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Self introduction
Hello beautiful,
How are you doing today? I thought, it might be a fun thing to get to know the person behind the blog - Wandering Soul Garden - a little better. So consider this personal blog as a glimpse behind the scenes. Here I'll post - and reblog a lot of stuff that resonates with me. (Heads up, think: books, cats, tea, neurodivergency memes, astrology, tarot, music, spirituality, art...)
Some things about me:
Sending love to everyone who is just… tired. Life is a lot right now. Whether it’s decision fatigue, anxiety fatigue, information fatigue, career fatigue, social fatigue, financial fatigue, or the exhaustion of getting your life back together, give yourself space and grace. Be still for a bit. You deserve to recharge.
Let me introduce you to my babies! These are Angel (left) and Spike (right).
Dear ones, all of you is welcome here <3. Also note that this is a LGBTQIA+ safe space and blog. 💜
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As I shuffle the cards, I'm not calling on one particular person or energy. I'm simply asking for the conversation that is most needed at this point in your journey. For some of you, these words may come from your higher self. For others, they may feel like a message from your intuition, your future self, someone whose feelings remained unspoken, a spirit guide, the Universe, or even a version of yourself you left behind. Rather than forcing one voice to come through, I'm allowing the cards to reveal who has the message that your heart is most ready to receive.
As always, take what resonates and leave what doesn't
Hello, Pile 1!
Keywords: Higher Self, Inner Wisdom, Self-Trust, Leadership, Healing, Emotional Renewal and Stability Cards- Emperor, Page of Swords, Temperance, Ace of Cups, Four of Wands, Five of Swords
When I first connected with your energy, I wasn't asking for one particular person to step forward. I simply asked, "Who has the conversation that this soul has been waiting to hear?" Almost immediately, I felt a presence that was incredibly familiar, not because it belonged to someone outside of you, but because it has been with you your entire life. This is the voice that has whispered to you in moments of uncertainty, nudged you when something didn't feel right, comforted you after disappointment, and celebrated your victories long before anyone else noticed them. It is your higher self speaking. The wiser, calmer, more expansive version of you that has never forgotten who you truly are, even during the moments when you did.
This is what they are saying to you right now-
The first thing I need you to know is that I am incredibly proud of you.
I know that these words may not mean much at first because you're so used to measuring your progress by what is visible. You look at the opportunities you haven't received yet, the dreams that still feel distant, the parts of your life that seem unfinished, and you quietly tell yourself that you should be further ahead by now. But I don't see you the way you see yourself. I don't measure your life by milestones, titles, achievements, or timelines. I measure it by your resilience. I measure it by every single time you chose to keep going even when you couldn't see the outcome. I measure it by the kindness you continued to offer after disappointment, by the hope you somehow managed to protect after being let down, and by the strength it took to rebuild yourself every single time life asked you to begin again.
You have spent so much of your journey believing that confidence is something you will finally receive once your circumstances improve. You tell yourself that once you have the right career, the right relationship, the right amount of money, the right recognition, then you will finally believe in yourself. But you've misunderstood where confidence is born. It was never supposed to arrive after success. It was meant to exist before it. You have been waiting for life to hand you permission to trust yourself, when in reality that permission has always belonged to you.
There is a version of you that already exists beyond your fear. A version of you that doesn't constantly ask whether they're making the right decision because they understand that every decision teaches something valuable. A version of you that no longer apologises for taking up space, no longer feels guilty for wanting more, no longer shrinks themselves just to make other people comfortable. That version of you is not a fantasy. It is your natural state. The only difference between who you are now and who you are becoming is the amount of trust you are willing to place in yourself.
I know how often you question your intuition. I know how many times you've felt something deep inside, only to convince yourself that you were imagining it. You ask other people for reassurance. You search for signs. You look for certainty before allowing yourself to move forward. There is nothing wrong with seeking wisdom, but somewhere along the way, you began believing that everyone else's voice deserved more authority than your own. That has to change.
You have been collecting answers while ignoring the one place they have always existed. Within you.
You are far wiser than you realise.
You notice things that others overlook. You sense shifts before they become visible. Your heart recognises truth long before your mind is willing to accept it. Yet every time your intuition speaks, fear interrupts the conversation. Fear asks for proof. Fear asks for guarantees. Fear tells you to wait just a little longer. And while caution has protected you in many ways, it has also delayed you from stepping into experiences your soul has been quietly preparing for.
I am not asking you to become reckless. I am asking you to remember your own authority. You were never meant to live your life asking everyone else what they think before deciding what you already know.
