by the way,โ Satoru grinned. My โimportant faceโ is the only thing that made the whole act believable.โ
โThatโs because youโre aging,โ you sighed. โAging enough to be one of those elders by now.โ
โOwie, that hurt.โ
โYour face is important for comedy, not authority, Satoru,โ said Suguru. Then, he raised his drink. โTo divine missions, friendships, and chaos wherever we go.โ
โCheers!โ
The moon was still high, and you wondered how long it would take for your clans to realize that all of you were missing from the main event. The air was filled with the faint sounds of laughter and clinking bottles as your friends enjoyed themselves nearby. Satoru, however, had wandered off to the waterโs edge. He crouched, plucking smooth stones from the shore and skipping them across the surface with surprising precision.
You hesitated for a moment, then walked over, unable to resist teasing him.
โWhatโs this?โ You asked playfully. โThe Gojo Satoru, retreating from the crowd to have a quiet moment with his thoughts? I thought you thrived on attention.โ
Satoru did not look back at you. โOh, I do,โ he half-chuckled. โBut I also thrive on balance. Canโt be too perfect all the time โ it makes people insecure.โ
You snorted. โHow generous of you to consider the feelings of the peasants.โ
He glanced back at you, a smirk tugging at his lips. โSee? You get it.โ
โOh, I get it. Youโre just here to keep the river from feeling too plain without your dazzling presence.โ
He laughed, straightening up and brushing his hands on his pants. โAlright, you caught me. I was giving them all a break from my charm. But whatโs your excuse? Couldnโt handle the drinking game?โ
โMore like I couldnโt handle Suguru trying to explain his โphilosophical approachโ to sake. What did he say again? โIs the sake good because youโre dreaming, or are you dreaming because youโre drinking good sake?โ My brain was melting.โ
โFair point. His monologues can be,โ he grinned, โintense.โ
You stood beside him now, staring out at the water. He tossed another stone, this one skipping three times before sinking. โIs this what you do when no oneโs watching? Brood by the river and play with rocks?โ
โFirst of all, itโs called skipping stones, not playing with rocks. Second, brooding? Me? Thatโs your job.โ
โExcuse me?โ
โYouโre the one standing there like the protagonist of a tragic romance novel, sighing at the stars. Very dramatic.โ
You nudged his arm, rolling your eyes.
โYouโre impossible.โ
โAnd yet, youโre still here.โ
There was a comfortable silence over both of you. The night felt quieter now, the laughter from the group fading into the background. You shifted, suddenly aware of how close you were standing.
โ...You okay?โ You asked softly.
He turned to you, his usual grin faltering just slightly. โWhy wouldnโt I be?โ
โI donโt know. Just feels like thereโs something on your mind.โ
He held your gaze for a moment, then looked back at the water. โMaybe. But nothing a little stone-skipping and your terrible jokes canโt fix.โ
โTerrible?โ You grinned. โIโll have you know Iโm the funniest person you love.โ
โYouโre the only person I love.โ
Your smile faded a bit as you looked into his eyes, and he did the same. Suddenly, everything you did was making you feel embarrassed โ your breathing, blinking, shaking handsโฆ until he grasped your fingers and put them on his chest.
โDo you feel that?โ
Yes.
I feel the love.
You nodded, and he smiled a little. He tipped your chin up to meet your gaze. โHow about we ditch the ditching of our super important clan meeting?โ
โThereโs nothing I wanna do more,โ you breathed.
You and Satoru were sneaking back toward the main hall, your laughter still echoing softly as you wiped imaginary dust off his shoulder.
โI canโt believe you slipped on that rock,โ you poked your tongue out at him. โAll that talk about being gracefulโโ
โIt was one rock, and it was slippery,โ he cut you off. โBesides, I saved it. Youโre the one who almost fell in the river trying not to laugh.โ
โSaved it? You looked like a baby seal trying to ice skate.โ
His mock-offended gasp earned another burst of laughter from you. But as you approached the entrance to the meeting hall, your mirth faded. Standing just outside the large carved doors was Satoruโs mother, speaking to a few people. But then she turned around, and her piercing eyes narrowed as they landed on the two of you.
โYou two,โ she said sharply, and you winced in unison. โHow fortunate you both decided to rejoin us.โ
โFortunate?โ Satoru was unfazed. โOr just impeccable timing, Mother? You know I always aim to impress.โ
โYour absence was noted.โ She ignored him completely and turned to look at you. The subtle scrutiny in her eyes made you feel like youโd been caught sneaking sweets from the pantry.
โWe just needed some air after all the formalities,โ you added hastily.
โThen I trust youโve had enough of it.โ
Without waiting for a reply, Satoruโs mother coolly turned and swept back into the hall. Satoru let out a dramatic sigh. โWell, that was fun.โ
Shaking your head, you followed him into the hall. The hum of conversation and clinking glasses immediately engulfed you. The room was grand, the walls lined with banners representing the noble clans in attendance. You recognized faces from the Kamo and Iori clans, along with a handful of others. The two of you slid into unoccupied chairs near the back, just out of your parentsโ immediate line of sight.
โLet me guess,โ Satoru whispered to you. โFive minutes in here, and youโll be begging to sneak out again.โ
โTen minutes. Iโm trying to behave.โ
โYou? Behave? Thatโs new.โ
True to his prediction, boredom set in quickly though. The speeches droned on about alliances and tradition, and Satoru began fidgeting. At one point, he caught your eye and mouthed, โLetโs go.โ
Before you could answer, he grabbed your hand and led you toward the balcony doors. He tugged you through the crowd, weaving around clan leaders and dignitaries with the ease of someone who knew exactly how untouchable they were. You barely managed to stifle a laugh at the old nosy lady he had pushed as he pushed them open and pulled you into the cool night air.
โSatoru โ people are watching!โ
โGood. They can admire how stunning you look while I steal you away.โ
You stood against the railing, the city lights below shimmering like scattered stars, though none of them could light you up like the man in front of you did. Satoru leaned beside you, his elbow brushing against yours.
โDo you ever wonder why they even bother with these meetings? Itโs just a bunch of old people pretending theyโre still important.โ
โCareful,โ you smiled. โThose โold peopleโ include your parents.โ
โApologies. Allow me to rephrase: a bunch of old people... and my extraordinarily distinguished parents.โ
You laughed softly. โItโs not like you and me here are any better. What is to guarantee that I wonโt be bored here?
โBored? Here, with me? Iโm hurt. My company is way more exciting than whatever that was,โ he gestured wildly towards the hall. He leaned against the railing, his silver hair catching the moonlight like it was showing itselfย off. โAnd besides, youโre the one who kept looking at me like you wanted to escape. Donโt deny it.โ
You crossed your arms, raising a brow. โOh, I was looking at you? Pretty sure it was the other way around, Gojo.โ
His grin widened, his eyes narrowing in mock challenge. โCaught me. Can you blame me, though? Youโre kind of hard not to stare at.โ
The way he said it โ too casual, too confident โ made your heart skip a beat. Just like it always would when he was around. Just like always.
โDo you ever get tired of flirting?โ
Without missing a beat, he replied, โDo you ever get tired of pretending you donโt like it?โ
You opened your mouth to retort, but nothing came out. He tilted his head, watching you with an expression that was both smug and softer than usual. โSpeechless? Thatโs a first. Iโll take it โ and your blushing face โ as a win. See, you like my balcony adventures!โ
You sputtered, trying to deny it, but he only laughed, the sound low and warm in the quiet night.
โMaybe I just like the view.โ
โFlirting back now?โ said Satoru, and you furrowed your brows at him. โI knew youโd cave eventually.โ
โThat is not what I meant.โ
โToo late now,โ he grabbed your hand for a second time that night. โI think I like this better,โ he leaned in.
The space between you felt smaller. His voice was quieter as he added, โI meant what I said near the riverside. I always will.โ
A hand wrapped around your waist, and you couldnโt care less about the number of people that could walk in on you at this exact moment. You inched closer to him, too shy to ask for what you wanted. But he did so as well, granting you the permission you needed.
You closed your eyes, parting your lips.
A sister.
No, that was a lie.
He loved you.
Your lips brushed against each otherโs for half a second beforeโ
โOh, there you are. Iโve been looking everywhere for you.โ
You both jumped slightly, and Satoru pulled back, his expression immediately darkening. You turned to see Naoya strolling toward you with his usual smug smile.
โHope Iโm not interrupting anything important,โ he bowed in front of you, kissing the back of your hand like he owned it. โCare to join me for a dance?โ
You opened your mouth to answer, but Satoru stepped forward, his hand still lightly brushing your other one. โActually, we were in the middle of somethingโโ
โIโm sure it can wait. After all, a Zenin doesnโt ask twice.โ
You glanced between them, and with a resigned sigh, you forced a polite smile and stepped toward Naoya, your heart sinking as you felt Satoruโs hand fall away.
โ...Iโll be back,โ you said to Satoru.
His only response was a tight nod. As Naoya led you back inside, you couldnโt help but glance over your shoulder. Satoru stood there on the balcony, his hands in his pockets, watching as you disappeared into the crowd.
Naoya led you onto the dance floor with confident strides. โYouโre light on your feet. A perfect match for me, wouldnโt you agree?โ
You bit back a retort, focusing instead on the music and not the way his hand lingered just a little too long on your waist. You still werenโt sure whether the tingling on your hand was because of Naoyaโs little kiss or due to Satoruโs touches earlier. And you didnโt get a chance to ponder on it either.
Naoya twirled you out dramatically, and when he pulled you back in, his lips brushed your knuckles in a gesture too showy to be sincere.
From the corner of your eye, you caught Satoru leaning against a pillar stiffly. His hands were shoved deep into his pockets, but you could see the tension in his shoulders. His jaw was tightened as he watched Naoya spin you across the floor.
โUnbelievable,โ you read his lips.
But if he had a problem, heโd say something, you thought. Or was he too much of a coward to do so?
Naoya dipped you โ dramatically, of course โ and you couldnโt miss the way Satoruโs expression darkened, his knuckles whitening as his hands clenched into fists. Finally, he pushed off the pillar, striding toward the two of you.
โMind if I take over?โ He said smoothly. โThe lady looks like sheโs had enough of your theatrics.โ
โIs that so?โ He raised an eyebrow. โI didnโt hear her complaining.โ
โYou didnโt ask,โ you said flatly.
Naoyaโs smirk faltered just enough to give you a flicker of satisfaction before Satoru stepped between you. โThanks for warming her up for me, man.โ
Without waiting for a response, Satoru took your hand and placed his other hand on your waist, effortlessly guiding you into the next step.
โJealous much?โ You teased him.
โJealous? Nah. Just couldnโt stand watching him butcher a perfectly good waltz.โ
You rolled your eyes but couldnโt help the small smile tugging at your lips. At first, the dance felt awkward. His hand was just a little too tight on your waist, and your steps were slightly out of sync.
โFor someone so full of himself, youโre surprisingly bad at this,โ you said.
โExcuse me?โ He replied, mock-offended. โIโm amazing at this. Youโre just distracted by how good I look.โ
โYeah, yeah. Keep telling yourself that.โ
But as the music slowed, and the crowd dispersed, his teasing grin softened. His hand on your waist relaxed as his thumb brushed against the fabric of your dress.
โYou didnโt answer me earlier.โ
That caught you off guard. You looked up, meeting his gaze, and for a moment, the noise of the room faded into the background.
โYou didn't ask.โ
The corners of his mouth lifted, not in his usual cocky smirk, but in something gentler, more genuine.
โWell, then, I will. Do you stillโฆ you know?โ
โYou know what?โ
โLove me like you did?โ
Your feet stopped.
Did you?
Or more than that, should you?
โIs it bad if I do?โ
โNo, not bad at all,โ he smiled.
โSatoru.โ
โHm?โ
โWhy did you? That day. Why?โ You asked him softly the one question you had been dying to ask for three whole years.
โIโฆ Fuck. Naoya, him, I couldnโtโโ his hands dropped from your waist, and you flinched a little, moving a few feet back, realizing that your question might have messed your moment up. โAngelโโ
โAttention, please,โ Naoya clinked a glass loudly. โI have an announcement Iโd like to make here.โ
The hum of conversation in the room died down as all eyes turned toward him. You and Satoru both turned to look at him.
โThis is a moment Iโve been looking forward to all of tonight. All my life, I have wanted nothing more than to serve the woman of my dreams, and tonight, I wish to solidify not only the bonds between our families but also the bond I share with this remarkable woman.โ
He turned to you, his smile widening as he reached into his pocket. He strutted towards you. Your blood ran cold as he pulled out a velvet box, dropping to one knee in one fluid motion. Naoya opened the box, revealing a glittering ring) โWill you do me the honor of becoming my wife, Ms Gojo?โ
The room erupted into soft gasps and murmurs of approval, particularly from the Zenin elders. You stood frozen, every pair of eyes in the room drilling into you. All of them, all their stares and expectations felt suffocating.
Your eyes looked at Satoruโs and he seemed like he wanted you to say no. You looked at the elders and they all wanted you to say yes. You looked at your mother, and her eyes were glossy, yet you would take that more than anything else at this moment. Because they didnโt have your answer ready for you in them. They wanted to let you choose.ย
โIโฆ I donโtโโ you were barely audible. Could everyone just look away from you?
The words stuck in your throat. The weight of Naoyaโs proposal, the staresโ
โI donโt know.โ
The collective murmurs grew louder and confused. For a split second, Naoyaโs expression flickered. He looked irritated with your answer. But just as quickly, he smoothed it over, standing and pulling you into a light embrace.
He laughed softly and brushed his lips against your cheek. โSheโs overwhelmed. Itโs a lot to take in, I understand. These things canโt be rushed, can they?โ He turned to the crowd, his tone light and reassuring. โSheโs just shy, thatโs all. Iโll give her all the time she needs.โ
Polite applause broke out, and the pressure in the room became unbearable. Naoyaโs hand settled on the small of your back, guiding you toward a quieter corner, and you wanted to wrench it away from your body.
But you couldnโt. Your eyes darted to Satoru. He hadnโt moved. His icy gaze was locked on Naoya, his jaw tense, his entire body screaming for you. And yet, beneath the frustration in his expression, there was something else โ something raw and unspoken.
Something you recall seeing in your own eyes.
Three years ago.
You finally cornered Satoru in the training courtyard after quite a while of him dodging your presence for the rest of the night. He was leaning against a pillar, arms crossed, staring at a fountain in the middle of the gardens.
โSatoru.โ You stepped closer to him. โWhy have you been avoiding me?โ
He didnโt even glance at you, his gaze fixed somewhere in the distance. โIโve been busy.โ
โThatโs a lie and you know it. Youโve been avoiding me like Iโm some kind of plague.โ
Satoru finally turned to you, and said with a bitter laugh, โWhat do you want me to say? That everythingโs fine? That Iโm thrilled about everything thatโs happening?โ
โYou could at least tell me the truth! I donโt understand why youโre acting like this.โ
His jaw tightened, his hands curling into fists at his sides. โYou donโt understand? Fine. Do you know how hard it is for me to see you with him?โ His voice cracked slightly, the anger giving way to something new. โTo know he gets to touch you? To see you smile at him like that?โ
You froze, the weight of his words hitting you like a tidal wave. โSatoruโฆโ
But he didnโt let you finish. He took a step back from you. โYou didnโt even reject him. You stood there, and you let himโโ
He stopped himself, his voice breaking off. He looked away, running a hand through his hair in frustration.
โI didnโt know what to do! Everyone was watching, and Iโโ
โYou shouldโve said no!โ He shouted. The silence that followed was deafening. He stared at you, his chest rising and falling as he tried to rein in his emotions. Then, he whispered quietly, as if about to cry any second. โYou shouldโve said no.โ
You opened your mouth to respond, but the words wouldnโt come.
โI canโt do this anymore.โ
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
The Gojo estate was eerily quiet as you made your way to Satoruโs motherโs quarters. Your heart pounded in your chest. You knocked softly, and her calm voice invited you inside.
Satoruโs mother was seated by a low table, a cup of tea in hand. She looked up, her eyes softening as she took in your disheveled state. โDarling, whatโs the matter?โ
You sat across from her, your hands trembling as you tried to form the words. You choked a sob. โDid I make a mistake?โ
โMistake?โ
โBy not saying no to Naoya right away?โ
Her expression didnโt waver, but she leaned forward, placing a comforting hand over yours. โYou were caught off guard,โ she said gently. โAnyone wouldโve been overwhelmed in that situation."
Tears welled in your eyes again, and you shook your head. โBut now Iโve hurt Satoru. Heโฆ heโs so angry with me. I donโt even know how to fix this.โ
She sighed softly, her grip on your hand tightening slightly. โListen to me, dear. Voicing your uncertainty was not a mistake. Itโs far better to be honest about your feelings than to make a choice you might regret.โ
You wiped at your tears. Her words were comforting, but they were not enough to ease the ache in your chest.
โBut what if I choose wrong? What if I lose everything?โ
She stood then, moving to sit beside you. She wrapped an arm around your shoulders, holding you, and you took this moment to let it all out. You cried on her shoulder, staining her dress, but she didnโt care. She merely held you and let you cry and scream all you wanted.
โIf you choose to marry into the Zenin clan, I wonโt stop you. But make sure itโs truly what you want. Not what they want, not what Naoya wants. What you want.โ You clung to her, your tears soaking into her sleeve. โAs for Satoruโฆโ she smiled faintly. โHeโs stubborn, but heโll come around. He just needs to be reminded that heโs not losing you.โ
The school courtyard was quiet that morning. The winter night had forced most of the kids to stay indoors, and the chilly effect of the weather had perhaps drowned out their usual noise. You were lost in thought, replaying the events of the previous evening, when Maki appeared in front of you.
Her stance was confident as always, but her eyes betrayed her. They were rimmed with red, and her face was pale with exhaustion.
โWe need to talk.โ
โWhat?โ
โI said we need to talk.โ
You shrugged and nodded, signalling her to begin speaking.
She took a deep breath in. โDonโt do it. Donโt marry into the Zenin family.โ The words came out in a desperate rush.
โMaki, Iโโ
โYou donโt understand. Theyโll destroy you. Theyโll take everything good about you and crush it until thereโs nothing left.โ
Her hands were clenched into fists, trembling at her sides. You reached out to touch her arm, but she pulled away.
โIโve seen it. Iโve lived it. The way they treat women, like weโre nothing but tools. Theyโll smile to your face and stab you in the back the moment youโre no longer useful.โ Her voice cracked, and she stopped, her back to you.
You called her gently. โMakiโฆโ
She turned to face you, tears spilling down her cheeks despite her obvious effort to hold them back. โYouโre stronger than me, I know that. But theyโll find a way to break you too. Pleaseโฆ donโt let them.โ
The raw emotion in her voice shattered something inside you. You stepped forward and wrapped your arms around her, holding her tightly as she cried into your shoulder.
โIโm so sorry, Maki,โ you whispered to her. โFor everything theyโve done to you."
She clung to you for a moment before pulling back, wiping at her tears furiously. โJust promise me youโll think about it. Donโt let them win.โ
You nodded, your throat too tight to speak. As you watched her walk away, shoulders hunched against the weight of her past, you couldnโt help but wonder what horrors this brave girl had endured โ and what kind of future awaited her if she stayed under the Zenin familyโs thumb.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
โWhat the hell are they doing here?โ you whisper-screamed to yourย mother. Your voice was trembling despite your attempt to sound composed.
The last time the Kamo clan had graced the Gojo estate with their presence, it ended disastrously. More than that, he was here โ the face of your nightmares, the man who had haunted your memories for over a decade.
You clenched your hands in your lap, nails biting into your palms as you stared down at the tatami mat, praying for this to be over. But no prayer could save you now. Not when you were practically being forced to bow in front of Kamo Daijiro, the man who had shattered your childhood before it had even begun.
Kamo Daijiro grinned wickedly as he took his seat, his wife Lady Akane and his daughter trailing behind like his shadows. His voice was oily and smug as he broke the silence.
โAh, the Gojo family. Always full of surprises, arenโt we?โ He said mockingly. โFirst, a marriage proposal with my daughter, Alina, rejected outright by your mother. What a waste of time, huh?โ
The room seemed to blur around you. His words faded, replaced by the echoes of the past: the cold stone walls of the basement, the suffocating darkness, the metallic clink of chains binding your wrists.
โStay quiet,โ his voice whispered in your memory. You could feel his hand gripping your arm, dragging you down those steps into hell. Your chest tightened. You blinked rapidly, trying to ground yourself, but his next words yanked you back into the present.
โAnd now, of course, the Zenin proposal with you.โ His gaze landed on you sharply his lips twisting into a cruel smirk. โTwo rejected proposals. Not every family is lucky enough to fail so spectacularly, hmm?โ
Your heart pounded painfully, the edges of your vision going white. The scars on your fingertips throbbed โ perhaps from the rough stones you had used to carve evidences of your torture on the walls of the Kamo estate.
โSell her,โ his voice echoed in your mind. โSheโll fetch a good price.โ
The memory hit you like a punch to the gut. You were three years old, crying for your mother, and he was laughing. Laughing as strangers examined you like a product, bartering for your life.
Why did you remember the worst moments of your life?
Satoruโs โ no, your motherโs voice broke through the haze. โSpeak something sensible or leave, Kamo.โ Her words were firm, but you could hear the strain in her voice. She was trying to protect you, but she seemed to realize that even she couldnโt erase the ghosts of the past from your mind.
Kamo Daijiro tilted his head, feigning politeness as he bowed slightly. โAh, but you should be made aware of what youโve caused, Lady Gojo. Two lives ruined because of a stupid fantasy between your kids.โ
โEnough, Daijiro,โ said Satoruโs father.
You blinked, startled by the unexpected intervention. Satoruโs father rarely spoke, let alone in defense of his family. Wasnโt he the one hellbent on getting Satoru married just a few years ago? Perhaps his time in isolation in his room made him realize his mistake.ย
โLet me remind you that the Gojo family does not bend to the whims of the Kamo Clan. We never have and never will. So whatever you think, we do not care. Yet you cannot stand here under our roof and speak that way about us, Kamo. Leave.โ
Daijiroโs smirk faltered,. The confidence in his posture waned for a fraction of a second. But that moment was enough for you to breathe again. Your motherโs hand slipped over yours under the table, grounding you back to reality, your present away from the horrors of your past.
As Daijiro stood to leave, he glanced at you one last time. His eyes gleaming with a twisted satisfaction.
โYouโll never escape me, little one.โ
Beat.
Did he know?
The Kamo family took their leave, but one pair of eyes lingered. Kamo Alina.
She hadnโt said a word throughout her fatherโs tirade, but now her gaze bore into you, there was something haunted in her expression, something that wasnโt there three years ago when she had tried to charm Satoru out from under your nose.
You didnโt trust it one bit.
You found yourself alone in the garden after the fiasco from earlier. The crisp air nipped at your skin, but it wasnโt enough to shake the phantom memories of The Kamosโ voices echoing in your mind.
