Reflections on Job Trajectory
aka the most boring shit about life but also includes how glad I am about doing less.
Started out with a super underpaid job, practically working 3 job roles/responsibilities in one, on avg worked 6 days a week, had handled my supervisor's literal actual tantrums at the office, being bullied and isolated by coworkers during the first three months. But I fucking killed it, I was practically assistant to my super (cause her manager would offload to her to then offload to me, haha, what joy), trained so many new colleagues, learned so much shit cause it actually was sink or swim and got some great friends out of it. Trauma bonding at work 👌👌👌
Second job, pays great. Management slowly turns into a literal nightmare. Everybody is a great coworker except the literal bitch from hell who stayed at the job like a leech (I've never researched/got so much EXP on gaslighting in my fucking life) and the actually mentally unwell colleague who eventually had a breakdown. But the amount of job responsibility was still about 30% less than the first. Crazy.
Now this third job, 50% less job responsibility then the second job. Comes with a pay cut but increased mental sanity. Actual managers policing colleagues when they are not up to par. I am actual pleb and told to stay in pleb status cause it's literally not my fucking responsibility. I. Love. It. Bless boundaries because my goodness this shit is great. Every job has shit but when it's predictable and you don't hate ppls guts at your work place, you're doing alright.
Who knows what's going to happen but I get two overall lessons from this. One, I can handle so much bs. Two, the goal is less for more. It's not like I'm not putting in effort and being present but your job shouldn't take all of your "present" energy. It should take the tiny chunk and the rest can exist elsewhere. Here's to manifesting either, same job responsibility level with better pay or (cause I know I am capable unfortunately) more job responsibility but must include much more fucking pay. I'd like to exist at either. But right now, this is nice.
