Augustinus de Caelo

howdy!! i'm an artist and writer. ✧ 【♀】 | she/her ✧ asexual & bisexual ✧ neoplatonist, socdem, radfem.

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✧ idolum verendum falsum

ille utique meruit neque timoris ira velati, neque violentiae ignavae. ille modo meruit vitae pacatae. requiescat in pace, bellator Lee Rigby. post scriptum. dictiones politicae aut/et religiosa, iustificationes violentiae et merdes similes delebitur et auctores sui etiam ablegabuntur. monitus es. gratias vobis ago.

an illustration for my monography on psychopathology of Lee Rigby's murder. this piece depicts contraphobic attitude in paranoid personality constitution (his killers have this personality constitution, i.e. paranoid personality disorder) and paranoid delusions, i.e. perpetrators saw Lee as an immediate threat, although their fear and cowardice has been masked with anger and violence (the essence of contraphobic attitude in paranoid personality constitution).

to be clear, I don't justify them with their mental illness. it doesn't matter which mental disorders, traumas they have, they're still vile, hypocritical, fucking cowards and rabid animals, not even human beings. the person commits the crime, not disease.

if you're curious, I was inspired by Louis Wain's cats, fractals, Zalgo, Yume Nikki and YN fan games (especially .flow and Yume 2kki). the text overlay is inspired by malware, actual and fictional one. here's a version without the text overlay:

but not only that.

likewise, I don't aim to abuse Lee Rigby's murder as something extraordinarily shocking in sake of blatant, vulgar shock. indeed, it's disgusting, nigh necrosadistic and terrifying crime. I was crying reading news. I couldn't fall asleep till morning after accidental encounter with article about this murder during my nightly scrolling of Wikipedia. my horror, grief, and rage have been lingering since that ill-fated day, even though I haven't seen Lee, and I was 7 when it happened. believe me, Lee has a personal significance to me, I love him like my own father, no matter how weird it sounds. the only reason why I wrote my monograph, drew this illustration, etc is out of love for him. otherwise, I'd never have done all that with my own hand, my mind.

I think this candid piece of my soul is enough to make it clear that my goal isn't an exploitation at all.

[translation of title, description & P.S.: (lat.) ✧ false awesome [which is to be feared or revered] idol he certainly deserved neither reverence [awe(?)] veiled with rage, nor cowardly violence. he merely deserved a peaceful life. rest in peace, warrior Lee Rigby

P.S. political or/and religious statements, justifications of violence and similar shit will be deleted, and their authors will be banned. you've been warned. thank you.]

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✧ Trooper Nicholas Drake of Blues and Royals*

… and the mysterious trooper hiding under the helmet is Nick Drake, lo and behold.

unreleased, unfairly forgotten experimental drawing [14.02.2026]. actually it was fun to draw.

I drew Nick just because I wanted so.

btw, welcome, fellow Nick Drake fans. feel free to reach me out (comments/or even DMs), I don't bite!!

* “Blues and Royals” is a cavalry regiment of the British Army.

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✧ gladius magnus, tibia utricularis et Montes Scotici

another character based on flag palette — longsword lesbian.

A Longsword Lesbian (LSL) is an exclusionary lesbian fighting against lesbian erasure. It is an endonym for those who believe the label of “lesbian” has been eroded or diminished by non-binary, pronoun non-conforming, and multisexual-spectrum lesbians.

I decided to wield her with claymore — the Scottish longsword. she's a Scottish sergeant.

there's a stereotype about true Scots that they don't wear anything under their kilts. so, if you call yourself a lesbian, she'll kindly check your kilt, and if she finds out that you're actually a man — you'll be expelled from her platoon with shame and loud laughter behind you.

of course, it's just a satire both of this stereotype and erasure of lesbians. however, if lesbian erasure wasn't a sad truth and an essential issue, I haven't to ridicule it.

remember, lesbian is a woman who loves women.

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✧ luna solque

WLW royal couple based on Sun Lesbian & Moon Lesbian flags palettes.

their appearances and personalities are based on real celestial bodies, not labels. e.g. “moon lesbian” is a stern field marshal with scars (craters on the real Moon) and vitiligo (lunar maria; her skin is pale, so it's probably not visible), while “moon lesbian” label suggests melancholy and “femininity” (i.e., “femme”). the “sun lesbian” has become a princess, “slay diva”, who enjoys spending her time at the gym, feels like a star both literally and figuratively, she also has freckles (sun spots). the “sun lesbian” label stands for activity and masculinity (i.e., “butch”).

I did this not only out of aesthetic and artistic reasons, but also as a protest against heteronormative and gender-stereotypical lesbian terms (butch and femme) and labels containing these terms and against gender stereotypes in general. as you can see, none of these characters fits these terms.

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✧ Infamia (disgrace) (1975)

“You can show soldiers killing each other at peak time in any country in the world. But you can't show the bearer of the Victoria Cross kissing his sweetheart in front of the sentry box because that'd be disgraceful and obscene”

Photographer: Private Murphy Illingworth

Models: Private Murphy Illingworth & Captain Elliot Trafford

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✧ ira nobilis

Amicus anima, inimicus Ego est.

