repeat victim of 2am ennui

evil on account of The Curse they/them 28

[sufjansjoy]

i can no longer tolerate the fallibility of language. let's all punch each other in the head

[swagophile]

btw, as sincerely as possible, if i ever make any of you upset or angry or offend you in any way or make you uncomfortable, I Do Not Give A Fuck. Fuck You. this is my fucking tumblr blog on the internet website. if you don't like my posts you can just not look at them. Fuck you. I do what I want

[swagophile]

"its important to be held accountable for the things you sa-" No it's not. It literally doesn't matter. Nothing I post matters at all actually. I'm not a celebrity. I'm not an important person. I'm a woman with a part time job who lives in a slumlord apartment and eats frozen food for most meals. Like I do not matter. You do not need to care if i say something that makes you mad. I wield almost no power except for the power you choose to give me by following my posts and thinking i'm "smart" or "funny" I am not a famous person. I am a fucking stranger

[swagophile]

okay and like, let me just say something here. okay. let me use my soapbox. i know a lot is said on this and other similar websites about "leveraging your influence" and "using your platform responsibly" but like. okay so this may be controversial but. but like no. i should not be expected to act like a public figure because people online (AGAINST MY WILL) decided i was someone worth following and looking up to and thinking fondly of. if people sre treating me like a famous person or a public figure or a Personality Or Influencer, the problem is not with me for Not Using That Power Responsibly its with them for treating me like that!!! i am not a famous person! i shouldnt need to be held up to the standards of much else other than "girl talking to her friends she likes" because i'm not trying to be anything else. i never asked for any of this. all i ever wanted was to post for my friends. why is everyone so fucking weird on the internet now

[whoopsie-collective]

okay so in response the media preception of ocd being funny cleaning disorder lots of folk on tumblr talk about moral ocd

but lots of folk on tumblr only talk about moral ocd, so now we have the reverse problem where people think ocd is the moral dilemma disorder, and i'll see folk say that intrusive thoughs are always about morally reprehensible things

so reminder that ocd don't necessarily have anything to to with morally, and intrusive thoughts can be about anything, the only criteria is that they are distressing to you and uncontrollable

[stringcage]

Years of personal growth can be unraveled in 2 days at your parents house

[fairycosmos]

i really wish we could all just stop this weird facade that mental health is taken seriously just because there might be more conversation about depression than there was 20 years ago. as soon as you’re unable to work or maintain relationships or mask effectively enough you might as well be a joke. even to people who say they understand it

[kosmogrl]

[cipheramnesia]

I know everything is shit fucked sixteen ways before lunch time, but it remains a fact that you should not trust anyone who wants you to feel like the whole world hates you all the time. That's a person trying to sell you something, swallow you whole, or bleed you dry. Especially those times when it feels like they're right.

No one wants anything good from you who wants you always feeling scared and hated. They will wear you out and leave you in the bin the second fashions change. Things are extremely high levels of fucked, but you are not hated like that. It's scary and isolating but you are not alone like that. Worst case, come and shiver like a wet dog with me, I won't say anything and we can dry out.

[yellowpoet]

The best advice really is to just write. Write badly - purple prose, stilted conversations, rambling descriptions. Don't delete it, pass go, take your $200, save all your garbage in a big folder. Look at how much you've made - it doesn't matter if it isn't perfect, isn't polished, it was practice. Every time you write you learn a little more, and find another piece of your voice.

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

Shout out to the phrase “I’m going to become the joker” for capturing a very specific and real emotion

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

Shout out to Portuguese for verbing this!!

[redstonedust]

sometimes it feels like being nonbinary is about having to decide which way you'd prefer to be misgendered.

[lakevida]

that tweet thats like im not allowed to believe in the power of manifestation because i have OCD but best of luck to you all

[liquidstar]

ocd is so weird bc its completely belittled and infantilized on the surface level (aka the stereotype- what people think ocd is like) but then the reality of it, the actual symptoms, are completely demonized once you get into them and people see you as evil just for having this mental illness in a non quirky way like they assumed its like. and then at the same time its not taken seriously at all and all the symptoms are handwaved as not that deep because how could you be so upset about something so dumb lol just dont do the compulsion its easy. why dont you hashtag let the intrusive thoughts win and shut the fuck up

[punkitt-is-here]

see great benefit of hanging out with trans dudes is you can hit em with the "hell yeah brother" when you agree and everyone gains a sort of +1 stat bonus from it

[meraarts]

see great benefit of hanging out with trans women is you can hit em with the “girl” when you’re about to spill some crazy tea and everyone gains a sort of +1 stat bonus from it

[erotomanicpixiedreamgirl]

how to be gentle with yourself when you have the curse

[kata4a]

try not to imply that vegetables can have redemptive relationships with god???

[hypersensationalism]

how did it take this long for a sane person to enter hollywood

[dogpuppy]