There has also been something else weighing heavily on your heart. Whether you admit it or not, you've been carrying the invisible pressure of trying to hold everything together. You feel responsible for so much. You want to make the right choices. You want to create stability. You want the people you love to be okay. You want your future to feel secure before allowing yourself to relax. Sometimes it feels as though you're carrying responsibilities that no one else can see, and because they're invisible, you assume you have to carry them alone.
You don't. Strength was never meant to mean isolation.
Some of your greatest breakthroughs will happen the moment you stop believing that asking for support is a sign of weakness. There is incredible courage in allowing yourself to be held. There is wisdom in admitting that even the strongest people become tired. You have spent so much energy proving that you can survive difficult seasons that you've almost forgotten what it feels like to simply receive.
And that is what I want to talk to you about next.
➡️Receiving.
You have become so familiar with striving that receiving feels unfamiliar. Even when something beautiful begins to enter your life, part of you instinctively prepares for it to disappear. You question compliments. You question kindness. You question opportunities. You wonder whether happiness will last or whether disappointment is waiting around the corner. This isn't because you're pessimistic. It's because your heart has learned to protect itself. But protection and peace are not the same thing.Your heart deserves more than survival. There is emotional fulfilment approaching your life in ways you cannot fully imagine yet. This isn't simply about romance, although for some of you love will certainly become part of this story. This is about feeling emotionally nourished. Feeling understood. Feeling safe enough to exhale. Feeling like you no longer have to earn your place in people's lives because the right people naturally choose you.
You have spent enough time wondering whether you belong. You do. There is a space in this world that has been quietly waiting for you to arrive exactly as you are. The future you keep praying for isn't asking you to become someone completely different. It is asking you to stop abandoning yourself every time fear tells you that you are not enough.
I know you sometimes worry that you've missed your chance. You compare your timeline to other people's. You watch others achieve milestones while wondering why your own journey seems slower. But what you don't see is that your path has never been designed to mirror anyone else's. You are building something that requires a stronger foundation. The waiting has not been punishment. It has been preparation.
Every lesson you've learned is becoming part of the life you're creating.
Nothing has been wasted. Nothing you've experienced has been meaningless. Every setback, every tear, every delay, and every lesson has quietly shaped the person you're becoming and prepared you for what's ahead. Not even the moments you wish had never happened. Everything has been teaching you how to hold the blessings that are finding their way toward you now. But there is one truth I need you to stop avoiding. You are still fighting battles that your soul has already outgrown. Some of these battles exist only inside your own mind. They appear whenever you replay conversations that ended years ago. They appear when you imagine what you should have said, what you should have done differently, how you could have prevented certain endings. They appear when you continue trying to prove your worth to people who made up their minds long ago. They appear every time you compare yourself to someone else's success and quietly convince yourself that you are falling behind.
These battles cannot be won because they were never meant to continue.
Every moment you spend arguing with your past is a moment stolen from your future. I know there are people whose opinions still echo inside your mind. I know there are disappointments that left scars deeper than anyone realises. I know there are memories that still visit you unexpectedly. But listen to me carefully.
You no longer have to convince anyone of your value.Not the people who misunderstood you. AND Not the people who underestimated you.Not even the version of yourself that still believes you have something to prove.The life ahead of you will not be built through winning arguments. It will be built through choosing peace.
That is your real victory.
So today, I ask you to put down the invisible weight you've been carrying. Stop rehearsing conversations that will never happen. Stop asking why certain people failed to see your heart. Stop measuring yourself against timelines that were never yours. Come back to yourself. Because the person you've been searching for... the one who knows what to do, who trusts the next step, who believes they are capable, who leads with quiet confidence... has been here all along.
You.
I've never left your side.
And I never will.
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Hello there, Pile 2 :)
Cards:Five of Swords, Nine of Pentacles, Hierophant, Nine of Cups, King of Swords, Five of Wands Keywords: Unspoken feelings, regret, reflection, independence, self-worth, commitment, spiritual lessons, emotional fulfillment, truth, clarity, communication, inner conflict, overcoming challenges.
When I asked what conversation your heart has been waiting for, the energy that came forward felt like something that has remained unspoken for a long time. This does not feel like a message from someone who had nothing to say. It feels like a message from someone who had too much to say but struggled to find the right moment, the right words, or even the courage to express what was truly happening inside them. There is a feeling here of a conversation that ended before everything was understood, a connection where there were emotions beneath the surface that were never fully acknowledged, and a person who may have carried more thoughts about you than they ever allowed you to see.
The first thing I feel coming through is an acknowledgement of conflict. There is a sense of someone looking back at a situation and realising that things could have been handled differently. They recognise that there were moments where pride, defensiveness, fear, or a need to protect themselves became stronger than their desire to be honest. Instead of opening up, they may have chosen silence. Instead of explaining themselves, they may have allowed distance to grow. Instead of admitting what they felt, they may have convinced themselves that staying guarded was easier.