A soft rustle behind you made you turn. Alina stood there, her posture hesitant. That was new โ gone was the confident, smug girl who used to mock you mercilessly as a child.
โYou donโt have the Gojo surname.โ
It wasnโt a question. Her tone was quiet, almost confused.
You stiffened, your fingers curling into the fabric of your sleeves. โWhy does it matter?โ
Her lips pressed into a thin line, and she stepped closer, her hands wringing nervously. โItโs just... strange. Youโve lived with them for so long, havenโt you? And you were even engaged toโฆ you know. Shouldnโt you have their name by now?โ
The words cut deeper than you expected. You knew why you didnโt have their name. Why Lady Gojo had never officially adopted you despite raising you like her own. Because your past was a stain that no amount of time could wash away, and your future a fate you wanted to live.
But you didnโt say that. Not to Alina. Not to anyone.
Instead, you crossed your arms, forcing a smirk. โWhy do you care? Planning to make fun of me again, like when we were kids?โ
Her expression faltered, and for the first time, you saw something genuine in her eyes. Regret. โIโฆโ she paused. โIโm not here to make fun of you.โ
You blinked, caught off guard by her tone. It wasnโt what you expected, and that unsettled you more than anything else.
โI just... I donโt understand. Why arenโt you proud to be a Gojo? To have a family like that?โ
Because Iโm not one of them.
Not yet, anyway, a voice in your head hoped.
But you didnโt say that either. Instead, you looked away, your voice colder than you intended. โYou wouldnโt understand.โ
She flinched like you had just yelled at her, and her hands dropped to her sides.
Yet, you couldnโt shake the feeling that she might understand, more than you gave her credit for. Because for all her faults, she wasnโt Kamo Daijiro. Or Kamo Akane. Or those auctioners. She wasnโt the one who had abandoned you, sold you off, abused you like you were a piece of meat.
And then it hit you. The thought that had been nagging at the back of your mind ever since you saw her face.
Kamo Akaneโs daughter. That was who Alina was. Which made her...
Your half-sister.
The realization made your stomach drop. Your eyes widened at nothing in particular, and your fingers began shaking.
Sister?
All this time, you never gave a thought about it. But it was so obvious, so clear.
Your blood.
The Kamo blood.
You gulped. No, never. Never the Kamo blood. You didnโt want to be associated with the Kamo clan, not in any way.
โI guess you wonโt tell me, will you?โ Her voice broke the silence, and you glanced back at her. There was no malice in her expression, no smugness, just confusion.
โNo. I wonโt,โ you responded firmly.
She nodded slowly, her shoulders slumping in defeat. โMaybe I deserve that.โ
She turned to leave, and for a moment, you almost stopped her.
Almost.
The Gojo estate was unusually quiet that week since the chaos of the Kamo familyโs visit was finally behind you. Yet, you couldnโt sleep at all at night. So you did what you always do. You wandered the halls aimlessly, walking from door to door in search of sleep.
You paused outside the study, hearing low voices.
โ...I know I failed you, Satoru.โ
Your breath caught. That was Satoruโs father.
โI was so focused on the family, on tradition,โ his father continued with regret. โI thought I was protecting you, ensuring our legacy would thrive. But all I did was push you toward a life you didnโt want. A life you didnโt deserve.โ
Satoruโs response was softer than usual. โYou didnโt just push me โ you forced my hand. That engagement with Alina... I didnโt even have a say.โ
There was a heavy silence.
โI know,โ his father finally admitted. โAnd when your mother stood there and defied me... I hated myself for it. Because deep down, I knew she was right.โ
You inched closer to the door. You know you shouldnโt be eavesdropping on this intimate conversation between a father and a son, but you knew you would have stayed awake for a couple more hours if you didnโt hear this completely.
His father sighed with a sound that was weary and old. โI wanted to say this to you for a long time. Iโm proud of you, Satoru. Not because of what you are, but because of who you are. Strong, stubborn, and a lot like your mother.โ
There was a soft chuckle from Satoru, tinged with disbelief. โLike mother? Thatโs a first.โ
His father continued. โI know I have no right to ask for your forgiveness. But I want you to know, Iโll never stand in your way again. Whatever you choose for yourself, for your future... Iโll support it.โ
You could hear the emotion in Satoruโs voice, even as he tried to hide it. โThatโs all I ever wanted, Dad.โ
Another pause, this one heavy with unspoken words.
โIโm sorry it took me this long to figure it out,โ his father admitted.
There was the faint sound of movement, and you imagined Satoru standing. โThanks, old man.โ
You pushed open the door to Satoruโs room a few minutes later. You didnโt expect him to be present there, obviously. He might still be with his father, and you didnโt wish to eavesdrop on their conversation anymore.
Satoruโs room was empty, eerily quiet. His desk was tidy, his bed neatly made. Everything was in its place, except him. You sighed, sitting down on the edge of his bed.
For days, the memory of his half-finished confession had haunted you. The way heโd almost spoken, almost revealed just why he had told you those harsh words all those years ago. Almost. Before Naoya cut him off, of course. Why did he do that? Why did he say that? Why had he pushed you away? You clenched your fists, planning to stay there and wait all night if you had to, just to get the answers of those questions that had haunted you all this time.
The sound of the door creaking open jolted you from your thoughts. Relief flooded you, only to freeze when you realized it wasnโt Satoru standing there.
โWho are you?โ You immediately asked.
It was a young woman. She was dressed as if she was a servant of the Gojo clan, but you didnโt recognize her.
โIโItโs me, Princess!โ
โTomoko?โ you asked, frowning at the maidโs pale, trembling figure. โFrom the Kamo clan?โ Your eyes widened in realization. โWhat are you doing here?โ
โI... I need to tell you something, Princess,โ she stammered. Her eyes darted nervously around the room. Her fingers fidgeted with each other. She couldnโt even look you in the eye. What was she hiding? Why was she here anyway? Something was wrong โ terribly wrong.
โWhat is it?โ you asked cautiously, standing up.
Tomoko wrung her hands, tears brimming in her eyes. โI... I poisoned Gojo-sama,โ she whispered, her voice barely audible. โYour father, your highness.โ
โWhat?โ The word burst from you like a gunshot. For a moment, you couldnโt breathe. โWhat the hell are you talking about?โ
Tomoko flinched, but she continued, her voice shaking. โI didnโt want to do it. I swear on your greatness, Princess! But I was ordered to โ by my clanโฆ The Kamo clan.โ
The Kamo clan?
Of course, itโs them.
Itโs always them.
Your knees felt weak, and you stumbled, grabbing the bedpost for support. โWhat poison? How long โ how long does he have?โ
โItโs a rare poison,โ Tomoko said, her voice cracking. โThey got it from somewhere and had meโ had me seal it in his wine. There is no cure. He has days left. A week, at most, Princess.โ
The room spun, and anger surged through you. โYou poisoned him, and youโre only telling me now?โ
โI didnโt have a choice!โ Tomoko wailed, falling to her knees. โThey threatened my family. Andโ and me too! If I didnโt do it, they said theyโd kill us. Iโ Iโm so sorry.โ
โSorry?โ Your voice rose, trembling with fury. โOh, youโre sorry? And what the fuck do you expect me to say?โ She gasped at your choice of words. โYou expect me to forgive you for poisoning someone? For poisoning my fucking father?โ
โI didnโt know what else to do!โ she sobbed, her hands clutching at her chest. โPlease, I canโt live with this guilt.โ
You stared at her, your hands shaking, your mind racing. Satoruโs father, the man who had finally begun to reconcile with his son, finally, finally begun to relive and make up for all the wasted time, was dying.
And the Kamo clan was behind it.
They had already torn your life apart when you were a child. And now they were doing it again.
Why couldnโt they just leave you alone?
โGet out,โ you said, your voice low trembling with barely contained rage.
Tomoko looked up at you, startled. โButโโ
โGet out,โ you repeated, louder this time. โAnd donโt ever show your face here again.โ
โPlease, Iโโ
โLeave!โ you screamed, your voice breaking. โYou will only get killed here โ by my soldiers or by my hands!โ
Tomoko scrambled to her feet, stumbling toward the door. She hesitated for a moment, as if she wanted to say something else, but the fury in your eyes made her think better of it. She fled the room. The door slammed shut behind her.
For a moment, you just stood there, your breaths coming in short, ragged gasps. Then, slowly, you sank onto the bed, burying your face in your hands. Tears stung your eyes, but you refused to let them fall. Not yet. Not until you figured out what to do.
Because another piece of your newfound life was tearing, and no amount of rage or despair could change that.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
Ever since that night, you had been hoping, praying even, that whatever Tomoko had said that day was false. That your father was perfectly healthy, and heโd live a long life. But Satoru noticed how his father would stumble on his steps at times. Your mother noticed her husbandโs loss of appetite. And overtime, as this worsened, you couldnโt deny it anymore.
Your father was dying.
And that was going to break you.
You hadnโt spoken a word about it to anyone. You should, you knew that. But how? Mother was always too busy fussing over him. Satoru had been avoiding you since that night with Naoya. How were you supposed to say a word?
The hallway outside Satoruโs parentsโ room was dimly lit. They had begun sharing rooms again, and you wanted to be happy for them. But this would only go on for about five days longer, you thought ominously. You stood awkwardly near the door, waiting for your mother to emerge. Inside, you could hear her fussing over her husband tenderly.
โStay in bed, please. The tea is still warm โ Iโll bring it to you.โ
โIโm fine, love,โ he replied weakly. โYouโre the one who needs rest.โ
There was a muffled sound of her setting something on a table, and then footsteps. she opened the door, stepping out into the hallway. She startled slightly at the sight of you, but her face quickly softened when she realized it was you.
โAre you waiting for Satoru? Heโs not back yet,โ she said, smoothing her sleeves.
โNo, Iโโ Your throat felt tight, and you took a moment to gather your courage. โMother, I need to tell you something.โ
Her eyes narrowed slightly in concern, and she gestured for you to follow her into the small sitting room across the hall. She sat gracefully, folding her hands in her lap. You tumbled into your seat, taking a deep breath.
โItโs about Father,โ you begin hesitantly.
โWhat about him?โ
โIโฆ I know what happened to him,โ you said cryptically. She raised an eyebrow at you, gesturing for you to continue. โOne of the Kamo maids, Tomokoโฆ She stayed back after the leaders had left and disguised herself as one of ours. And she told me. That she had poisoโโ
โEnough,โ she held up a hand to stop you, and you flinched. For a moment, her expression didnโt change. Then she closed her eyes and let out a long, quiet sigh. โI know,โ she said softly.
The admission took you aback. โYou... you know?โ
She nodded, her fingers tightening briefly around the fabric of her kimono. โHe told me as soon as he realized. In the past two days, weโve consulted every healer, every remedy. Thereโs nothingโฆ nothing that can be done now.โ Her voice trembled just slightly, and she pressed her lips together to steady herself.
โMother,โ you whisper.
She waved a hand dismissively, but her eyes glistened with unshed tears. โI should apologize to you for allowing the Kamo clan to enter our lives. I couldnโt protect my family as I should have. Iโm a terrible mother.โ
You shook your head vehemently. โYouโre the best. The best mother and the best leader. And everything else you are.โ
โThank you, darling.โ You could see the strain in the smile she gave you, and she looked older in the candlelight.
โBut what do we do now?โ
Lady Gojo exhaled, leaning back slightly. โNow, my only concern is making his last days as peaceful as possible. If Satoru were to find out...โ Her voice broke for a moment, and she looked away as if to compose herself. โIt would destroy him,โ she continued. โHeโs been through too much already. I wonโt let this pain touch him โ not yet.โ
You felt a lump forming in your throat at her last words. โWhat can I do?โ
She smiled faintly, though it didn't reach her eyes. โJust be there for him. When the time comes, heโll need you more than ever.โ
You were pacing outside the garden. Every step crunched against the gravel path. Your thoughts were swirling with your motherโs confession, and her desire to keep it a secret from Satoru. But the last time you had kept something a secret from him, it had resulted in the loss of three years from your life. You couldnโt let that happen again.
But could you disobey your mother? So you had been doing the best thing you could possibly do in that situation โ avoiding Satoru all day. But apparently, that wasnโt enough.
โHey,โ his voice startled you as he appeared seemingly out of nowhere. โWhatโs going on with you?โ
You whirled around, clutching your chest. โW-What do you mean?โ
He squinted at you, crossing his arms. โThis!โ He said, as if that explained everything. โYouโve been acting weird. Stuttering, avoiding eye contact, mumbling when you talk to me. Thatโs not like you at all.โ
You forced out a laugh, waving your hand dismissively. โOh, come on. Youโre imagining things.โ
Satoru took a step closer. โDonโt lie to me.โ
You panicked and shouted. โIโm not lying!โ
He narrowed his eyes in frustration. โYou canโt even say that without stuttering.โ Then he sighed. โAlright, tell me. Whatโs going on?โ
โIf you think of me as your sister were all the moments we spent together false or am I overthinking?โ You blurted out.
Satoru froze, caught off guard. For a moment, the only sound between the two of you was the rustling of leaves in the evening breeze.
โWhat?โ
โThree years ago,โ you pressed, your voice trembling slightly. โAt the Kamo meeting. You called me your sister after they had brought upโโ
โI know what I said,โ he cut you off, his jaw tightening. His hands clenched into fists at his sides.
โThenโฆ why?โ you whispered, stepping closer. โWhy would you say that? Why would youโโ
โNaoya,โ he spat venomously.
You blinked, utterly confused. โNaoya?โ
He let out a bitter laugh, running a hand through his hair. โThat bastard. He...โ Satoru trailed off, his expression darkening.
โWhat about Naoya?โ
Satoru hesitated, as if weighing whether or not to tell you. Finally, he exhaled sharply. โHe said... things. About you. About what heโdโฆ do to you if we, you know, got closer to each other. And I couldnโt let that happen. He was older, definitely experienced and all of that. I didnโt feel like the strongest anymore when I saw him say that.โ
Your breath caught, and a cold chill ran down your spine. โSatoru. When did this happen? What did he say to you?โ
โDonโt make me say it,โ he snapped, but his anger seemed to be directed more towards Naoya than at you. โIt happened right around the time you got detention, I still remember. He had told me he didnโt like how we were with each other. And how I was nothing, pathetic. How I could never protect you fromโฆ from him. And he had struck a deal with me that day โ that he would stop it all if I was able to convince everyone that we couldnโt... that we didnโt...โ
โThat we didnโt what?โ you whispered.
Satoru met your gaze with guilt. โThat we didnโt belong together. That you were like a sister to me.โ
You let out a breath you didnโt know you were holding. But he continued.
โAnd then that day I had found out we were engaged. I was so happy, but also devastated. If that guy didnโt like us then, how would he like it if we got married? So I tried to stop it. Tried to break your heart. Like a coward. Like a fool.โ
โStop it!โ You staggered back. โYouโre not a coward!โ
โYes I am,โ he shook his head. โYou donโt understand. I got scared. He was older than me. He knew more. What if he whipped out some charm I didnโt recognize and killed you or something? Iโd never be able to forgive myself. Not that I can now either.โ
โSatoruโโ
โI didnโt deserve the tears you spent on me that time. I didnโt deserve to see you break down. All those times your eyes would brim, my heart would claw at me to stop itself.โ
โYou donโt meanโโ Your eyes widened, and he merely nodded, not looking at you at all.
โI didnโt have a choice,โ he said quietly, his shoulders slumping. โBut it doesnโt matter now. None of it matters now.โ
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Satoruโs fatherโs funeral was held on a chilly afternoon. The air was thick with unspoken grief. The Gojo estate, usually buzzing with life, was eerily quiet. Even the wind seemed reluctant to disturb the solemn atmosphere. The bare branches of trees trembled like fragile fingers.
A sea of black-clad mourners gathered, their heads bowed in respect, but it all felt hollow to you. Each condolence, every whispered prayer, was a reminder of the man who was no longer here, and you couldnโt shake the gnawing guilt in your chest.
You stood off to the side, your hands clasped tightly in front of you, staring at the pristine white casket adorned with lilies. The sight blurred as tears welled in your eyes, but you blinked them away, unwilling to cry in front of so many people. Your grief felt undeserved, selfish even, given the weight of your secret.
You had known about the poison. You knew about the slow and inevitable death of Satoruโs father. You knew, yet you had done nothing, just let it all happen. Could you have stopped it? Could you have saved him? The questions circled in your mind like vultures.
Satoru stood at the front, his back straight. His face seemed like it had been carved from stone. The usual spark in his eyes was gone. It was replaced by a cold emptiness that made your stomach churn. He hadnโt cried, not even once, as far as you knew. You wished he would. You wished that he would let himself grieve, scream, do anything to release the agony he must be feeling. But he was silent, like a statue among the living, and it broke your heart.
The ceremony dragged on. Each passing moment felt heavier than the last. When it finally ended, the crowd began to disperse, murmuring their condolences to Satoruโs mother, who stood like a ghost beside her son. You watched her, too, feeling a pang of sadness at how frail she seemed.ย
You wanted to approach Satoru, to say something, anything. But your feet felt rooted to the ground. What could you possibly say that wouldnโt sound as numb as you were feeling? The guilt in your chest tightened its grip, and you turned away, unable to face him.
Back at the estate, the house felt colder than ever. Dinner was a silent affair, just as it had been a few months ago. Because just as the lively chatter had begun to replace the clinking of utensils and the occasional sniffle, it had been snatched away from you.
Satoruโs mother tried to maintain some semblance of normalcy, asking if anyone needed seconds or more tea, but her voice was brittle, and no one answered her with more than a shake of their head. You couldnโt bring yourself to eat, pushing the food around on your plate as you stole glances at Satoru.
He sat across from you, staring blankly at his untouched meal. The shadows under his eyes were darker than ever, and his usually flawless posture was slightly slouched. It was as if the weight of his fatherโs death had physically pressed down on him. You wanted to reach out, to say something, but the words died in your throat. Instead, you watched in silence as he eventually stood, his chair scraping against the floor, and left the room without a word.
You couldnโt sleep that night. The house was too quiet, the kind of quiet that made every creak of the floorboards and every whisper of the wind feel deafening. You found yourself wandering the halls, your feet carrying you to the room that had once belonged to Satoruโs father. It was untouched, as if he might walk back in at any moment. The faint scent of his cologne lingered in the air, and it made your chest ache.
โIโm sorry,โ you whispered into the emptiness, tears streaming down your face. โIโm so, so sorry.โ
The days following the funeral were no easier. The once lively Gojo household felt like a mausoleum. Meals were eaten in near silence, and the air was heavy with unspoken grief. You found yourself avoiding Satoru more and more, not because you didnโt want to comfort him, but because you didnโt know how.
One evening, you found yourself in the library, hoping to distract yourself with a book. But the words on the page blurred together, and you couldnโt focus. The guilt was a constant, gnawing presence, and no matter how hard you tried, you couldnโt shake it. The image of Satoruโs father lying in his coffin haunted you, and you couldnโt help but wonder if things would have been different if you had acted sooner.
โWhat are you doing in here?โ
You jumped, the book slipping from your hands as you turned to see Satoru standing in the doorway. His hair was slightly disheveled, and his expression was unreadable. You quickly wiped at your eyes, hoping he hadnโt noticed the tears.
โI just needed some quiet,โ you said, your voice barely above a whisper.
He walked into the room, his footsteps soft against the carpet. He picked up the book you had dropped, glancing at the cover before handing it back to you. โMotherโs calling you,โ he said, his tone carefully neutral.
โFor?โ you asked, trying to sound casual.
โDinner,โ he said bluntly. โYou havenโt been eating at all.โ
You nodded, and he stood up and left without saying another word.
Dinner that night was a solemn affair. The dining room was heavy with silence, broken only by the occasional clinking of chopsticks against plates. Satoruโs face was blank, his appetite long gone. His mother sat at the head of the table. Her posture was perfectly composed. You sat beside her, feeling like an interloper in this world of quiet mourning. A seat was left empty, for whom, you didnโt have to guess.
The ache in your chest was unbearable, but guilt magnified it tenfold. You had been the one to discover the truth, the one who knew about the poison before anyone else. And yet, you had done nothing.
A soft knock on the door broke the oppressive quiet. One of the maids entered, bowing deeply as she held out a folded piece of paper. โLady Gojoโโ she glanced at her, unsure of how to approach her in her desensitized state โ โwe found this while cleaning the late masterโs study. Itโs addressed to you, Princess,โ she bowed to you.
The maid extended the letter to you, and you accepted it hesitantly. Your heart immediately sank at the sight of your name scrawled in bold, deliberate handwriting. Satoruโs mother nodded at the maid to dismiss her, then at you.
โRead it,โ she said softly. โWhatever heโs written, itโs meant for you to hear.โ
You unfolded the paper carefully, your hands shaking as you smoothed it out. The opening lines confirmed your suspicion.
โTo my dearest child,
If you are reading this, then it means I am no longer among the living. There are matters I could not speak of while alive, and so I leave them here, trusting you to read with an open heart.โ
Your voice wavered as you read aloud. Satoru and his mother both watched you intently.ย
โIn my absence, I leave behind all that I have built, not as burdens, but as tools for you to continue shaping our legacy.
To my wife, the pillar of my strength, I entrust our estate and all its affairs. She has always been my compass, and I know she will guide our family with the same wisdom and grace she has always shown. To my son, Satoru, I leave my knowledge, my pride, and my unwavering belief in your potential. He is destined for greatness, and though I may not be there to see it, I know he will honor the Gojo name with dignity and strength. So I shall also leave our ancestral blade, a symbol of our familyโs strength and honor, along with the records of our techniques and histories.โ
To you, my dear daughter, I bequeath the east wing of the estate, yours to claim as a sanctuary and a symbol of your place among us. Furthermore, I leave a yearly stipend from the familyโs accounts, ensuring you will always have the means to build a life of stability and comfort.โ
But then your voice caught, the words ahead freezing in your throat.
The second paragraph shifted abruptly, no longer a formal testament but a recounting of events that made your blood run cold.
โThe past few years I had spent alone were ones spent to find the roots of your journey home, here. I know the pain you carry, and the secrets you keep. I know how you came into this world. Kamo Akane, your motherโโ
You stopped reading it aloud, and instead your eyes began darting back and forth the lines as you read it in your head.
Kamo Akane, your mother, made the impossible choice to keep you despite everything she endured. She bore you with strength, but her circumstances were cruel. Kamo Daijiro never accepted you, and he made sure she couldnโt either. When you were only three years old, they both agreed to sell you to the traders of Mizuho.
Your breath hitched. The paper in your hands crinkled as your grip tightened. You couldnโt read further. The memories you had buried deep threatened to overwhelm you. The cold basement. The chains. The voices. The pain.
โWhat is it?โ Satoru asked with concern. โWhy did you stop?โ
You shook your head, unable to meet his gaze. โItโs nothing.โ
โThatโs a lie,โ he said flatly.
