in awe of the pit

hi i'm Mia, 21y, and i enjoy writing and editing sometimes but as i'm a college student i don't have too much time, i hope we can be friends tho! (🇧🇷)

[cherrylusstuff]

inject jegulus that just makes sense into my veins please.

like, they bicker and tease each other, but they're just so drawn to one another. all it takes is one conversation between them for remus to catch them and think "oh". same with dorcas. because regulus gets this little smirk with shiny eyes just for james, and james keeps trying to hold back a smile every time they exchange insults, constantly leaning in to argue when it's not necessary at all. they make up lame excuses to show up in the same places, the eye contact is way too intense, they're possessive while totally clueless, remember every detail about each other (like tea prep, daily class schedules and stuff), and have nicknames that were meant to be derogatory but sound almost like foreplay. the tension is just there. alive, breathing, palpable even. everyone knows it's just a matter of time.

[persianmom-deactivated20260602]

[suchusoid]

I bring a certain "iron man is a character made originally as capitalist propaganda that has since become and iverrated, annoying, and overly favored character that has done many terribke things that he has yet to truly answer for" enrergy to the party that mcu fans din't like.

[sandgrassbagel]

kinda going off my last post, i don't think I've seen enough people talk about how the cain/colette parallel ofc proves cas loves dean, but it also proves that dean loves cas back

cain loves colette so much that being loved in return by her changed him. cain loves colette so much that when he lost her he never moved on and never fully recovered. cain loves colette so much that after she died he swore off the first blade for centuries. cain loves colette so much that she was The love of his life. cain loves colette so much that her knowing who he is to the core of him and forgiving him for what he's done was so important to him

THATS the kind of love that destiel is being compared to. that we see REFLECTED IN DESTIEL. dean loves cas so much that even if he doesn't believe he is that good and caring man cas sees him as, he's going to try to become that and see himself like that because cas did. dean loves cas so much that every time he loses him, he never fully recovers. dean loves cas so much that seeing him bloodied beneath him and saying "dean please" made him regain control from the mark. he loves cas so much he is The love of his life. dean loves cas so much that despite his fear of being known to the core of who he is, he trusts cas with the worst pieces of himself and opens up to him in a way he just doesn't with others

[unhinged-jackles]

Just listened to Richard and Rob’s Supernatural Then and Now podcast ep with Misha, and Misha talked about how he became a series regular in season 5 because he called up Kripke and asked for it??? And Rich was very impressed because actors don’t just call show runners up but Misha recognized he was already on for longer than expected and was like ‘I’m getting pilot auditions and I’d love to stay on the show but in order to do that I’d have to be a series regular’ and then Kripke said yes.

Misha then said he was nervous for contract renegotiations for the upcoming season, and he was fine for 6, but found out he got fired for season 7 when he went to visit the writers room in Cali while he was in town, and Gamble and Singer broke the news that he’s going to get killed off pretty early on and that he was fired.

It was then someway through the season that the network essentially called up Gamble and Singer like ‘hey killing that fan favorite character wasn’t permanent was it?’ and told them to bring Cas back.

It was after this that Misha felt that he had a place on the show and that he was truly part of it, and knew he could be on the show for as long as he wanted to be and was not at the risk of being fired. @mishacollins your fucking impact I love you so much.

[fortunatelyenchantingtaco]

It will forever be funny how magicians bait you with a start of like. A privileged typical magical school and you go meh and then there’re like. Small things you keep finding creepy but go meh maybe its just oh so special. Quentin talking about his depression and knowing exactly from which roof to jump to not survive, Julia using her ring to gash open her arm so she wouldn’t forget about magic, beast appearing and burning dean’s eyes, alice’s brother who used too much magic and burned into a wild and cruel spirit. All weird and kinda disturbing but its mixed with so much humour and dumb privileged college kids on weed you kinda ignore the implications of how fucked up magic is

