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I can't stop thinking about why would you do such a thing. Did I do something wrong? What did I do to make you do something so small, but heart breaking to me? Am I the problem?
It was something so small, but Kunikuzushi couldn't stop thinking about it. He was already struggling, but after finding out about this, he feels so pathetic. Heartbroken. What was he doing in the first place to find out about it? Oh how he wishes he could just live without finding out about it. Imagine how much better life would've been.
What would Kazuha even say to him? How would Kazuha even tell him what's wrong with Kunikuzushi? How could Kunikuzushi just ask him? He couldn't bear to see him in real life, his heart would break even more. Talking to Kazuha, would honestly kill Kunikuzushi.
He feels like crying, but the tears aren't rolling down his face. Why is that? He doesn't know. He knows he's the problem, why else would Kazuha do such a thing to him only? Kunikuzushi already feels so alone, he just wants the next year to come already. But after this, he doesn't know what to do. Cry? Punch Kazuha? Hug Kazuha? Bake something? What does he do after this? What does he do after everything that has happened so far?
It's a type of lonely that slowly consumes you. You're loved by so much people, yet something is missing from your life. Life doesn't feel as exciting as it used to be. Sending TikTok's to your best friend doesn't feel the same anymore. Being with them during lunch is not as fun as it used to be. What's wrong? What is this empty feeling, that you just can't seem to find? No matter what you do, the emptiness is not being filled.
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Melanie Martinez songs and the meaning behind them
I’m not gonna put them in order, but since Melanie’s single out is coming out on Friday, I’ve seen tweets saying how Melanie “sexualises babies” which is 100% false. Let’s begin the meaning of her songs starting with Orange Juice. Orange Juice tackles a very serious issues which is eating disorder and bulimia. Nurse’s Office is bullying and tired of ditching school because of the people who are making ur school life a meeting.
Strawberry Short Cake is about sexualising young girls and how no one taught Boys not to touch them without consent. This song tackles sexual assault. The Principal is about powerful (mostly men) who abuse their power for their own gain but ignores the suffering of those around him especially his own country. Mrs Potatohead is about the expectation and what society is accepts as what is seen as beauty by getting cosmetic surgeries on yourself. Mrs Potatohead is a children’s toy where you can change her whatever you want. Show and Tell is about how we put celebrities on pedestal and treat them object for their own entertainment. The ones behind the scenes are putting them on display for their own greed.
Class Fight is about how women compete against each other especially in the music industry and how they fight over the same thing which is mainly attention from a boy. This is also how women tend to be mad at the other woman despite their partner was in the wrong as well. Wheels on the bus is about how there are people who who inappropriate behaviour in the public eye, but many chose to ignore it rather than confront it. Teacher’s Pet is about the romanticisation of the student/teacher relationships. This song also tackles down the power dynamics involving age difference and grooming. Drama Club is about pretending someone you’re not in order to avoid drama. You’re feel pressure to be someone else when you would rather be yourself and live your own life.
Lunchbox Friends is about toxic friends who only use you and judge for the things you do. They would talk to you in school but ignore you outside. This song is about rather having true friends who understand you. High school sweethearts is about wanting to have a partner who is honest and true loves you. It’s about wanting a committee relationship and hope that the relationship last forever then what you’ve experienced in the past. Recess is about letting go of harmful and toxic people since it’s important to improve your mental health. It’s also artists not having to time take a break because the fear of being replaced. Detention is about how nobody cares about how your feeling unless your making money and the mental torture of pretending to be happy. Dollhouse is about the perfect family outside but behind close doors is different. Dollhouse is a toy that are mainly used by girls who play the games like ‘mum and dad’ to vision their perfect family. Cry baby is a character that is based on Melanie Martinez herself. It’s about how people see cry baby as sensitive due to her empathy. Melanie described cry baby as “a child who experiences adult things”.
Sippy Cup is a story connected to dollhouse's lyrics "don't let them see what goes down in the kitchen". The song is about the lack of being willing to acknowledge reality. Carousel was song that was used for AHS 4th season, 'Freakshow'. The song is about how toxic one-sided relationships can be hoq trying to catch up to love but can't seem move forward. Alphabet Boy is a break up song where you used to date someone who thinks he was better than everyone and try to "teach" you things that you already know. Soap is about being vulnerable and being express deeper feelings such as love. Training Wheels is about moving on to the next step when being a committed relationship. Madhatter is a reference to fictional character from the alice in wonderland stories and some of the lyrics do make a reference in the books. It's about accepting who you are and not caring what anyone thinks even though people may describe you as 'crazy'.