You tried to fold the letter, to hide it away, but your trembling hands betrayed you. Satoru reached out, his fingers brushing against yours as he snatched the paper. โIf you wonโt read it, I will.โ
โNo!โ you protested, but it was too late. His eyes scanned the words quickly, his expression darkening with each passing second. He reached the part about the traders, and his jaw clenched. His hands shook, but he didnโt stop until he reached the final lines.
I knew about the poison. I knew what the Kamo clan had done to me. But this is not a burden you should carry. You have suffered enough, and I do not want you to feel guilt for something beyond your control.
And Satoru.
Satoruโs eyes flicked to you briefly before continuing.
I know youโre reading this as well. You wonโt listen even if I told you this letter is meant for her alone. Satoru, please do not fight.
But the word โfightโ was blotched with ink. A tear had smudged the letters. Satoruโs hand hovered over the page, and you realized with a sinking heart that the tear was his own.
He folded the letter carefully, setting it down on the table. His movements were unnaturally calm, but you knew better. The storm was brewing.
โSatoru,โ you said hesitantly. โPlease donโtโโ
He stood abruptly, his chair scraping loudly against the floor. โMother.โ His voice was tight, barely restrained. โMay I have your permission?โ
โSatoru!โ
Satoruโs mother regarded him for a long moment. Her gaze flicked to you, then back to her son. Finally, she nodded. โDo what you must. But remember, no harm is to come to the Gojo clanโs reputation.โ
He bowed deeply, his fists clenched at his sides. โThank you.โ
โWhat?โ You stood, panic rising. โYou canโt just let him go! This isnโtโโ
Satoruโs mother silenced you with a look. โHe deserves his revenge.โ
You stared at her, incredulous. โRevenge wonโt bring him back! It wonโt fix anything!โ
Satoru didnโt wait to hear more. He left the room, his footsteps echoing down the hall. You called after him, your voice breaking, but he didnโt look back. The door slammed shut behind him, leaving you and his mother alone in suffocating silence.
โHow can youโฆ?โ you began, your voice trembling with anger and disbelief. โHow can you let him do this?โ
Her expression softened, but her resolve remained. โBecause I know my son. And I know he wonโt find peace until he has faced this head-on.โ
You sank back into your chair, your hands clutching at your chest as though to hold your breaking heart together. The letter lay between you and Lady Gojo, as if to remind you of everything you had both lost and everything that was yet to come.
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ยฉ chuulyssa 2024 - do not copy, plagiarize or repost my works on any platforms. do not translate.
teaser โธบ taken in by the powerful gojo clan and raised alongside their heir, gojo satoru โ but never as his sibling. now, at an elite school, your fragile bond is tested when an actual noble woman enters the picture, bringing in a marriage proposal.
content โธบ fluff, reader is an academic achiever and has a good handwriting, heavy angst, hurt/comfort, cliff hanger ending, human auctions, implied slavery, jealousy, implied torture, shoko talks about using medical tools for torture (lol), blood, implied abuse, implied grape (not at reader), magic!au, historic!au, the ages of reader and gojo throughout the story: 3, 10, 12, 15, 17
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authorโs note โธบ thank you to everyone for waiting patiently! this is just the part one, i hope it does well to give me enough motivation to write a part two. i have so soo many ideas iโm hoping to incorporate. this fic will be updated on ao3 and wattpad soon and will be linked below.
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You sat next to the man, bowing deeply with him at some figure you couldnโt care less about. It had to be someone important obviously, and you knew now was the time you were going to get kicked out of a place for the tenth time in your life, unwittingly dragging this poor man with you as well. He had seemed kind enough when he had bought you off at that auction.
He wasnโt anything like you had feared. You had met other girls bonding with each other inside the cage; girls older and prettier than you, getting sold off one by one to old and creepy men who looked like they couldnโt keep it in their pants. You had dreaded meeting the same fate as them. That was, until the man who kept increasing his offer for you looked younger and stronger.
He was probably like one of those army officers you had seen at your motherโs house, who would stand guard outside your small room each night she and her happy family went out to lavish parties, to make sure you didnโt escape. Well, even if you did, you thought that was what they would have wanted, but they kept saying that they didnโt want anyone noticing your existence. Not that they didnโt have a good reason.
In your mind, you had hoped the man would win, and when he had, the triumphant look on his face made you sigh in relief; at least now you were sure you wouldnโt be used as a hole for life. But were you, though? Because the thoughts kept creeping back; the looks on the other girlsโ faces when they were taken away by their new masters. But the mysterious man had made you sit on his pretty horse, taking you somewhere, away from the horrifying auctions that represented the worst atrocities made by humans.
You peered from under your hands, still in your bowing position. The person had now risen. He had dark hair and vivid blue eyes. He seemed to peer at you in as much curiosity as you were at him. That was, until a crisp voice had cut through the silence, knocking you out of your bow when it addressed your saviour to โpack his things and leaveโ.
โI understand, madam,โ he said smoothly, getting up to leave, not before giving another curt nod. Then he turned to you. โThis is where my job ends, little one. Youโll be much happier here,โ he whispered, nodding at you and standing up. You almost wanted to stop him before you remembered you were told several times that you didnโt possess any human emotions. So you watched him leave, wondering how he was so sure this wouldnโt be another one of your previous houses.
โAs for the child,โ you snapped your head back to the dark-haired man in front of you who seemed to be giving commands, โwe must decide which family keeps her. From the looks of it, she needs to be tended to,โ he eyed your wounds from previous struggles you wished to forget about.
You stared at the people he was questioning, and they all looked away. This seemed like a meeting room, and the people were lined up sitting parallel to each other. Some were glaring at you like you had come to raid their houses, fuck their wives and drink their blood. None of them seemed to realize you were only a child of ten. Nervous under all the gazes, you wished to find another person you could bow to, just to avoid all the staring you were receiving.
โWe will,โ said the same voice you had heard earlier, and you finally looked at its source.
She had long, white hair that seemed to reach till the floor. Her eyes were light, and she looked pretty. She had a cold look on her face that made her seem frightening, though, and that was probably why you saw that none of the others could even muster enough courage to look at her eyes when she said those words.
โWell, itโs decided then,โ the man said in a final tone, as if he had only bargained about the price of a few watermelons from his local vendor. โLove, if you will.โ
Love? Oh, maybe they were married.
The woman stood up and everyone bowed at her again. You were about to sink back into the position before she crouched down in front of you, caressing your hair with a touch that made you look back at her.
โCome with me, daughter.โ
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โI have a sister now?โ
โShh, and donโt call her that. Iโve already told you, sheโs not your sisterโโ
โDoes she know how to ride horses?โ
โDo you ever do anything else?โ
โShe should know how to ride horses.โ
โYou can teach her.โ
โOh, wow, really?โ
You scrambled away from the door at the sounds of footsteps returning and sunk back into the expensive bed the woman had had prepared for you. The โwomanโ who asked you to call her โmomโ, somehow losing the twinkle in her eye when commanding maids around, which she seemed to regain every time you spoke something.
You knew it was a trap though. If she really โadoptedโ you and wanted you to call her โmomโ, wouldnโt that mean you were the sister to whatever child she already had? Yet here you were, all cleaned up and changed, almost believing the charade before realizing the child was being advised not to consider you as their sister.
You bit your lip, trying not to cry. At least you werenโt at your old house thinking of ways to poison your family, or in that cage counting down for when it was your turn, or lying dead in some creepโs backyard. Maybe you could enjoy this while it lasted.
โMay I come in?โ A polite, boyish voice rang out from behind your door. A hushed whisper of an older woman seemed to reprimand him for not knocking, and the two started to argue.
โYes?โ You didnโt quite know how to respond professionally to the request, so your answer came off more as a question. You sure hoped the man wouldnโt scold you for your manners as well.
A boy stepped forward, and you immediately knew he was the son of the two clan leaders. Not because of his clothes, but because of his face. He had the same white hair as his mother, and the blue eyes he got from his father. Maybe blue eyes were a thing of the clan?
โHi,โ he said awkwardly, and the door closed behind him. โMother sent me here for โbonding timeโ.โ You kept staring at him, not realizing you were staring. He looked up at you and flushed. Only then did you realize, chuckling awkwardly and scratching your wrists, trying to get used to the expensive scents the maids had covered you with.
โCan Iโฆ uh,โ he trailed off, staring at you, and you blinked back at him, not knowing what he was going to say.
โ...sit on the bed?โ You offered, and he raised an eyebrow before climbing on it, sitting in the most formal position you had ever seen.
โDo you like horse riding?โ
โWhat?โ
He flushed even more. โMother said we should ask each other questions to get to know the other better.โ
โOh.โ
โYeah.โ
There was another silence.
โSo itโs my turn to ask a question now?โ You asked.
โYeah.โ
โDo you like potatoes?โ
โWhat?โ He processed your question for a solid five seconds before bursting into laughter. You kept staring at him as if he was stupid. Did you say something stupid?
โI like you!โ He said in between giggles, his old formal, uptight position long lost. It was your turn to flush now. No one had ever said they even wanted you alive, let alone say that. Well, no one except for three people in the past few hours, and now this guy. You had a feeling you might prefer this over anything else for now.
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The soft hum of celebration still lingered in the air. Lanterns flickered outside glowing warmly across your room. You sat on the edge of your bed, staring at the wrapped gifts and trinkets the Gojo family had insisted on presenting you earlier. It had been strange, the idea of sharing a birthday with Satoru. You didnโt even know your real birthday, so his โ no โ your mother announced it would be shared.
Satoru had, of course, embraced the attention, dragging you along with him to cut the massive cake. You had never seen anything like this before, and it might have shown on your face, because he had held your wrist tightly as if annoyed you were taking so long, and cut the cake with you. That was what made it impossible to shun the feelings of belongingness.
Now, the house was quiet, and the festivities had faded. But just as you were about to pull the covers over yourself, the faint sound of your door creaking open made you pause.
โHey,โ Satoruโs voice whispered, followed by the soft padding of his feet. You turned your head to see him, still in the formal robes mother had fussed over earlier, though they were now slightly askew. His hair was a mess, his face flushed from excitement โ or maybe all the sweets heโd devoured.
โShould you not knock?โ you asked, folding your arms. You inwardly cringed at the noble accent you had unknowingly adopted from the Gojo family. โAnd what are you doing here?โ
โEscaping,โ he said, as if that explained everything. He plopped down without invitation beside you on the bed, leaning back on his hands and gazing at the ceiling. โMotherโs got the maids cleaning up. I was bored. Figured youโd be awake.โ
You rolled your eyes, but he caught the faint smile tugging at your lips. โYouโre going to get us in trouble. Again.โ
โWhatโs the point of having a birthday if you canโt even cause some trouble now?โ He shot you a grin, then leaned closer to the window. โLetโs go outside.โ
โI am not letting my first birthday become my death day,โ you scoffed at him. Taking one look at the pout on his face, which seemed to stretch all the way down to his neck, you sighed, and he knew he won.ย โFine. But weโre only looking outside.โ
โWhat!? But whatโs the fun in that?โ
โThen go alone.โ
He pouted again, but you merely looked away trying to shield yourself from his cuteness. Soon after though, Satoru relented. He slid the window open and climbed onto the ledge, grumbling for you to follow. You joined him, settling beside him as the smell of night air filled your room. The stars were brilliant tonight, like silver dust across an ink-black canvas.
โTheyโre so bright,โ you murmured. โItโs almostโฆ too much.โ
Satoru snorted. โThatโs the problem with you. You overthink everything. Just look at them โ theyโre pretty, thatโs all there is to it.โ
You rolled your eyes again but couldnโt suppress a small laugh. โFine. Theyโre beautiful. Happy now?โ
โVery,โ he said, grinning. Then he tilted his head, closing his eyes and mumbling something to himself. He opened his eyes, looking at you expectantly. โNow itโs your turn. Make a wish.โ
โWhat?โ You frowned.
โA wish! Like for your birthday. I know we already made some during the cake thing, but this oneโs private. Just for us.โ
You hesitated, unsure of what to wish for, before finally closing your eyes. Satoru watched you intently as if trying to guess your wish, but when you opened your eyes again, he pretended to be fascinated by the sky.
โOh, done already? What did you wish for?โ he asked after a moment.
โYou said it was private,โ you shot back. โWhat did you wish for?โ
โNot telling,โ he replied smugly, crossing his arms. โWhat if you laugh?โ
โWhy would I laugh?โ you asked, raising an eyebrow.
The two of you fell into another argument, but when it finally died down, it was followed by a comfortable silence, broken only by the occasional sound of distant crickets. Then, out of nowhere, Satoru blurted out, โDo you think the stars can hear us?โ
โWhat?โ You stared at him.
โThe stars,โ he said seriously, pointing upward. โDo you think they grant wishes, like gods or something?โ
โThatโs stupid,โ you muttered, but you couldnโt hide the faint curl of amusement on your lips. โTheyโre just balls of gas.โ
โWell, maybe those gas balls are listening,โ he said, sticking his tongue out. โYou donโt know everything. Maybe they are hearing us right now.โ
You opened your mouth to retort but froze. A memory seemed to resurfaceโฆ
โI still donโt know why you decided to keep the child!โ a deep voice was screeching at another, soft one.
โI donโt know what came over me, I swear!โโIt is the spawn of Satan himself! I respect you for what you have been through, but it is time to dispose of her.โ
โDispose? You donโt meanโโ
Large hands came your way to muffle the screams from your mouth.
Your fingers clenched the windowsill.
โThey didnโt hear me before,โ you said quietly, almost to yourself.
โWhat?โ Satoru noticed the change in your tone, and turned to look at you, his brow furrowing. โWho? The balls?โ
You shook your head quickly. โNever mind. Forget I said anything.โ
But Satoru wasnโt one to let things go. โHey,โ he said softly. โYou can tell me. I mean, if you want.โ
His sincerity made your chest tighten. Normally, after the word โballsโ, he would have made a bad joke about male anatomy. But he seemed to have read the room enough to shut up. You looked at him, his bright blue eyes watching you with genuine concern. For a moment, you thought about telling him. But then, the weight of it all felt too heavy to share. He was too young, too shielded from the horrors of the world to be able to handle any of it anyway.
โItโs nothing,โ you muttered. โJust something dumb I used to believe.โ
Satoru opened his mouth to argue, then seemed to think better of it. Instead, he smiled gently and nudged your shoulder. โOkay. But if you ever want to talk about dumb things, Iโm here. You know, Iโm dumb, soโฆโ he tried making the joke you always did.
You didnโt know how to respond to that, so you simply nodded. The two of you sat in silence for a little while longer, watching the stars. Finally, Satoru stretched and hopped down from the ledge.
โGoodnight,โ he said, giving you a lopsided grin. โAnd happy birthday.โ
You blinked at him, caught off guard by the warmth in his voice. โYou too,โ you said softly.
As he closed the door as softly as he could behind him, you stared out at the stars, wondering if maybe, just maybe, they had started listening after all.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
The sound of hooves clattering against the cobblestone path filled the air as the royal carriage swayed gently on its way to the prestigious School of Royalty. The morning sun cast a golden glow on the lush green fields outside, but inside, the atmosphere was both tense and excited.
โYou know,โ Satoru began, leaning lazily against the plush velvet seat, โI heard thereโs a whole batch of new exchange students joining today. Rumor is, one of themโs from the Silver Crescent Kingdom. Ever seen anyone from there? Theyโre supposed to have that, uhโฆ โethereal glow.โ You think thatโs real, or just something people say?โ
You barely glanced up from the notebook in your lap, furrowing your brows as you paused your incoherent babbling of equations. โIf you spent half as much time studying for the exam as you do gossiping, maybe you wouldnโt need to cheat off me later.โ
He smirked, unbothered. โCheat? Me? Iโm offended. Iโm just naturally brilliant.โ
โAnd naturally annoying,โ you muttered, flipping to another page of hastily scribbled notes.
Satoru ignored the jab, his grin widening. At fifteen, heโd grown into someone who couldnโt step into a room without people swooning for his attention. You guessed it was just a Gojo thing he inherited from his mother. The girls adored him โ some from afar, others more boldly (you still cringe remembering that one time a girl with a sorry excuse of a top was taken away by your guards for trying to get a kiss from him last year) โ and the boys either envied or wanted to be him. The name โSatoru Gojoโ seemed to be whispered wherever he went, and he couldnโt be happier.
You, on the other hand, had decided that the attention you receive at your house was enough to satisfy you for a lifetime, and you would rather spend your time learning something new โ at least, thatโs what you told your mother; that you would rather cry over your grades than guys, to which Satoru had cleverly remarked, โWhy not both?โ earning a glare from his mother. While you did have friends, and you did seem to be friendly with everyone around you, you would watch in dismay when most of these friends would recite their love stories, and you had nothing to share. The boys barely noticed you, too busy being gay over Satoru. But you had your books, your achievements, and the satisfaction of knowing you didnโt need anyoneโs approval.
โAnd get this,โ Satoru continued, his excitement growing. โI heard one of themโs some kind of prodigy. Like, they mastered advanced magic when they were ten. Can you imagine? Finally, someone who might be able to keep up with me. Theyโre a senior too, so I want to see the look on their face when they realize Iโm better than them.โ
โMhm,โ you replied distractedly, not bothering to look up. You were too busy with the definition of archaic spellcasting principles and the formulas for mana stabilization to muster a reply of more than a single syllable. The exam was in less than an hour, and the thought of failing even one question sent a jolt of anxiety through you.
Satoru leaned forward, peering at your notes upside down. โWhatโs that? Something about magic circles? Youโre still on those? I mastered those ages ago.โ
You snapped your notebook shut and shot him a glare. โYou didnโt โmasterโ anything. You just wing it and hope for the best.โ
โHey, it works, doesnโt it?โ He shrugged. โBesides, youโll cover for me if I mess up. Thatโs what partners are for.โ
โWeโre not partners.โ
โSure we are,โ he said breezily. โPartners in crime. Mischief-makers extraordinaire. The unbeatable duo.โ He winked, and you rolled your eyes so hard it was a wonder they didnโt fall out of your head.
The carriage hit a bump, causing you to clutch your notes tighter. Satoru, unfazed, lounged back in his seat and stared out of the window. โYou know, you should relax a little. Exams arenโt life or death.โ
โFor you, maybe. Some of us donโt have a safety net made of charm and raw talent.โ
He laughed, the sound warm and unguarded. โWow, you really think Iโm charming and talented? Thanks, baby.โ
You didnโt dignify that dumb statement with a response. Instead, you turned your attention back to your notes, determined to make use of every second you had left.
The carriage began to slow, signaling their arrival at the school gates. Satoru straightened, his excitement palpable. โHere we go. Time to make an impression. Think the exchange students are going to swoon over me?โ
โOnly if they have no taste,โ you muttered, gathering your things.
He grinned, standing and offering you a hand as the carriage came to a stop. โCome on, donโt be such a poopy.โ
You cringed again before taking his hand, letting him help you down. The moment your feet touched the ground, the buzz of the school grounds surrounded you. Students swarmed the entrance, chattering excitedly about everything from the new arrivals to last-minute cramming for the exam.
Satoru strode ahead confidently, while you lingered a step behind, clutching your notes tightly. He glanced at you, running back to catch up with you. โWhereโs Kuro? Heโs supposed to be part of the dramatic entrance I had planned.โ
โI sent him away. He was annoying me with the confetti.โ
โYouโ WHAT?โ
You ignored him, continuing to walk up the stairs leading to your exam hall without looking up at anyone. Satoru jogged beside you.
โWe havenโt met with any of the exchange students yet!โ
โSatoru, if you want to, then leave.โ
He pouted, planting your face in front of yours above your notes. โYou know I wonโt leave you.โ
โThen stay quiet and let me study.โ
โAlright, alright,โ he said, sighing. He stared at you for a few moments, pacing around the hall with you while you muttered curses under your breath. He smiled. You always hated this one subject but felt the need to excel in it anyway. โHey,โ he said softly. โYouโll do great, you know.โ
The sincerity in his voice caught you off guard, but you masked it with a scoff. โYouโd better hope so. If I fail, youโll fail too.โ
He laughed again, a sound as effortless as everything else about him. โThatโs true. Canโt impress anyone with an F on the paper, can I?โ The loud bell rang, and Satoru moved to cover your ears with the palms of his hands. โIโve got you covered, princess. In return, you must guarantee that I pass.โ
You smiled a genuine smile at him, something you had gotten quite used to doing in the past four years you had spent with your new family. โI canโt guarantee that. Letโs go, Iโm done now.โ
His eyes widened comically, โWhat do you mean you canโt guarantee that?โ You laughed at him, and he snatched your notebook from your hands. โGive me that! Oh god. Iโm doomed, arenโt I?โ
โYup, letโs go now.โ
The exam hall echoed with the sound of faint murmurs and the occasional nervous coughs. While theory had been nerve-wracking, at least you had been able to cram for it. But the practicals? They were a whole different beast. No amount of late-night revisions could prepare you for actual spellwork.
You clutched your wand tightly, its polished surface cold and smooth against your clammy palms. The examiner called your name, and your stomach flipped. Taking a deep breath, you stepped forward. What were the steps again? Swing your wand, say the words, and hope for the best.
You stood before the enchanted apparatus. It was a simple magical round glass that would respond to the accuracy of your spell, changing its colour accordingly. The orb pulsed softly, steams of gas floating stilly in its interior, waiting. You were supposed to transfigure a cactus into a goblet full of water. The room was silent, dozens of eyes boring into your back.ย
Why did they have to make everyone do the practicals individually, and on stage?
You closed your eyes briefly, mustering every ounce of focus. With a flick of your wand and the carefully practiced words spilling from your lips, you executed the spell. Wand still in the air, you waited. And waited. And waited. Nothing happened. Then, the orb glowed a brilliant gold.
โPerfect!โ The elderly professor cried, clasping her hands together. She really liked you. โNext, please.โ
Relief washed over you, and you felt a disbelieving smile creep onto your face. Scooting off the stage, you climbed down the stairs to your seat. You caught Satoruโs eye and mouthed, Good luck. He was slouching on his chair, winking at you and giving you a lazy thumbs-up.
Just as you sat down, you noticed your gaze didnโt leave him. You kept looking at him, how effortlessly good he looked in his outfit, sunglasses perched languidly on his nose. He was looking straight ahead at the stage above, and you glanced at the front too. Shoko got a pale yellow glow from the orb, an easy B.
Your eyes wandered to the girl in line ahead of Satoru. You recognized her instantly, how could you not? Wavy chestnut hair that caught the light just so, impeccable posture, an air of confidence that bordered on smug, and her pink lips upright looking behind her. She was from one of the distant kingdomsโbrilliant in class, annoyingly charming, and unfortunately, quite pretty. And right now, she seemed pretty happy about being positioned so close to Satoru.
It was the way she was smiling at Satoru that irritated you. Not the polite, fleeting kind of smile youโd give a classmate. No, this was different. She tilted her head slightly, her lips curved in a way that made even you highly uncomfortable. You saw her fingers brush a strand of hair behind her ear โ twice, because apparently once wasnโt enough โ and she leaned just a fraction closer to him.