And then it all comes to a head when youre forced to mentally confront the fact that the beast, the main villain, a man who’s face is always obstructed by flies, who has been killing you and your friends for 44 time loops, is a hero of your childhood books which saved you from suicide. Books which were written by a man who sexually abused this boy for years which is why now he’s trying to destroy everything and be the only one left. Like what the actual fuck. And to drive the point home it deals with pregnancy as a result of SA and they go robbing a bank to afford it. This show pick you up by the scruff and takes you on a rollercoaster and shows you that magic comes from pain. That there is no talent, that the strongest mages are those who don’t stop. And then it takes your hand again and shows you that life is still beautiful even with all the horror. That there is hope and love and sometimes love is also hideous and evil and cruel but that’s okay. There might not be a happy ending but love was there. You did it because you loved and because you did something to change the world for the better and even if it turned completely wrong the sentiment was there. You existed and you mattered and maybe that’s enough

[dftwm]

ok hear me out !

Dean was trying to figure out if Sam knows here

the way he focuses on Sam’s reaction when says “what, like my feelings?”

the way he remains silent for some time, the way he avoids answering at all

- are you okay?

- me?

- yeah. Cas dinged you up pretty good.

- and?

- and I just want to make sure you’re okay

- what, like my feelings?

- if that’s what you want to talk about

I mean, there wasn’t even the reason to think that Sam’s hinting on his feelings. Dude was beaten by an angel, of course Sam’s worried. Dean could’ve just brushed it off, said “he healed me, remember?” instead of doing whatever the hell he did.

Seconds before he asked Sam about his physical health in the first place. It would be logical to assume that Sam's redirected question also applies to health, so Dean could’ve just said he’s in a great shape.

But instead he provokes. He mention some “feelings”. He observe the reaction and analyzes it. And then he decides (and that’s true) that Sam’s still oblivious and simply jokes, closing the topic.

[glorious-spoon]

so my kid is one of those people who gets incredibly cranky when she's hungry and also incredibly stubborn about refusing to eat when she's already hangry, and the best and simplest solution is generally to just leave a plate of snacks near her without a word while she's distracted and she will eventually start absently eating the snacks and feel better.

anyway, i wonder how many times buck has pulled this exact move on eddie.

[kookytheskooky]

How watching Tip Toe feels

[omniscientoranges]

okay because i am always thinking about dean and his jewelry literally, idk if we've said this yet but if he had kept it until s11 specifically the s11 finale. He goes to say goodbye to everyone and he takes off like a bracelet for each person or something and then he gets to cas and all that's left is mary's ring and cas looks at him and kinda figures that dean just, isn't going to give him anything (and that's okay with him, right? even if it stings it's okay) but then dean just goes "here, c'mon" and holds his hand out. and cas just tilts his head and dean's like "come on, seriously" and reaches down and grabs cas' hand, and then he slips his (mary's) ring off his finger and just. puts it on cas'. and cas just looks down at his hand and where dean's fingers are still circling his wrist and he swallows hard and says "dean, I could go with you" and dean just shakes his head "no, no i need you to stay here" and then they hug and then. well and then i die basically.

[grandfather-paradoxx]

Extrapolate further.

Mary is brought back. She finds a strange man in her adult son’s house. She almost shoots him. Her son stops her and the man leaps forward to embrace him with a familiar name on his lips. Her son leans into the embrace.

She watches them, uncertain.

And then she sees it. Her ring. On this man’s left hand. A hand grasping tight to her son’s back.

And she knows.

[casmybelovedass]

The Destiel Folder: Season 8

[Season 4; Season 5; Season 6; Season 7]

Oooohhh this is where things start getting JUICY

Episode 1:

Again, Dean copes with the idea of Cas not being there by lying to himself

Parallel from S6: Dean behaves exactly like he was while looking for Lisa and Ben, looking for Cas. "Where's the angel!" (16:57)

Dean clearly states he won't leave PurGAYtory without Cas (22:45)

Episode 2:

Since Dean has come back, he has been snappy with Sam and Crowley about Cas, but every time he remembers PurGAYtory, he is either looking for Cas or with him, and that's all he thinks of

Again with the paraparallels with Lisa and Ben (12:21), also "You'll find your angel there." (13:19) ICWAW, come on, do I have to point that out?