But the truth is, avoiding a conversation does not erase the feelings behind it.
There are some connections that stay with you because something about them was different. They challenge you. They reveal parts of yourself that you were not prepared to confront. They make you question your own behaviour, your own fears, and the ways you protect yourself from vulnerability. This feels like one of those connections. Someone who came into your life may have seen something in you that they deeply respected, something that made them admire you even when they struggled to communicate it.
They want you to know that they noticed your strength.
They noticed the way you carried yourself. They noticed that you were someone who could stand on your own, someone who had your own dreams, their own identity, and their own sense of independence. There is a feeling here that they never saw you as someone who needed to be rescued or completed. Instead, they saw you as someone who already had a whole world within them. And perhaps that was part of what made this connection so significant. You were not someone they could simply overlook. There was something about your presence that stayed in their mind.
For some of you, this person may have admired you from a distance. They may have watched you grow, noticed your progress, or quietly respected the way you handled situations. They may not have always expressed it, but there was a sense that they saw qualities in you that they wished they had within themselves. Your ability to continue moving forward, your self-respect, and your determination may have been things that inspired them while also making them question their own choices.
There is also a strong feeling that this person struggled with the idea of commitment, not necessarily because they did not value what was offered, but because commitment requires honesty. It requires facing your own fears and admitting when something truly matters to you. Sometimes people are not afraid of losing something because they do not care. Sometimes they are afraid because they care more than they expected to.
This feels like someone who had to confront the difference between wanting something and being ready for it.
They may have thought about the possibility of building something meaningful. They may have imagined what it would be like to have a stable, genuine connection with you. There is an energy here of someone who saw potential, someone who understood that this was not simply a passing interaction. But at the same time, there was an internal struggle between what their heart wanted and what their mind told them was safer.
This person may have tried to analyse their feelings rather than experience them. They may have searched for logical explanations, reasons why things would not work, reasons why they should stay controlled, or reasons why they should not reveal too much. But emotions do not always follow logic. Some people can convince themselves that they are being practical when, deep down, they are simply protecting themselves from vulnerability.
I feel like this person wants you to understand that their silence was not always a reflection of a lack of feeling. Sometimes silence comes from uncertainty. Sometimes it comes from fear of rejection. Sometimes it comes from not knowing how to communicate something that feels too complicated to explain.
There is also something important about how they view you now. They may see you as someone who has grown, someone who has become even more confident and self-assured. There is a sense that they recognise you are not standing still waiting for them. They understand that you have your own path, your own goals, and your own future. This may have been both attractive and intimidating because it forced them to recognise that they could not simply assume you would always be available.
You are someone who can choose yourself. And that is something they respect.But it is also something that may have made them realise they needed to be honest about what they wanted before it was too late.The truth they may have struggled to admit is that this connection mattered more than they allowed themselves to acknowledge. They may have tried to convince themselves that things were simpler than they were. They may have tried to move forward without fully processing what happened between you. But certain people leave an imprint, and this feels like someone who has carried the memory of you longer than they expected.There is a sense of unfinished emotional business here, not necessarily because everything is meant to return exactly as it was, but because there were truths that were never spoken. Sometimes closure does not come from another person returning. Sometimes it comes from finally understanding what existed beneath the surface.And the conversation they wish they could have with you begins with something simple: "I hope you know that I did see you. I did value you. I did recognise what you brought into my life."
There was more here than what was shown.
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Hello, Pile 3!
Cards: Two of Pentacles, Sun, Eight of Pentacles, Eight of Wands, Justice, High Priestess Keywords: Divine timing, balance, happiness, success, dedication, progress, movement, sudden changes, alignment, karmic balance, intuition, hidden blessings, trusting the journey.
There are moments in life when the answers we are searching for do not arrive through another person, a sudden realisation, or a single event that changes everything overnight. Sometimes the most important conversations happen quietly, in the spaces where we are forced to slow down and listen to what our own soul has been trying to reveal. When I connected with this energy, I felt a sense of reassurance, almost like a gentle reminder from the Universe that you are not as lost as you believe you are. This feels like a message arriving for someone who has been trying to understand the bigger picture, someone who has been carrying responsibilities, making decisions, and moving through uncertainty while wondering whether all of this effort is truly leading somewhere meaningful.