You squinted. Was she flirting? She was flirting. Yuck. You resisted the urge to roll your eyes, but your jaw tightened. Getting up sneakily from your seat, you joined the crowd they stood with to spy on the two.
โI hear the examiners this year are super strict,โ she said, her voice soft and lilting. โNot that you need to worry. Iโve seen you in dueling practice โ youโre incredible,โ she sighed at him dramatically, eyes turned to hearts.
Satoru blinked at her, then scratched the back of his neck. โUh, thanks? I guess?โ
She laughed โ too loud for a casual compliment. โYouโre so modest! Thatโs so rare, you know.โ Her eyes sparkled as she stared up at him, clearly hoping heโd reciprocate the energy.
He didnโt. โModest? Me?โ Satoruโs tone was laced with genuine confusion, his brow furrowing slightly. โYou sure youโre talking about the right guy?โ
You saw Geto, his best friend, stifle a laugh at that, but you didnโt find any of this funny. Geto caught your eye and immediately stopped laughing, trying to inch closer to Satoru to warn him of your incoming wrath.
But the girl kept blocking his way.
โOh, absolutely,โ she said smoothly, leaning in even closer. โI bet youโll get top marks, as always. You must have so many admirers.โ
Your grip on your wand tightened. You might not be as violent as Satoru when it came to dueling, but you couldnโt care less about that at the moment. Nor did you seem to notice the sheer number of students surrounding you.
Satoru, as usual, was utterly oblivious. โAdmirers? I sure hope so,โ he said with a shrug. โBut thanks, I guess?โ
You wanted to shake him. How could he not see what she was doing? The way her voice softened whenever she said his name, how her lashes fluttered just a bit too much when she looked at him โ it was painfully obvious. And yet, Satoru treated her like he treated everyone else: polite, casual, and just detached enough to make it clear he wasnโt interested.
โNext!โ called the examiner, and the girlโs name echoed through the hall.
She turned to Satoru with a dazzling smile. โWish me luck?โ
โUh, good luck?โ he said, scratching his head.
You were half a second away from gagging, Geto slipping from beside Satoru to join you, both of you dissing the situation in hushed whispers.
As she walked away, you muttered under your breath, โUnbelievable.โ
Geto muttered, equally frustrated, but this was pointed towards Satoru, โUnbelievable indeed.โ
Your eyes followed the movements of her wand, and you tried to calculate the exact angle by which she tilted her wand too high, the length by which her hand movement went wrong and the distance between her wrist and the cactus assigned to her. Geto shook his head at your overly focused expression.
A loud pop filled the air, followed by startled squeaks. Your eyes widened. The examiners scrambled around, now very much turned into rats! The girl froze, her wand dangling uselessly at her side as laughter rippled through the room.
You bit your lip. What were you supposed to be feeling right now? Secondhand embarrassment or vindication? Serves her right, you thought, though a small part of you almost pitied her. Almost.
The headmaster, who had been watching the whole ordeal with an amused expression, quickly restored order, probably glad he wasnโt turned into a mouse or something. He dismissed the rest of the students and awarded automatic Aโs to those who hadnโt gone yet.
You groaned and Geto laughed at you, a grimacing Shoko dangling from his arm. Together, the three of you were about to leave the hall when Satoru caught up with you, grinning like heโd just won the lottery. โWild. Best exam ever. I didnโt even have to do anything!โ
You shot him a sideways glance, your mood souring again. โYeah, lucky you.โ
โWait, are you mad?โ he asked, peering at you. โYouโre mad. Why are you mad?โ
โIโm not mad,โ you said shortly, walking faster, waving goodbye to Geto, who was now left alone to deal with a hungry kitten, Shoko.
โYouโre definitely mad,โ he teased, catching up. โWhat, is it because I got an A without lifting a finger? Donโt worry, youโll get to cheat off my usual genius self next time. Maybe youโll even get an A+++++++ because of meโฆ or whatever the highest grade is.โ
โRight,โ you said, rolling your eyes. โYouโre so modest,โ you mimicked the girl from earlier, but he didnโt get the reference.
At break, you sat under the shade of a tree, quietly eating your snack and watching the courtyard buzz with post-exam chatter. Across the lawn, the girl was crying into her boyfriendโs shoulder, her wails loud enough to carry. You frowned, unsure whether to feel sorry for or annoyed at her.
Her boyfriend, a tall, broad-shouldered guy from her kingdom, seemed to be comforting her, rubbing her back and murmuring reassurances. Weird, you thought. He doesnโt even know heโs worse than Satoru in her eyes.
The suspension had been swift: four months for reckless and dangerous spellcasting. Watching her now, you couldnโt muster much sympathy. It was one thing to fail; it was another to fail so dramatically. Itโs what she deserves.
Satoru plopped down beside you, unwrapping a burger heโd somehow acquired (probably chased after Shoko to steal her food). โHey, isnโt that, uh... Britney? No, wait, Bridget? Or... Burger?โ
You raised an eyebrow. โBurger?โ
โYeah, burger,โ he said, taking a huge bite and gesturing vaguely in her direction. โSheโs got layers, yโknow? Like a burger.โ
โYouโre ridiculous,โ you said, shaking your head.
โCโmon, you gotta admit itโs funny,โ he said, his grin widening. โShe tries to turn on the charm, and bam! Instant ratification.โ
You groaned at the pun, but laughter bubbled up anyway. Satoruโs dumb humor always had a way of disarming you.
โHeyyyyyyyy!โ A voice dragged out, and you were met with a flash of dark blue hair before you were hugged tightly. โI heard your exam went great, but then, of course it did.โ She patted your head. โWell done.โ
โThanks, Utahime.โ
โNo need to thank me,โ Utahime pulled out your favourite chips from her bag and handed them to you.
โHey, nothing for me?โ Satoru wailed.
โWho the fuck are you?โ
โRude.โ
She ignored him and turned back to you. โAnyway, did you see any of the new exchange students? Theyโre good-looking.โ
โSo?โ You munched on your chips.
โSo,โ she said loudly, shooing Satoru off to sit in his place next to you, โwe can finally get you a boyfriend.โ
Satoru snorted. โBoyfriend? Why does she need a boyfriend?โ
โAnd,โ she stepped on his foot with her heel and he skipped away across the courtyard, foot in his hand and muttering curses under his breath. โThereโs that prodigy guy. You two could have been academic rivals if he was in your grade. Ugh, this is so annoying. Couldnโt he repeat a few classes? Dumbass.โ
โUh, Iโm not interesโโ
โYes, you are,โ she looked at you with a wide, crazy smile as if daring you to disagree, and you gulped.โNo wasting time watching couples break up,โ she pointed at the girl in front of you, whose boyfriend seemed to have heard of the real reason she messed up her spell. Utahime lifted you by one arm and practically flew the yards to reach the main hall, where your assembly would take place to welcome the exchange students.
The assembly hall buzzed with anticipation, the crowd of students shifting restlessly as they filled the rows of wooden benches. Your arm still ached from Utahime dragging you all the way here. You, on the other hand, couldnโt help but feel drainedโphysically and emotionally.
The morningโs drama was still fresh in your mind, particularly the girlโs humiliating display. The idea of someone so brazenly cozying up to Satoru still gnawed at you. And now, you had to sit through an assembly to greet some mysterious prodigies who probably thought they were better than everyone else. Perfect.
โSit here,โ Utahime ordered, pointing to a spot near the front. โI need a good view.โ
โOf what?โ you asked, dropping onto the bench with a huff.
โDuh, the new guys. Maybe one of them will be your destined academic rival-slash-love interest,โ she said dramatically, clasping her hands like a cheesy romance novel heroine.
You rolled your eyes. โIโm fine without one, thanks.โ
โOh, donโt be boring,โ she said, plopping down beside you. โYou need some excitement in your life. Besides, I heard some of the new guys are supposed to be really good-looking,โ she whispered, leaning in as if discussing a conspiracy theory involving the Monarchy of Mars. โLike, model good-looking.โ
You let out a noncommittal hum, tracing the edge of the seat in front of you with a finger. Utahime nudged you. โDonโt you care? Come on, arenโt you curious?โ
โNot really,โ you lied.
Utahime rolled her eyes, clearly unimpressed. โSure, sure. But if someone walks in here looking like a movie star, donโt say I didnโt warn you.โ
Your gaze wandered to the double doors at the front of the hall, where the new students were supposed to enter. You didnโt care much about the guys. But what if there were girls? Pretty girls. The kind with perfect skin and perfect hair and that effortless grace you always seemed to lack.
Your stomach churned. Why were you even thinking about that?
You glanced at Utahime, still chattering away about rumors sheโd heard excitedly. She was bouncing slightly in her seat, her eyes scanning the room like a hawk. But you couldnโt shake the thought โ what if everyone thought the other girls were prettier? You could almost smell the break up stories your dozen friends would fetch for you because the new girls seemed hotter to the dung-nosed guys of your school.
โFor the next few months, I will be stuck amidst boy troubles,โ you muttered, glancing across the hall. Satoru had finally joined the crowd, sauntering in late as usual. He spotted you almost immediately and shot you a wink before sliding into a seat with Geto and Shoko.
Your stomach did an involuntary flip, but you shoved the feeling down. He was just being Satoru like always. Thatโs all it was.
Right?
The headmasterโs booming voice filled the hall. โWelcome, students, to this yearโs exchange program orientation!โ
The crowd settled as the headmaster launched into a long-winded speech about tradition, excellence, and the importance of collaboration between kingdoms. You zoned out almost immediately, your eyes drifting back to Satoru.
He was whispering something to Geto, who smirked and nudged him in the ribs. Shoko looked utterly disinterested, flipping through a medical journal sheโd smuggled in. Typical.
You pulled your eyes away from them. The last time you had zoned out in class because of him, your mood had been soured for the whole following hour. The sound of applause gave you an excuse out of your reverie. The exchange students were being introduced now, stepping onto the stage one by one. They were all polished, confident, and, admittedly, quite impressive.
Utahime elbowed you sharply. โLook at that one!โ she hissed, nodding toward a tall boy with striking blond hair and piercing brown eyes.
You blinked. โLooks like he walked out of a painting.โ
โExactly,โ she said, smirking. โHeโs perfect for you.โ
You groaned. โCan we not do this right now?โ
Utahime ignored you entirely, listing off reasons why heโd make a great boyfriend: โSmart, handsome, probably good at magicโโ
โDefinitely better at cactus transfiguration,โ you muttered, earning a snort of laughter from her.
Meanwhile, Satoru had twisted around in his seat, craning his neck to see what the commotion was about. When his eyes landed on you and Utahime, his expression soured slightly. He didnโt like being left out, and it was written all over his face.
โWhoโs better at cactus transfiguration?โ He suddenly appeared behind you.
โNone of your business,โ Utahime shot back, sticking her tongue out.
โWow, mature,โ Satoru deadpanned.
The assembly droned on, with each exchange student introducing themselves in turn. You tried to pay attention, really, but your mind kept wandering. Utahimeโs ridiculous matchmaking schemes. Satoruโs infuriatingly perfect smile. The girlโs earlier meltdown. It was all swirling together into a chaotic mess of emotions you didnโt have the energy to untangle.
Finally, the headmaster wrapped up his speech with a flourish. โLetโs give our guests a warm welcome!โ he declared, prompting another round of applause.
As the crowd began to disperse, Utahime grabbed your arm again. โCome on, letโs go talk to him!โ
โTo who?โ you asked, bewildered.
โThe blond-haired guy, obviously!โ
โAbsolutely not,โ you said, digging your heels into the ground.
But before you could argue further, a familiar voice interrupted.
โLeaving without saying hi? Rude.โ
You turned to find Satoru standing behind you still, his trademark grin firmly in place.
Utahime groaned. โGo away, Gojo.โ
โCanโt. Iโm here to rescue my friend from your matchmaking madness,โ he said, draping an arm over your shoulder.
You tried to shrug him off, but he held on tight, his presence annoyingly comforting.
โWhy do you care?โ Utahime shot back.
Satoruโs grin widened, but his tone was surprisingly serious. โBecause she doesnโt need some random guy when sheโs got me.โ
He tugged you away, leaving Utahime fuming in his wake.
โThanks for the save,โ you mumbled once you were out of earshot.
โAnytime,โ Satoru said lightly, though there was an edge to his voice you couldnโt quite place. โAnd besides, didnโt want you to end up with an annoying motherโโ
You raised an eyebrow at him. Did he forget he was in a royal school where all the students and teachers were high-class nobles and the mere mention of vocabulary outside of the poshed-up ones exclusively for the rich would make him an infamous wreck in everyoneโs eyes?
He caught your eye and continued, โโtrucker.โ
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The dining table was as extravagant as ever, its polished surface reflecting the golden glow of the chandelier overhead. Plates were neatly arranged, and bowls of steaming food were placed in a perfect line down the centre. Mother sat at the head of the table, her posture so upright it made your back ache just looking at her. Across from her sat Father, whose stern expression was an almost permanent fixture at meals.
You occupied your usual spot, tucked between Satoru and his mother, a position that felt both safe and stifling. Satoru, of course, lounged in his chair as if it were a throne, pushing peas around his plate with one chopstick, clearly uninterested in the discussion at hand. It was peaceful and calm. But as soon as Satoruโs father set down his chopsticks, you knew this tranquillity wouldnโt last.
โSatoru,โ his father began.
Satoru didnโt even look up, lazily poking at his food. โUh oh. Here we go.โ
โDonโt start,โ his mother said sharply, and Satoru sighed dramatically, dropping his chopsticks like they were too heavy to hold.
โFine. What is it this time? Did someone see me napping in class? Because, for the record, I was listening with my eyes closed.โ
โYour instructor tells me your theoretical scores are excellent, as expected,โ Satoruโs mother began, her sharp gaze sweeping across the table to land on him. โBut your duel with Suguru during last weekโs practice was... undisciplined.โ
Satoru shrugged, not bothering to look up. โItโs not my fault Suguru got cocky.โ
His fatherโs goblet hit the plate with a sharp clink. โAnd whose fault is it that you refuse to follow proper form? Youโre not dueling for fun, Satoru. These exercises are meant to sharpen your skills for real combat.โ
You could feel the tension grow, so you instinctively focused on the rice in your bowl. Satoru, however, leaned back in his chair, completely unfazed.
โReal combat isnโt about sticking to the rulebook,โ he said lazily, resting an arm on the back of your chair. โItโs about adaptability.โ
โThat is not an excuse to showboat,โ his mother snapped. โYou might think youโre untouchable, but arrogance will get you killed one day.โ
For a brief moment, something flickered in his eyes โ irritation, maybe, or defiance โ but he masked it with a grin. โNot likely.โ
โOnly because youโre naturally talented,โ his mother interjected coldly. โTalent will only carry you so far, Satoru. You lack discipline, respect, andโโ
โManners,โ his father finished, glaring at him.
His mother pinched the bridge of her nose. โAll weโre trying to make you understand is, this isnโt a joke, Satoru. Youโre supposed to be the strongest, and yet youโre constantly underperforming. Meanwhile, look at her.โ She gestured to you, and your heart sank.
โOh no,โ you muttered under your breath.
โLook at her,โ his mother repeated. โTop marks in every subject, excellent dueling reports, and the teachers canโt stop praising. Why canโt you be more like her?โ
Satoru threw up his hands. โBecause sheโs a robot! Have you seen her handwriting? Itโs terrifying!โ
โI just have neat handwriting,โ you mumbled defensively.
โNeat? Itโs like a calligraphy competition on every page,โ Satoru said, jabbing a chopstick at you. โShe probably practices writing spells for fun.โ
โSheโs perfect,โ his father said firmly, as if it were an unshakable fact of the universe.
โExactly my point!โ Satoru exclaimed, throwing his arms in the air. โHow am I supposed to compete with that?!โ
โYouโve been doing wonderfully,โ his mother interrupted warmly, and you almost choked on your water. She reached to kiss your forehead and you felt fuzzy all over.
โReally?โ you said hopefully.
โYes,โ his father agreed, nodding. โWeโre very impressed with your progress. And your last dueling performance was flawless. Keep it up.โ
Satoruโs jaw dropped. โWhat? Thatโs it? No lecture about being even better? No existential guilt trip?โ
โShe doesnโt need one,โ his mother said simply.
โSheโs already self-motivated,โ his father added.
Satoru gawked at them, then at you. โWait, are you seriously not going to roast her? Not even a little?โ
His mother held up a hand to silence the banter. โEnough. Weโre not here to discuss her. Weโre here to discuss you and your inability to take anything seriously.โ
โI take plenty of things seriously!โ Satoru protested.
โName one,โ his father challenged.
Satoru opened his mouth, paused, then pointed to you. โHer.โ
You nearly choked on your rice. โWhat?!โ
โSee? I take her academic success very seriously,โ he continued smoothly. โSheโs basically my tutor at this point. Without her, Iโd probably be failing food transfiguration.โ
โFood transfiguration is not the metric for success,โ his father said dryly, but his lips twitched like he was trying not to laugh.
โAnd yet, itโs a class!โ Satoru shot back. โA class I pass, thanks to her.โ
You groaned, burying your face in your hands. โPlease stop talking.โ
โNever,โ Satoru said cheerfully, ruffling your hair like you were a pet.
The room went silent for a beat, and then his father muttered, โPass the rice.โ
You couldnโt help but snort, quickly covering your mouth to stifle your laughter. Satoruโs grin widened, clearly taking your reaction as a victory.
โIโm serious about the food transfiguration, though,โ he whispered to you as the conversation shifted. โYou saved me from flunking that one.โ
โBy telling you to stop turning the chicken into a dinosaur?โ you whispered back, rolling your eyes.
โExactly. Genius advice.โ Satoru sighed, slumping dramatically. "I swear, if I werenโt so charming, Iโd be useless."
โYou are,โ you replied, teasing him with a grin.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
The foreign exchange students filed into the classroom. You hadnโt met any of them yet, but the instant you saw a giggling pack of girls, dressed in a way that clearly screamed โIโm a tourist, please give me attention,โ take seats scattered around the room, you knew this would be a long class. They were chatting loudly, condescending smiles on their faces and prissy postures to back it up. One of them locked eyes with you and stood up.
The girl scanned the room, perhaps trying to find something to shift the attention of the bustling and noisy class to her. Sitting beside you, Geto didnโt even flinch as the girl cleared her throat loudly. You could feel it. She was about to open her mouth.
And open it she did.
โDo you guys feel,โ she addressed her fellow exchange people, โthat the culture here is a bitโฆ Well, I donโt know what you'd call it. Primitive, I guess? Itโs like they just dug it up from some ancient ruins," she said, waving a hand dismissively, as if she were talking about a dusty artefact. โThis wholeโ uhmโ โhonourโ thing? So outdated. I didnโt find any such codes on how to behave in the culture of the South, or the West, or the South-West. Maybe it is because the people here still need to be taught manners, I suppose.โ
The other students, contrary to what she had hoped, didnโt pay any attention to her. They didnโt seem to have heard her, because if they hadโฆ well, all of them were from noble clans, of course they would have a problem with it.
The girl didnโt seem to notice. Or care.
โYou there!โ She screeched at you, coming to a halt in front of your desk after pacing around like she was delivering an important lecture. โI heard youโre the top student. Representative, or something, they told me. Likeโโ she turned to face you more directly, suddenly noticing the lack of a surname on your badge โโwow, you donโt even have a last name. I heard you were from the Gojo clan. But, I mean, you donโt even have their surname? Were you picked up from some ditch or something?โ
You flushed. Most of the students were tactful enough to not point that out to you, and if they did, they would return with a bruise soon after, credit to Satoru. But Satoru was in the hospital wing right now, and thankfully so, because you didnโt want him making a scene here in the middle of your Charms class. Getoโs fingers brushed lightly against your arm; he was trying to calm you down. He didnโt need to say anything; you already knew what he was thinking.
Shoko, sitting in front of you, shifted in her seat. Her fingers twitched toward her coat pocket, and you could swear you felt a chill run down your spine at the look she had on her face. Shokoโs glare was murderous, and her hand slowly moved to her doctorโs tools โ just a few inches away from hurling them at the girlโs smug face.
โDonโt bother,โ Geto murmured under his breath. โLet her go on. Sheโs not worth the energy.โ His eyes never left you as he spoke, a detached smile tugging at the corners of his lips. โIgnore her, Shoko.โ
The girl leaned on your desk as you continued to determinedly stare at a spot on your notebook
โOh, but wait,โ she continued haughtily, โyou mustโve been a mistake. I mean, the Gojo clan leaders, right? They couldnโt possibly have any sense of judgement, could they? Considering who their son is, who heโs raised by. They probably just took in anyone, huh? Just to fill the numbers. I bet they didnโt even care to see if you had any real worth.โ
โYou donโt know what youโre talking about,โ Geto interrupted her calmly, his smile widening, a maddenned look in his eyes. โIf you donโt stop right now, you might have to deal with a curse or two, because Iโm not exactly one to be afraid of duelling in front of teachers.โ
Alina was unfazed, leaning back in her chair with a smirk plastered across her face. โOh, I so do. You canโt silence me. The Gojo clan is only famous because they have money and influence โ nothing more.โ She leaned forward again, her eyes narrowing. โAnd the leaders? Theyโre a joke. All that power, and they still let their precious son โ whatโs his name? Satoru? โplay around like the child he is. Tell me, do you ever wonder if heโs actually good for anything besides being the โchosen one?โ Or is it just another piece of their precious familyโs empire?โ
No.
That was it.
You snapped. Your body moved before your brain could catch up. Pulling out your wand from your pocket, you let the cold tip touch her throat. The girl immediately shut up, caught off guard and not having the time to reach her own wand, which was kept on the table her friends were sitting at.
โWhatโs wrong? Canโt speak? Iโd love to hear more from that croak of a voice you possess. Please, go on with your pathetic guesses about my lineage.โ
โDonโt,โ Geto warned, but you were too blinded by the ringing echo of her words about your family. Shoko was already gripping the side of her desk, looking like she wanted to step in.
โYou want me to speak more?โ The girl said. โI can speak more. Because I know what you are. I would have felt sorry for you if you werenโt so stuck up though. As they say, no power, no future.โ
Before you could retort, or even say a quick charm to freeze her throat so it snapped in half, the door flew open, and a voice interrupted your anger.
"Both of you, in my office. Now."
It was the teacher, standing in the doorway, arms crossed, clearly fed up. Without missing a beat, you spun on your heel, flicking a glance at Geto and Shoko.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
It was oddly quiet in the headmasterโs office. You sat alone at the desk, gloves pulled snug over your hands, a rag in one and a half-polished trophy in the other. The cleaning did little to distract you from the frustration you felt.
The headmasterโs words still rang in your ears: โDetention builds character, and perhaps a lesson in self-control will serve you well.โ
Self-control. As if it was your fault someone had insulted your family.
The soft creak of the door interrupted your thoughts. You stilled, expecting the headmaster to return and scold you for slacking off. Instead, a familiar white head of hair peeked around the doorframe.