"There are some in Heaven who still believe, despite his mistakes, that Castiel's heart was always in the right place [...] I think... too much heart was always Castiel's problem." (22:25) Samandriel says all of this while looking directly at Dean

Look at that hug. Have we ever seen Dean hug Cas before? The gring on Dean's face. [This is so fucking funny too me, the "Nice peach fuzz" reaction to Cas' beard VS the Sam's "That's the most disgusting thing I've ever seen!" reaction in season 14] (23:21)

"I prayed to you, Cas, every night!" (24:37) Cas once again chose to leave/hurt Dean in order to protect him, even tho he really doesn't want to leave him. "There've been things hunting me. [...] I've a price on my head and I've been trying to stay one step ahead of them to... to keep them away from you." (24:54) Those fucking eyes kill me

Dean is willing to risk it all to get Cas out with him. "Cas, buddy... I need you." [yeah, let's see how well that ages on episode 17], also the little "Dean... " after that... BABIES (25:33)

That smile, those eyes... LOOK AT HIM. This is such a "You and me against everything" moment that, ICWAW, would be considered HELLA ROMANTIC

"I'm not leaving here without you. Understand?" (25:51) for fucking finally, also 12 seconds of STARE + LICK of the LIPS action. Oooohhh ICWAW... just imagine

Let us remember that all of this ⬆️, Dean remembers after Samandriel told him "too much heart bla bla bla"

"... [Kevin] thinks people I don't need anymore, they end up dead." (40:36) 'you', Dean? Only you? That's so much guilt you are packing. And immediately after he thinks about trying to save Cas from PurGAYtory and failing... Alrighty then

Episode 5:

I get why some people ship Dean and Benny, but they really do struck me as a bromance. When they call each other "brother", I believe that. With Cas, Dean pulls the "brother card" whenever he's opening his heart to him, basically "no-homo"ing it at the end. Weird right? (12:03)

Benny bitches about Cas being a danger to them because of the attraction monsters have to him, and Cas himself tries convincing Dean he has to leave him behind for his own good, but Dean is having none of that shit and is ready to die trying to save him (12:56)

FUCK MY LIFE we are getting flashbacks from both Sam and Dean, Sam about the time he spent with Amelia, and Dean about looking for, finding and trying to save Cas. I MEAN??!!! ICWAW you BET this would be seen as a ROMANTIC PARALLEL

"He's a friend." "A friend? Dean, you don't have any- all your friends are dead." "That's not what I called to talk about!!" Ouch (25:27)

Episode 6:

"I was in Purgatory." "Like 'purgatory' Purgatory?" "No, the one in Miami." ... that's a gay bar, Dean, how would you know? (11:23)

Dean's lying to himself about Cas letting go (35:32)

Episode 7:

Parallel to S1 Sam seeing Jess while in the car (2:31). Kill me. Also Dean allucinates Cas just like Sam did with Jess (10:15) band tries coping with it by repeating to himself that he didn't leave Cas behind

Every scene in Purgatory where Cas tries to reassure Dean that, if he doesn't make it, it's just the way it is, and Dean insisting he won't leave without him. "I'm just saying... if it doesn't work.. Thank you. For everything." (12:50) I'm dying

Cas comes back and all Dean does for the first few moments is check him out (16:16-16:21) He says he kept trying to reach for the boys, but wasn't at full power, tho somehow Dean was the only one who could see him. And Dean's eyes looking back at Cas (17:58) End me now

FUCKING👏BONER👏SHIFT👏 (20:38)

LOOK AT HIM!! He's checking him out, making THAT face and SHIFTING IN HIS SEAT WHILE PRESSING A HAND TO HIS CROTCH. THAT'S A BONER SHIFT. Look at Sam and then at Dean (20:44) One is a friendly fond reaction, one ISN'T.

ICWAW, we wouldn't even be QUESTIONING it!

The amount of checking out in this episode is crazy. Look at Dean checking out Cas. Look at his face! THE EYES (24:08) ICWA- OH COME ON DO I HAVE TO POINT THAT OUT?!