The first thing that comes through is that you have been judging your journey based on what you can currently see, while so much of your growth has been happening in ways that are not immediately visible. You have been looking for proof that things are changing, waiting for the external signs that tell you everything is finally falling into place. But the truth is that many important shifts begin internally before they ever become visible in your outside world. Before a new chapter can fully arrive, there is often a period where you are being prepared for it, where your mindset changes, your priorities shift, and you begin becoming someone who can hold the experiences you once wished for.
I know there have been times when you wondered why things were taking longer than expected. You may have looked around and seen other people reaching milestones, creating the lives they wanted, or moving forward in ways that made you question your own timing. There may have been moments where you felt as though you were putting in effort without seeing immediate results, where you questioned whether you were making the right choices or whether the path you were following would actually lead you somewhere fulfilling. But this message is reminding you that your journey was never meant to be measured by speed. It was meant to be measured by alignment.
Some things take time because they are creating a foundation rather than simply creating a moment. The things that are truly meant for you are not only about arriving at a destination; they are about becoming the person who can sustain what you receive. There is a difference between receiving something you have not emotionally prepared for and receiving something at a time when you can fully appreciate it. The waiting periods in your life have not been empty. They have been shaping your perspective, strengthening your patience, and helping you understand what you truly desire rather than what you once thought you wanted.
There is a strong feeling that you have been carrying more than people realise. You may appear like someone who is managing everything, someone who keeps moving forward, someone who finds a way even when things become difficult. But underneath that strength, there may have been moments where you felt tired of always having to figure things out. You may have wished for a sign that you are making the right choices or some reassurance that all the effort you have been putting into your future will eventually lead somewhere better. This message feels like that reassurance arriving.
You have not been overlooked.
The things you have been working toward, the skills you have been developing, the lessons you have been learning, and the changes you have been making within yourself are all contributing to what comes next. Not everything unfolds immediately because timing matters. Sometimes the right opportunity arriving too early would not create the outcome you hope for because you would still be carrying doubts, fears, or beliefs that would prevent you from fully embracing it.
There is also a message here about releasing the need to control every detail of your path. I feel like you have a mind that likes to understand things before trusting them. You want to know how something will happen, when it will happen, and what steps will lead you there. This ability to think ahead can be a strength because it helps you prepare and make thoughtful decisions, but it can also become exhausting when you feel like you must predict every possible outcome before allowing yourself to move forward.
Life does not always reveal the entire path at once. Sometimes you are only shown the next step because the next step is all you need right now. The rest becomes clearer once you begin moving. Trust is not about knowing exactly what will happen. Trust is about knowing that you have the ability to handle what comes, even when you cannot predict every detail.
Your intuition has been speaking to you more than you realise. There are ideas, feelings, and inner nudges that you may have dismissed because they did not come with immediate evidence. You may have waited for someone else to confirm what you already felt inside. But there is wisdom in the quiet thoughts that repeatedly return to you. There is a reason certain dreams continue to stay in your heart. There is a reason certain possibilities continue appearing in your mind even after setbacks.
Not everything meaningful arrives loudly.
Sometimes the things meant for you begin as a small feeling of curiosity, a quiet sense that you should explore something, or an inner knowing that something deserves your attention. The more you learn to trust yourself, the easier it becomes to recognise these moments. You are entering a stage where your relationship with your own intuition becomes more important because your path may require choices that not everyone around you understands.
Some people may only recognise your vision once it becomes reality. Some people may question decisions that make sense only to you. But your journey was never meant to be built around gaining approval from everyone else. The life you are creating has to feel right within your own heart before it can make sense to anyone watching from the outside.
There is also a reminder here that you do not have to postpone happiness until everything is solved. You may have a tendency to believe that peace will come after the next achievement, after the next opportunity, after the next problem is resolved. But life is not meant to be a constant waiting room where you only allow yourself to feel good once everything is perfect. You are allowed to experience gratitude while still growing. You are allowed to appreciate where you are while still working toward where you want to be.
The Universe does not want you to miss the beauty of the present moment because you are too focused on reaching the future.
The truth your heart has been waiting for is that movement is already happening, even if it does not look dramatic yet. There are changes taking place beneath the surface. There are lessons settling into place. There are opportunities and connections that are aligning in ways you may not understand right now. What feels like uncertainty may actually be a transition period between the life you have known and the life you are moving toward.
You are not behind. You are not forgotten. You are not failing because your journey has required more patience than you expected. Your path has its own timing, and the experiences you have lived through have been shaping you into someone who understands the value of what is coming.
Keep moving forward with trust. Keep listening to yourself. Keep believing in the dreams that continue returning to your heart. The future you are hoping for is not asking you to become someone else. It is asking you to recognise the person you have already been becoming all along and finally believe that you are ready to receive what you have been working toward.
