a field guide

p.kyle. 30. poet, wanderer, fractured soul. header by Jubilee of @8pxl

[mauve-mannerisms]

Alright, let's do this one last time.

Hullo, I'm Patrice! A pleasure to meet you and even better to make your acquaintance (as I do hope we'll be friends). This isn't my first time on tumblr, not by far, but I haven't had a writing dedicated blog for years and I think I work better with a community like you all!!

What I Write

If you've noticed the purple, well, everything, you've got a keen eye! I'm a big, huge fan of sweeping romantic works and a lot of my poetry and some prose is the same. However, I'm trying to get back into spec fiction writing so you will primarily see: flash fiction, fanfiction, short stories, and some fantasy/high fantasy/dark fantasy out of me! That doesn't preclude sci fi and darker/horror elements, and you'll often see me post about them so I suppose I'm down for anything really. It's about the creative process after all <3

What I Want to Follow

I'll follow all kinds of aesthetic blogs, and some art and D&D/TTRPG blogs because they get my creative process going, but mainly I'm here to sit with writers, talk to writers, read work by writers, etc. If you've got a writeblr or even a side blog with writing let me know! I'm looking to build a good follow list.

Current Works in Progress

This will be a shorter section because I'm also doing work in my full time career at the moment.

Bad Co. -- an anthology of short stories with darker themes/horror based in African-American and African diaspora folktale, myth, and legends

String Vibrations(?) -- a chapbook of poetry based in the small ways we all must adjust

I don't think I've missed anything here but if you have any burning questions please, feel free to shoot me an ask!

[tinyghosthands]

cicada message

[exhuastedpigeon]

The first rule of fandom is have fun. The second rule of fandom is find an enabler and become an enabler. Yes you should write that fic. What if it was even hornier? What if it was angstier? What if you wrote it just for me?

[bardic-tales]

@syntheticdesign02 @projecthypocrisy @sapphirothcrescent @tolliver-j-mortaelwyver @manorofshepard (hey I can include you in this now. lol)

[capitulism]

The largest mass shooting in American history was a hate crime against gay people. Don’t ever forget that.

[exmellivorinae]

June 12, 2016. Putting a date on this for when it gets reblogged months from now by people who think the post is about something from 30, 40 years ago.

[butch-reidentified]

I am a survivor of the Pulse nightclub shooting, having grown up in Orlando and just turned 20 a month prior. If you didn’t know, there were several families who refused to claim the bodies of their relatives due to their sexuality. One family even had their relative’s name removed from the memorial. Murdered by the same hate with which their families reject them in both life and death.

Many, many people celebrated Pulse. We were told we deserved it. That it was God’s punishment for our sin of loving the same sex. We are sent messages like these I received in 2018:

We in the community often call the victim count 49+ to include the survivors who couldn’t live with the pain.

The event was never officially declared a hate crime or targeted homophobic attack and is rarely listed as one in databases.

At our vigils for those slaughtered, Extremist Christian groups showed up to protest, holding signs like this:

ID: Me kissing a woman I was casually seeing in front of an angry looking man with a “Sodomy is Sin” sign.

Please understand how much more than just a mass shooting this was. We are still to this day harassed and told we deserved it by some.

This year was the sixth anniversary. The first couple years I received dozens of messages checking in on me on 6/12. Year 5 got enough news coverage for people to think to reach out to me. This year it was my therapist, the woman I kissed in that photo, and a couple of other gun violence survivor friends. People are forgetting already.

[butch-reidentified]

With the 7 year anniversary <2 weeks away, I figured I’d reblog this

[corpseprize]

the reality of being a writer

[traincat]

sometimes you really just lounge around going "what if I reread all of Spider-Man from the beginning again."

[writingdose]

write it anyway even if you think it’s bad. a badly written fic is still better than a nonexistent fic.

[beemovieerotica]

every time I see some bigshot scientist revealed as a fraud my knee-jerk reaction is "hell yeah elisabeth bik got 'em good" AND IM RIGHT

PubPeer enables scientists to search for their publications or their peers publications and provide feedback and/or start a conversation ano

SHE NEVER QUITS!!!!

ICONIC!!!!

[beemovieerotica]

> Elisabeth Bik is on patreon <

She is not directly paid for her work to vet papers, she has been hit with legal action & death threats by scientists who hate that she's exposing them and their financial fraud, and she keeps at it every single day, combing through thousands of papers to make science more fair. Please consider supporting her!

[chiknluvr]

actually beautiful

About

Elisabeth Bik is a renowned microbiologist and science integrity advocate known for detecting image duplication in scientific publications.