"Did you not trust me?" "Dean..." "I did everything I could to get you out. Everything! ... I did not leave you." "... So you think this was your fault?" OH MY GOD SO FUCKING #MARRIED LOOK AT CAS' EYES (28:06) ICWA- I'm not even trying anymore

So many soft shoulder touches (34:42) also HOT SCENE I don't know why "I'm going in." "Cas, no. You're not strong enough." (35:15) precious babies

"You could've gotten yourself killed. Why didn't you wait for me?" "Well, I didn't get killed, and it worked." "And if it didn't?!" "It would have been my problem." "Well, it's not the way I see it!" (37:36) #MARRIED they're SO MARRIED

Dean keeps blaming himself for Cas not getting out "I don't need to feel like hell for failing you like I've failed every other godforsaken thing I care about." SEE??! (38:16) Dean preferred believing he had let Cas down, something he is used to, than he had sacrified himself for him (38:48). Dean can't believe Cas thought he deserved to stay in Purgatory. Also THE WAY THEY'RE LOOKING AT EACH OTHER (39:38) And Dean's deeply hurt by the fact that Cas would leave him to safety and remain in Purgatory as self punishment for what Dean had painted as all Cas' fault. And he is full of regret (41:30)

Episode 8:

[How fucking cute is it that Cas wants to become a hunter. I'M SQUEELING]

They are so #MARRIED my heart ACHES (5:02) and the way Dean looks at Cas is so fucking SOFT. And 6 seconds of just staring and... well, Cas in general (5:13)

"What? I was being bad cop." "No, you were being bad everything!" (9:12) #MARRIED (12:04) I'm dying, they're so cute

"I don't sleep." "Okay, well, I need my 4 hours, so-" "I'll watch over you *puppy eyes*" (12:52)

"Hey, can you lift this?" sure, Dean, every excuse is valid to have Cas be hot by effortlessly moving an anvil. And see how Cas looks at Dean, like "Really? You even had to ask? I'll fucking show you I can lift this shit". Look at how he looks back side-eyes at Dean here (14:16), like he's making sure Dean is watching him being hot. I'm dead

This is such a fucking sweet moment [I mean, kinda looked like the begging of a porn at first] (16:01). Dean can sense Cas is not okay, and gets him to open up about his feelings. And when Cas admits being suicidal, Dean is speechless, not even being able to imagine such an outcome. Anyway, it is so fucking sweet that they're always able to show themselves vulnerable to each other

Shut up. Look at this scene (18:51-18:53). Mute the video and just look. This is Sam marrying Cas and Dean. PERIODT.

"You're so pretty, Charles. [...] You were quite the bounder." DEAN'S FACE (20:27) He's so in love, and immediately after he LICKS HIS LIPS

While Sam talks about running away from your problems (referring to Amelia), and having to wake up in order not to destroy everything, the pan focuses on Cas (35:33) Subtext, gentlethem, subtext. CAS, FACE YOUR FEELINGS. SOON

Dean's face when Cas says he's not coming back with them (38:16-39:21)

Episode 10:

I now this scene is supposed to be funny, but the way Cas looks at Dean AAAWWW (6:53-7:01) Also do you really have to walk so close to Cas, Dean? Do you? While CHECKING HIM OUT nonetheless?! (7:54)

Remember when in 7x01 Dean was totally comfortable watching porn in front of his brother? Well, Dean goes on and on about Cas being a "brother", but his fucking reaction to Cas being in the same room as him with porn on his computer, is BY FAR the same he has with Sam, hell he even keeps watching with Sam! (8:05) Is it because the last time he, porn and Cas were in the same room, Cas popped a BONER?

Random guy @ Dean: "Are you serious?" Cas: "*leans in to look at Dean* That's his serious face, yes." And Dean's reaction (12:59) SO FUCKING #MARRIED

Dean, that's not the way you look at a friend, or a BROTHER (13:38)

LOOK!! I swear to GOD ICWAW that would be seen as nothing other than CHECKING OUT YOUR CRUSH

"Hey, how about we say, if this doesn't pan out, we had back to that beer and bacon happy hour a mile back, huh?" Translation: "Since I'm starting to realize I might feel something more for you, let me take you on what is totally not a date unless you want it to be" (16:58)

(24:02) #MARRIED

Dean, will you stop checking out Cas during missions? (25:06) Same goes for you, Cas, don't check if your husband's got a boner for you being the hero here (25:08)

