jon good

Sideblog for Jonathan Good

[marks-made]

Holidays really do make everything better. I'm at Roman's parents' house for the next few days and I absolutely love it here. Makes me want to move, but maybe after I'm done on YouTube.

[borderlone]

sup borderlines do you also temporarily obsess over certain interests and it’s so intense you literally cry because they’re so good and important to you

[bpd-trichster]

Mental illness has ruined my relationships, ruined my body, ruined my life.

[marks-made]

That's it. I'm checking myself into the psych ward at the hospital. I can't fucking do this anymore, I'm hurting all my friends and family. I don't care what Roman says, I don't care what anyone says.

[marks-made]

“CaN’t BeLiEvE I’M gOnNa HaVe A bAbY sOoN I’M fUcKiNg TeRrIfIeD”

NO ONE CARES

[marks-made]

GOD IM SUCH A SLUT FOR ATTENTION

[honeyvoicedfem]

it’s borderline awareness month which means give me attention and don’t abandon me please

[marks-made]

I need to stop!!! fucking venting!!!! TO EVERYONE!!! I'm sorry Selena, I didn't mean to push you away, I know you're happy but I DON'T want to hear anything about your kid because I really don't care

[borderline-lost-boi]

me: hey I have a disorder which causes my emotions to go through serious extremes and I have an increased tendency to become obsessed with people and things and you’re my favorite person which basically means I would do anything for you and if you’re ever sad I’m sad and if you don’t constantly give me attention I have a major depressive episode 🙃 fp/dependent : whut me: …..i mean….ilysm it’s crAZY(:

[marks-made]

@thebig-dxg

[dimespin]

“Why do you beat yourself up so much over little mistakes?”

[chronicdisaster-deactivated2017]

This is such a good illustration of emotional abuse

[dworkinlover69-deactivated20210]

This is why you shouldn’t make fun of people for over-apologizing. 

[thebibliosphere]

I will always remember after I moved in with husband for the first time, and I dropped a mug and it shattered. I went into a terrified panic, waiting for a rebuke that never came. And in some ways that was worse because it felt like I was being ignored and that was something else I dreaded too, because my god, you spend your life dancing on a knife edge between dreading attention and craving it, cutting your feet to ribbons to keep up with a tune you’re not allowed to learn because it’s always changing.

It took a very long time for me to trust that his affection wasn’t a weapon in disguise, that no, it really didn’t matter. Because a broken mug is just a broken mug and not a sign of my inherent lack of worth.

[crowslunasidhe]

This is too damn relatable.

[compersion-kitty-says]

that indescribable feeling between the mug shattering and the abuse… :’(

[marks-made]

Hard to have a "new" fear of abandonment when it's always been there!!!!

[bpdhoneyviews]

IM SO SCARED THAT IM GOING TO BE ABANDONED BY MY FP REBLOG IF U RELATE

[marks-made]

it’s great, having to take care of my always drunk/hungover boyfriend. And I’m supposed to be the one that doesn’t know how to handle my feelings. 

[marks-made]

I don't think I'm showing Roman I love him enough. I'm seeing all this stuff Selena posts about Dean, and I'll can think is that I'm not good enough for him, that he deserves someone who wants to show off that they're together and how in love they are. I'm just not a public person. But I love you Roman, I really do. Even if I get hate from your so-called fans, I'll always love you no matter what they say.

[bleed-in-ink-deactivated2017052]

I made a highly accurate diagram of what bpd feels like

[bpdtragick]

Me: *stays up crying until 5 in the morning because everything is just too much*

FP: *has bad day*

Me: mental illness who? I will be here for you cause I am a pillar of support I am so strong and can carry your burdens for you don’t worry about me I can handle it nothing is really wrong with my life

[mental-ch-illness]

*apologizes at my own funeral for inconveniencing everyone*