michael ✌️

"there's never been a better time in history to be a loserrrr!!" ── ⟢ ・⸝⸝ read pinned for more info!

[michael-and-the-pinks]

"dude, you are cooler than a vintage cassette... it's just that nobody but me thinks that yet!"

hey! i'm michael! i'm a gay* transmasc, he/they pronouns. i'm personally somewhere around 17 years old, but the body is 20!

i'm a co-host and protector in the pinks system, a traumagenic complex dissociative disorder system! you can learn more about the rest of us there, as well as see our stances and "do not interact" policy!

regarding stances... our collective stance on endogenic systems is "we don't care"/neutral. this blog contains the most syscourse out of all of our blogs, however, i still "officially" identify as neutral. i simultaneously criticize and support opinions and ideas on both sides. all syscourse is tagged with "#tw syscourse" for your filtering convenience!

you can send me an ask! i will answer them as soon as i can. however, i may delete your ask if i don't feel comfortable with whatever was sent!

i'm a fictive of michael mell from be more chill. i am okay with talking about source, but please don't be parasocial about it!

*psst -- i'm taken! check out my in-sys partner's blog!

-> tags

#player one: michael -> any original post by me!

#creeper in the bathroom -> any original vent post. i tag triggers with #tw trigger as much as i remember to. send an ask if i missed something!

#michael in the system -> any system-related post.

#my system romance -> any post (reblog or original) related to my in sys partner, connor!

#michael's playlist -> any music-related post.

#michael likes this -> any interest post, reblog or original!

#be more michael -> any source-related post, or anything about being a fictive in general!

#i wanna queue with somebody! -> anything from the queue, most reblogs and some originals!

lyrics -> two player game (song)

red mtn dew divider -> this post

bmc gif -> this post

cherry divider -> this post

game over divider -> this post

spotify divider -> made by me

[the-ribombee-constellation]

Hello everyone, Before I head into the details of this blog post, I want to first and foremost make clear that this was not an easy decisio

AWFUL NEWS SIMPLY PLURAL USERS

Anyway does anysys know good alternatives to simply plural? Other than pluralkit. Something with a fronting tracker/space to describe headmates like custom fields etc would be best. We're looking at Lighthouse & Octocon right now

Ughhhh whyyyyyy

EDIT: LIGHTHOUSE HAS ALSO BEEN RETIRED. BROOOO WHYYYYY

[mildly-inconvenient-plur-is]

important things. -Anon

[michael-and-the-pinks]

important to note that apparently they are discontinuing development, aka no more new features, bug fixes, etc. this is actually a fairly common outcome for small indie apps/software, especially free apps, unfortunately.

according to the post linked, the app will remain downloadable and usable, and they will continue to maintain the servers "for the foreseeable future."

so those who use it can continue using it for now, at least until they stop maintaining the servers. just probably... download & keep records that you need and don't have elsewhere.

[questioning-comics]

Not now, kitten, Daddy has realized he may be multiple Daddies

[crippled-peeper]

if you polled the average trans person in the real world and you asked them if they thought trans men were, by nature of being men, inherently misogynistic predatory incels, their response would probably be “what the fuck are you talking about?” and “are you, like, okay?”

[michael-and-the-pinks]

what food gives you gender euphoria to eat i'll go first eating bone in wings makes me feel like a man

[michael-and-the-pinks]

you guys really really need to learn how to tag your syscourse posts appropriately so those of us who filter that shit don't have to see it.

[mentoillnessposting]

I think a lot of people tend to think that blackout amnesia is super obvious, and that the experience is like cutting from one movie scene to another and being completely disoriented.

Blackout amnesia can be very deceptive, especially if you've had it nearly your entire life, because your brain starts getting really good at coping with it in basically any way it can. My brain often does this thing where I can remember remembering an event, but when I actually try to think about the event, I realise I don't actually know what happened. But the thing with memories is you're not constantly re-reviewing them to make sure you actually remember every single one- it was only when I started asking other people what happened during these events that I realised how little I truly remembered.

Coming to the front isn't always super obvious, because if we end up somewhere, it's fairly easy to orient ourselves just from virtue of having to do it all the time. You can get very good at spotting what type of building you're in, the people you're with, and how you most likely got there. The vast majority of the time, we're in places where we go to a lot anyways, so questions like "Where am I? Who am I with? How did I get here?" aren't even questions that would pop up. It can make it feel very much like you had a consistent string of memories, even if you really didn't. If you're wearing clothes you know you own, you'll probably think "Oh, I changed and forgot" or if you end up with food you like, you'll probably think "Oh, I must have gotten food and forgotten." It's natural to conclude normal forgetfulness over blackout amnesia.