Since the start of this season, we've been getting parallels between Sam & Amelia and Dean & Cas. The flashbacks, the guilt for leaving the other half behind, and now Dean tells Sam he's jealous he got a chance at being happy with Amelia (37:32)!!! I MEAN- and fuck my life when I tell you there are parallels with the whole Sam-Amelia-Don & Cas-Dean-Benny thing. I'M TELLING YOU

Episode 11:

"Trust me, this life... you can't afford attachments. You just gotta... let go." "... Are we still talking about Sam, or did you break up with someone too?" (21:17) CHARLIE KNOWS. TELL HIM CHARLIE

Episode 13:

Bitch... Dean's reaction to getting publicly hit on by a dude, so not the one a straight guy, confident in his sexuality and masculinity, "no-homo bro" would have (15:36). Just saying, we have seen Dean turn down what he thought were avances, and other implications regarding his sexuality, with either sarcasm/humor or anger... this is new. Progress?! [Wait till we get to 15x7]

Episode 16:

[Keep in mind how Dean's bedroom looks. Trust me]

Episode 17: OOOOHHH BOI

Cas has been tortured, mind-fucked, obligated to kill fake Deans over 1K times, in order to be ready to kill the real one. Let that sink in

Dean prayed to Cas, I'm sure almost every night, and can already sense something is not right with him ever since he came back from Purgatory (11:31), but when Sam questions his prayers to Cas, Dean doesn't know how to respond. Like, what, do I need a reason to try and contact my crush?

"There has to be another way. [...] This isn't right! [...] I won't hurt Dean!" (29:51-31:00) "Cas, fight this! This is not you! FIGHT IT!" and he does. Cas fights it. [and as soon as Cas starts fighting back, Heaven tints with BI COLOURS! LOOK AT THEM WINDOW THINGY (31:16) OF ALL COLOURS]

Dean is on the verge of tears, kneeling in front of Cas, telling him "This isn't you!", and to fight. He is pleading. And by the end, bloody, hopeless, "Cas... it's me! We're family. We need you... I need you." and Cas stops. (33:13)

Cas breaks the connection Naomi had installed in him. Once again, when presented with the choice, he chooses Dean over Heaven. All of this because Dean needed him. And let's not forget Dean was originally ment to say "I love you.", and that would've been the reason Cas snapped out of the control. I MEAN ICWAW THIS WOULD FUCKING BE CANON

Dean, thinking Cas is going to kill him, clutches onto the coat's sleeve for dear life, to the memory of his Cas (34:21) KILL ME

"What broke the connection?" The look in Cas' eyes... "I don't know." OH YES YOU DO (36:15) and Dean's face when Cas says he needs to protect the angel tablet. Dean knows he's gonna leave again (36:23). ICWAW, this whole scene would be the UMPTEENTH CONFESSION

Episode 18:

"I'm fine. Are you okay?" "Me?" "Yeah. Cass dinged you up pretty good." "... and?" "And I just wanted to make sure you're okay." "...What, like, my feelings?!" "If that's what you wanna talk about, sure." Dean gets pissy pretty easily when talking about Cas, who left once again, and his feelings. Also, Sam knows, and he ships it. He's president of the Destiel Company (4:02)

Episode 19:

The thing with the Deanny relationship is: Dean is naturally affectionate towards Sam, and he expresses the same towards Benny. His relationship with the both of them is very very similar, while see Dean showing affection towards Cas [same as he does with Sam] only during extreme emotional moments. Dean is known for repressing his feelings, and having a tendency to maintaining a "macho" exterior. He shows himself vulnerable in front of Cas, but not enough for him to think less of Dean. So, think about it

Episode 20:

Charlie, a lesbian, who has only ever heard of Castiel through Dean, describes him as seeming "dreamy" while talking to Dean... GAYDAR ANYONE??!!! (9:16)

Episode 21:

"In the words of a good friend... 'bite me'." Cas is quoting Dean, and if I remember correctly, Dean will quote Cas' "ass-butt" later on (16:"10)

Episode 22:

I hate when Dean treats Cas poorly, badly, because he can't deal with his feelings. In the heat of the moment, Dean is always forgiving, helpful and caring, but as soon As things cool down, he goes back to being cold, bitchy and snappy, like nothing ever happened. Repressed mother fucker