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Something that made my day today
Look at this beautiful bee and flower. I went to visit my mom today and her garden is soooooo lush, it made me so happy. And this beautiful one was so heavy due to all the pollen she had even a little bit of trouble flying. It was adorable.
Please sign this petition | Teken deze petitie alsjeblieft!
Beautiful people,
Imagine having to flee your country because of war, or other atrocities, pain and suffering. Imagine having to leave behind your beloved animals in that place..
Some people were 'lucky' enough to be able to take their beloved companions along for the long journey to safety. They've leaned on them for love, companionship, for safety, for a sense of normality and familiarity. Animals play such an important role in our overal sense of wellbeing and our mental and emotional health.
It breaks my heart that there are policies that deny the importance of pets, and deny the truth of what they are: an important part of a family. And family should never be torn apart.
Some of the Ukrainian families now living in Hoorn, the Netherlands, risk losing their beloved pets due to inhumane policies that are totally unacceptable and unnecessary.
It makes me so angry and sad... The thought of having to flee a country under such traumatic circumstances is heartbreaking enough, but to lose your loved ones over something so petty and small as this, just feels so extremely unfair. And well, I'm just intolerable to injustice.... I cannot sit by and do nothing, even though I know I have no community here and am just starting out... I just hope someone finds this and signs.
So please, beautiful people... Sign this petition. It's something so small that can make a big difference in the lives of others.
You can change the language of the website by clicking on the flag at the top. You can sign anonymously, and it takes your email address to confirm your vote / signature.
Thank you so much 💜
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A Letter From The Woman With Silver Hair and a Full Heart (aka You in 50 Years)
A more mature, wiser version of you has a message. If your path feels unclear right now, who better to turn to than the woman who's already walked it? Sit down, love. This is hot-and-cold tea—straight from your future. Whatever taste it leaves in your mouth, remember: you can always change the recipe.
PILE ONE
Dear Me,
There is one thing I have thought about a lot throughout the years. How we found ourselves in perfect rooms, in the perfect outfit, talking to the seemingly perfect guy, and somehow feeling awful. I kept setting myself on fire thinking that is how I would find freedom. Staying in a relationship I had no business being in. Staying in friendships I had no business entertaining. But because society somehow showed me, since forever, that these were the type of people that would make me happy, that this relationship with this type of guy would finally give me rest and peace.
A lot of the things that we think we want come from what we have heard throughout the years. The things I have seen. The conversations of Mom on the phone while she was talking with a friend. That comment that guy made in eighth grade. I feel like you spent a lot of time searching for pieces of yourself in others, and you were always surprised when the puzzle would not reflect something that felt genuine. I really hope that you realized before I did that we were wearing several masks, some that never ever fit us. And this was hard to break away from, since we have been doing this since we were kids. I feel like we have always known what to say. How to act and what was expected of us.
And maybe it was the easiest thing for a while. It would keep the peace. We would not be criticized. So we would not get hurt and people would be happy with you. You molded yourself into a version of a reality that does not reflect the landscape of your emotional garden. One day sooner than I did, I hope that you will release yourself from this. I hope that you will look around and decide to portray some things that feel genuine to us.
We are difficult, complicated, lovely, adorable souls.
And I feel like we have had a lot of people throughout our lives, and childhood convinced us otherwise. I am so sorry for all the things that I said about our body, about our accomplishments, about ourselves while looking in the mirror. I was not thinking clearly. I was not brave enough to face myself because I was convinced that I was going to see something that was going to repulse me. And when I finally did, all I saw was someone that was deeply hurt. I hope you hold yourself in all the ways you wish that someone did throughout the years. I hope you give yourself the grace you extended so easily to people that never actually deserved it. I really hope that you get to treat your own soul like you have been treating others.
You have been emptying yourself trying to fill other people as well. And the one thing that I wish to tell you right now, hoping something will change quicker for you, is: you deserve to live your own life and your own dreams and your own hopes, and to think your own thoughts and to follow your own gut, and not have to ask someone else what they think of this situation, because you know, and you trust yourself first. You have sourced out a lot of your happiness and only brought in misery. The one thing that you have to understand is that when people that you brought in gain from you, that means that you hold the gold. That you are the diamond.
And even if it did not feel like it while we were growing up, I want you to remember that diamonds are made under pressure, and you have never been more sparkly. You get to be happy. We get to be happy. We get to live a life that reflects our heart and our soul. We get to have this huge garden we have always wanted. We get to see butterflies every day. We get to hear the laugh of our loved ones in our home. We get to find love and to feel things in a genuine way with someone that does feel as deeply as us. The one thing that starts this is when we actually choose ourselves.
So I hope you get to do this before I did. I hope you give yourself the love you have been giving to everyone else but yourself before I did.