"What theโ" you hissed. "Are you insane? If someone catches you hereโ"
โWow. You, of all people, getting detention?โ
Satoru leaned casually against the doorframe, his arms crossed and a lazy smirk on his face.
โWhat are you doing here?โ you asked, your voice sharper than you intended.
โCame to pick you up,โ he said, holding his hands up in mock surrender. โKuro was freaking out because he didnโt know why we werenโt at the gates, so I told him to head home without us.โ
โYou didnโt have toโโ
โRelax. Heโs used to me pulling stuff like this.โ Satoru strolled into the room, glancing around with mild interest before his eyes landed on the pile of trophies waiting to be polished. โSo... whatโs the story? Did you finally snap and hex someone?โ
You rolled your eyes, turning back to the trophy in front of you. โShouldnโt you be hiding somewhere? I mean, youโre not supposed to be here after school.โ
โOh, Iโm cutting it. I figured detention with you would be more fun.โ
You ignored him, hoping heโd get bored and leave, but Satoru was never one to take a hint. He perched on the edge of the desk beside you.
โCome on,โ he said, nudging your arm lightly. โTell me what happened.โ
You bit the inside of your cheek, refusing to look at him. โNothing. Just... a disagreement.โ
โA disagreement?โ he repeated, raising an eyebrow. โThatโs all youโre giving me?โ
You stayed silent, scrubbing furiously at a nonexistent smudge on the trophy. But your hands were shaking slightly, and he noticed.
His teasing expression softened. โHey,โ he said quietly, leaning closer and nuzzling your hair. โWhatโs wrong?โ
โNothingโs wrong,โ you said quickly, but the crack in your voice betrayed you. You cursed under your breath, setting the trophy down harder than you intended.
โRight,โ Satoru said dryly. โYou know lying is a sin, right?โ
Before you could stop him, he reached out and plucked the rag from your hand. You opened your mouth to protest, but he cut you off with a firm look.
โEnough,โ he said, tossing the rag onto the desk. He grabbed your hands, tugging the gloves off gently, his touch warm and steady against your cold fingers.
โSatoru, what are youโโ
โHelping,โ he said simply.
You stared at him, your breath hitching slightly as he held your hands in his. His grip was firm but gentle, his thumbs brushing over your knuckles.
โYou shouldnโt have done it,โ he said after a moment, his voice quieter now. โGotten detention, I mean.โ
Your throat tightened, and you looked away. โI didnโt even do much. I just threatened her, โs allโโ
โI know,โ he said. โBut you didnโt have to stand up for me like that.โ
โYes, I did.โ The words came out sharper than you intended, but you didnโt care. โShe had no right to talk about your family like that. Or mine,โ you added quietly.
Satoruโs expression softened, and he sighed, letting go of your hands only to pull you into a hug. Your breath stopped. It was so sudden and unexpected, but his arms around you were so warm and secure, and for a moment, you forgot just how cold the office was.
โThank you,โ he murmured against your hair. โFor putting us first.โ
You swallowed hard, your face pressed against his shoulder. You could feel his heartbeat. His vanilla scent filled your nostrils, and you couldnโt help but sigh at the sensation.
Just what were you feeling?
He leaned down and pressed a soft kiss to the top of your head. The gesture was so gentle, so unexpected, that it sent a shiver down your spine. Goosebumps prickled along your arms, and your breath caught in your throat. Eyes widening on his chest.
Satoru pulled back slightly, his hands still resting lightly on your shoulders. He studied your face for a moment, his gaze searching, before giving you a small, crooked smile.
โAlright there?โ he asked softly.
You nodded, not trusting yourself to speak. His smile widened, and he gave your shoulders a reassuring squeeze before stepping back.
โGood,โ he said, picking up your gloves and the rag you had abandoned. โBecause I think itโs my turn to polish these things. Youโve done enough.โ
You blinked at him, confused. โYou canโt justโโ
โToo late.โ He waved the rag dramatically, grinning. โGo sit down and relax. Perfect students need to take a break to be imperfect once in a while.โ
Despite yourself, a smile tugged at the corners of your mouth. โYouโre ridiculous.โ
โYeah, yeah.โ He waved you off, already humming to himself as he began scrubbing.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
You sat with your detention homework in your garden after the headmaster had insisted on giving you some more โpunishmentsโ for letting Satoru in his office. On the stone bench, you glared at the crumpled detention slip in your hands. The words from earlier still rang in your ears.
Wow, you donโt even have a last name. I heard you were from the Gojo clan. But, I mean, you donโt even have their surname? Were you picked up from some ditch or something?
You must've been a mistake
The nerve of that girl, whatever her name was. She had no right to talk like that. But as much as you hated to admit it, her words dug deep. Why didnโt you have the surname? Why were you even here?
You sighed, staring down at your hands, throwing the slip away and watching it skid between bushes. The gate creaked, pulling you from your thoughts. Satoruโs mother stepped into the garden. She always seemed to know when something was wrong.
She smiled warmly as she approached. โTrouble at school?โ
You let out a small huff, tossing the detention homework onto the bench. โSome girl decided to remind me I donโt belong here,โ you muttered. โSheโs not wrong. I mean, I donโt even have your family name. Iโm just... here.โ
Her expression softened, and she sat down beside you. โSuguru told me it was someone from the Kamo clan. She said that, did she?โ
You nodded. โShe made it sound like Iโm just some random stray you all picked up out of pity.โ
A shadow flickered across her face, but she stayed silent for a moment, as if weighing her words carefully. Then she sighed softly and folded her hands neatly in her lap. โYou donโt carry the Gojo surname yet because... you arenโt meant to. One day, you will.โ
You were confused. โOne day? What are you talking about?โ
Her gaze softened further, and she reached for your hand. โYouโre not here because of pity. Youโre here because I care for you deeply. Youโre family to me. And... well, youโre engaged, my dear. To Satoru.โ
The words hit you like a thunderclap. โEngaged?โ you whispered.
She nodded gently. โIt was my decision. Not to strengthen ties or fulfill some tradition โ I couldnโt bear the thought of marrying you off to anyone else. Youโre important to me, and to this family. No one else would cherish you the way you deserve. No one else would love you the way I know he can.โ
Your head was spinning. Engaged? To Satoru? The same Satoru who stole your dessert, teased you relentlessly, and drove you up the wall with his arrogance?
โDoes he know?โ you managed to ask.
A small, amused smile tugged at her lips. โNot yet. Iโm waiting for the right time to tell him. You know how he is โ heโd probably react with some ridiculous joke or dismiss it entirely without thinking it through.โ
You groaned, burying your face in your hands. โYou mean Iโm supposed to sit on this bombshell while heโs running around like an overgrown child?โ
She chuckled softly, reaching over to pat your shoulder. โItโs not so bad. Youโve already grown close to him, havenโt you?โ
Close. You couldnโt deny it. In the past few years, you had gone from tolerating his antics to โ well, something. The butterflies in your stomach betrayed you every time he smiled or stood too close.
But this? This was too much.
โWhy didnโt you tell me sooner?โ you asked weakly, peeking through your fingers.
โI wanted you to have time to figure out your feelings without the weight of this hanging over you,โ she admitted. โAnd... I wasnโt entirely sure when youโd be ready to hear it. But seeing you upset, questioning your place here, I couldnโt keep it from you any longer. Forgive me, darling.โ She stood then. โYouโre exactly where youโre meant to be,โ she said gently. โNever let anyone make you doubt that.โ
And with that, she disappeared back into the house, leaving you alone with the truth.
Engaged. To Satoru.
The butterflies in your stomach werenโt just fluttering nowโthey were staging a full-on rebellion. You let out a groan, slumping back against the bench.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
Over a year had passed. The two of you were turning seventeen the next year, and with the increase in your age, the load of schoolwork increased too. The School of Royalty had seen so many changes. They were rebuilding the duelling grounds and organising even more clubs than before. Girls were mysteriously beginning to drop out of school, and you didnโt want to know why. There were less than ten girls in your class of fifty, and you figured this number would reduce even more as women in nobility were hurriedly married off to distant kingdoms, forced to give up their education to serve as a showpiece for the men to flaunt.
You were thankful the Gojo clan saw you as more than that, or you wouldnโt have been in the same class as your friends this year. You couldnโt bear not seeing Utahime, Shoko, Suguru and of course, Satoru.
Satoru.
The one you had realized you didnโt want if he wasnโt looking at you at all times, if he wasnโt talking to you at all times, or cracking jokes to you at all times. The one you had realized you wanted more of, more than what the two of you are now, more than what you two have ever been, more than friends, more than best friends; you wanted him more than anything in the world. Him, him, him, him. You wanted his eyes on you, his hands on you. You wanted everything about him. Everything. Every single thingโ
โHey, you alive?โ His voice snapped you back to reality.
โHuh? Oh yeah.โ
โI was saying,โ he pulled a girl towards him by her hands and she landed on his chest with a dull thump. โThis is Alina.โ
You stared at her. Triumphant looking face, lips giggling into the broad layer of his front.
Wait.Wasnโt sheโ?
โYou might remember her,โ Satoru pressed. You did. Vividly.
Oh.
โShe needs some duelling practice apparently, so sheโs gonna be watching us from there,โ he points at the stands. โHope you donโt mind.โ
โOh, yeah, itโs okay,โ you said in a voice you didnโt know you owned. The words felt so heavy on your tongue, as if it was an entirely different person speaking them.ย
โGreat, thanks,โ he ushered the girl back to the stands and leaned down to kiss the top of your forehead again. You blinked.
Oh, no, he didnโt see it like that at all.To him, it was just a gesture he had grown used to doing. Yeah.
You stood across from him on the training field, your stance ready and tense. The sunlight was bright today, almost too bright, and you didnโt know if it was the heat or the sudden emptiness you felt. Satoru smiled at you, but it didnโt quite reach his eyes.
โYou ready?โ he asked, voice nonchalant. It wasnโt the usual teasing edge. The spark was missing.
You nodded.
โIโve got you today, Gojo,โ you tried making the dumb jokes he used to make. You werenโt sure if it was working, but you tried anyway.
The sparring session started, but something felt wrong. Satoruโs movements were slower than usual, his focus elsewhere. He kept glancing at the stands from time to time, as if trying to see if she was watching him. He didnโt block your attack in time, letting you knock him down with ease.
โYou alright?โ You bent down to help him up, but he just waved you off, a tight smile on his face.
โYeah, yeah. Justโฆ tired, I guess,โ he shrugged, avoiding your eyes.
Alina came running down the stands, her hands clutched on her chest, fussing over him while he waved her off too, getting up.
โAnother one?โ
โNo, thank you.โ
That was the first time you had ever said no to him.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
Later that week, you walked into the cafeteria, hoping to find Utahime and grab a quick meal before your History class. You were halfway into the queue before you realized Utahime had Charms class right now. After all, she was a senior of yours; she would have more schoolwork than you. So you were about to take the tray you got to one of the empty tables alone, hoping to find someone else.
And you did find someone. Satoru sat across from Alina as comfortable as ever. They looked like they were on a date. Was this why he had skipped a class he had with you?
โOh, hey,โ he greeted you when you approached, but his voice lacked its usual warmth. There was a coolness in it, like he wasnโt really there.
The girlโs voice broke into the silence, bright and too eager. โI was just telling Satoru about how Iโm finally starting to get the hang of wand control now. I know heโs been busy with other stuff, but heโs still managed to help me out.โ
You felt the hairs on your neck prickle.
โThat's great,โ you said, keeping your tone neutral. โI'm sure Satoru is happy to help.โ
You tried to keep your expression even as you sat down on their table. Wrong choice. Satoru, oblivious or indifferent, didnโt seem to notice any sort of tension in the air. He smiled, nodding along to whatever the girl was saying, while you forced a smile and picked at your food.
You felt like an outsider.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
That same week, after a banquet of the noble families held at the Gojo clanโs immaculate residence, you were walking alone towards the girlsโ dorms when you overheard two voices seemingly arguing calmly. You pressed an ear onto the door hiding the people.
โYou donโt seem to realize your Alina is the same girl who was insulting your own family,โ Suguru was saying. โShe got us into trouble too. You werenโt there so you donโt know how bad she talked aboutโโ
โI know sheโs not like how she was before,โ Satoru interrupted loudly. โAnd I know you guys still have a problem with her, but youโve got to trust me, okay? Sheโs changed.โ
Your heart sank. โChanged?โ Suguru repeated bitterly. โReally? After everything she said about the Gojo clan?โ
He didnโt reply right away, but when he finally spoke, it was with that soft, almost apologetic tone.
โI get it. I really do. But sheโsโฆ trying, okay? Sheโs not the same person.โ
You clenched your jaw, your hands trembling slightly at your sides. You felt numb all over. Uprooting one leg from your position, you walked backwards, away from your heartbreak.
โI donโt know if I can believe that, Satoru. Not after everything she did.โ
โI know, but please. Try, for me?โ
Your back hit the pillar and you stopped. Slowly lifting feet one after the other, you walked. You didnโt know where you were walking to, but you just walked. You didnโt know what hurt more: the fact that he was asking you to trust her, or the fact that you wanted to โ because you trusted him so much.
โThere you are!โ Utahime caught up to you. โWhere did you go? How can you get lost in your own houseโโ You lifted your face up to her, and she looked taken aback. She inhaled, wiping tears you never realized started falling after stinging your eyes so bad, and she asked in an uncharacteristically soft voice. โBaby, whatโs wrong?โ
โUtahimeโโ your voice broke.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
You were walking down the school halls, your mind preoccupied with your own thoughts as you made your way to the classroom. The noise of chatter and the shuffle of students faded into the background, making you realize you were starting to zone out again. You seemed to do that a lot these days.
โAnd I just know it will be you!โ Alinaโs voice cut through, syrupy, too sweet to be sincere. You froze, stopping behind a pillar. They were standing conveniently near the same path you had to cross to get to your class. Great. Now you had to bite back any snide remarks you had because poor Satoru would be upset if you didnโt.
You peeked out. Alina was leaning against the wall, her laughter light and airy as she spoke to Satoru, who was right beside her, looking at her with that familiar, careless smile he used to reserve for you, one that you had now grown to hate.
You could hear her complimenting him, the way she laughed too loudly at every word of his. โOh, Satoru, your technique today was amazing, as always! I honestly donโt know just how you do it.โ Her tone was sugary, and you cringed. You wanted to look away, but something held you in place, as if some invisible force was gripping you to that spot, making you watch the scene in front of you with red eyes and darkness underneath them.
Then you heard his voice. โCome on, Alina, youโre making me blush,โ he chuckled playfully. He was oblivious, as usual (or maybe he wasnโt, and he truly trusted this woman more than his friends). But you werenโt. You noticed how her hands lingered on his arm a little too long, how her fingers curled around his sleeve possessively.
You couldnโt breathe.
You turned, hoping to slip past unnoticed, but of course, she caught sight of you. There was a flicker of something dark in her eyes before she forced a smile onto her face, calling out in that voice that made your skin crawl.
โOh, hey!โ she chirped, calling out your name. โYou donโt mind sharing, do you?โ
The words hit you like a slap. You were caught between disbelief and anger. How dare she speak to you like that? You glanced at Satoru, hoping he would interject, but he didnโt. He was too busy focusing his attention on her like a complete idiot.
You looked down at the floor, clenching your teeth. โYou can have him,โ you muttered. You didnโt want to show her how much it hurt, but it was all too clear in your voice and actions.
Alinaโs smile faltered for a split second, her eyes narrowing. โOh, are you sure?โ she said, โIโm sure Satoru wouldnโt mind at all. Heโs such a generous guy.โ
You could hear her subtle challenge, the way she was almost daring you to react. But you didnโt give her the satisfaction. Instead, you straightened up, forcing the words out with a calmness you didnโt feel.
โIโm sure,โ you said simply. Not waiting for a response, you turned on your heel and walked away as quickly as you could, your heart pounding in your chest.
Behind you, you could feel her eyes on your back, but you refused to turn around.
You hated her. You hated the way she acted so confident. You hated how she was so entitled. And you hated how Satoru, in all his charm and glory, refused to hear a word against her; how he couldnโt see the way she was trying to wedge herself between not only the two of you but also your entire friend group.
It was always this way, wasnโt it? The more you wanted him, the farther he seemed to slip out of reach.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
After a three hour long soak in your bathtub, you decided it was time to go back into your room without anyone noticing. You spent most of your time hiding away from everyone; your parents, your servants, and him anyway, so you doubted anyone would miss you. With a sigh, you wore your nightdress and pushed your bedroom door open.
Satoru was sitting on your bed, his chin in his palms as he stared at the floor, clearly deep in thought and waiting for you to return. The moment you walked in, his gaze snapped to you, and the tension in the room tripled.
โYouโre back,โ he said. There was something in his voice โ you couldnโt point out what exactly it was, but you didnโt like how it made you feel.
โWhat are you doing in my room?โ The words came out harsher than you had intended them to be.
He didnโt answer right away; just sighed heavily, rubbing a hand over his face before standing up and facing you fully. โWhy are you always so mean to her?โ His voice was quieter now, more frustrated than usual.
You blinked, taken aback. "Mean to whom?" you asked, trying to play dumb.
โAlina,โ he said. โWhy do you always treat her like that?โ
You controlled the urge to roll your eyes, though you knew Satoru expected you to. You wanted to scream, but you held it back, just barely. โOh, you mean the girl whoโs been constantly hovering around you? The one who acts like she owns you?โ You crossed your arms defensively. โSorry, I didnโt realize I was supposed to cheer her on and clap for every little thing she does.โ
Satoru scoffed, taking his face in his hands before looking up again. โYou donโt have to be so cold all the time! Canโt you just try to get along with her? Sheโs changed. Why canโt you just see that?โ
โChanged?โ You couldnโt stop yourself from laughing at his innocence. โSheโs the same girl who insulted your family. She insulted everything you stand for, everything you care about, and you think sheโs changed? Are you seriously that blind?โ
His eyes darkened, and he gritted his teeth. โYouโre always so hung up on the past! Why canโt you just move on?โ
You shot him a look, disbelief swirling in your chest. โMove on?โ Your voice was shaking with the effort of holding back everything you wanted to say. โWhy is it that youโre the only person who sees that she has changed? Why is it that everyone else around you swears she hasnโt?โ
Satoru didnโt respond right away. Then, he took a deep breath in, as if it was taking every bone in his body to control his emotions to hit you at that very moment. โWhy do you care so much? Why canโt you just give her a chance?โ he asked, almost pleading with you.
You stared at him for a moment too long. โBecause,โ you bit back, โSheโs using you. And youโre too caught up in your own world to even see it.โ
He took a step toward you, voice rising now. โThatโs not true! Sheโs not using me! Sheโโ
You threw your hands up in frustration. โYou donโt get it, do you?โ You were shouting now. โShe is using you, Satoru! And Iโm the one whoโs supposed to stand here and watch while you defend her? While you act like sheโs some saint whoโs done nothing wrong?โ
Satoruโs patience snapped, and his expression hardened. He couldnโt stand anymore of you making assumptions about her anymore. โYou donโt even belong in this house! Why do you think you have a say in anything Iโm doing? Youโre not even part of this!โ He took a step toward you, his eyes dark with anger, a final insult.
The words hit you like a punch to the gut, and for a moment, you couldnโt breathe. The blood drained from your face as everything came crashing down around you.
โOh,โ was all you managed to say, your voice barely a whisper as your eyes filled with tears. You couldnโt speak. You couldnโt even look at him. You felt your heart shatter into a thousand pieces in your chest.
Satoruโs expression faltered, but it was too late now.
โLeave,โ you whispered through gritted teeth.
He hesitated for a second, looking like he wanted to say something more. But he didnโt. With a sharp breath, he turned and walked toward the door.
The second the door slammed shut behind him, you collapsed onto your bed, your hands clutching at the sheets as sobs wracked your body. You cried harder than you ever had before โ louder, deeper, until you felt like you couldnโt breathe. Your chest ached with every gasp, every sob, the pain of his words echoing in your mind.
You donโt even belong in this house!
He was right.
You donโt even have their surname? Were you picked up from some ditch?
She was right.
It is the spawn of Satan himself!
They were all right, all absolutely right, werenโt they?
Come with me, daughter.
It was a lie.
You know I wonโt leave you.
Lie.
She doesnโt need some random guy when sheโs got me.
Lie, lie, lie!
You know lying is a sin, right?
You clutched your chest hard. You didnโt know how long you cried, but when the tears finally stopped, all that remained was emptiness. A hollow space where something you had always held onto seemed to disappear.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
โWhat are you doing here?โ you asked coldly.
He shrugged, his usual smirk flickering to life. โJust passing by.โ
โPassing by my room?โ you shot back, though your voice was devoid of any emotion.
He rubbed the back of his neck, looking almost sheepish. โMaybeโฆ I wanted to talk.โ
โWhat do you want?โ
He hesitated, just for a moment, before forcing a laugh. โI donโt know. How are the studies? Still out to prove youโre the best in the room?โ
Your expression didnโt change, and the awkwardness between you grew even more.
โAlso,โ he chuckled nervously, โwhat did you say to Utahime? I was almost killed thrice in the last two days.โ
โIf you donโt have anything important to say, Gojo, move.โ You stepped past him, unlocking your door. You had begun locking it since the incident that night, to avoid him sneaking in when you were away and to avoid anyone walking in on you bawling your eyes out, trying to drown the repetitive voices in your head with theories about spells and charms.
โWhy are you being like this?โ His voice stopped you. He paused, watching you fiddle with the lock, clearly taking the hesitating actions as a cue to continue. โLikeโฆ like you donโt care.โ His eyes finally met yours, and for a moment, they werenโt the Satoru you knew. There was no smugness, no teasing โ just guilt.
You bit the inside of your cheek to keep your voice steady. โYouโre imagining things,โ you said, pushing the door open.
โAm I?โ His tone sharpened, and he took a step closer. โYouโve been avoiding me for weeks. You wonโt even look at me.โ
โMaybe I have nothing to say to you,โ you replied, turning to him to see his expression one last time before sorrow overtook your senses again.
His shoulders were stiffened, and for the first time this night, he couldnโt meet your gaze.
โThatโs what I thought,โ you said, your voice quieter now. โYou know exactly why, Satoru. You just donโt want to admit it.โ
He ran a hand through his hair, his frustration evident. โI didnโt mean it,โ he said finally, his voice barely above a whisper.
โGoodnight, Satoru,โ you said, slamming the door in his face before he could say anything else.
The silence that followed was deafening, and on the other side of the door, he lingered. You waited, holding your breath as you leaned against the wood, but no sound came.
And just like that, the distance between you grew wider.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
Your school year was nearing the end, and summer was around the corner. The days before that had been a blur. You had avoided Satoru like the plague, throwing yourself deeper into your books and classes. Even your classmates had noticed the change, though none dared to bring it up to your face.
Except for Shoko.
โAre you okay?โ she asked one afternoon, cornering you in the library.
โIโm fine,โ you lied, not looking up from your Curses: A Guide to Identify the Weakness book.