The small flash of hurt on Cas' face when Dean ignores his "Good morning" (3:33) fighting coupleTM. "Dean, I can go with you. *is ignored* Dean... I'm sorry. [LOOK AT THAT FACE]" "For what?" "For everything." "Everything? Like ignoring us?" #MARRIED

Cas is buying porn, beer and pie to make amends to Dean. "Where's the pie?" "I think we're out." "*grabs store clerk* You don't understand. I need pie!" (14:50) they are so fucking #MARRIED

Episode 23:

This is such a sweet moment. Cas is about to close the doors to his old home behind himself forever, while risking getting killed by his own kind, and Dean is worried about him. They are sharing drinks while longingly staring into each other's eyes. This is so sweet. Also, Dean warned Sam he might not be coming back. Why? Cuz he would probably die while trying to protect Cas from other angels. To them, they are probably spending their last moments together, while looking at each other like THAT (22:38) And 5 seconds of STARES (23:10)

In love. Fucking fools in love, that's what they are.

This is so stupid but they have just witnessed a cupid matching up two dudes, after all of the above⬆️ (23:53) AND IT'S JUST FUNNY!! Dean is stunned and all, while Cas is complitely fine and professional (24:04-24:17-24:21) DEAN'S FACE

"Talk first, stab later." (26:21) Cas is like "Bitch, you talking? That was our first date!" #MARRIED

[I'll just leave this here (37:00)]

Now shit's getting real

[Season 9>>]

[thefableddestiel]

How did you expect me to react when I remembered how Castiel (newly human and vulnerable and confused) openly told Dean he enjoys talking to and spending time with him and thinks he gets to do that all the time now, only to be immediately told by dean he can’t stay in the bunker???

Did you think I’d be normal about it? Do you even hear yourself rn??

[frecklesandfeathers]

Destiel in Season 7

Many people complained that S7 didn’t have enough Cas (true) and not enough Destiel. But I found the Destiel moments in S7 so profound and powerful, it has become some of my favorite moments between them.

First we have the fact that Dean kept Castiel’s coat after he assumed he died in the reservoir. He kept it all season long, in the trunk of whatever “borrowed” car he happened to be driving. This was a very sentimental gesture.

Then we see Dean fall into a depression. He’s drinking heavily and having nightmares about seeing Cas die. This is tearing him up. (we see this again in S8) 

And by the power of God (and Bobby) Dean finds Cas again, although he has no memory of who he is or what he’s done. But look at this… the tears in Dean’s eyes, the utter shock on his face. His Castiel is alive and I could almost hear his heart thumping in this scene. Let’s also be aware of how quickly Cas trusted Dean, to even leave with him. There was obviously an inner recognition and feeling of love. (watch the car scene when Cas is telling him about “marriage”, it’s very interesting.) 

Then Cas gets his memory back. What is the main thing he sees in his head? Dean. Other than the memory of breaking Sam’s wall, it was all Dean. It will always be Dean. This was so significant. SO SO IMPORTANT!! We have already learned in Seasons 4 and 5 that everything Cas has done, was for Dean. He states it in many episodes. He doesn’t say humanity, or YOU GUYS, We are also reminded of this in Season 6, in Man Who Would Be King, in the very end, Cas makes it clear to Dean that “ I’m doing this for you, Dean. I’m doing this because of you” and so, that is why this scene in S7 is reminding us that, yeah, Dean is everything to Cas. Everything.

Then, we see Dean chasing after Cas, and the dialog to me is… WOW. Dean now defends Cas by saying “ If you remember, then you know you did the best you could at the time.” and here, even though you know Dean is still hurt by what had happened, he’s trying to make Cas feel better about it. In a way, I feel Dean was trying to convince himself here too. The sad part about this all is, Cas is so full of guilt, he questions why he even left the river. He says, “ I deserved to die. Now, I can’t possibly fix it… So why did I even walk out of that river? “ and Dean refuses to give up. He tells him that maybe it was to fix it, and hands him back his coat. This scene was so important to the Destiel story arc. It shows us how Dean will always fight for Cas and their friendship and that Dean doesn’t want his friend to be down and hopeless. He wants to pick him up, make him feel better, give him something to fight for. That’s why he hands him the coat, as if saying, “You’re Cas. Not this Emmanuel guy. You’re the angel who pulled me out of hell. You’re the angel who fights for what’s right. So you messed up, we all do. Now it’s time to fix it.” Dean won’t give up on Cas and that really melts my heart. 