You are such a special person. We are such a special person, and I think it is a pity that it took us so long to actually realize. Soon enough, you will end up in rooms that will reflect your own self, and you will finally be appreciated and seen in the ways you were always supposed to be. I am so sorry that our parents did not give us love, but that does not mean that we did not deserve it in the first place, and we are not deserving of it now. So please, if there is one thing I can tell you, 50 years from now, is to start to be happy now. Start to choose yourself now, so you get to experience this sooner than later.
Addicted yet? Good. My master list is calling your name. Go on, you know you want to.
PILE TWO
We are an unbound spirit. We are meant to soar and explore. We are meant to find ourselves in other seas and other lands, other cultures, conversations that we might not understand at first, looks, laughs, and on a table surrounded by food and people that we love.
I really hope that you understand this sooner than later. I hope you go and get your passport like you have been meaning to do, but you have not done because it is step one of stepping into this energy. We truly, truly love traveling, and I feel like you are missing out. I have been working on this goal of mine to travel every country, and we are getting pretty close to it.
I cannot wait for you to understand the effect you have on people. I feel like until you take it international, you are going to be quite blind to the magnetism that we possess. I hope you know that we could move any soul in this life only with a look, and there is something that we are going to become quite crafted at. I would love to talk about family and children, but to be honest, I feel like that is something that we have never truly been interested in, in the ways that others are. We want to explore. We want to live big things.
And there is nothing wrong about this. You do not have to settle. You do not have to settle for a life that does not reflect your dreams. That does not reflect our wishes. We do not have to. Society and people have been trying to convince you to settle and to convince you to do this and do that. Things that are far from what you want. We want to explore. We want to live abroad. We want to try new food. You want to speak another language. You want to learn Italian, bella. You will have such an extraordinary life, a life that I am quite proud of right now, where I am, of all the things that I have done, the people that I have talked to, the food I have tasted. You have no idea how much this world is waiting for you to uncover, to explore.
There are so many adventures with your name written on them. There are so many people that cannot wait to speak to you, to say your name, to learn your name. You are a natural celebrity. Everywhere that we go, we seem to be — it is really fun.
I think it is going to be fun to realize how lovely you are and how much kindness is spoken in every language everywhere. You will find a lot of souls that are like yours. I cannot wait. You have so many people to meet. You have so many places to be at. I feel like you should be more excited about the future because there are a lot of blessings. There are a lot of places, once again, you are going to love.
Freedom is not supposed to be earned. It is only supposed to be experienced. Now, I would say that our life is much less fast-paced. Things happen a little bit slower, but it is better, you know what I mean? These Megan knees are tired!
I think we were young and turnt, and I love that. If you have not been going out, babe, what are you waiting for? You get to be fun. You get to have fun. That is not something that you should wait for — this moment or this certain amount of money in your account or until this goal is reached to actually move towards. You get to be fun, have fun, explore, and be a little bit reckless now. I feel like you have been so good for too long, and we both know — I mean, you know, because I am you — that we have this wild spirit just waiting to be out inside of us. Also, take that dance class we have been wanting to. There is something so sensual about dancing with someone else, having your body pressed against theirs, how our energies flow together. This is one thing that makes you quite excited, and it is still working today. If you wonder about love and if we get to be in love, we get to have a lot of fun. I feel like we get to flirt. We get to have some lovers. We get to be romantic. We get to be taken on a lot of different dates. We get to experience different types of romance around the world, and I think that is better than to have only one forever love in this lifetime.
You get to be your greatest love. The more you are going to go out there and make your dreams happen, the more we get to love ourselves. I feel like you are going to be surprised how unshakable we actually are. Like physically, by the way, we look really good!
Sauna is everything. Please go to the sauna. Please go to the gym, but you do not have to go all the time. You can only do it two times a week and you will have a healthy amount of muscle mass. Just make sure that you do yoga because that is how our body relaxes, and being flexible will never not help, if you know what I mean.
But yes, we are the type of person that you meet on vacation and that you are wildly obsessed about for the rest of your life, and you write letters to, and they do write back maybe once a year. It is kind of crazy the amount of love letters we do have.
We get to be muses, to inspire some songs, some pictures, some paintings. We have had a really wild, fun life. We really truly lived. When I think about my life in the past and my journey, I actually do smile. I think about you. I think about how naive you are in the best ways. I think about other things that you are going to get to experience for the first time that are going to fill your heart with joy. I think about those very nights that are incoming that show you how much of a fun, irresistible person you are. I think about how we live our life to the fullest. We experience everything that we wanted to. And when I do think about where I am going and that I am aging and people around me, some that we do love a lot are gone now, I am not necessarily scared about myself being gone as well. I feel quite at peace with my soul because I have done pretty much everything that I wanted. We have done it all. If you ever wondered if we are ever going to do this or that, just so you know, we did. There are some things that I do want to tell you, but I feel like you would plan too much around this and that is not the point for now. But be excited. Be curious. And be open, please, dear.