Teddy Bear is about being in an abusive relationship and trying to figure out what went wrong. The person that you were in love was your whole world and even treated you right, but now he hurting you and even going as far as trying to kill you. Playdate is about being in love with someone who only sees you as just a friend so you act like you don't care either. Cake is about having a relationship with someone who just wants to play with your feelings. They just want one thing from you and believe that you're an esay person to manipulate. Fire Drill is focus on fake friends, childhood bullies and attention-seeking. Copy cat is about people in music industry who steals other artist's creation and act like it's their own.
love bite
tw blood sucking, mention of hunger for blood, fluff characters alhaitham/kaveh a/n i'm sorry if anything alhaitham or kaveh says isn't something they'd say! i don't know their personalites that well!!
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The urge for blood is so strong, Kaveh can't take it anymore. He's burying his head in his project, trying to hide the sweat dripping down his forehead. He's trying to hide how red his face is.
Alhaitham is reading on the couch, and not paying attention at all. Kaveh clenches his fist, breaking his pencil. He mumbles something.
"Kaveh, what are you mumbling on about? It's quite annoying," Alhaitham says, glancing at Kaveh's head.
"So..sorry.." Kaveh says, biting the inside of his cheek.
Alhaitham looks up from his book, staring at Kaveh. Normally, Kaveh would argue back, and piss of Alhaitham even more, but this time, Alhaitham can tell there is something up with Kaveh.
He stares at Kaveh, trying to figure out what happened that could make Kaveh apologize to him.
Kaveh stands up, his chair scraping on the wooden flooring. Alhaitham looks at Kaveh in annoyance.
He watches Kaveh walk over to him, with his head down, so he can't see his face. "What do you want now?" Alhaitham asks.
Kaveh looks up, drool dripping from the corner of his mouth. Alhaitham's eyes widen at the sight of Kaveh's bright red eyes.
"So you're one of the blood suckers, huh..?" Alhaitham places his book down, and crosses his arms. Kaveh's eyes aren't on Alhaithams, instead they're on his neck, where his shirt is revealing his collarbone.
Alhaitham doesn't do anything, he just watches. Kaveh is panting, and he looks so desperate.
"Alhaitham.." Kaveh manages to say, his voice hoarse.
"Go on, suck my blood, you blood sucker," Alhaitham says, gesturing at his neck. Kaveh's eyes widen, softening a bit, but then they go back to hungry, desperate look.
Kaveh places his knees on either side of Alhaitham, and he gently places his hands on Alhaitham's shirt, making room for more skin to show, even though there is plenty.
Alhaitham places his hand over Kaveh's hair, on his neck, and brings him closer. He's not showing any emotion, but just looking at Kaveh's pointed teeth, which are known as "vampire teeth" in Sumeru Studies.
Kaveh brings his head closer to Alhaitham's neck, and bites into his neck. Alhaitham bites his teeth down, and closes his eyes. He soon feels nothing, and when he opens his eyes, Kaveh is still at his neck, his hands are no longer shaking, and he's no longer sweating or drooling.
Kaveh removes his mouth from Alhaitham's neck, but his hands are still on Alhaitham's shirt, and shoulder. Alhaitham's hand hasn't moved either.
"What the hell am I doing on your f--king lap?" Kaveh asks, looking disgusted.
Alhaitham expected this. While studying as a student, he was asked to study the topic of "Vampires" which were considered a myth, but there have rumors of vampires around Teyvat, and Kaveh is one of them. According to the books Alhaitham read, when hungry, vampire's seem to forget what they're doing, and they just want blood.
Alhaitham chuckles. Kaveh looks at him, his face red.
"What the hell are you laughing at?" Kaveh asks, not realizing his hands are still on Alhaitham.
Alhaitham brings Kaveh's face closer, and whispers in his ear, "you, blood sucker."