After Cas takes on Sam’s crazy, he wakes up from his coma. Cas and Dean have a VERY touching conversation. Dean is frustrated but he’s also trying to get an apology from Cas. Dean is still hurt, he wants his angel to be normal again and on his side. Castiel struggles but you can clearly see that he’s aware of the love between them. He feels it and he relishes in it. He may have not been able to express how deeply sorry he was (other than holding up the “sorry” game, which I found adorable, btw,)and his “do you want to go first” which to me, was his way of saying, “I think we both have something to be sorry for” Anyhoo, this scene moved me so much and there is a moment, (in this pic) when Cas just smiles at Dean and says “it took everything to get me here” and it’s out of nowhere and Dean is all “what are you talking about?” Since Castiel was a new level of crazy, he pointed out to Sam once they were back at the cabin that, “Now I more see… well, everything. ” and his comment about the path the bees took in the flowers, My headcanon is, he also saw his path with Dean. I think he saw it all so clearly, right then and there, that Dean is in fact his true love and one day, someday, they will be together. The comment about taking everything to get him there, I think was how it took something like taking Sam’s burdens to get him to see the truth about what he and Dean ultimately mean to each other.  

That brings us to Hester. She tells Dean, “When Castiel first laid a hand on you in Hell, he was lost!” Well, some can say that it’s up for interpretation but to me, it’s obvious. Castiel was considered lost the MINUTE he touched Dean but to me, Cas fell in love at that very moment and probably had no idea what was happening to him. (It was like when I first laid eyes on my now husband. I knew he was the ONE and from that moment, nothing was the same.) Angels considered it being “lost” but we all know he was “Found” 

Then of course we have this scene. The very famous “I’d rather have you, cursed or not” quote from Dean to Castiel. Was this telling of how much Dean loves Cas? Yes. Was Cas now seeing how much Dean unconditionally loves him? Yes. While some speculate that they had made up in the hospital, I think this is truly where they “got back together” (s6 is when they broke up). Cas detects a note of forgiveness from Dean and Dean gets a little shy about it. Why? Because it was so much more than just forgiving him. Dean had forgiven him the moment he picked up his coat from the water. Sure, he was sad, upset, pissed even at his angel, but Dean’s love for him would always trump anything else. We see how they fight like a married couple. They bicker, they argue, they unintentionally hurt each other, but in the end, they forgive. What Dean wasn’t saying in this scene was “I love you Cas and even though you make some of the stupidest choices in the world, you’re my angel and I’d be a fool not to want you by my side for eternity” and I think, regardless of what words Dean said or didn’t. that was what Castiel heard. The Cursed or Not quote is just as powerful and proves that no matter what state of mind Castiel is in, he wants him. 

Anyway, those are my thoughts about the Destiel stuff in Season 7. Sure, I wish there could have been more Castiel episodes, but these few he was in with Dean, hit me in my Destiel beating heart. :-) <3 

[strawlessandbraless]

I remember watching Supernatural for the first time and feeling bad for sexualizing Castiel because he’s an angel and also my best friend

And then all at once I understood why Dean Winchester is the way he is. And it made the line ‘the very touch of you corrupts’ hit so hard. Just look at how both Dean and Cas react here…

If they had only loved themselves as much as they loved each other

[valdelion]

they had to kill off Charlie because they realized having a lesbian best friend was going to be too liberating for Dean. If charlie was there in season 11 or 12 when Cas hangs out in the bunker and Dean is asking gay hunters what it's like to settle down and he's making him a mixtape, she would've smacked him over the head

[llendemain]

destiel fic recs pt.8

am i okay? no

haha. you're welcome

part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5 | part 6 | part 7

too much (2k, m) dean and his "too much love"

the thing with the donuts (2k, g, au) gas-n-sip!cas and doctor!dean

behind glass (21k, t, au) oh! semi-canon fairytale fic, with hunter dean and... something else cas. read it.