โNo, youโre not.โ She pulled up a chair, crossing her arms as she stared at you. โYouโre avoiding him, heโs avoiding everyone, and the rest of us are stuck in the middle of whatever this is.โ
โI donโt know what youโre talking about,โ you said flatly.
She groaned, leaning back in her chair. โYouโre lucky this is me and not Utahime. Just so you know, he sent a message.โ
That caught your attention. Slowly, you closed your book and looked at her. โWhat message?โ
โHe said heโs done with Alina,โ Shoko said softly. โSaid he wouldnโt talk to her anymore.โ
โWhy are you telling me this?โ you asked quietly.
โBecause,โ Shoko said, standing up, โyouโre both being stupid. And Iโm sick of watching my friends tear themselves apart over something that could be fixed with one honest conversation.โ
โHonest conversation?โ you repeated bitterly. โWhatโs there to say? He made his priorities clear, Shoko.โ
โDid he?โ She raised an eyebrow, leaning closer. โOr did you just decide that for him because youโre too scared to hear what he actually thinks?โ
Your jaw tightened. โYou werenโt there, Shoko. You didnโt hear the things he said.โ
โYouโre right, I wasnโt. But Iโve seen how miserable heโs been these past few weeks,โ she countered. โHe wonโt say it, but heโs been beating himself up about it. He knows he messed up.โ
โAnd what about me?!โ you snapped, your voice harsher than you intended. โIโm supposed to just forget everything? Pretend like I wasnโt the one he hurt?โ
Shoko sighed, her expression softening. โNo. But youโre not giving him a chance to make it right. Heโs been trying to talk to you โ hell, he even took all the hits heroically when Utahime nearly ripped him apart.โ
You blinked, caught off guard. โUtahime โ what?โ
โOh, yeah,โ Shoko said. โShe had a few choice words for him. Mightโve included running him over by her carriage horses. Not my place to repeat them, but letโs just say she wasnโt thrilled with how he handled things.โ
Despite yourself, a small, bitter smile tugged at your lips. โGood for her.โ
โLook,โ Shoko said, softening her tone again, โyou donโt have to forgive him right away. But at least talk to him. Heโs done with Alina, and itโs obvious youโre not over him. Donโt let this thing between you two fester any longer.โ
You stared at her for a long moment, her words sinking in despite the stubborn walls youโd built around yourself. โIโll think about it,โ you said finally.
โGood,โ Shoko said with a satisfied nod. โJustโฆ donโt take too long. Weโre not kids forever, you know.โ
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
The knock on Satoruโs bedroom door felt louder than you intended. You had rehearsed this moment in your mind a dozen times already. What were you supposed to say again?
Hey. Itโs me. Haha.
No no no. Hey, how have you been?
No, ugh. Hey, nice weather?
Still, when the door opened and his bright blue eyes met yours, every word you had prepared seemed to vanish. The two of you only stared at each other, he in surprise and you in embarrassment.
โHey,โ he said, trying to break the silence.
โHey,โ you replied, your voice barely above a whisper.
The silence stretched between you for a moment before he stepped aside, gesturing for you to come in. You did, though your fingers fidgeted nervously at your sides.
The room looked messy. The bedsheets were sprawled around as if he had been tossing and turning all night earlier. The curtains were closed so the room was in utter darkness. Yet, you needed no amount of light to see the look of sleep-deprivation he carried on his face.
Was it because of you? Because you had acted this way? Was it because he was regretting what he said to you earlier (he should, a voice in your head said, but you pushed it away)? Or was he failing his classes again? His stream was different from yours so you couldnโt meet him in school either. Or was it perhaps because ofโ
โI wasโโ you both started at the same time, cutting each other off awkwardly.
You let out a breathy laugh, and for the first time in weeks, his lips pulled upward, a glimmer of the boy you knew. โYou first,โ he offered, stepping closer.
โI was going to say that Iโฆโ Your words faltered as he reached for your hand. His fingers, warm and tentative, brushed yours before interlocking gently. โOh. Wow.โ He smiled at you, pulling you closer to kiss the top of your head. โI missed this,โ you admitted finally, your voice breaking slightly.
โIโm sorry,โ he said immediately, softer than you had expected him to be. โFor everything. For being such aโโ
A sudden knock interrupted him, and a servantโs voice called from the hall. โYoung Master, Miss โ Madam requests your presence in the meeting room immediately.โ
Satoru groaned under his breath, but you let go of his hand, smiling as well now. โWeโll talk later,โ you murmured, turning to leave.
The Gojo clanโs meeting room was one thing, but the Gojo familyโs meeting room felt even more imposing. High ceilings, ornate woodwork, and an air of superiority โ that was the only way anyone could describe it. Mother and Father sat at the head of the low table, their expressions unreadable.
โYouโre here,โ his father said. He gestured for you and Satoru to sit, and you did, sitting in a formal position with your hands on your knees, feet touching the soft pillow under you. His mother only nodded at both of you. โWeโve received an invitation from the Kamo Clan.โ
Kamo Clan? You had read about a legend of theirs in your history class. A man who had dropped himself to the bottom of the hells indulging with curses to create powerful heirs. The Kamo Clan had an awful reputation โ ancient, powerful, and, if rumours were to be believed, sinister.
Beside you, you felt Satoru stiffen, and whisper only one word.
โAlina?โ
Of course! How could you have forgotten that? The girl who had been plaguing your school ever since she set foot in it was Kamo Alina. Suddenly, what his father said didnโt matter anymore. The way his mother was staring between you and him didnโt matter anymore. What was about to happen in his room that time didnโt matter.
โThe banquet,โ Satoruโs father continued, and it took a lot of effort from you to keep listening, โis an exclusive gathering of noble families from across the globe. It will take place in the south, and attendance is mandatory for representatives of our house.โ
You gathered the courage to steal a glance at Satoruโs expression. The look on his face was enough to tell you he wasnโt surprised by the connection. He knew. He had known it all this time. Your hands curled into fists under the table, your nails biting into your palms, probably leaving marks too.
His motherโs voice said coolly. โPrepare yourselves. Youโll leave at the end of the week. Dismissed.โ
You didnโt wait for Satoru as you stood abruptly, your pillow gliding across the floor. You made your way back to your room, trying not to look back at his face, but you didnโt make it far before he caught up with you.
โWait!โ He grabbed your arm, spinning you around to face him. โItโs not what you think.โ
You yanked your arm free, glaring at him. โItโs not what I think? Really, Gojo? Because I think you lied to me.โ
โI didnโtโโ
โYou said you werenโt in contact with her!โ you snapped.
โIโm not! This isnโt me โ itโs her family. Theyโre the onesโโ
โOh, so her family conveniently sends in an invitation to us to attend their stupid gathering at somehow the right time?โ
โI donโt know? Look,โ He ran a hand through his hair in frustration, not at you, no, but at that darn family. โI told you, Iโm not in contact with her. That is the truth. I havenโt spoken to her sinceโโ
โSince when?โ you interrupted, stepping closer. โSince you told Shoko you were done? Or since you got caught? Because it feels like right now, Iโm finding out the actual truth.โ
โThat is not the truth, please just listโโ
โStop,โ you cut him off. You had had enough. โItโs okay. I donโt know why you think I even care. I โdonโt belong hereโ, remember?โ
โThatโs not what I meant!โ he shouted, his voice echoing in the empty hallway.
You stepped back, shaking your head with a sigh. โDonโt follow me.โ
โPlease,โ he pleaded, his voice softer now, desperate. But you didnโt look back as you turned and headed for the courtyard, away from him and his stupid, stupid noble traditions.
โโโโ เญจเง โโโโ
The journey to the Southern estate was agonisingly long, but then again, you were from the East, and crossing entire landmarks took more than weeks by unruly waters. After the travel on the Gojo estateโs huge ship, your family was met with a stout, snotty man representing the Kamo clan, in charge of dropping you to their estate by comfortable carriages. The carriage rocked back and forth, and the countryside unfolded before you, but you couldnโt bring yourself to appreciate any of it. Your focus remained on the window, your reflection glaring back at you. Anything to avoid looking at him.
Satoru sat beside you, arms crossed and foot tapping impatiently against the carriage floor. The silence was so oppressive it practically screamed at both of you to make up already. His mother sat across from you, but her usual composed expression faltered slightly as she glanced between you and her son.
After what felt like an eternity, Satoru let out an exaggerated sigh, his head lolling back against the seat. "Are you seriously going to do this the whole trip?"
You didnโt move. โDo what?โ
โThis,โ he said, waving a hand vaguely in your direction. โActing like I donโt exist.โ
โIโm not acting,โ you replied coldly. โYouโre still breathing, arenโt you?โ
He bristled at your tone, his foot tapping faster. โWow. Real mature.โ
You didnโt dignify that with a response, instead shifting slightly in your seat to angle yourself even farther away from him. The silence returned, heavier now, and his mother finally cleared her throat, breaking it.
โIs everything all right?โ she asked delicately, her eyes lingering on you longer.
โYes,โ you answered quickly, too quickly. โEverythingโs fine.โ
Her brow lifted slightly, but she said nothing, her gaze darting to her son. He sat rigid, his jaw clenched as he poked his head out of his own window, refusing to meet her eyes.
โFine,โ Satoru muttered after a beat, as if to echo you. His tone was harsh, though he didnโt look at either of you.
His motherโs lips pressed into a thin line, but she didnโt press further. The realisation seemed to dawn on her that her carefully curated plans for her sonโs life โ whatever they might be โ were starting to crack at the seams.
Satoruโs foot finally stilled, but his irritation hadnโt seemed to disappear yet. After another stretch of unbearable silence, he tried again, his voice softer this time. "Look, Iโm not going to apologize for something I didnโt do.โ
โGood thing Iโm not expecting one, then.โ
He groaned, running a hand through his hair. โCan you at least try to meet me halfway here? This is ridiculous.โ
You finally turned to look at him. โWhatโs ridiculous is pretending any of this matters. I shouldnโt even be here, right? So why donโt you justโโ
โThatโs enough,โ his mother cut in, her tone sharper than you had ever heard it. Her gaze pinned you both in place. โWeโre almost there. I suggest you both compose yourselves before we arrive.โ
You bit the inside of your cheek, retreating back into silence, but not before catching the slight smirk on Satoruโs face. It wasnโt amusement, though โ it was frustration barely held in check. He didnโt say another word, leaning back against the seat and staring resolutely at the ceiling as the carriage rocked along. You pressed your lips together and turned back to the window.
That was when you saw it.
The estate loomed in the distance, its dark silhouette framed against the dusky sky. It wasnโt grand in the way the Gojo mansion was. No, this place had an oddly familiar air of foreboding. Its high walls and shadowed towers looked like they were whispering secrets and things long forgotten in history. The closer you got, the more a strange chill settled over you, prickling the back of your neck.
Goosebumps ran down your arms as the carriage rolled closer. The gates opened with an almost eerie slowness. There was billowing mist surrounding the entire area, and it made the scene even more creepy. You couldnโt explain it, but something about this place just feltโฆ wrong. It wasnโt just the estateโs imposing presence or the way the evening light seemed to bend around it โ it was something you couldnโt place at all.
You felt like something bad, really bad was going to happen here, or perhaps had already happened. A chill ran down your spine when you recalled the pages of absolute horror you had seen attached to the restricted books in your library, and their vibes seemed to match that of this place.
Beside you, Satoru shifted uncomfortably. You glanced at him for a moment and saw that his confident facade had slipped. His eyes lingered on the estate, as if trying to figure out just what it was that made the place seem so uncanny and unreal, like it was something straight out of a horror novel.
As the carriage came to a stop, his mother stepped out first, poised as ever. She didnโt seem fazed by the oppressive air of the place, but then again, she rarely showed any cracks in her demeanour.
You followed, your legs unsteady as they hit the gravel path. The chill hadnโt left you, clung to your skin. Satoru came last, his usual swagger dimmed.
โRemember,โ his mother murmured as the servants approached, her voice low and pointed, โappearances are everything. Do try not to embarrass the family.โ
You nodded stiffly, but deep down, all you could think about was how much you wanted to leave this place. Sighing and ignoring the tremble of your gut, you held your own hands and entered the estate.
The estateโs grand entrance hall was vast, its high ceilings decorated with intricate wooden carvings that spiralled into ominous shapes. A line of servants stood on either side, their heads bowed low in synchronised precision. โWelcome to the Kamo estate,โ they chanted together, their voices echoing.
A servant stepped forward, addressing Satoruโs father (and not batting an eye to his mother) with an apologetic tone. โWe regret to inform you that our โ that is, the Kamo clanโs โ leaders could not greet you in person. Urgent matters required their immediate attention, but they send their sincerest apologies and look forward to meeting you tomorrow.โ
Satoruโs father met his wifeโs eyes, and she nodded curtly, and the servant's eyes widened as if he realised the error he made by ignoring her and addressing only the male leader in your group. โIt is of no consequence,โ she replied coolly.
As the servants moved to escort you all further inside, you couldnโt help but glance around. The estate was undeniably grand, but there was something cold and uninviting about it. The polished marble floors gleamed under flickering chandeliers, and the thick, musty air clung to your skin. It felt more like a mausoleum than a home.
The servants led you through endless corridors, the silence broken only by the sound of footsteps on stone. Every now and then, you passed ornate doors or shadowy alcoves, each one looking more foreboding than the last. You tried to shake the feeling of being watched, but the creeping sensation never left.
Eventually, they stopped in front of a door, and the servant gestured to it with a bow. โThis will be your room,โ he said before retreating with the others.
You stepped inside hesitantly. The room was smaller, far removed from where they were escorting Satoru now, and you had a feeling his would be uncomfortably close to Alinaโs. The room was smaller, colder, and had an air of neglect, as if it hadnโt been opened in years. Dust coated the surfaces, and the faint scent of damp wood lingered in the air. There were faint scratches on the walls as if someone had clawed at them long ago. The wallpaper had started peeling in places, and the furniture looked untouched, as though someone had decided only yesterday to disturb the fifteen year old cobwebs. The architecture, the layout, even the faint smell of mildew โ it was unsettlingly familiar, though you couldnโt quite place why.
Satoruโs mother appeared behind you. She took one look around the room, and her eyebrows twitched into a carefully concealed scowl. โWell,โ she said. โThis is... quaint, to say the least.โ
You turned to face her, unsure of how to respond. She gestured vaguely at the room, the bare walls, the dull, muted colours. โIf you find this unsuitable, arrangements can be made. Iโm sure a clan as proud as Kamo wouldnโt want their guests to feel...โ She paused, her lips curling in distaste, โuncomfortable.โ
You swallowed hard, shaking your head. โNo, mother,โ you said, forcing a polite smile. โThis is fine.โ
Her brow arched, as though she didnโt quite believe you, but she didnโt press. โAs you wish,โ she said softly, turning on her heel and leaving without another word.
The door closed behind her with a heavy thud, and the silence of the room enveloped you. You exhaled slowly, taking in the sparse furnishings, the musty air. You hated the idea of being a burden, but now, as you sat on the bed, watching it creak loudly, you wondered if you had made a mistake.
Late that night, you lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling, trying to get yourself to sleep.
โOne sheep, two sheep, three sheepโโ
What would he be doing right now? Was he still upset?
โFuck, lost count again.โ You sighed loudly. This was probably the sixth time you had tried but failed to sleep. All because of him. You closed your eyes tightly to try again.
โOne sheep, two shโโ
Shit. Natureโs call.
You widened your eyes and glanced at the door, dreading the thought of stepping out into the pitch-black halls of the manor. Your room didnโt even have a washroom, which seemed absurd for a house of this size and considering who it belonged to. Clenching your jaw, you tried to distract yourself from the pressure in your bladder by examining the room, but there was nothing to look at. No paintings, no books, no trinkets โ just plain walls and dull furniture.
With a sigh, you finally pushed yourself up, deciding to find a maid to help you find the washroom. You lit a candelabrum sitting next to your bed to help you navigate the area. The hallway was dimly lit, the flickering lights casting eerie shadows across the walls. You tried to stay calm, but every creak of the floorboards beneath your feet made you jump.ย
You walked, and walked, and walked. The layout of the house was like a maze in itself, and every turn seemed to lead to another identical hallway. Within the span of minutes, you found yourself descending a set of stairs you didnโt remember seeing before.
The air grew colder. The scent of damp stone and decay was thick in your nostrils. You paused at the bottom of the staircase, realizing with a jolt of horror that you were in what looked like the basement of the manor. The little light coming from your candles barely illuminated the space.
A wave of nausea hit you. The place smelled like dead rats, but somehow, despite your lack of sight in the room, a lot of scenes seemed to cross your mind. Shadows in the halls. Muffled screams. The overwhelming fear of being dragged into this very basement to be punished for something you couldnโt understand. Your eyes caught on the walls, and you lifted your candelabrum up and stepped closer. There were faint marks carved into the stone. Tally marks. Dozens of them. Maybe hundreds.
Your hand reached out, trembling, brushing against the ridges. A flash of a memory hit you โ your hand gripping a piece of stone fully covered in blood, dragging it across a surface, one line after another. But where had it been? In a classroom, on the board? No โ this was something else, something darker. Your stomach twisted, and you stumbled back, the nausea overwhelming.
โMiss?โ A voice shattered the silence, and you whipped around to see a maid standing at the top of the staircase. Her face was pale, her brows furrowed, as if you had offended every fibre of her body by stepping down into this basement. โWhat are you doing down here?โ
You opened your mouth to answer, but no words came out. The smell of the basement, the tally marks, the scenes โ they clung to you, and you could only shake your head.
โLet me escort you back to your room. You shouldnโt ever be hereโ
You nodded mutely, following her up the stairs. She led you back through the winding halls. By the time you reached your room, the trembling in your legs had mostly subsided, though the chill of the basement still remained. She opened the door for you, offering a rigid nod before disappearing back into the dark hallways. You stepped inside, closing the door behind you, and exhaled shakily.
Your hands were still trembling slightly as you sat on the edge of the bed, trying to steady your breathing. The scenes โ fragmented, disjointed โ played on a loop in your mind. What were they? Forgotten memories? Flashbacks? The tally marks, the muffled screams. They were just like something out of your worst nightmares. You buried your face in your hands, feeling the sting of tears prickling at your eyes.
A soft knock at the door startled you. You hastily wiped your eyes, rising to your feet. When you opened it, Satoruโs mother stood there. Her expression softened slightly when she saw you.
โYouโve been crying,โ she said matter-of-factly.
โIโm fine,โ you said quickly, stepping aside to let her in.
She swept into the room, her gaze flickering briefly to the empty, barren space. โThis room is unacceptable,โ she said bluntly. But then, as she turned to face you, something in her eyes looked gentler, almost human โ something she had always carried around you. โYou should have asked for it to be changed, darling.โ
You shook your head. โI didnโt want to be a bother. Itโs fine, really.โ
Her lips pressed into a thin line, and for a moment, she studied you. Then, to your surprise, she stepped closer, her hands resting lightly on your shoulders. โYouโre far too used to accepting the minimal,โ she said quietly. โThatโs not what you deserve.โ
You blinked, startled by the tenderness in her tone. Before you could respond, she leaned down and pressed a soft kiss to your forehead, her cool hand lingering briefly against your cheek. The gesture was so unexpected, so maternal, that your throat tightened with emotion.
โI will speak to the servants in the morning,โ she said, straightening but not pulling away. โAnd if you ever feel uncomfortable โ ever โ you will tell me. Do you understand?โ
You nodded wordlessly, unable to trust your voice.
โGood.โ She adjusted the edge of your sleeve with a small, practised motion, as if tidying you was a second nature for her. โGet some rest. You look exhausted.โ
She turned to leave but paused at the door, glancing back over her shoulder. โAnd whatever it is that has you so unsettled tonight... I will see to it. Do not let it weigh on your mind. The past has a way of creeping into the present, but you are stronger than it.โ
The door closed softly behind her, leaving you standing in the middle of the room.
For the first time since you had arrived at the estate, you felt a sliver of comfort.
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Over the next week, your efforts to blend in with the household paid off in more ways than one. Most of the maids, initially wary of you as a noble guest, had warmed up to your presence. They appreciated your willingness to help with menial tasks and often joked that you were more reliable than some of their own peers. Soon enough, their dislike for the Kamo family began to slip into their conversations.
It started one evening when you were helping two maids, Haru and Tomoko, carry water from the wells. They spoke in hushed voices, glancing around nervously as though the courtyardโs walls themselves might eavesdrop.
โIโve always said the Kamo family has skeletons in their closet,โ Haru muttered. โWell, in this case, theyโre probably in the basement. Youโve seen it, havenโt you?โ
You nodded. โI have. Itโs disturbing. What were those tally marks on the walls?โ
Tomoko sighed, setting her bucket down with a huff. โNo one really knows for sure. Some say itโs the number of people tortured down there. Others think itโs the number of people who died. Either way, nothing good ever happened in that place.โ
Before you could press further, another maid, Aoi, cut in sharply. She was older, sharper, and rigid. Yet you had watched her pull the buckets back up from the walls with such brute force that it was no wonder she was still working for the clan despite her age. โEnough! You shouldnโt fill her head with stories. Sheโs a noblewoman; this isnโt her concern.โ Her eyes avoided yours, fixed firmly on the stone path.
Haru rolled her eyes dramatically. โOh, relax, Ms Aoi. Sheโs not like the rest of them. Sheโs helped us more than half the family ever has. Why shouldnโt she know whatโs really going on?โ
Tomoko nodded enthusiastically. โExactly! And sheโs already seen the basement. Itโs not like weโre revealing some great hidden treasure. Besides, itโs about time someone outside this house knew what the Kamo family is really like.โ
Aoi crossed her arms, her frown deepening. โAnd what good will it do her to know? The Kamo family isnโt to be trifled with. Youโre putting her in danger โ and yourselves, too, for that matter.โ
You cut in gently, trying to defuse the tension. โI appreciate the concern, Ms Aoi, truly. But if the Kamo family has nothing to hide, then why should talking about it be dangerous?โ
Haru smirked. โSee? She gets it.โ
Tomoko leaned closer, her voice dropping to a near whisper. โDo you want to know what I heard? Years ago, when the punishments in the basement were still happening, the head of the house would personally oversee them. And sometimesโฆโ she trembled visibly. โSometimes, they werenโt even punishing people who broke the law. Just anyone they didnโt like. Servants who fell out of favour. Merchants who got on their bad side.โ
Haru shuddered. โThey say the screams would echo up through the floorboards. Thatโs why most of the older staff refuse to even talk about it. Too many bad memories. There is also the ghost of that little girlโโ
โThatโs enough!โ Aoi snapped. โThe girl doesnโt need every grisly detail.โ
โOh, come on, Aoi. You hate them as much as we do. Donโt act like youโre above this.โ
โWhether I hate them or not is irrelevant,โ Aoi huffed. โYouโre still being reckless. If anyone hears about this...โ
Tomoko grinned mischievously. โAnd whoโs going to tell them? You?โ
Aoi gave an exasperated sigh but said nothing.