Vampire scara has me on a chokehold
just some scara headcanons i thought of 🥰
note : SOTSPDOSO DID YALL LISTEN TO "BITE ME" BY ENHYPEN!?! HOLY SHIT IT'S SO GOOD AND I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT VAMPIRE SCARA WITH THAT SONG
JUST COME KISS ME AND BITE MEE (these headcanons are so him.)
Crying blood, bleeding tears
tw mention of su!c!de, angst, no comfort, character death, demon slayer AU character scaramouche/F!reader a/n i really enjoyed writing thiss!! the angst in this- i was surprised when i reread this. "did i write this? holy-" haha
happy reading though! or considering it's angst- probably not happy reading...
this one-shot is a bit long.. 2308 words to be exact.. sorry about that :,3 it's also on my ao3!!
The way you spoke to people, how you use your hands in conversations, how you always care for people even if they have bad intentions for you. The way you look at him, like he's the only person in the world that matters to you. If he was dared to tell the whole world he loves you, he would simply whisper it in your ear.
Out of all the hashira's, you're a rank higher than him, but he is still well respected, even though his personality is shi-ty. Most of the members of the Demon Slayer Corps know him for how strong he is, even though he joined the Corps a year ago. Apparently he was some sort of criminal before he joined. A lot of people question if he should be serving the Corps, but Master let him join. You're still curious as to why the Master let him join, but he has definitely changed since he joined.
"Scaramouchie! We're on another mission together, how great is that?!" You jog up to him. You love to call him Scaramouchie, teasing him of any sort is fun, especially seeing his flustered face. He turns from his conversation with one of the Mizunoe ranked slayers, scowling, but when he sees you, his scowl disappears, and his eyes soften at your smile. But he quickly turns back, mumbling something to himself.
"Yeah yeah, be quiet, will you? We need to focus, apparently it's an Uppermoon, according to this Mizunoe," he gestures at the trembling girl. She bows when you turn to her.
"Are you hurt anywhere? The Kakushi will be here soon, please take the other slayers to safety in the meantime, yes?" You say, not letting her reply. She bows, and rushes off to the other slayers.
Nakurami Forest is known for being dark even when it's bright and sunny. It's something due to the trees according to Master. An Uppermoon? Here in Nakurami Forest..? You question, going back to Scaramouche, who is looking at the forest.
"What are you thinking, Y/N?" He asks, noticing how there's some sort of look on your face, which is unusual for you.
You turn to him, surprised, but you push the thoughts away, trying to focus.
"Nothing," you smile at him.
"Loving thunder breathing, first form, wall of rumbling hearts!"
A wall, with hearts, that is shaking against each other, small bolts of lightning between them, suddenly rises from the ground, going all the way up to the tree tops. You wince at the pain at your stomach, and quickly help the wounded member out of danger, yelling at him to leave the forest.
You cough, and look at the blood splattered at the ground from the cough.
Your wall goes down, and there is Scaramouche fighting the Uppermoon, dashing from spot to spot. You straighten your back, getting into stance. You hear your crow say something about two more hashira's arriving.
"Loving thunder breathing, third form, lightning love!"
A lightning cackle bursts from the sky, stunning the Uppermoon. Scaramouche takes this opportunity and dashes right to the Uppermoon, about to slice his neck, but the Uppermoon disappears, and you're suddenly pulled down to the ground, hitting your head on a rock, half of it in the ground, the other sharp half, on top.
You shrieked, a sudden jolt of pain rushing through your head. You try to keep your eyes open, your vision blurry, and your head is spinning. Your sword drops to the ground right next to you, the handguard of a lotus flower falling off from it. You groan, at the rush of the pain rushing through your head.
You can't focus on anything, and it's confusing you. He sees you fall back, and fear and worry fills his eyes. He gets into his stance.
"Anemo breathing, third form, song of the wind."
All of a sudden, he's right there, right next to the Uppermoon behind you, like a gust of wind had taken him there. He slashes the Uppermoon's head, and it falls to the ground. He drops his sword, panting, and goes right to your side.
"Y/N? Are you alright? Can you hear me? What's your name? What's my name?" He panics, asking all sorts of questions.
You try your best to answer all of them, but you wince in pain. You tied a cloth around your stomach when the Uppermoon sliced a bit too deep, but now the cloth is falling apart.
"Sca…scara.."
