we were bound to burn

ran, 30, part time writer/full time procrastinator, i should be watering my plants but instead im crying over fictional firefighters

[lvnce-mcclain]

i think i belong to you (hope you feel the same) | 41k | mature

Buck’s taking him to therapy, where he knows Eddie’s therapist’s name and Eddie’s entire history with him; Buck, who let himself into Eddie’s house with food from Eddie’s favorite coffee shop with coffee crafted perfectly for Eddie’s tastes; Buck, who apparently has a book on Eddie’s coffee table with so many dog-eared pages it’s like any interruption at Eddie’s house is worth putting it down.

Buck, who touches him with a devotion as palpable as all the little pieces of himself scattered throughout Eddie's home.

Eddie thinks he might have solved his own question, but he’s afraid to look at the answer too closely—because he’s fairly certain his best friend is in love with him, and Eddie can’t remember a single thing about him.

Or, the one where Eddie wakes up from the shooting only to think he was hurt in a certain 7.1 earthquake years prior and learns to appreciate the life he's created for himself since then.

[i-twink-therefore-i-am]

new type of guy just dropped

[weedstoner]

I think that learning how to deescalate conflicts between children is a really useful skill to have, even if you don't have and don't plan on having children, because you will inevitably have to use those skills to deescalate conflicts between grown adults as well. generally you should kind of expect that, as a calm rational adult, you'll have to parent other strangers from time to time. this is part of living in society.

[emziess]

In love with Eddie? It wouldn't be so crazy? 9-1-1 ((Inspired by this video))

[lamardeuse]

oh and while we're at it can we talk about this fantastic dynamic

[eddiesmedbag]

i don't think eddie knows he treats buck as a spouse, and i think him realizing that may be crucial to eddie figuring it out.

in his failmarriage to shannon, they were apart more than they were together. shannon left because she felt eddie wasn't treating her like a spouse/partner. in his childhood, husband = provider, so that's what he did. i truly don't think he realizes that he has unintentionally cast buck into that spouse role in a way he never did shannon.

every person who has directly* called buck and eddie out has almost always called buck out. christmas elf, now tommy and maddie. but aside from that one bobby conversation about commitment with the obvious pause(*), no one has ever pushed eddie the same way. i think that is the key.

i think eddie knows he loves buck almost as much as christopher and no one else comes close. it's why eddie subconsciously pitted them against each other in 8x09 when no one asked him to. when buck would never ask him to.

but no one has ever mentioned how insane buck and eddie are to eddie, and i think that's the important for eddie. he doesn't know because he doesn't let himself see it. i think it is good for him to get distance from buck and realize how it just feels wrong. it's important that he realizes his happiest moments are when he, chris, and buck are together. i don't even think eddie realizes the only times he gets truly mad at buck are when he feels distance. he needs someone to help him see the whole picture. where buck denies it because he is scared and refuses to look at it, i think (after some introspection) eddie would accept it much easier than buck. which is why we have seen it brought up to buck in canon already, but no one has said anything to eddie yet.

[agenderlesstree]

oh i love them so so much

[only-cat-memes]

[sroloc--elbisivni]

[grabs your shirt] listen. listen to me. the practical is holy. the everyday is sacred. the simple act of surviving is divine. do you get it? sanctity begins at home, in the hands that build and the lives we live and the deaths we die and the worms that eat our bodies. if making something by hand is not worthy of veneration then nothing is.

[cheaphalloweencostume]

the world gets a lot easier when you learn to be wrong without getting pissed or doubling down. saying, ‘you’re right, that makes sense, I was misinformed, thanks for telling me’ instead of going to war over something your ego’s latched onto will save you time, energy, and the embarrassment of sounding like a whiny little bitch

[cheaphalloweencostume]

actually that’s precisely how i grew up and how i formed an outsized ego attachment to being correct and how i became a self righteous little asshole for most of my teen and adult life before learning the lesson presented in figure 1

[gayeddies]

8x11 / 9x01

[cosmicallytiredd]

hate to break this to you but if you call yourself self aware but you are only aware of your faults and never acknowledge your strengths you are not self aware. you just repackaged your self hatred

[notfirehose]

the reason buck is so jealous of hen and eddie's friendship is because him and eddie aren't on the same page about their place in each other's lives.

in eddie's mind, his priorities are as follows:

christopher (son)

buck (partner)

hen, chimney, etc. (friends)

to eddie, buck is in an entirely separate category than the rest of his friends. we can see this in the kitchen fight, where eddie expects buck to be his main emotional support and partner through their grief. he doesn't expect this from hen or karen, who are in his mental friend category. buck isn't just his friend, he's separate. more important. no matter how much he bonds with hen, she'll never go above buck. because buck is his partner above all else.

the problem is... buck doesn't know this.

in buck's mind, eddie's priorities are as follows:

christopher (son)

buck, hen, chim etc. (friends)

buck doesn't see himself as inherently more important than all of their other friends. buck is very aware that him and eddie aren't together, especially after last season. so, when buck sees himself in this friend category, everyone else is a threat. he's essentially putting himself in competition with eddie's other friends because his place in eddie's life feels replaceable. if hen becomes eddie's new best friend, where does that leave buck? so, he huffs and puffs and stresses whenever anyone else gets close to eddie. his current category (friend) doesn't give him the security he needs to be a normal person.

and i'm sure eddie doesn't even realize this. because to him, it's obvious buck is something special, that he's a permanent fixture in eddie's life. but that isn't obvious to buck. and until they can put into words the unspoken thing between them, they'll keep miscommunicating. and buck will keep being crazy <3

[buddie-romance]

i know it's NOT the reason, but i just think it would be COOL and FUNNY if the reason hen and eddie were all hanging out lately and close and telepathic and falling all over themselves laughing at the ceremony was bc eddie had just recently come out to hen and karen at their kitchen table and was of late experiencing the giddy freedom of finally having someone know. and that being okay. and buck, whose dreams are about to come true, is three feet away losing his ever loving shit bc he's so jealous of hen and eddie's deep friendship bond

[bisexualbellamyblakeinjail]

Buck, you have to stop, it's past his bedtime. Yeah, yeah. Say goodnight, Buck. Okay. We'll pick this up tomorrow.

[eddiesmedbag]

eddie having solo scenes with hen (and karen) AND chimney, but not with buck this episode. meanwhile the whole episode, buck was desperately trying to include himself in something he didn't even want so he didn't feel left out. BEAUTIFUL

[shnehollander]

buck: im not insane right?? LIKE YOU GET ME YOU UNDERSTAND ME!!!!?? ravi: No ❤️