That night, you wrote letters to Shoko and Utahime, recounting the strange conversation and the haunting basement. You might have mentioned a glimpse of Satoru, too, though your thoughts on him were far more conflicted.
Shokoโs reply was predictably blunt.
Sounds grim. Torture rooms, tally marks, mysterious deaths โ real classic Kamo vibes. Maybe theyโre compensating for their familyโs lack of charm.ย But, you know, not my circus, not my corpses. Still, were they tortured with surgical precision? If so, let me know which tools were involved. Iโve got a scalpel set if you want to reenact it. Besides, Iโve always wanted to see how far someone could go with a bone saw and no anaesthetic. For science, of course. Stay alive. Bye.
PS: If you find any good booze down there, bring some back for me.
Utahimeโs letter was far less chill.
That two-timing bastard is probably off doing handstands to impress some girl who can't tell her right from left. Honestly, Iโm waiting for your mother to tell him the truth already. If he doesnโt start acting like your fiance, Iโm going to come over there and bury him in that damn basement myself. If I had to spend more than two breaths in his company, Iโd kill him. Actually, Iโd kill him for free. Just say the word.
PS: If I didnโt love you, I wouldโve told you to go into that basement again just for fun. But I do love you, so stay safe.
The Kamo clan leaders remained an enigma. Somehow, their presence was so secretive that their portraits were absent from every book and document in the library. You wondered if even the servants themselves had seen these people. โMaybe theyโre so ugly theyโre too ashamed to show their faces?โ Shoko had suggested in one letter, and you still snorted remembering that.
From all your time in the estateโs library, you could onlyย find their names โ Kamo Daijiro and Kamo Akane. Creepy. You also learned they had two daughters: Alina, the eldest, and her twin who had married into another prestigious family and no longer lived at the estate.
You still hadnโt caught so much as a glimpse of Daijiro or Akane, but that would change soon. A grand gathering was scheduled for the following night, and the maids were already preparing for their arrival in the estate.
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The Kamo maids worked on you, dabbing floral scents to your neck and pulling a corsage on your hands. Behind you, Aoiโs hands deftly pulled at the laces of the corset you were reluctantly being tied into. Earlier, an unexpected scuffle had broken out between the Gojo clan maids and the Kamo maids when the latter had shown up, intending to tend to you.
โSheโs our priority,โ one of the Gojo maids had sniffed, her arms crossed.
โNot anymore,โ retorted Tomoko. โShe is living in the Kamo residence right now. Your loyalty isnโt required here.โ
โWell, sheโs from the Gojo clan!โ snapped another maid, her tone haughty.
โYes, and?โ Haru shot back. The Gojo maids had given up after a reassuring smile from you, muttering about how they are only leaving because โthe Lady asked soโ.ย
Now, Aoi was tugging the corset strings tighter. The conversation had shifted from the petty bickering of maids to something far darker.
โYou wouldnโt believe the stories this house holds,โ one of the younger maids murmured, a shiver in her voice. โDo you know about the little girl?โ
โWhat girl?โ you asked. You hadnโt seen the story of any little girl mentioned in the books you had read, but you had distinctly remember a mention of her story in an earlier conversation with these maids.
โMs Aoi knows about it best!โ Haru exclaimed.
Aoiโs face darkened as she let out a long sigh. โIt happened about a decade ago,โ she began. โA child had appeared on the doorstep, barely an year old, mind you. The family had taken her in, but of course, they did not treat her like a daughter. They had left her in the care of us servants. I was like her mother,โ she said proudly. โShe had turned three, I still remember, it was her birthday that night. She spilled a glass of expensive red wine on Lady Akaneโs dress. It wasnโt even the girlโs fault. She was just a baby, carrying a tray too big for her tiny hands. But Sir Daijiroโฆ he doesnโt forgive mistakes.โ
The other maids exchanged uneasy glances as Aoi huffed loudly, pausing her hands on your laces to wipe stray tears. โThe girl was dragged to the basement, where they lock away the disobedient. Sheโฆ she never came out.โ
Your breath caught in your throat. โShe wasโฆ killed?โ
โYes,โ whispered one of the younger maids, her voice trembling. โItโs said her ghost still lingers. Sometimes we hear her cries late at night. And the mist that hangs over the estate? They say itโs her curse โ her anger at the clan.โ
Aoi nodded grimly. โI was here. I wasnโt much younger than I am now, but I couldnโt do anything to save her. All I could do was sneak her scraps of food and try to mend her torn dresses afterโฆ after the punishments.โ
You were horrified. โPunishments? For a child?โ
Aoiโs tears couldnโt be held back anymore. โShe was just a baby,โ she croaked thickly. โIโd hear her cry at night, calling for her mother. And whenโฆ whenโฆโ Haru handed Aoi a cloth to wipe her face. โWhen she diedโฆ it was the moment I stopped believing the Kamo family had any humanity left.โ
The room fell silent for a moment, save for the sound of Aoiโs sniffling and your shallow breathing. โHow can someone be so cruel?โ you murmured.
โThatโs why weโre all so terrified,โ Tomoko confessed. โIf they could do that to a child, what chance do we have? Everyone here walks on eggshells, afraid to make even the smallest mistake. The leaders havenโt changed. Theyโre still the same people who let that little girl die.โ
Aoiโs hands resumed their work, tying the last knot on the corset. The maids stepped back. You glanced at the mirror, seeing not just your reflection but the haunted expressions of the women around you.
The little girlโs story stuck with you, her cries echoing in your mind. If the Kamo clan could be so ruthless to a defenceless child, what horrors could they unleash on those who dared to cross them?
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The grand gathering was suffocating. The air was thick with the scent of incense and expensive perfumes, the soft hum of conversation occasionally punctuated by bursts of laughter. You had probably sent about fifty letters in all to Shoko, Utahime and even Geto asking them if they would come to the South, and they all had replied with repetitive noโs. You had tried to keep your head down, avoiding the heavy gazes of the Kamo guests. But you were glad to see that Satoru, for once, was sticking close to you, uncharacteristically quiet. He hadnโt so much as glanced at Alina all evening, and perhaps even all this time during the visit if you were lucky. Not that you cared, of course.
Earlier, when you had overheard his mother asking him to keep his distance from โthat Kamo girlโ, and you remembered how he had rolled his eyes so hard you thought they would have gotten stuck.
โFine,โ he had said with mock drama. โBut only because Iโm such an understanding guy. And because I want you to stop looking like youโre ready to shank me with a chopstick.โ
Now, true to his word, his focus was entirely on you. Every time you caught him looking elsewhere, it was never in her direction. He had even waved off her attempts to engage him, subtly turning his back to her as though she didnโt exist.
โSee?โ he murmured, leaning down to your ear. โHavenโt even looked her way. You believe me now, right?โ
You arched a brow, unimpressed. โYou donโt get points for doing the bare minimum, Gojo.โ
โBare minimum?โ he gasped, and you smiled a little. His response reminded you of the โold timesโ, as they were now. โThis is maximum effort for me! Have you met me?โ
โHush now, both of you,โ his father interrupted. โTheyโre here.โ
The Kamo clan heads arrived, and the air shifted. The room quieted, all eyes turning to the doors as Daijiro and Akane Kamo entered. Their presence was magnetic, commanding. As they moved through the crowd, the guests bowed slightly, parting to make way. You moved your eyes to the carpeted floor. You didnโt want to introduce yourself to someone who would torture a little girl to death, for Godโs sake.
But then curiosity overtook your senses. You had been thinking of what they would look like for ages. They were like a mystery you had been picking apart ever since you stepped foot into that basement. Now was finally the moment you would get to see the leaders who hid from newspapers, books and even their own servants. You finally looked up. And the moment you saw their faces, the world seemed to tilt.
Sharp cheekbones. Piercing eyes. Their very presence struck a chord you hadnโt felt in years. Distantly, hauntingly familiarโฆ
Your parents.
โHush, little baby, everything you need is right here,โ your mother cooed, and you walked to where he was leading you. โYes, thatโs it. There are your favourite snacks here, and all your favourite toys. Come on. Go there.โ
But you found something else to interest you. Aoi, the maid, was standing right there, watching everything, and you wanted to walk to where she was instead of your bad mother.
โStupid girl, where are you going?โ your father pushed you from behind into the basement, and you fell over its many steps. Falling, falling, falling. By the time you reached the bottom, your face felt hot with some weird liquid.
โThis is your new house โ for now,โ your mother said finally, walking down the steps. โYou have given me enough trouble. From the moment I was cornered in that dark alley, alone and frightened, till now โ you have been nothing but trouble. You are a constant reminder of what happened to me that night. You shall die, die!โ
โThere, there, now, Akie,โ you watched your father cradle your motherโs head in his chest. You tilted your head, and the force almost made you fall back to the ground. โThe child will no longer remain here. I have the most secretive merchants arriving from the North to here. They will be taking thisโฆ thing away from us, away from you. And then you shall finally be free.โ
The realisation hit like a crashing wave, pulling the air from your lungs. Your vision blurred, and your chest tightened. It was too much. Too much. It was unbearable.
Without thinking, you reached out, your trembling hand finding Satoruโs mother instead of him. Her warm, steady grasp grounded you back to reality, and she turned to you immediately in concern. She studied you for just half a second before realising something was wrong, horribly wrong.
โCome,โ she said softly, guiding you out of the hall without a momentโs hesitation.
Satoruโs voice trailed behind you, confused. โWhere are youโโ
โStay with your father,โ his mother ordered firmly over her shoulder.
Once outside, the cool night air hit your face, and it made you realise the warm wetness flooding your cheeks and stinging at your eyes. She led you to a quiet corner of the garden, still holding you as tightly as possible.
โWhatโs wrong?โ she asked gently, her eyes scanning your face. โAre you unwell?โ
The words tumbled out before you could stop them. โTheyโre my parents.โ
Her brow furrowed. โWho are?โ
โThem.โ You swallowed hard, finally breaking down. โThey! They left me. They sold me. I didnโt know their names butโฆ Iโve seen them. Theyโreโฆโ
Her expression shifted from confusion to horror. You looked at her face. You had never seen a look like that on her ever before. She released your hand only to pull you into a tight embrace.
โYou poor thing,โ she whispered, her voice trembling. โI had no idea. But I swear to you, theyโll never hurt you again. Not while Iโm here.โ
You cried on her shoulder loudly, and you could feel she was crying softly too. โWhy? Am I not worth raisingโฆ Mom?โ She pulled back slightly, cupping your face in her hands. โWhy didnโt they come back for me?โ
โI donโt know, and I donโt care what their reasons were. You will be a Gojo soon. It is only a matter of time now. And you will forever, forever, ย be a part of our family. I will not let the Kamos stain your history, ever.โ
You sniffled. From somewhere in the hall, you could hear Satoruโs loud voice, probably causing some kind of scene.
โSee?โ his mother said softly, trying to distract you. โHe hasnโt looked at their girl once, just like he promised. That boy might be infuriating, but when it comes to you, heโs surprisingly reliable.โ
A faint smile tugged at your lips.
Satoruโs mother stood behind you. Her fingers were combing through your hair softly, as if to sooth your emotions with her caring rhythm. She adjusted your corset strings next, pulling them tighter, not harshly, but enough to make you focus on the present instead of the roaring panic threatening to take over.
Beyond the ornate doors of the gathering, voices rose and fell. You strained your ears to pick out the words, leaning slightly toward the source. And then you heard it.
A deep, booming voice. The same voice from your nightmares. The one that haunted your memories. Your breath hitched. It felt as though the walls were closing in to suffocate you.
Satoruโs motherโs hands immediately moved to your shoulders to steady you. โBreathe, darling,โ she said firmly. โIโm here, am I not? You are safe.โ
You nodded, though tears pricked at the corners of your eyes. โIโm trying,โ you whisper, clutching the fabric of her dress tightly.
And then, the voice spoke words that made your blood run cold.
โโฆa marriage between Kamo Alina and Gojo Satoru.โ
You froze. Your heart seemed to have stopped. The room seemed to have crashed down onto you. You tried to process what you had just heard. Satoruโs mother stiffened behind you, her hands pausing mid-movement.
โWhat did they just say?โ you whispered.
She didnโt respond, though her head tilted slightly as she listened intently to the conversation happening inside the room. You caught snippets of whispers as noble families exchanged their astonishment at the bold proposal.
Surely, Satoruโs father knows. He knows that Satoru is supposed to be engaged to you.Right?
But then you heard him speak. His voice seemed proud and approving. โAn excellent proposal, Daijiro Kamo. This alliance shall strengthen both our families. I accept.โ
The words hit you like a slap. Your stomach churned, and for a moment, you thought you might be sick.
โMom?โ you whispered and turned to Satoruโs mother. โWhyโฆ?โ
Her lips pressed into a thin line, her eyes narrowing dangerously. โThat moron,โ she hissed under her breath. Her hands fell away from your shoulders furiously. โHe didnโt consult me. He didnโt consult anyone except Daijiro. Of course, he didnโt. Men like to think their decisions are final simply because they made them.โ
The applause from the other side of the door grew louder. The sound vibrated in your ears as the nobles toasted the โunionโ. Your panic surged again. โWhat do we do?โ you asked desperately.
When she threw the doors open roughly, the room fell silent. The silence following her entrance was not mere courtesy; it was submission. Her presence demanded it. Yet Kamo Daijiro, standing near the center with a goblet of red wine in his hand, immediately stepped forward with a smug smile. โAh, my lady Gojo,โ he began, his voice filled with condescension. โI was just about to inform you of the wonderful arrangement your husband and I have come to. My daughter, Alina, willโโ
โWill do nothing,โ she cut him off coldly.
Daijiro blinked, clearly taken aback by the interruption. โI beg your pardon?โ he said with mock-politeness.
โYou heard me,โ she said, stepping further into the room. Every eye in the room was on her. โYou dare discuss an engagement for my son without consulting me?โ
Daijiroโs lips curled into a patronizing smile. โWith all due respect, Lady Gojo, this is a matter for the men to decide. Your husband and I both agree that this alliance is mutually beneficial. Surely you trust your husbandโs judgment.โ
She laughed humorlessly. โTrust his judgment? You think Iโm going to stand by while you play politics with my sonโs life?โ
She turned to glare at her husband. Satoruโs father cleared his throat, clearly uncomfortable under her piercing gaze, but Daijiro waved him off. โLady Gojo, your anger is misplaced. This is a matter of strategy. You may oversee the household, but these are decisions of power โ something women cannot fully comprehend.โ
The room grew deadly quiet now, and Alina seemed to have understood that what her father just said had been a mistake. Satoruโs jaw tightened at the insult at his mother, but he did not say anything yet. You were still frozen in the doorway, but you could feel that he was about to snap at any moment now.
Satoruโs motherโs eyes narrowed dangerously. โWomen cannot comprehend power?โ Every word was pronounced clearly, and she took a single step closer. โYouโre standing in my authority. Under my presence. Having begged for my appearance at this folly of an event. And you think I donโt comprehend power?โ
โBut this is an allianceโโ Daijiro started.
โAn alliance that disregards my authority,โ she interrupted sharply. โAn alliance that treats my son like a pawn in your political game of blind chess,โ Her eyes flicked briefly to Satoru, who watched the exchange with a furrowed brow.
The room erupted in whispers. The many noble families exchanged shocked glances. Even Satoruโs father looked uncomfortable now, though he didn't dare interrupt.
Daijiro straightened, his tone hardening. โLady Gojo, I understand you may feel... emotional about this. But this is for the good of both our families. Surely you donโt mean to disrupt an agreement between two patriarchs.โ
Her expression darkened further. Without breaking eye contact, she reached for a glass of wine from a nearby tray. In one swift motion, she threw it to the ground, and the crystal shattered into thousands of shards. The sound echoed in the silence.
โThe marriage is off,โ she declared, her voice unwavering. โBecause Satoru already has a fiancee.โ She turned and gestured to you, standing awkwardly in the doorway having followed her from outside. โMy future daughter-in-law, her.โ
The room erupted into chaos. Gasps and furious whispers filled the air. Kamo Daijiroโs face turned a deep shade of red. The Kamo clan, the maids (who were standing outside, peering through the gates you left open, having not been allowed to enter the prestigious ceremony) and leaders alike, looked mortified at her words.ย
โYou cannot be serious,โ Akane said through gritted teeth.
โIโve never been more serious,โ she countered.
โYou have humiliated my family!โ Daijiro growled, stepping closer threateningly.
At this, Satoru stood up, his sword in his hand as he placed himself between his mother and Kamo Daijiro. He tilted the weapon slightly to make sure the threat of blood was sent across to Daijiro, and blocked the way to his mother. Her eyes softened at his action, and she straightened. โThis discussion is over. Take your child and leave, Kamo. I will take mine. There is no alliance to be forged here. Gojo clan!โ She called to the maids, soldiers and workers of the Gojo clan who had come along with them on the journey. โWe shall set off back home right now. Prepare.โ
Daijiro stared at her with rage and humiliation. But when he glanced at the sea of judgmental eyes surrounding him, he knew he lost. With a barely concealed snarl, he turned on his heel, motioning for his family to follow.
Satoru fixed his sword back into its scabbard. His mother turned to you, softening again. She rested a hand lightly on your shoulder. โCome. We shall leave this place now, for good this time.โ
She led you out of the hall, her grip steady and reassuring, even as the whispers behind you grew louder.
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The journey back home felt strangely fast compared to the painstaking crawl southward. Perhaps it was Satoruโs motherโs fiery words that had lit a spark of patriotism among the servants, and maybe even the horses. Whatever the case, you arrived at the Gojo estate far sooner than expected.
You barely had time to set foot inside when Satoru found you. He cornered you in one of the quieter hallways. The first thing you noticed was his face; his usual, easygoing expression was clouded with something you had never seen before.
โDid you know?โ he asked.
You blinked, thrown off by the abruptness. โDid I know what?โ
โThat youโre my fiancee.โ The words came out bitter and flat, as if he couldnโt believe he was saying them aloud.
Your breath caught in your throat. You had been bracing for this conversation, but not so soon. Not like this. โYes,โ you admitted after a moment.
He reeled back, as though the admission had physically struck him. โYou knew?โ His voice rose, echoing off the corridor walls. โHow long? How long have you known?โ
โA year,โ you said hesitantly, feeling guilt rise up in your throat. โI meanโฆ last year, your motherโโ
โA year?โ His voice cracked, and he ran a hand through his hair in frustration. โYouโve known for an entire year, and you didnโt think to tell me?โ
โI thought she would tell you,โ you stammered. โShe said sheโd handle it.โ
โWell, clearly, she didnโt!โ he snapped, spinning to face you again. โSo what, you were just going to wait until the wedding invitations went out?โ
โThatโs not what I meant!โ you shot back. โI didnโt even agree to this in the first place. I was just as blindsided as you when she told me!โ
โBut she did tell you, and you did know,โ he repeated coldly. โAnd you didnโt think I had a right to know?โ
โYouโre acting like I had a choice!โ you said, your voice rising to match his.
โThat doesnโt excuse keeping it from me!โ he shouted too. โYou and my mom โ both of you โ went behind my back. You made me feel like an idiot standing in that room today.โ
โOh, we made you look like an idiot?โ you scoffed. โWhy? Because you were actually planning to agree to her proposal? Because you wanted to marry that witch of a woman?โ
His eyes widened in disbelief. โAre you serious? I barely even looked at her if I didnโt have to!โ
โThat was because mother had told you not to!โ you countered. โDonโt stand there and question me when youโve been acting like you have other options.โ
โI didnโt know I didnโt have other options!โ he shouted. โBecause no one told me! The two people I trust the most in this world, you both kept me in the dark!โ
You sighed. โSatoruโโ
โNo,โ he cut you off. โDo you have any idea what this feels like? To know that the people you rely on the most didnโt think you were worth the truth?โ
โThatโs not fair,โ you said softly, trying to find the right words. โI was just obeying motherโโ
โObeying mother?โ he laughed incredulously. โBy lying to me?โ
โI didnโt lie!โ you snapped. โI justโฆ didnโt know how to tell you.โ
โWell, you should have figured it out,โ he said bitterly. โBecause now, all I can think about is how little I actually know about you. About us. Aboutโฆ anything.โ
The air between you felt heavy, suffocating. You wanted to say something, anything to fix the look of betrayal in his eyes, but your mind was blank.
Finally, he shook his head, his voice dropping to a strained whisper. โLookโฆ Iโve never thought of you that way before, okay? Youโreโฆ youโre pretty, but youโre like a sister to me. Thatโs how Iโve always seen you. Nothing more. Nothing less.โ
Oh.
Of course.
โI need space,โ he muttered, stepping back. โI need time to think.โ
ยฉ chuulyssa 2024 - do not copy, plagiarize or repost my works on any platforms. do not translate.
starring. one piece. luffy, zoro, sanji, ace, law, shanks genre. nsfw, very suggestive, smau, crack, fluff
a/n. i had exams :'( planning to update on both blogs so keep an eye out!
a/n: idk what this is, just me trying to numb the pain of ace's death. this is based loosely on the hc that reader and luffy got "married" when they were seven. it's not a full-fledged fanfic tho, just a drabble. i'll post later, i'm just trying to get used to writing post-war arc atm
๐จ๐ฎ๐ฃ๐ค๐ฅ๐จ๐๐จ โ luffy is very shaken up after the events of marineford. you must help him, as his 'wife'
๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ง๐ง๐๐ฃ๐ โ luffy x reader ft. law, jinbei and simp!boa
"How long are you going to keep visiting him?" The voice of Jinbei woke you from your trance. You had once again snuck into the room Luffy was kept in despite constant warnings from Law and your own injuries.
You turned to find Jinbei standing in the doorway, arms crossed and a concerned expression on his face. His large frame seemed to fill the space, weary eyes trailing down your wounds.
"As long as it takes," you said simply.
Jinbei stepped inside, closing the door behind him. "You also need to take care of yourself. You can't pour from an empty cup, you know."
You glanced back at Luffy, who lay there, still unconscious. The monitor next to him was beeping steadily, albeit a little roughly. He was covered in bandages from head to toe, and his eyes were shut and eyebrows knitted together as if he was dealing with a terrible nightmare. But then again, the past few hours had been nothing but nightmares, and the hours before that even more so. Luffy had been suffering ever since he stepped foot in Sabaody, and it showed in his current state.
"This is the least I can do," you looked down at your hands, then back at Luffy's face. Your fingers reached out to brush the stray strands of his hair away from his face involuntarily, and you adjusted your position on the bed. He always liked to cuddle with you.
"And what of your own injuries?" Jinbei asked gently. "What if you push yourself too hard?"
"If my Captain is fine, so am I," you insisted. "More than that," you lay your head next to his, your feet reaching out to his to rub together with them softly, "I don't want him to wake up alone. Not after... well, you get it."
Jinbei sighed, shaking his head slightly, but there was a hint of understanding in his eyes. "Luffy-kun wouldn't want you to sacrifice your well-being for him."
"I'll come out in some time. Let me be here for now, for my own sake."
Jinbei nodded, opening the door for himself. "Very well, then."