He shakes his head, tears streaming down his face. He hiccups, shaking his head.
"Y/N.. No.. Please don't leave me.. You're the only.." He struggles to finish his sentence.
You were the first person who treated him with kindness, even when you didn't know him that well. All the other hashira's treated him differently when he first joined, but you spoke to him, after he defeated a demon, effortlessly. You wanted to learn more about this mysterious hashira. He was a strange one, he was quiet, and kept to himself, but the more you two talked, he cared more about you, and loved you more than himself. He never showed this kindness to you, but you could see it in his eyes. The way they soften when you walk into the room. You could see it in his expressions as he's talking to you.
You groan in pain, gulping down and trying to control your breathing.
"Try to control your breathing. The Kakushi will be here soon, hang in there a little longer, please Y/N?" His voice is breaking apart, and he's trying to stop crying. He's holding your hand, and squeezing it, giving you reassurance that he'll be here with you. For eternity.
"Scara.. You're a really.. Good person, you know? Look at you worrying about me, when you're hurt worse," You manage to get out, but there's so much pain from your stomach.
"Sh-t.." You mumble under your breath, feeling more blood pour out from your stomach as you speak.
Scaramouche notices this, and unbuttons his uniform, ripping it off. He folds it as quickly as he can, and puts pressure with it to your wound.
"It's fine, Scara…" You can taste the blood in your mouth from the punch to the stomach earlier. You've always had a habit of peeling the skin on your lips, secretly loving the metallic taste on your tongue. But you want the taste to go away now. You want all the pain to go away, you just want to see Scaramouche smile once more. When he smiles, you just seem to forget all about your struggles, and worries. All you could see was how beautiful he looked. How happy he looked to just be with you.
"NO!" You're surprised by this outburst.
"BE QUIET Y/N. IT'S NOT FINE, YOU'RE.." He pants, trying to process all this, trying to keep it all together for your sake, but he's a mess. There's tears flooding down his eyes, snot dripping from his nose, and there is blood everywhere.
You give him a smile, your best smile. To show him it's okay. But you know it's not. There's tears rolling down the side of your face now, and you sniff, trying to keep yourself together.
He notices the smile, the tears and his eyes widen.
"STOP! Please.. Y/N.. Stop. Just stop.. Stop smiling like EVERYTHING IS OKAY. YOU'RE NOT OKAY, YOU'RE NOT OKAY."
You lift your hand, and take his hand from the cloth he's still applying pressure to you on. You hold his hand, as tightly as you can.
"Scaramouche.. It's alright." He frowns, his mouth opening to say something, but you continue, stopping him.
"It's alright. Death is something that happens in life. It's natural. It comes to everyone. Everyone has their happy ever after, some of them don't. But having you with me, as.." You can't bring yourself to say the word.
No matter how much you wanted to die in the past, no matter how many times you've cursed at yourself for not being able to die, you can't bring yourself to say the word in front of him, while he's crying. You've never seen him cry, and seeing him cry right now, breaks your heart. You want to hug him, and comfort him. But you can't.
"The Kakushi.." he says, but he shakes his head, hiccupping and wiping his eyes.
"They won't be here in time.. The rock hit my.. Head.. Really.. Badly…" you smile at him, feeling the tears run down your ear.
"STOP BEING SO NEGATIVE. THEY WILL BE HERE.. SOON.." He yells at you, squeezing your hand.
You chuckle, scrunching your face in pain.
His hold on your hand loosens, afraid he's going to cause you even more pain.
"Hey.. Scara.. Mouchie.."
He looks at you, waiting for you to speak. He's always enjoyed talking to you. He's always enjoyed listening to you, ramble on about things that interest you. Scaramouche has always known that you overthink things quite easily, so he tries his best to be clear about things. Your voice, smile, and just you, has always cheered him up. But seeing you die? Right in front of him? When he can't do anything? How can he live? How can he live, with the regret that you died right in front of him, and he just watched you, snot dripping down his face, crying like a little baby?
You slowly lose your vision, and your eyes seem to be closing. You try your best to keep your eyes open, but you can't. Deep down, you just want to close your eyes to make the pain go away. Your eyelids are too heavy for you now.