Addicted yet? Good. My master list is calling your name. Go on, you know you want to.
PILE THREE
I feel the most excited having the opportunity to share this good news with you. I get really teary-eyed when I think about our upbringing and our past, how I felt so hopeless at times, wanting to take my own life, wanting to stop feeling the pain in any type of way. I think about this version of me that was suffering so loudly while keeping it all quiet inside, and it is hard not to give her grace because that is all she needed. I feel like we have not been hugged a lot in our life, and for so long, we convinced ourselves that it was making us uncomfortable. When the truth is that we were scared of how much we would unravel if someone held us close to them in a way that wasn't threatening.
A lot of people hurt us in this lifetime. A lot of people put us down. A lot of people tried to convince us that we were not worth it, that we were not worth anything, that we would end up like our mom and dad, that we did not have anything to look forward to.
I really hope that you read this knowing that it is not the truth. I am here to tell you that it is not the truth. We are owed a lot. I mean karmically, but also just in general.
Some things happened that maybe were not supposed to happen to us that we had to make peace with. To be honest, even when I think about those things today, they are still a hard pill to swallow.
I want you to believe in love. I want you to believe in connection. I want you to realize that you get to be someone that experiences true love, that it is not something that is inaccessible to you because somehow you were broken and no one would ever want someone with so many issues and blah, blah, blah. This is so boring, and you deserve more than this boring excuse. We deserve more than this. We deserve love.
Life works in intricate ways, and sometimes the people that are meant for us are around us but it takes us a little while to meet them. Because we weren't aligned, but you're about to be.
You will meet someone in this life, someone that will make your soul feel at home. Someone that will make everything that ever happened to you make sense, or almost worth it, even if it is hard to imagine right now. The life that we have right now is full of bliss, peace, and luxury. We get to actually be happy and experience comfort. We get to be comfortable and wake up in the morning feeling refreshed, having slept normally without overthinking our life choices or crying ourselves to sleep.
I feel like for a little while, since our life was so chaotic, we convinced ourselves that we could never be comfortable living a slow life, slow mornings in a comfortable and safe environment. We convinced ourselves that we needed the distractions and chaos to feel entertained. That is how we thrive, we focus in the hardest moment. The thing is, yes, we are able to make magic out of hardship, but we were also surviving, and that is not a healthy state of being to maintain.
The second that we stop this surviving shit, and we step into blossoming, thriving, feeling and being in the present moment, you will see how much of a real and master manifester we are with a regulated nervous system. Our wish is literally the universe's command. The amount of things that I was able to manifest in this life is just literally uncanny. The way we went from rags to riches is crazy. A lot of people ask me how I made it, like how it happened, and ask me for tips.
It does feel like yes, I am smart and I did develop a strategy that allowed me to build something from the ground up, but luck and a lot of good karma coming back was part of my success as well.
Life will take an unfamiliar shape in the coming years, but not a shape that scares you. The shape that excites you, a shape that makes you feel like you finally found a home.
You will find kind-hearted people. You will find people that are honest in love, people that protect, people that defend, people that heal, people that soothe, and people that are energetic matches to you.
You are going to meet healthy people, it will inspire you to become more healthy as well. We find healing, and we find peace in a way that right now, you have a hard time imagining, but it is something that we do get to have.
This life is not about suffering, even if the beginning made you think otherwise.
We cannot control people, you know. I wish we could. I mean, we did wish we could at some point, we tried so hard with those spells, girl, but you cannot control people. You can only control yourself and your environment to some extent. A lot of what you are capable of is still dormant. You are not aware of a lot of your strength and your power. You will soon, and it is going to change your life.
I want you to know that we love our life. We love our daily life, like we genuinely love our life. We love ourselves. We love to wake up every morning and see what we have built. We love to know that whatever happened in the past happened, and now we get to move on and be happy.
Addicted yet? Good. My master list is calling your name. Go on, you know you want to.
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Hello beautiful,
As I introduced the garden, I realised I totally forgot to introduce myself. Come in, dearest. Kick off your shoes. Let’s have tea while I tell you how I got here.
Hi! Mandy is the name my parents gave me. Summers is the name I have given myself. If you’re wondering where that might come from.... I'm going to give you one little hint: "In every generation, there is a chosen one...." If you're of the generation who knows what I'm talking about, I think you now know all there is to know about me. And if you're of the generation who thinks "What the hell are you talking about?" I've got something for your to-watch list! The story of how Buffy the Vampire Slayer directly or indirectly inspired my spiritual practice might be a story for another time, though.
