i had this friend, who friend broke up with me, after pretending shit was fine, with a longass paragraph. i was kinda blindsided. i could sense it coming from the vibes of the universe but i had no idea why it was happening, and her longass paragraph didn't clear it up any.
i asked her what i did and she said i "needed to reflect and look inward." which. wasn't clear at all and it gave me no direction as to where i needed to reflect and look inward.
but i accepted it. i was sad because we had been friends for 4 years. she became friends again with someone very negative before, who shit-talked everyone, so maybe if i changed, i could be her friend again. i was still friends with all of our mutual friends, as much as i could be with all my health issues.
we went on a school trip together in spring of last year. since we still mostly ran in the same circles, we ended up hanging out on the trip, since we couldnt be alone in a foreign country.
me, her, and three of our mutual friends go to a large field with many people all over, some hanging around, some biking, some walking.
we see a group of friends, looking around our age, kinda cool lookin too. they've got dyed hair and scemo clothing. she goes over and says hi. im minding my beeswax enjoying the sights. around 5 minutes later she comes back and says. "oh they're some of *those* alt people"
it sends up a flag in my brain so i ask a little. "what do you mean?"
she goes "they're like weird, wearing tails, just yknow weird"
from someone who makes it known she was bullied. mainly for being queer and autistic.
i think it's a little sad how quickly she always was to judge others and then go "it's just me being honest" "im just being blunt"
but there is a difference between being honest and being cruel.
there is a difference between being blunt and judging others.
there is a difference between you not liking something personally and judging others for self-expression
it's not weird. they were literally just living their life.
so i'm kind of glad i have her out of my life. im glad for that confusing paragraph. im glad she cut ties with me. because im sentimental. i would have kept her in my life forever. but i dont want to be around people who judge others simply for existing as they wish to exist.