"NO, NO, NO, NO, NO. DON'T! KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN. DON'T LEAVE ME.. Please... Y/N.." He sobs through his words, wiping his noses, gently shaking you, still holding your hand. Having three people leave and betray him left him alone, but once he met you, he forgot all about them. He forgot all about his suffering. You bloomed a path into his heart, allowing him to express himself more, showing more of his self to people, and especially to you. What did he do to have you enter his life, and be the sunlight, he always looks forward to seeing?
Your hand goes limp, and he continues shaking you, sobbing. He continues to hold your hand, even when there's no warmth on your hand. He continues holding your hand, even when he knows, that you're already gone.
"Y/N.. Please.. Wake up.. "
Your whole body is cold, and limp. You're not moving at all, not even when he shakes you violently. He stares at your body. In horror, shock, denial. You're not actually dead, are you? You're just teasing him, aren't you?
"I want to hear you.. call me Scaramouchie.. once more.. please.."
A few years later...
"Anemo breathing, third form, Jade-Claimed flower."
A flower, the same design as the top of his hat, rises from beneath the demon, and folds itself in half with the demon in the middle of it, knocking out the demon. He takes a step to the unconscious demon. Rising his sword, he slashes the demons head off, its body crumbling away, as the ashes fly into the air. He slices his sword in the air, something he was always taught to remove the blood after a fight. He slowly puts his sword back into his scabbard, and looks around the scene. More Kakushi scurry onto the scene, helping the wounded and helping clean up the scene.
"Sir Scaramouche?"
He turns around slowly, wondering why someone would talk to him, when there are severely wounded people who need attention.
His eyes widen slightly, and he seems to have been bought back to the first time he met her.
The same worried expression, like he's worrying if Scaramouche will be annoyed. She also used to have that expression whenever she asked for a favour, or for help with something.
"I uh.. I thank you.. Thank you for helping us.. I don't know if we would've been able to see the sun again if you hadn't arrived.." the young slayer bows, lower than a normal bow. Scaramouche looks in surprise, but his gaze softens. She also bowed like that when she apologized and thanked people..
Some of the Kakushi are secretly watching this scene now, as they continue cleaning up and helping the wounded. None of the new slayers ever dare walk up to Scaramouche due to his temper and cold personality. They've heard about him, as he's the most well respected among the Hashira, but the new slayers question that because of the stories they've heard about him, by people who have met him before.
Scaramouche takes a step to the young slayer, and places his hand on his head, and pats it gently. The young man is surprised by this, but he just stands there.
Scaramouche looks at the slayer, and gives a small smile. A genuine smile, but there is a hint of sorrow in his eyes as he smiles.
He takes his hand off the slayer's head, and walks off. All the Kakushi watch him leave, but continue with work, murmuring to each other. The young slayer turns and watches him, staring at him leave, but before he does leave, the young slayer yells something to Scaramouche, he's been wanting to tell him since he first saw him.
"I like your handguard.. A lotus flower.. It's beautiful."
Scaramouche stops for a second when he hears this. He's surprised the slayer noticed, and even commented on this. He smiles, just a bit. Scaramouche waves his hand, as he continues to walk out of the forest.
Once he has left Narukami Forest, he stares at the sun, shining down. He suddenly chuckles to himself, adjusting his hat.
"What an idiot.. Who bows that low?"
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"happy birthday, you worm."
cw fluff characters scaramouche/f!reader a/n hehe, it was my birthday yesterday, so this oneshot is for a special occasion!! hehe this oneshot was kind of short, and i wasnt sure how to end it well, but i enjoyed writing this!
also note: you and scara are friends, but you two just don't talk irl!!
happy readingg~!
"Happy birthday Y/N!!" Lumine throw herself onto you, squeezing you tightly.
"Ah.. thank you.. But I'm kind of.. dying here.." You manage to say. She immediately remove herself off from you.
"Haha, I'm fine, but thank you!" you chuckle.
"Did you get any presents?" Lumine asks. Ayaka walks up, and also wishes you happy birthday.
"Thank you Ayaka~ And not yet. I ordered Enhypen's new album, and it's coming around the 22nd of may or something," you smile when Lumine and Ayaka smile, and starts talking about it with you, but you drift off into your own zone. You look around the classroom, when you notice Kunikuzushi staring at you from his group of friends.