As a little girl, I always had a fascination for mythology, history, ancient civilisations, the natural world, and most of all... how people work. I simply wanted to know e-ve-ry-thing, fluttering from one thing to the next. I grew up in the 90’s with several TV shows that have either shaped my values or aligned with them, I can’t decide on that... but have definitely shaped part of my identity. You can think about shows like; Xena the Warrior Princess, Star Trek, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Charmed, Captain Planet, The X-men, Dragonball Z and Pokemon.
Can you see the clues lining up here? Around the age or 11 or so, we got this magical thing that was *the Internet*! Aside from roaming around on our farm, or in my own little fantasy worlds, I now had access to ALL this NEW information and knowledge. With pictures! YAY!!! Here I was, scouring the early years of the internet for pictures of vampires, witches, elves and fairies... and suddenly found myself on a page about Wicca. Now, that was very much unheard of in our little town... so OF COURSE I was interested! And, of course, one thing led to another, and soon I found myself invested in all things witchy and spiritual– tarot, crystals, astrology, *and all that jazz*. This goes on for years because things keep falling more and more into place, and they continue to do so to this day.
Reading the tarot and oracle cards has been a part of my spiritual practice since the age of I think 16/17, when I bought my first oracle deck. Funny thing about that deck is that it’s the only deck I have in my native language, Dutch. For some reason unknown to me, I channel my messages entirely in English and have done so from the moment I started. That oracle deck, and my mum’s old tarot deck, were the only decks I used in my practice for a long time. Nowadays my collection is a bit bigger and still expanding, because aside it being part of my own spiritual practice, I found out, it's also one of my special interests.
As it turns out, I’m quite neurospicy. (Noooooo. *gasp* Really?! Where were the signs?!) From a very young age I’ve always felt different somehow. Not entirely fitting in anywhere. And I’ve always tried really, really hard to feel like I belong somewhere. It’s hard to find that sense of belonging if you do not feel at home in this world, or at home within your body or your mind, and I felt neither. Too sensitive. Too curious. Too emotional. Too weird. The world was too loud and intense. Too much this, too much that, and not enough fitting in the way society and patriarchy wants us to. It can be a hell of a struggle. If you’re someone who resonated with that feeling, I just want to say: I see you, love. I really do. I keep coming back to that word belonging. And you’ll probably see me do so more often, because this feels like my mission in life, and not just for myself. It turned me towards Social Work, psychology and teaching first, and towards healing modalities and spirituality later in life. Now I can call myself all kinds of things; social worker, Reiki master, breathwork coach, singing bowl therapist, tarot reader and TEFL teacher are some of the titles I’ve accumulated over the years, and I’ll probably add a few more others to that list because learning new things is too much fun.
Learning new things, personal development, spirituality, and the whole human experience is really my thing. Making this world a better place than I found it, is my mission.
I noticed that I love doing this by creating and facilitating spaces where people can soften, unmask and be fully themselves. Where they have permission to just... be. Because there really is space for all of us here on this beautiful planet. And if you’re reading this, I want you to know that all of you is welcome here – I mean that seriously. Creating spaces where you can just come as you are, right here, right now (those are two different songs, Mandy...), is important to me because that’s where the magic happens.
From places of safety and belonging, we can start looking at ourselves, piece by piece, when we’re ready for them. We can facilitate reflection, self-discovery, personal growth and healing. We can undo ourselves of layers that do not serve us anymore, and rebuild structures that will support us for our highest good. And we can do so at our own time, our own pace and in our own unique ways, with more ease and softness. Because let’s be real here, it’s so freaking easy to be hard on ourselves, isn’t it?
The way I see it, is that we’re all beautifully unique souls, living in these equally beautiful and unique human bodies. We’re wandering through life, trying to find the best ways to express ourselves as authentically and true as possible – all while learning how to live life in a way that truly feels like ours, like home. And I hope that this Wandering Soul Garden will help a little with that.
If you're still here, reading all of this… I want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you so much for being here. Not just here on this page. But here on this planet. The world is a better place with you in it.
I look forward to seeing where this journey will take me, although I have to admit it also feels a little daunting putting myself out here. But since you are welcome here entirely as you are, then so am I, and I’m so glad you’re coming along on this journey with me. I also really look forward sharing my tarot and oracle readings for you beautiful souls, for this amazing collective, and I hope that whatever you’ll find here will meet you with love, with light, and with ease. 💜 Much love, Mandy Summers.