Blackout amnesia isn't always as simple as ending up somewhere you don't recognize. It's not always as simple as ending up with things you don't own. Spotting blackout amnesia is extremely difficult- it's not as simple as just knowing what blackout amnesia is, but spotting the ways your brain has coped with it and what you could be missing these gaps. This isn't to say I've never been disoriented by my memory gaps. My memory gaps were pointed out by other people and had been aware of them long before I knew I had DID, but I had no idea I had blackout amnesia until I started looking more at what was going on. It can be easy to miss!

[pixopix]

would you maybe please do a recolor of the pixel hearts set in reds/dark reds?

This is quite a popular request! Two anons along with @starr-jazz also asked for these, so here you all go (:

Please credit @pixopix, likes and reblogs are appreciated!

Check out the other colors of this set, send asks for recolors! Hex codes are helpful!

[michael-and-the-pinks]

sad part about dissociative amnesia from childhood trauma: trying my hardest to keep the memories of my childhood dog, because he didn't witness and live through all my trauma with me just for me to turn around and forget everything i loved about him.

[michael-and-the-pinks]

we've made a bet in-sys for which of our current fav ships will be the highest on the tumblr ship week chart! (compared to each other, not betting for the highest overall)

my bet: hollanov (heated rivalry)

stella's bet: phan (youtubers dan and phil)

vi's bet: caitvi (arcane) (lame as hell lol no way she's gonna win with this bet)

honorable mention/my second bet: hucklerobby (the pitt)

the reward for whoever gets it right is choosing dinner on friday, when the top 20 list comes out.

hollanov wins raising canes, phan wins crumbl cookies (not technically dinner but whatev thats what stella wants), caitvi wins buffalo wild wings, and hucklerobby wins a cheeseburger.

(and ideally whoever's bet wins gets to front to eat dinner but we can't always control that so this is more for fun!)

[michael-and-the-pinks]

update: hucklerobby is OUT as of tuesday! (#76)

[michael-and-the-pinks]

final update!

stella has WON!!! phan ranked #4 in 2025!!

my hollanov guess was VERY CLOSE at #6 and it looks like caitvi didn't even make the charts LMAO sorry vi better luck next time

EDIT: caitvi did make the chart at like #5 i just can't read i guess

[michael-and-the-pinks]

i'm convinced that queer people just compliment any dyed hair as a flagging(?) technique even when it doesn't look good because i have like, greenish hair that's actually washed out arctic fox black and i'm disabled with no shower support so it gets washed like, maybe every 6-8 weeks and yet... i get compliments on it by other queer people so much, even though it Looks like it hasn't been washed 😭😭

[roconize]

Today I woke up at 2 AM. Instead of falling back asleep my brain decided to conjure up these images which haunted my mind palace until properly expelled

[michael-and-the-pinks]

"but what if--"

i don't care! i don't care! i don't care! i don't care! i don't care! i don't care! i don't care! i don't care! i don't care! i don't care! i don't care! i don't care! i don't care! i don't care! i don't care! i don't care! i don't care!

[michael-and-the-pinks]

we've made a bet in-sys for which of our current fav ships will be the highest on the tumblr ship week chart! (compared to each other, not betting for the highest overall)

my bet: hollanov (heated rivalry)

stella's bet: phan (youtubers dan and phil)

vi's bet: caitvi (arcane) (lame as hell lol no way she's gonna win with this bet)

honorable mention/my second bet: hucklerobby (the pitt)

the reward for whoever gets it right is choosing dinner on friday, when the top 20 list comes out.

hollanov wins raising canes, phan wins crumbl cookies (not technically dinner but whatev thats what stella wants), caitvi wins buffalo wild wings, and hucklerobby wins a cheeseburger.

(and ideally whoever's bet wins gets to front to eat dinner but we can't always control that so this is more for fun!)

[michael-and-the-pinks]

update: hucklerobby is OUT as of tuesday! (#76)

[hungry-hobbits]

not to screenshot a twitter post but please look at this animal

"is that ok . "

[g0thddiab]

BEST HALFTIME SHOW OF THE DECADE.

[savannahcore27]