You quickly turn back, right when Ayaka and Lumine ask you which photocard you want. The day goes by quite normally. The moment when you make eye contact with Kunikuzushi is still replaying in your head, but you go through most of the day. Your homegroup teacher, some of your elementary school friends and all of your friends from your class wish you a happy birthday.
Third and forth period goes by, and soon it's lunch. As you're walking to your locker, a bit behind as you were waiting for your friend, Bennet, you notice Kunikuzushi was looking up at your direction, but when looks back at his locker.
You just walk to your locker, thinking he was just looking for his friend. When you've put your books on the shelf in your locker, you hear your name being said from behind you. You have a feeling that it's Kunikuzushi, his voice is recognizable.
You turn around, and he's standing there, with your favourite kind of m&m packet in his hands, holding it towards you.
"Happy birthday you worm," he says, looking at you. He whispers the last part, but you heard him. You glance at him, and at the m&m packet. You smile.
"Oh, thank you.."
He walks off, and you turn back to your locker. One of your classmates, who's locker is next to yours, asks if she can have one.
You nod your head, but as you're putting the rest of your stuff away, you feel yourself tearing up.
He was the first one to give you a gift, even your parents haven't given you a gift yet. It was quite a surprise too, you weren't expecting him to give you anything, and since it was from him, you felt so happy. He barely talks to you during school, and since he gave the m&m's to you, you felt so happy. You wipe your tears, and open the packet. You pour some m&m's into your classmates hand, and she thanks you, and walks off.
You offer your friends some m&m's, and once you put it in your locker, you're still crying. As you're walking to the gate, you notice Kunikuzushi out of the corner of your eye. You turn to his direction, and notice that he's staring at you. Once he saw that you're looking at him. he gestures for you to follow him. You do so, and you two are standing there near the library.
"Ah, Kunikuzushi, thank you for the m&ms, they really made me happy for some reason," you smile at him.
He nods his head.
"I heard you cried? Your friend told me, what was that about? Are you okay?" He asks.
You're surprised from it. Him being concerned for you? That's.. You just fell for him even more.
"Ah, no no, it's fine! I'm okay, I don't know why I cried, I guess I cried for no reason," you chuckle awkwardly.
Kunikuzushi stares at you, before holding out his hand.
"Huh?" You ask, still wiping your eyes.
"Give me some m&ms," he says, looking straight into your eyes.
You smile, taking out the packet of m&ms from your bag.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 💞💞💞🎂🎂🎂🎂🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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painter splattered teardrops - chapter 6
cw angst, fluff, body shaming, slowburn??, harrassment, abuse MENTION SELF-HARM!!!! ⚠ characters scaramouche/f!reader a/n AHH this is the first time i've ever written a CHAPTER 6 of a series 😭 the amount of times i've given up on writing a series...
PLEASE BE WARNED THAT THERE IS A MENTION OF SELF-HARM IN THIS CHAPTER!!
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The next day at school, you were expecting him to be here, but you keep forgetting he's suspended for a week.
You go on with your day, studying for the upcoming exams during break, as Childe has some sort of soccer competition between the other students in the grade.
As you're opening your laptop to continue writing your essay, the sunshine in front of you disappears, and someone is standing in front of you.
"Childe, I thought you were-" You look up, chuckling, but your eyes land on the person who was in front of you, your eyes widen.
He's standing there, with his arms crossed, and he's smirking at you.
"What? Am I that scary?" He asks.
"Kunikuzushi..? What on earth are you doing here? What if a teacher sees you? Aren't you supposed to be suspended?" You shoot a load of questions at him, forgetting that he does not like answering questions.
"Y/N.." he says with his eyes closed, tapping his foot. You close your mouth, remembering.
"Ah.. sorry sorry, I forgot.." You quietly back up.
"Wait, do you want to go to the art room? So no one finds out you're here?" You ask, quickly turning around.
Kunikuzushi seems to be surprised by your offer, but he seems to agree. You pack up your stuff, and walks to the art room, glancing to the side time to time, to make sure he's following you. The worry in her eyes as she asks all the questions, makes Kunikuzushi love her even more. The panic in her eyes when she realizes that he doesn't like answering too many questions, is so cute. Kunikuzushi actually felt like admitting to himself that he likes her. But he, again, told himself, that Y/N is just a cute person in general.