The beeping of the monitor grounded you to the bed. Luffy needed you. You couldn't abandon him then, not when he was trapped in the darkness of his own mind.
After some time had passed, you finally decided to step outside the room. You spotted Law sitting near the forest outside of the ship. There was a sort of distant look in his eyes. He seemed lost in his thoughts, but you couldn't see what he was looking at.
"Trafalgar D. Water Law," you approached him slowly, and his gaze shifted towards you. "Can we talk?"
He turned to you, a mixture of surprise and wariness in his expression. "Y/N-ya. You shouldnโt be out here. What if you overexert yourself?"
"I'm completely fine, doctor," you smiled lightly, a gesture he returned, albeit it seemed a bit forced because of the overall tired look he carried on his face. "You didn't answer my question."
"Of course," he replied, gesturing towards an empty place next to him.
You nodded gratefully, sitting down beside him. "Thank you," you said. "What I wanted to ask was, why did you, our rival, risk everything you had to save Luffy?"
Lawโs gaze flickered to the sea, contemplating your question. "I thought I made it clear then. I wouldn't want a rival to die so soon."
"What's your motive?" You pressed.
He sighed, running a hand through his hair. "Well, to say the truth, we're pirates. I assume you can guess why."
Before you could respond, a loud crash echoed from inside the ship, jolting both of you from the moment. Jinbeiโs eyes widened, and he was off like a shot, heading back inside.
"A Navy attack?" You muttered, rushing after him, Law following your lead close behind.
As you reached the door to Luffyโs room, you saw debris scattered across the floor, splintered wood and twisted metal. Then, without warning, Luffy shot out of the room like a cannonball, bursting through the remnants of the door frame. He landed hard on the ground beside the deck, breathing heavily, eyes wild with a mix of confusion and rage.
Immediately, the three of you ran out to him. Law had said time and again that the slightest movement might cause his wounds to open up, and he may not survive. But to think that after what he had gone through, Luffy would be able to sit quietly in one place was foolish.
"Y/N!" Luffyโs voice rang out, raw and desperate. He looked around as if the entire world was closing in on him, a battle present only behind the closed doors of his mind. "I need to get out! I can'tโ stay here!"
But he didnโt seem to see or hear you. His breaths were coming out in frantic bursts. He was in a full-blown panic, eyes darting around as if he was still trapped in the chaos of Marineford. Jinbei and Law quickly approached to stop his antics.
Luffy didn't respond when Jinbei shouted at him. He didn't respond when his arms and feet were tugged at. He didn't respond when the Heart Pirates attempted to drag him back to stop his rampage. With one last look at you, he made his way into the enclosed forest, splitting trees from their roots in a hurry to get away from prying eyes.
The forest echoed with the sound of splintering wood as Luffy rampaged through the trees. Branches cracked and fell as he punched wildly wherever his heart told him to.
"Luffy-kun!" Jinbei called.
But Luffy didnโt hear him. He continued to lash out, tearing roots from the ground as if he could uproot the pain inside him. You stood at the edge of the chaos, heart racing as you watched your captain spiral further into darkness. "Luffy," you said quietly, voice and sound numbed from the tears that clouded your vision. "That's enough."
Luffy paused, muscles tense and trembling, before his eyes finally locked onto Jinbeiโs. "Is it true?" his voice broke. "Did Ace really die?"
Jinbei nodded slowly and sorrowfully. "Yes, Ace is dead."
The world around you seemed to freeze as the realization hit Luffy like a tidal wave. His face contorted with agony, and a heart-wrenching cry burst forth from his lips. "ACE!" The sound reverberated through the trees like a haunting echo.
His frantic energy seemed to dissipate, and he turned to you. His cheeks were wet with all the tears he shed, and his eyes were glistening with more. He stumbled toward you, collapsing to his knees before you.
Without hesitation, he engulfed you in a tight embrace, burying his face in your shoulder. The world around you faded away as you wrapped your arms around him, holding him as tightly as you could. "I can't lose you too!" he sobbed, voice muffled against your skin. "Not like Ace!"
You shook your head. "I'm not going anywhere without you."
"Ace said the same thing!" He buried his face into your chest and began crying once more, and you only tightened your hold on him. You kissed the top of his head, and his frantic movements seemed to rest.
Sometime later, the Heart Pirates left with the arrival of Rayleigh, and Jinbei engaged in a conversation with the latter. But then the air shifted again, this time charged with a different kind of energy. Boa Hancock emerged, striding into the clearing with a confidence that instantly commanded attention. Her long hair flowed behind her like a dark cloud, and a massive spread of food was arranged delicately in a large cart before her.
"I have returned with food for you, my h-hus-husband," she stuttered when she made eye contact with Luffy, and an old woman beside her sighed in apparent defeat.
"You can't even make eye contact with him, and you call him your husband," she said, to which Hancock simply glared.
You raised an eyebrow at Luffy. "I didn't realize you married her. Is this the second wife then?"
"Second... wife?" Hancock's knees seemed to give out, and with a hand on her chest, she landed on the ground, seemingly in agony.
"I feel bad for you," you said teasingly.
Hancock shot you a glare, but it lacked the venom you expected. "This is no joke! Luffy needs to eat!" Her tone was sharp, though her focus remained solely on Luffy.
Jinbei chuckled from where he stood, his hands raised defensively as he caught sight of the feast Hancock had brought. "There's no need to scold me for eating. I'm merely replenishing my strength."
"Just a little! You always eat too much!" Hancock scolded, quickly handing him a single piece of fruit, then ignoring you entirely as she focused her attention back on Luffy.
"You should eat, Luffy," Jinbei said loudly, glancing at Hancock. "Eating is living!"
Luffy placed a shaking hand on a piece of meat, then began to put it in his mouth, when, suddenly, he stopped, and glanced at you with concern.
"Why aren't you eating, Y/n?" He asked.
Before you could respond, Hancock seemed to relent, her eyes darting between the two of you. "Fine! You, over there," she pointed at you with her face in the sky, as if looking down at you. "You can have a bite. Just one, though!โ
Luffy grinned widely, grabbed a piece of meat from Hancockโs collection and turned to you. He shoved the food into your mouth, laughing as he watched your eyes widen in shock. "Eat up! You need to get better!"
Hancock's expression turned to one of horror as she realized what was happening. "No! Luffy, don'tโ" she started, but it was too late.
You swallowed quickly, glancing at Hancock, who looked torn between irritation and disbelief. Luffy simply beamed. โMy first bite goes to you! I canโt let you starve.โ He took another piece and offered it to you.
With a chuckle, you took a bite from his hand. Hancock sighed, her annoyance softening only when she saw how much Luffy seemed to enjoy this moment. "Don't get too used to it, you. I'll be the one taking care of him."
You smiled at her, and her irritation seemed to peak. Glancing at Luffy, who was still intent on feeding you, you said to her, "I think he has already made his choice clear."
a/n: i finally reached impel down arc so here's me coping with ace's inevitable death
read on ao3
๐จ๐ฎ๐ฃ๐ค๐ฅ๐จ๐๐จ โ stripped and locked up in impel down with your boyfriend doesn't sound too bad, not after the mind-blowing ways he helps you pass your time there
๐๐๐ฃ๐ง๐ โ fluff, angst, comfort, smut smut pure filthy smut
โโโโโโโโโโโโโโโ tw reader is a strategist on wb's crew, humiliation by stripping and parading by jail wardens, cat-calling by creepy prisoners, overall really uncomfortable till you get to ace, implied mentions of assault, public sex, exhibitionism, bondage by cuffs, nipple play, dry humping, oral both f and m!receiving, face sitting, begging kink, praise kink, cockwarming at the end
๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ง๐ง๐๐ฃ๐ โ ace x f!reader ft. cameo by crocodile
You shuddered from the cold wind as it rose goosebumps on the bare skin of your body.
It had been over an hour since you had been stripped of your clothing, plunged into boiling hot water to get 'baptized,' and hauled all the way here with nothing but a towel covering your naked frame. Slowly, as if to punish you through humiliation, you had been dragged by your hair downstairs, level by level, passing each and every cell filled with prisoners who gawked and wolf-whistled at your thighs and collarbones. They had hurled along each step, making a racquet and screaming for the warden to let you in their cell for 'just one night'. And for a moment, you seemed to think that was exactly what the jailers would do, before they yanked your hair up in another direction, and you heaved a sigh of relief despite the pain. It couldn't have been more horrifying.
Throughout your journey down to Level 6, you had passed many 'hells', as they called it. To think that an organization called themselves the harbingers of peace and unity, only to enforce such horrific scenes, and the even more terrifying formations such as the Buster Call, it was no wonder there was an army working day and night to bring down the World Government.
The stone of the final level had felt cold under your bare feet. Your head had been aching for a while now, and your body was trembling entirely. If it hadn't been for the ruthless jailer holding you up, you were sure your legs would have given in already.
"Move along!" The warden had screamed, and you had bitten a harsh remark before complying.
Here, too, the men of the lockers had screamed in delight at the sight of you, eyes widening out of their sockets and hands attempting to reach out to you from behind the bars. You had nervously hiked the towel that covered your breasts and crotch higher up, locking an arm to the side to stop it from falling over.
The head jailer, Domino, had opened a rather secluded cell. It was hidden well away from the rest, with just one cell in front of it. A man already sat inside it, his head hung low in defeat. She had pushed you inside it with all her might. You had fallen to the ground, the towel coming off your body slightly but still enough to hide the main parts. She had locked your hands apart, uncomfortably close to the other man.
Just as they had been about to lock you away for good with the man, the Warden, Magellan stopped and looked at you.
"To think that you still haven't learnt your lesson after escaping death from the World Government all this time," he snarled at you, and you glared right back at him. "Let us hope you rethink your decisions as you rot away here before your execution."
"I'm not gonna be executed."
"We will see about that. Oh, and," he walked back into the cell and tore the towel away from your body, "this won't matter in a few weeks."
You scrambled to hide yourself as the jailers left, everyone other than the Warden laughing uncontrollably. You could feel countless eyes on you from other cells. People craned their necks to get a better look at your body in spite of the dim lighting of the prison. You tried to move desperately to save some dignity, but the clanking of the chains around your wrists echoed in the room, and the vicious comments only grew louder. You seemed to be the only woman on this level, and the prisoners thus took this as a chance to memorize every curve of your body.
"That's enough," a familiar voice declared from beside you, and the jeering immediately stopped.
Your eyes focused on the man beside you. His messy black hair clung to his forehead, damp with sweat from the suffocating heat of the prison. His face looked hardened and tense. Every muscle in his body was coiled like a spring, as if he was ready to burst out in flames at any moment, despite the heavy shackles chaining him down.
Aceโs chest rose and fell with slow, measured breaths, the fury in his eyes growing hotter, sharper, as if silently promising death to all those who had had the nerve to comment on your fragile form, as well as to those who were the cause of it.
"Ace," you said softly, more so to yourself than you did to him. After all, how could he know the countless nights you had spent with the crew, awaiting his return as he sought revenge on Blackbeard? How could he know the sickness that overtook you when you found out of his imprisonment and ultimate execution? How could he know the relief you felt right now, just by the innocent sight of his face?
"Why are you here?" he said quietly, not looking up at you at all.
"Isn't it obvious? I'm a prisoner," you tried to inch closer towards him, but the chains that bound you did not budge.
"If the strategist I fell in love with did not foresee possible capture and execution, then she must be an impersonator."
You swallowed hard. You knew better than anyone that he wasn't angry with you โ he was angry with himself. Angry that, despite all the warnings, all the plans, things had gone so wrong. And now, here you both were: stripped of everything, thrown into a nightmare where escape seemed impossible.
Yet now, in this hellish prison, with the cold iron chains cutting into your wrists, all of that seemed to fade into the background. The mere sight of him, alive and breathing was enough to satisfy all the anxiety you had had for the past few weeks.
"You're right," you bowed your head down. "I knew this would happen."
"Then whyโ"
"I missed you."
A deafening silence hung around the air before his eyes snapped back to you angrily. His entire body tensed, the chains around his wrists rattling as he shifted.
"You missed me?" His voice was low, and the fury in it was unmistakable. "You knew the risks, you knew what they would do to you, and you came here anyway? Why? Because you missed me?"
"You don't get it, do you?" you said softly, eyes meeting his. "I would rather be here with you, in this place, than out there without you."
"You're being stupid right now," Ace growled. His fists clenched in the chains, the metal creaking as if they were just a breath away from snapping under the pressure. "Do you know what you've done? You could've escaped all this โ you didn't have to come here. Not for me. I'm not worth theโ"
"I love you," you interrupted. The fire in his gaze flickered briefly.
"You know I love you too, butโ" His voice softened. He wasn't good with words, never had been, and now, in this moment, he seemed to be fighting against them to keep you safe, even as you both sat in chains.
"If you're dying, I'll die with you," you whispered without hesitation.
Ace's breath hitched. He was angry, yes โ but now more than ever, at himself. He couldn't protect you from this. He couldn't protect you from the world that had dragged you both down here.
"You shouldn't have to die with me," Ace muttered.
"But I want to."
"You said you were not gonna get executed," he reminded you, to which you shrugged.
"That was a lie. Of course, given the blocked exit points and the tight security against Whitebeard, there's no way we could escape from here without external help. Even if we do, assuming we got a few allies, what with Blackbeard becoming a Warlord, the chances of survival are 6%, which is not a lot, really."
"Wow. All of that flew right over my head," Ace smiled, one leg hiking over your hip to inch you closer. "Why didn't they dress you in prison clothes?"
"I threw a spear coated with sea stone at Magellan."
"Oh, is that why he was huffing around? That's my girl." Ace struggled to kiss your forehead, so you brought your face closer to his to help him. "I'm assuming they didn't try anything."
You shook your head, and his smile grew. "You look cold, baby."
"You know the drill," you giggled, crawling as close to his body as the cuffs allowed you to be, snuggling into his warmth. The goosebumps that coated your bare skin disappeared one by one. Ace let your hair back with his mouth before leaning down to kiss a cold nipple.
You gasped.
"Don't worry. Look," you looked in the direction he hinted at and watched most, if not all of the prisoners, drop down fainting.
"Conqueror's Haki?"
He winked in return before going back to the other nipple to lick it. Your body shook wildly. Ace's thighs stiffened around yours to lock your position on his lap, and you humped along his clothed cock, getting wetter by the second. Your tits bounced up and down with each movement, and he couldn't help but bury his face in them, sucking hickeys all over the area to make you wear his claim.
It didn't help that his body heat was beginning to rub onto you too, deepening the pit in your stomach. Clasping your thighs together, you nuzzled your face into his neck to lick your way up it. Ace laughed at the attempt, because although both his hands were currently chained to either side of his head, he was still very much in control of the situation.
"This is just like every day in our ship, princess," he groaned. "Tied up like this as I fuck my way into you, isn't that right, pretty?"
You mewled in response, the heat from the friction generating in between the rubbing of both of your crotches growing unbearable now. It was like music to his ears. Ace smirked and started to move his hips in a circular motion steadily.
"Is this enough for you, or should I lend my mouth to you too, princess?"
Your eyes widened and you nodded vigorously, stopping the humping movements before standing up and bucking your hips towards his face. You looked down into his eyes, but they focused on only one thing: the absolutely beautiful cunt in front of them.
The wetness dripped onto his face charmingly, and you swear you could've come just by that sight alone. He moved his head forward before sticking out a tongue and rubbing it softly in one stroke along your slit. You whined, legs giving in, but he held you up by putting his face under your cunt.
You felt your feet being lifted off the ground, and Ace was right under you, drinking in your juices so as to not let even a single drop go to waste. You moaned his name loudly, loud enough that you were scared the jailers might return, or a demon guard might catch the two of you, or maybe even the unconscious prisoners might wake up. But right now, all that mattered to you was Ace, and the mouth he was putting to such good use by sucking your clit like it was his last meal.
Your hips shook violently, and it took all of Ace's will power not to drop you down harshly onto his dick right then and there.
"Didn't know you grew so sensitive without me," he teased, the vibrations of his voice further aiding into your release.
"Shut up," you cried, and he grinned against your cunt.
"Roger that, baby."
At those words, you came as hard as you could. It had been so long since you had felt this good. All those countless nights you had spent putting on Ace's cologne onto his pillows and fingering yourself were nothing compared to the bliss you felt right now, his warm and wet saliva sticking out of your cunt and mixing in with your release.
You got off his face, trembling. You still hadn't gotten completely over the mind-blowing orgasm he had just delivered to you. You watched him lick his lips clean before he tried bending down to lick your cunt clean as well. You giggled, bucking your hips up to allow the access, giving him a loud moan in return.
"My turn," you said, bending down to nuzzle your face on his shorts. It seemed as if the jailers had decided to let your chains a bit looser than Ace's to aid you in covering yourself. If only they knew the way you were putting that blessing to use now.
"Yes, please, baby," he groaned, voice hoarse from eating you out for the first time in months.
You pulled his shorts down with your teeth, batting your eyelashes at him as his big cock sprung free from its shackles. It had been a while since you had taken his whole length in your mouth or cunt, but he seemed bigger than ever now that you were caged together.
"So big, so pretty," you muttered, peppering kisses over his balls and watching him crumble underneath the touches. "I wonder what happens if I do this?" You gave one kitten-like lick along the tip of his cock, and his eyes snapped shut and he bucked his hips up roughly.
"Fuck, ah."
"Crude language," you pouted, and his cock twitched at the sounds you were making. "May I please suck your cock?"
"Please," he choked out a moan, and you smiled victoriously, engulfing his long dick into your warm mouth in one, practised motion. Your cheeks were completely filled, yet you forced them to move up and down to please your needy boyfriend.
"Ahโ fuck, so good baby, you're doing as well as always," he mumbled, looking up to the ceiling with tears in his eyes at the growing pleasure.
He was such a reckless mess for you, and you loved every bit of it. Smiling lightly, you bobbed your head up and down his dick to lubricate it with your saliva and make your movement easier. Unfortunately, you couldn't use your hands, but that made the determination in you to help him climax without a handjob even brighter.
"More, more, more! It's so goodโ ahโ I can't imagine what I've been missing out on all these months," Ace groaned loudly, and it took one last effort from you to deep-throat him, making him spasm wildly around, tears reaching down his shirtless body and eyes burning from pure ecstasy.
"I'm gonnaโ"
You hummed along his dick, which seemed to be the final thing he needed to let go. With one final jerk of his hips, he came down your throat. So much. It was so much, too much for you. And yet, you swallowed everything down to the last drop. You didn't know how the food in Impel Down tasted, but by God it could never surpass the taste of his cum.
The two of you lay in the cell for some time after that, neither of you moving an inch. Although Ace still had limited movements he could choose from, you had longer chains and were thus able to move around much freely. So when your lips finally stopped shaking, you got up from your position to look around at the other prisoners.
"How long are they gonna be knocked out?"
"I don't know," Ace said, spreading his legs to invite you over to sit on his cock. "The Haki effects have obviously worn out now, I have no idea why they're still unconscious. Perhaps just lazy."
"Or maybe sleepy, like you always are," you giggled, hovering his cock, ready to slowly take him in inch by inch.
"That's not nice," he chuckled darkly before snapping his legs up to pull you down onto his cock harshly. You almost screamed, muffling the loud sound of protest against his neck, biting a hickey into it as revenge. He whimpered in response but continued to move his hips up and down nevertheless.
"You won't believe how much I've missed this," he murmured in your ear. "You riding me, looking oh-so-pretty with your boobs bouncing at the impact."
"You're so fucking dirty, honey," you tried acting as if the constant rutting of his cock into your cunt didn't affect you in anyway, but this position made him feel even bigger than your mouth had adjusted to some time ago, and now you felt as if you were gonna be torn up right from the pussy.
For quite some time, the only sounds heard on the entire floor were of Ace's balls slapping against your bare cunt, your squeals whenever his dick hit just the right spot, and his pants whenever he heard the melody that escaped your lips. The smell of sex lingered around the area, and you wondered what would happen if it reached any of the jailers who were in charge of this level, but it was hard to think too much with Ace whispering about all the fantasies he had had about you during his various trips before he got captured, about how every dream you appeared in used to leave him with a hard cock, and how he used to jerk off to the thought of your delicious cunt that awaited him once he reached back home.
You wanted to tell him all you felt too: about how it was getting so hard and suffocating being in the same ship as others without him, how your own fingers could never satisfy you the way his slender ones and coarse tongue did, and how the heat pooling in your cunt grew warmer and warmer till you couldn't take it anymore and at times burst into tears from the faux-pleasure humping yourself dry on his pillows would bring to you.
But you couldn't get a word out. Not with how his dick was rutting into you at a quicker pace now. Not with how balls-deep he was getting inside you now. Not with how you could feel his high approaching rapidly, and how he was getting more-than-ready to get his load into you after fucking you senseless in this dirty, dirty prison ward.
"I'm gonna come, I'm gonna come, I'm gonna come, I'm gonna come, I'mโ" you chanted more to yourself than you did to him, and he shushed you.
"Hush, baby, me too," he groaned loudly, itching to touch you with his fingers even though he knew he couldn't. "At the count of three, yea?"
"Yes!" You cried back in response, your own hips moving at the speed of light. Ace counted backwards, and you both released heavily, liquids intermixing and spilling onto the floor. Yet the two of you paid no heed, continuing to move against each other like nothing happened. You bounced against him, ignoring the sploch! noises the sound of your cums together made, the stickiness encouraging you to get off your high using the man in front of you as your fucktoy.
Soon, the two of you had calmed down. You were still sitting on his cock, helping him keep it nice and warm. You lay your head onto his chest, both of you breathing heavily. It had seemed like a dream come true for you. Not only had you managed to reunite with Ace, but it was real, you really were there in his arms at that very moment, catching your breath after the wreck you had made on his cock.
From the cell in front of you came a chuckle. Your eyes snapped opened, and Ace lifted his head to glare at the source of the sound. Surely, no one had enough guts to announce their presence and interrupt your intimate moment.
Your eyes landed on a tall figure standing in the shadows of the cell across from yours. His skin was tanned and weathered. His slicked-back black hair gleamed under the dim light, along with a large golden hook in place of his left hand. His eyes were fixed on you both. He looked both amused and disdained. A cigar was perched lazily between his lips. He didnโt seem fazed by the prison, by the chains, or by the two of you tangled together on the cold floor. In fact, he seemed entertained by it all.
"Well, well," Crocodile purred sarcastically. "Looks like I've got front-row seats to quite the show." His smirk widened. "Didn't realize Impel Down had become so... lively."
starring. one piece. luffy, zoro, sanji, ace, franky, law, shanks genre. smau, crack, fluff
ask. could you do the one peice boys finding out you were injured and were hiding it from them? (also if you feel comfortable with it could you add franky?)
starring. one piece. luffy, zoro, sanji, ace, law, shanks genre. smau, crack, fluff
ask. can you please do a smau where they accidentally text about you to you when they meant if for someone else (pre relationship)? it's just so cute to see our pookies embarrassed.