mermen and mistletoe (6k, t, au) sweet christmas office romance

yellow moon (11k, m, au) another semi-canon au. hunter!dean and cas, who hasn't said a word for three years

25¢ pocket guardian angels (13k, t, au) "dean walks into his local bank one day and notices that someone has filled the old gumball machine with these tiny, wiggling, sentient angels in individual plastic packaging". this is TOO cute, guys

home is where (15k, e, au) asperger!cas

kingdom come (17k, e) 15.18 fix-it. cas wakes up on the coast of maine

someone new (2k, g) they're stuck without gas in the middle of nowhere and they finally talk

plain and tall (69k, e, au) this story!! i miss it everyday since i've finished it. post civil war historical au, dean is a farmer with an infant daughter, cas is a lonely drifter. it's written so well!!!

apartment 15 (32k, t, au) neighbors au with a lot of pining and miscommunication

the beams of our house are cedar, our rafters are pine (7k, t) and bloody, but unbowed (9k, t) stanford era au, where cas is a human and dean never goes to sam when john's missing. nice character study.

shattered (445, t) cas tells dean he loves him in every language. yes in his true voice too

the least bad option (43k, m) fake relationship case fic in a tropical setting!

body and soul (7k, e) bodyswap curse! yay

love bade me welcome (23k, e, au) dean and cas are married, but it's not like that. yep.

it's not heaven (7k, g) cas has a garden. and issues.

broken road (109k, m) i rarely read wip, but this one!!! i couldn't take a minute to breathe. so intense. THEE lebanon rewrite. completed now, btw, so go read it.

sinnerman (10k, m) dean learns how to speak to women respectfully

kind of a forever deal (111k, e, au) yay! summer camp! angsty sometimes, but actually very sweet

what has eight tentacles and isn't allowed to eat pie? (16k, t) iconic fic. dean gets turned into an octopus, very fluffy fic, but at the same time very profound! dean's thought about cas at the end made me go fucking feral (you'll know what i'm talking about). just, wow.

there are many things (28k, e) i adore s9 cas fics! this is one of the best. and it's cas' pov!!

too many lovers (not enough love) (6k, e) oh i love deancas and their intricate rituals

my heart is beating from me (55k, m) another s9 fic, very clever way to explain daphne's story (a plot that spn couldn't handle)

checked out (27k, g, au) oh how much i love library aus! and librarian cas!

an exercise in 'worthless' (26k, m, au) oh dean and his self-esteem issues 🥲 this fic is amazing! tattoo artist dean and grad student cas

[valdelion]

Fic rec for @sicksicksixx, thought I'd post since folks were looking at the tag!

Destiel fix-it fics S9-13:

any port in a storm by microcomets: picks up right after the ending of S8 when Cas falls. Case fic that turns into plot fix. Gorgeous writing, with one of the most original scenes I've seen in fics. The SPN writers wish

Don't Swing That Way by stonelions: technically not a fix-it, but an insertion in the fanfic gap of 9x8 Heaven Can Wait. Heart-wrenching deep dive into Dean's mind, with fantastic art to go with it

the cost of a thing by quiettewandering: Cas becomes human in S9, but he leaves the bunker. Fake dating but it's whumpy for most of it. Great storytelling, keeps you glued to the page to get to the reveal

In The Shadow Of Your Wings by Enochian Things (Salr323): ever wondered if S12 was actually good plot-wise? Ever wanted to see Cas actually listen to the advice "girl, stand up"? This fic's for you. Just fyi, Luca is my favorite SPN character, I don't care he's not canon

Our Old Heroes by AdelaClancy: "In which Amara doesn't bring back Mary, she brings back John Winchester." S12 fix-it. Y'all, what can I say about this. It rewrites episodes and adds between the lines. I'm 30% in because, blessedly, this thing is as long as War&Peace. And it's SO GOOD. We should kiss this author's feet every day. One of the very best understandings of John Winchester, and vulnerable, soft destiel that follows exactly what's on screen in S12

a turn of the earth by microcomets: end of S12 fix-it. It's got 500k hits for a reason, folks. I cried, and I'm not the same person as I was before

I left out post 15x18 fix-its bc that's a whole other league