As they're walking to the classroom, he pretends to not notice, but he notices Y/N glancing at him time to time. He wanted to say something about it, but he just figured it was her way of making sure he was following her.
When they finally arrive to the art room, Y/N closes the door, and locks it. Kunikuzushi sits down at the counter near the window, and looks at Y/N, as she tries to figure out what to say to him. How to word it correctly, so he doesn't think she's a weirdo.
"I don't.." Y/N starts.
Kunikuzushi waits for her to continue.
"I don't blame you. I really don't, I really think she deserved that punch, I hate the way she made me feel around you guys... and how I thought of myself.. so.."
Her face is pink from the embarrassment of telling the words to him, but she keeps on talking, making eye contact with him a few times.
"I wish I could have the power to make Signora get the punishment instead of you, but as you know, I don't have that kind of power, but at the same time.. You know, I don't think anyone does?"
Kunikuzushi stares at her, before chuckling.
She looks at him in horror, wondering what she said to hurt his feelings, even though in her head, she knows she somehow made him laugh.
"Kunikuzushi, what? What did I say? Ah, it's that cringey, is it?" Y/N asks, frowning and going through her head at all the things she said to Kunikuzushi.
"Y/N.. No it's fine, you didn't say anything wrong," Kunikuzushi gets off from the counter, and goes over to the Y/N. You can see how flustered she is getting, just from him walking over to her, which Kunikuzushi finds amusing.
She finally stops at the counter. She places her hand on the counter handle, wanting something to hold. Kunikuzushi places his hand on top of the counter, leaning down to Y/N.
"Y/N.. I.. really wanted to hear those words.. Thank you.." There was such genuine in his eyes, that she actually thought he was acting, but he wasn't the kind of person to do that.
She opens her mouth to say something, but she closes it back, when he continues.
"I wanted to wait until the end of my suspension to talk to you, but I couldn't get you out of my head. I was wondering if you were okay.. if I somehow.. hurt you.. in any way.." he glances to the side, frowning at the thoughts of her, being upset.
Y/N stares at him, on the verge of crying.
Kunikuzushi looks back at her. He frowns at her, wondering why she looks like she's about to cry.
"What happened?! What did I do to you?" He asks, taking her arms and examining them, to see if he accidently hurt her somehow when he placed his hands on the counter.. As he flips her arms, he notices the faint lines on her forearm.
"Huh.." Kunikuzushi stares at the faint lines, and looks back at Y/N.
She seems surprised, but at the same time, she looks like she was expecting this. She didn't pull her arms away, like how she used to when someone grabbed her wrist.
"Uh.. Let me explain.. before anything comes into your head.." Y/N gently takes Kunikuzushi's hand off her wrist. She props herself onto the counter, and Kunikuzushi looks at her, a small frown on his face.
She glances anywhere but his eyes, just staring at his shirt collar.
"Uhm.. So.. before I met you and Childe.. Signora's bullying.. was much worse.. She.." She hesitates, before quickly saying,
"Promise me, you won't do anything to her. I don't want you to get into trouble again.."
Kunikuzushi takes her hands, and holds them.
"You.. you don't need to tell me.. You can tell me another time.. when you're ready.." Kunikuzushi says.
Y/N gives a sad smile.
"It's fine, I want to tell you."
"Signora.. she.. she did all sorts of things.." You slowly explain to him the kinds of things she did, tears falling down your face, as you remember how painful it was as she did them. The tears stream down your face, wetting your shirt.
Kunikuzushi continues holding your hand, listening to you.
"And.." You give a croaky chuckle, from crying.
"Yeah.. Haha.. That's how these," you gesture to your arm, "happened. I didn't really have anyone to talk to back then. My mother was busy taking care of my younger siblings so I couldn't bring myself to tell her," Y/N wipes her eyes.
"You.." He starts.
Y/N places her finger on his lips, shushing him. "It's fine Kunikuzushi, you don't need to say anything. I'm doing much better, I stopped a few days after I became friends with you and Childe, so don't worry," Y/N smiles, acting all normal now.
Kunikuzushi just had to follow Y/N, out to the field, to see Childe. He couldn't say anything to cheer her up. He couldn't say anything to let her know that he is here for her to talk to.
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