Say it until it’s your heart beat: it wasn’t my fault. I will not give up on myself.
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@mebeingmyownparent
Say it until it’s your heart beat: it wasn’t my fault. I will not give up on myself.
Shake that gothic ass
Do I need sharp teeth and horns? No, but I’d think they’d be very sexy and peak aesthetic, so I deserve them regardless.
I don’t even care about being sexy I just want built-in weapons.
My therapist: we need to talk about your childhood
My brain:
A lot of the “Boys are easy to raise” mentality comes down to parents being convinced it’s perfectly acceptable to emotionally neglect boys due to the horrible concept that boys have less or even no emotional needs.
This is x100 for the parents of autistic boys who will straight up act like their child is soulless and leave them in situations of sensory and social deprivation, locking them away in their rooms with a video game or similar distraction and then ignoring them for the rest of the day every day.
I feel like I need to reiterate that this post is about abuse, and not about leaving boys alone, trusting them to be independent, or having low expectations. This is about laughing at the concept that young boys have emotional needs. This is about my concerns for the young boys I knew who got belted by parents - including their mothers - for expressing emotions, particularly pain and affection which were both heavily prescribed as failures. This is about the parasitic army recruiters who came into that poor rural community and preyed upon those boys as teenagers by promising to take away all that pent up pain they have from their childhood by turning them into a REAL ARMY MAN who wouldn’t feel anymore. This is about the crushing experiences that push so many men into suicide and drug addiction in their desperate attempts to release that pain after they had all semblance of healthy emotional experiences beaten out of them. Stop insinuating that boys being abused is somehow a good thing.
me, pale, tired and sickly-looking from my iron deficiency and general exhaustion as a result of chronic lack of sleep: the victorians would’ve loved me
remember being an eleven year old girl and being filled with rage? everything i did was from a place in my head where tiny daydream me was smashing plates.
eleven year old me at a sleepover: how about instead of talking about boys we go to the park and like idk play some sort of game where we fight eachother with swords to the death
The worst trick a childhood anxiety disorder pulls is, you spend your early years being applauded for being so much more mature than your peers, because you aren’t disruptive, you don’t want any kind of attention, you don’t express yourself, you keep yourself to yourself - this makes you a pleasure to have in class, etc etc - and you start to believe it’s virtue. But you’re actually way behind your peers in normal social development, and who knows if you can ever catch up.
Never heard a truer thing in my life.
holy shit wait you mean being just morbidly terrified of doing anything wrong ISN’T necessarily the same as being “well behaved?!”
Convenient children =/= healthy children
Convenient children do not equal healthy children
This mistake is made so bad often with abused kids too. I was a “fawn” type of abused kid so I’d tell adults whatever they wanted to hear, matched their mood, and rarely talked, and got praised for it a ton because I never acted like myself in front of anyone because it wasn’t safe and then everyone around me told me how amazing I was because of how good I was a killing everything that made me me. Because of this I was constantly told how amazing my parents were because how convenient I was due to the abuse.
being at war with yourself is exhausting. don’t ever think for a second that your pain isn’t valid, that it isn’t real or that people who don’t understand get to tell you whether it hurts or not. also know that i believe in your ability to survive this and anything else, everything else.
please don’t reject care and compassion because you feel like you don’t deserve it. no matter how small your wound is, it is worth being tended to. please don’t let your brain tell you otherwise. you deserve love and care.
Me at 8pm when I’m upset but still have energy: im gunna cut myself tonight and smoke and cry and ahh!! >:(
me at 9:30pm:
You ever think about how we are culturally conditioned to ignore kids and teens talking about potential parental abuse because ‘kids just hate their parents!! That doesn’t mean anything bad is happening!’
Im very nice and caring but also filled with neutrality and rage
what kind of clown juice are fathers drinking that makes them incapable of even acknowledging when they’re wrong
“‘I was in the shower! What is wrong with you?’ Officer Doug Rose lectured an unclothed, sobbing Esmeralda Rossi in front of her daughter and told her he was in charge, even though she was in her own home. The incident report determined that Officer Rose illegally entered the Rossi home without probable cause.
Esmeralda’s daughter caught the invasion on camera and now this video goes viral.