[wtf-is-hockey]

God sometimes I'm writing smut and I'll like, delete a sentence because I'm like, no, I can't write that. It's too indulgent. And then it's like. Girl, what the fuck are you even going to the candy store for if you're just going to buy raisins. Get real.

[pseudospaceship]

"what the fuck are you even going to the candy store for if you're just going to buy raisins" is honestly the thing I needed to hear today

[byoldervine]

Fanfic is a great way to practice self-indulgence while writing. It doesn’t even have to be good, it just exists purely for your pleasure, be a little freak about it. Worry about quality and what other people think when it comes to works you intend to publish in a formal setting

[writercultureis]

Writer culture is working on fics at work because I have nothing but time and I’m born to write but forced to work.

[penguins-on-an-iceberg]

You’ve heard of spoons, get ready for your new favorite metaphor: penguins on an iceberg!

[thedragonoftelevision]

I finally watched The Sound of Music and like I get it now, I get it. 

It’s a beautiful two hour love story of a strict man finally opening his heart again and then a fifty minute public service announcement to hate the nazis. Brilliant.

[yomikoreadsbooks]

You’re not wrong there…

[allthefandomss]

Reblogging this version cuz those two gifs show the sexiest duality a man can have.

[jonlybonlyfromboldlygo]

2 things a man should do

Look at me like he can’t believe I exist

Hate nazis

[mudwerks]

AI industry horrified to face largest copyright class action ever certified

Copyright class actions could financially ruin AI industry, trade groups say.

AI industry groups are urging an appeals court to block what they say is the largest copyright class action ever certified. They’ve warned that a single lawsuit raised by three authors over Anthropic’s AI training now threatens to “financially ruin” the entire AI industry if up to 7 million claimants end up joining the litigation and forcing a settlement.

well…darn

[flippyspoon]

like to charge reblog to cast financial ruin of the AI industry 🔮

[my-melville]

[inkskinned]

i. everyone keeps saying it's the hottest summer on record. you have your back pressed flat against the floor and a sweat drip in the crook of your elbow.

ii. generalized anxiety is seen as a disorder during the "ordinary" way of things. if someone were to ask you what specifically is bothering you, the answer is formless and senseless. you have a constant, physical sense of doom. it feels like a hand gripping your ribs. it feels like drowning, always, just-a-little bit. when you complain about it, your mother says - oh, you've been this way since you were a kid.

iii. but nothing is normal right now. what particular thing should you even focus on? your mind is in a terrible aperture, zooming in and out of the small and the large things. in some moments you can't breathe because of your rent bill and a breakup and your dog getting lyme disease. and then an hour later - you are overwhelmed by the shakiness of the whole world, by every person suffering, by the enormity of what is happening.

iv. you googled it. today's high was 94 degrees Fahrenheit (34.4C). it is ten degrees above average. a man on television laughs: but what if i want all of california to be under the sea?

v. how do you do therapy at the end of the world? your video-meet therapist is lovely and sweet and blonde and trying. sometimes you just say, "so... it's kind of just the everything that's happening." and then the two of you sit and stare at each other. more than once she's sighed and said, yeah. it's terrifying.

vi. things move so quickly now. you think about how your local school took six years to approve a new playground. now each day there is a development that makes your heart drop. sure, you can't afford rent this month, but - with everything happening, are you really doing enough?

vii. sometimes it feels like you cannot calculate priority - your body just reacts to each piece of information as an equivalent firecracker. money is tight, you need to get on food stamps, your car needs an inspection. and today another person got abducted. and there aren't any pollinators. and the bill passed the senate. when you try to shove it all into yourself - none of it fucking fits.

viii. you have seen almost no butterflies or bees or dragonflies this year. you go home and try not to overuse your AC. you are watching a debate about AI and water usage. the thousands of gallons wasted just so people can be fed misinformation. the man on television snorts. cry about it.

ix. you are constantly restless, sleepless, pacing. every one problem spirals into another, until they press into your temple and feed from your collarbones. you are trying so fucking hard to balance everything. and still! despite your efforts! it all just happens.

x. you aren't even in the "hot" part of summer yet, and it is ten degrees above average.

@nosebleedclub prompt: sweltering heat

[pangur-and-grim]

so much care put into housing this aging spider. why are my eyes wet

(tiktok link)

[masque-de-nox]

Alien Scientist: No, you don’t understand. Humans will pack bond with anything.

[dazzleyourmindseye]

[vet-and-wild]

If you are trying to overcome a fear of spiders I can’t recommend this TikTok enough. They never post jump scares and always put warnings if a spider moves fast in a video. All of the videos are super cute and portray the spiders in a very positive and non threatening manner. 11/10 would recommend.