A redraw of the two very old pictures.

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✧ custos vigilans

The drawing of Murphy, one of the characters of my developing game. He's a Queen's Guard who struggles with paranoia.

[custos vigilans — (lat.) the vigilant guard]

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✧ ideae de migratione persequens

I drew this piece as I've been thinking a lot about migration lately. I don't feel at home in my country, but anxiety, danger and fear of tomorrow dwell deep in my mind. unfortunately I'm addicted to doomscrolling. this thing gave me an insomnia, panic attacks and mental instability. the good news is that I actively plan to do it and my wish is possible to fullfil.

title: obsessive thoughts about migration (Latin)

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✧ natura complicata

diptych based on my visions of Nick Drake and perception of him through the platonism (my worldview) and biology prisms.

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❝ Nick Drake corpus caeleste fuerat, sed ille corpore humano acquisivit. sed ille illud amisit… eheu! finis est. sed subito Nick Drake corpore caeleste factus est. natura sua complicata et mirabilis est ❞

p.s. this weird text about Nick Drake in Latin I wrote by myself after 24+ hours of lack of sleep. perceive it as you want.

translation:

❝ Nick Drake had been the heavenly body, but [once] he got the human one. but he lost it... alas! this is the end. but suddenly Nick Drake turned into the heavenly body. his nature is complex and wonderful ❞

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✧ in utero

* Mittelschmerz — is a term for pain due to ovulation.

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donum ad meae amicae @fluorurodecobre ♡

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✧ occursus extraneus

❝ …can I take a picture of thou? thou art magnificent! ❞

Nick Drake as a Five with a Four wing (5w4; enneagram type). The original 5w4 personification is created by KERKIKERK.

I type Nick Drake as a Social Five with a Four wing (SO 5w4). This typing is very unpopular (he's usually typed as a Social Four), but I think it isn't a problem.

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✧ basium

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a late Valentine's Day piece.

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meet the artist

that's me.

original Sabitsuki artwork (in the kinn list): cryptidhermit.

Oni Musume artwork is a Yume 2kki in-game art (wallpaper).

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✧ mare pacatum est.

here is a picture of Nereah, my character.

I've wanted to draw something simple and cosy, because I'm a bit tired of highly detailed artworks :^

(Latin) the sea is peaceful.

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✧ artwork summary 2024

although this year was hard and discouraging to me, I endured existential crisis, I fully satisfied with my artworks and progress.

Happy new year!

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✧ praeco lunae roseae

I believe that Nick Drake's fate is something greater than that he had. His immortal soul had been redeemed and found a peace beyond this world. Nick isn't deserving of ending up pathetic ashes buried under the oak in the middle of nowhere, somewhere in England. That's the essence of this piece.

✧ The small piece of lore (written by me)

【 From the Gospel of the Pink Moon 】

❝…anguish. ✧ CHAPTER 2 1 He was carried away at the end of the night; he was sleeping. 2 Lucent silver luminaries carried him under their wings; a star flared up after. 3 He woke up and found himself under Crucis [1] 4 In the garden where a fruit from a tree of the knowledge of good and evil has been eaten in order to reveal the Gnosis and redeem; 5 He dipped into the Letah river, river of the oblivion, to forget and purge his sins and aching corporeal life; 6 to assist him The heavenly Mother was sent; She said he is not deserved end up just falling into the Abyss so he will be permanently redeemed 7 and turned into the radiant silver star, moving the prime mover, the world soul 8 protecting sacred soul from wicked sublunary things… ❞

[1] — the 'Southern Cross' constellation (author's note)

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I couldn't find complete previous chapter 1 and following ones. This mysterious gospel was discovered by me in my grandfather's shed in Bradenham, Norfolk. I asked him about it, he said this manuscript was given to him in 1979 by a stranger who was walking around nearby the vinyl shop in London. The text of the gospel was written in Old English. And this drawing… It's painted on the reverse of the page with chapter 2 using colour pencils and oil paints.

* — (Latin) The herald of the Pink Moon.

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✧ anima mundi et carcer carneum

anima mundi — [= soul of the world]. gnostic, stoic, hermetic concept suggesting that the world is animated by a soul much like the human body, connecting all living beings.

A piece made for a cover for an article about Nick Drake's abnormal psychology.

featured objects:

the right side: the Solar system, the Milky Way galaxy, relic radiation (cosmic microwave background) (the colourful sparks), an invisible Big Bang plasma and cosmic strings (greyish lines), TON 618 (nearer to centre of the picture's top edge, the brightest observable radio-loud quasar and also the biggest known black hole).

the left side: protein biosynthesis sequence (transcription, translation), structures of proteins, prion structure (roughly, mutated protein without DNA/RNA, which is pathogenic), set of human cells (astrocyte, epithelial cells, red blood cells, gametes).