Rose was “retired,” with a pension, from the Chandler Police Force. No charges.No disciplinary action. He just snatched his pension and ran. #copblockus #cop #copblock #police #StopPolice #policebrutality #policeviolence #USA #America #copnews #politics #policestate #democracy” by @cop_block_us on Instagram http://ift.tt/1TIWDIA
Heres the news report with the woman, Esmeralda Rossi. “I was in the shower,” Rossi said. “My daughter came to the shower and said there are two officers at the door. So I just grabbed a towel.” Rossi had committed no crime, the police had no warrant, and they were only responding to a call about an argument between her and her estranged husband. However, these cops acted like they were raiding the home of a mass murderer.Upon answering the door, Rossi was met by two police officers as she stood there in a towel. Not wanted to be gawked at while naked by two strangers, Rossi turned around to go put on some clothes.“It made me very uncomfortable,” Rossi said. “So I closed the door. I turn to go into my living room, and I probably get about five steps in; and all of a sudden, I just hear boots running in after me, telling me stop or I’ll arrest you.”At this point is when Rossi’s daughter and Rossi began filming.Both officers illegally entered Rossi’s home, without probable cause. One of the officers, Doug Rose, then proceeded to assault Rossi. As Rose attempts to illegally arrest this completely innocent woman, her completely nude body is exposed. But that did not stop this cop from continuing his assault.“You have absolutely no clothes on?” this sex offending cop asks as he continues his attack.
In the meantime, his partner stands idly by as he watches his fellow officer attack a naked woman. Rossi was finally subdued by this monster and handcuffed, completely nude. However, she was never charged with a crime. According to ABC 15 News, after reviewing the incident, Chandler Police internal investigators determined Rose entered the home illegally and without probable cause. The investigation also determined that Rose didn’t document arresting or un-arresting the woman or the fact that she was naked.Officer Rose was also wearing a body camera. However, it conveniently failed to record this particular interaction.According to police records, Rose’s partner who contacted his supervisors to “raise questions about Rose’s actions,” was cleared of any wrongdoing.Since the launch of the investigation, Rose retired which is likely a cautionary move to avoid additional charges.
“I felt helpless. I felt violated. And honestly, I felt molested.” Rossi — who said she was molested as a young girl — said the ordeal brought back horrific memories of her childhood.“When I was standing there … I felt like I was 7 all over again in a dark room with a man that is just staring at me,” she said.
This is so fucking sick
Amerikkka’s finest
THIS IS SO DISGUSTING I AM SO MAD
fifty-shades-of-dre
Oh. My. God.
…..wow. That guy deserves jail time, or worse.
Something fucking stinks here…
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There’s this strange gradual realization that we women go through, some in their late teens others in their 20s, where we start realizing that there’s something seriously wrong with men. That they’re misogynists, rapists, killers.
At first we start taking the patriarchy’s route to explain it, we are fooled that no, it’s just this certain class of men, not all. It’s the athletes that cheat on you so don’t date the athletes. Its the men standing in the alleys that rape so don’t go there. It’s the loner men that stalk women not the rest, so stay around extroverted men. And so is this unwritten set of rules that women should follow to avoid male nature yet be around men. Don’t give it up on the first date. Play hard to get. Don’t dress this way, don’t expect too much, don’t, do, wait, stop.
And for a while we are fooled, and we fall for it, and we follow these unspoken rules. But there’s this stirring in our guts, something isn’t right.
Then in our 30s, we have done everything right. We married the nice guy, the regular guy in the movies that is supposed to treat women like humans except…. He doesn’t.
He is a misogynist. He cheats. He rapes. And for a while we are convinced that its us, we just attract shitty dudes. We should pick better. Then we meet other women, and we hear their stories, do they attract shitty men too? We go to work and see the male sexual harassers, we recall our own childhood how our mothers faced emotional, physical and sexual abuse at the hands of our fathers. We notice our brothers as husbands are sexist. Violent. We read the news and hear about women, all across the world, being beaten, raped, murdered by men. And it finally dawns on us that male evil transcends personality type, class, race. It is men.
It has always been men.
Sadly most women never reach the full awakening. They are stuck in the perpetual loop of bending over backwards to escape misogyny from men and blaming not only themselves but other women who are oppressed. Most women never wake up, never respond to the stirring realization in their gut. They deny their own eyes. They follow men who try to rewrite our female reality. They die blind.