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[maquinyana]

I would give someone my all when he/she can isolate me from this soul sucking life that I'm in. Please, spare me and do this for me.

[maquinyana]

It's amazing how you were able to tolerate my crazy antics, non-stop dramas, and my thousands of problems and struggles that you'll soon hate. It's amazing how you were able to love me despite of me not being the 'easy type' It's amazing how you were able to control your patience when I shout at you. Because often times I get so frustrated with my life, and you are the only person that can serve as an outlet. It's amazing how you were able to act like you were listening, when all you wanna do was to do something else and be done with my non-stop hurtings. It's amazing how I manage to observe all of these, and watch your love for me to deteriorate. I know I'm not easy to love, I will not be surprised when you finally decided to leave. I will even congratulate you for being with me for almost half a year, for I know that's a lot of hard work. But for all you know, you can leave now, and so you can finally be done with me. Spare yourself from my wrath and clawmarks.

[maquinyana]

Marahil ay rinding-rindi ka na, Malamang pa nyan ay sawang-sawa na din pala Hindi na ako magtataka, Dahil ako mismo'y sukang-suka na Sa buhay kong walang pinagbago Sa pamilya kong puro lang insulto Sa mga desisyon kong puro na lang sablay at kontrapelo Akala mo ba madali maging ako? Akala mo ba puro ganda at tawa lang ang buhay ko? Kilalanin mo at suriin, Atsaka mo sabihin Madali akong mahalin, Pero mahirap akong panatilihing mahalin Tanggap ko na, noon pa Hanggang kailan ka ba? Hindi ka rin naman magtatagal tulad ng iba

[maquinyana]

Anong pakiramdam... sa tuwing sinasadya mo akong saktan?

[maquinyana]

Ama Ina Sa araw-araw nating pagsasama Hindi niyo ba nakikita? Hindi ba kayo nagtataka? Ang kagustuhan kong mapag-isa Ang mga mata kong wala nang sigla

Ama Ina Naririnig niyo ba? Ang mga iyak ko sa gabi, ang pag tatanong sa diyos kung bakit ako patuloy na humihikbi Nadadama niyo ba? Ang buong pagkatao ko'y sumisigaw na ng kalungkutan at pag-iisa

Ama Ina Sa araw-araw na ginawa Niya Hindi niyo ba nahahalata? Hindi niyo ba nadarama?

Gustong-gusto ko na mawala

[maquinyana]

Tingnan mo ako at sabihin mong magiging masaya rin ako. Pag katapos nang lahat ng ito. Pagka tapos nang unos at dagok sa buhay ko ngayon. Tingnan mo ako At sabihin mong matatag ako Dahil sayo lang ako naniniwala, sayo lang ako kumukuha ng tiwala Tingnan mo ako Lahat ng mga iyak ko Lahat ng mga sigaw at hikbi ko Lahat ng poot at galit ko At ngayon sabihin mong mahal mo pa rin ako. Umaasa ako, na mapapansin mo ang lahat ng pag sasakripisyo ko sa iyo. Para sa kasiyahan mo, para mapunan lahat ng kulang sa iyo. Umaasa ako, na mahahalata mo sa mga mata ko ang mga pag-iyak ko dahil nawala ang isang napaka importanteng bagay sa akin, dahil ikaw ang inuna ko. Umaasa ako, na yayakapin mo ako, ngayong umiiyak ako, dahil pilit ko paring tinatanggap ang nakaraan mo. Umaasa ako, na patatawarin mo ako, dahil pati ang problema mo'y inaangkin ko't paminsan minsan pa nga'y binibigyan pa ng solusyon. Umaasa ako, na makikita mo ako, ang mga iyak at sakit ko, ang mga bagay na ginawa at kaya ko pang gawin para lang sa iyo. Para lang sa ikaliligaya mo, para lang sa ikagiginhawa ng buhay mo. Umaasa ako, na maiintindihan mo, na kung minsan ay naipaparamdam ko na rin sa iyo ang kalungkutan ko. Ngayon tingnan mo ako, Ako pa rin ba ang nakikita mo? Dahil sa totoo lang, ubos na ubos na ako.

[maquinyana]

nakakatakot pala ang mamanhid ng sobra-sobra

nakakatakot pala ang tumitig at magpasa walang bahala

nakakatakot pala ang makaramdam ng kalungkutan pero hindi na lang magsasalita

nakakatakot pala ang pag-iisa sa gabing lahat sila'y masaya

nakakatakot pala ang makaramdam ng wala

nakakatakot pala baka bukas makalawa maging ang mag mahal

ay hindi ko na magawa

[maquinyana]

"minamahal mo lang ba ako, dahil hindi siya pwede?"

[maquinyana]

Our Tragedy

it has been a while, you know, the things that i keep telling you the things that are trying to eat me

it’s happening again tonight, you know, the same feeling that’s been slowly killing (us) me the same feeling that’s been here for quite some time now

why are you letting me feel this way? why are you letting me fade away?

are you really listening? are you actually looking?

you have to save me

because i have thoughts

of destroying you

like how you destroyed me like how you destroyed us

[maquinyana]

I'm a demon

it's eating me alive the demon keeps breaking my heart it wont stop 'til it knocks me inside all the hurt that i feel it fucking comes from within my soul is now poisoned my mind, no, it's not helping at all all these hate, i can no longer take all these loathe, it made me broke i was screaming for salvation i was crying for mercy help me, touch me save me.. anyone, save me save me, from me

[maquinyana]

sana mayroong naimbento na isang libro na naglalaman ng lahat ng nagawa mong mabuti at maganda sa buong pamumuhay mo

[maquinyana]

harsh truth about friendships

you will eat your lunch with them then you're going to be comfortable with them you will share your stories with them then you're going to laugh with them you will take care of them then their enemies will be your enemies as well you will listen to all their problems then you'll try to be there for them, and fight for them you will treat them like family then you're going to love them, more than you love yourself then at the end of the day they're going to kill you by betraying you and they'll turn their backs on you because that's what your so called friends really do

[maquinyana]

Alone. Everyone hates alone. Nobody wants to be alone. No one ever loved alone. Sadness comes with alone Pain comes with alone Forlorn comes with alone Crying comes with alone Alone. I tried to like alone I tried to love alone I tried to smile with alone Contentment comes with alone Happiness comes with alone Solitude comes with alone Individuality comes with alone Alone is ok Alone is something good

[maquinyana]

this is one of those nights when i realize that i don't want to believe and dream anymore... i'm so tired with my life i don't want anymore complications

[traverseperegrine]

merry xmas @self

[maquinyana]

to my very first

[maquinyana]

can anyone fix me?

[dimples-na-malalim-deactivated2]

I will try to fix you ~~ Fix You by Coldplay

[maquinyana]

when you get what you want, but not what you need 😌

[maquinyana]

can anyone fix me?